Chapter 4:
I awoke the next morning, still thinking about Daddy. What could he have done that was so bad? He hurt the Muggle boys who hurt you. The new voice in my head told me. So it was all my fault that man took Daddy. "I'm never using magic again." I told myself. "Never." It just gets people in trouble. I mean, that's all it's ever done for me.
Ariana…it's your fault. Your father is going to jail-Azkaban-because of you.
"Shut up!" I yelled, covering my ears-trying to block the voice out. I curled up into a ball on my bed.
"Ariana?" Abe asked, rapping on my door.
"Go away!" I yelled at him.
He came in anyways. "Are you okay?" he asked, hugging me.
I shook my head.
"I heard you screaming. Do you want to talk about it?"
"Ever since the day those Muggles hurt me, I-I've been hearing these voices in my head."
"What do they say?"
"They tell me everything's my fault. They're right, Abe! They're right!"
"No they aren't," he told me, squeezing me. "None of it's your fault."
"I don't want to use magic ever again. All it ever does it end up hurting someone."
"I'd like to say you're wrong there, but you're right."
I nodded, unable to speak.
"It's your choice, Ariana. I'll be behind you, no matter what you decide."
"Abe?"
"Yes?"
"Did I ever tell you that you're my favorite?"
Abe smiled. "You didn't, but I'm glad you did.
I grinned.
"We'll tell Mum together."
I smiled wider, glad I didn't have to tell Mum alone. "Thank you," I told him, grateful he was my older brother.
"Mum?" I asked as we reached the kitchen, the aroma from her cooking breakfast filling my nostrils.
"Yes, Ariana?"
"I thought about it…I don't want to go to Hogwarts. I'm not learning how to use magic. I'll be a Squib. Then no one would hurt me."
"It's not that easy, Ariana," Mummy told me.
"Of course it is. I just won't use magic-it's that simple."
"Ariana-"
"I won't use it!" I yelled, then, suddenly, some plates flew across the room and shattered against the opposite wall.
Mummy sighed, and eventually gave in.
Sorry, it's short, I know. Please Review, I've been busy and have a dance coming up soon along with my band recital
