Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight
This
may never start
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory
Lost
your sense of fear
Feelings insincere
Can I be your memory?
So get
back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I
could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the
disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the
same.
-Sugarcult (Memory)
Chapter 3
BPOV
I threw myself onto the bed, and stared unhappily at Edward, who was pacing the room. His expression was confused, shocked, and a little hurt.
"Edward, what are you thinking?" I asked softly.
He was next to me on the bed immediately. He took my hands in his and stared into my face. His topaz eyes were penetrating. I looked away.
"Bella," Edward said as he lifted my face up. "Do you really want to go to Ithaca?"
I gulped and nodded. Edward sighed.
"Are you prepared to visit your past?" Edward asked softly.
I nodded again, and Edward pulled me close to his chest. We stayed like that for a long time. We both jumped when a soft knock came from the hallway.
"Bella, Edward?" Alice's high voice asked.
"Yes, Alice?" I asked.
Alice danced into the room. "Can we go shopping? Please please please? Rosalie won't come with me. Esme won't come either because she and Carlisle are spending time together," Alice said as she winked. "Unless you and Edward were planning on doing something…?"
"No, no. I'll go shopping with you, Alice."
"Can I join in on the fun?" Edward asked a mischievous grin on his face.
Once at the mall, Alice dragged me to various stores and threw endless amounts of clothes at me. Edward just hung back, watching with obvious glee as Alice threw some lingerie at me.
"Alice!" I groaned. "You're not going to make me buy this stuff?!"
Edward laughed quietly. I turned and glared at him. My murderous look stopped his chuckle short. I shoved all the bras and underwear at him.
"You buy it then!" I said quietly.
Edward paled, but nodded. He walked up to the cashier, who happened to be a girl, and set everything on the counter. The girl stared at Edward curiously, and Edward looked away, his face embarrassed. The cashier scanned a bra, and then frowned. She typed something on the computer next to her, and frowned again. I knew what she was going to do. A huge smiled played around my lips as the cashier put her mouth near the microphone. I looked over at Alice and found she was enjoying this as much as I was.
"Georgie! Do you know the price for the size C32 Ipex Bra?" The cashier said in a nasal voice.
Edward's eyes grew huge. Alice doubled over with laughter. I grabbed her stone hand, and ran out of the store with her. We ran at human speed up the escalator and into the food court. We stood there, shaking with laughter. About ten minutes later, we saw Edward walk furiously toward us, a large Victoria's Secret bag in his hand. Many a curious stranger turned to stare at him. He jogged out to where were. He shoved the bags into my hands.
"You owe me," He suggested playfully as he eyed the bags with interest.
"What!? You're going to rape me?!?!" I shrieked.
Alice fell to the floor in laughter. Edward's shocked expression drove me over the edge. I joined Alice on the floor. Edward looked at us, sighed, rolled his eyes, and started to walk off to the parking lot.
The car ride home was hilarious for Alice and me, but annoying for Edward. Alice and I sat in the back seat still laughing our heads off. When we got home, I brought all the clothes upstairs, and dumped then into our closet. Edward tried unsuccessfully to get me into that bra that he had to buy. Edward chased me around the house for ten minutes before Alice and Rosalie helped me bring him down. All in all, it was a fairly nice day.
Four Months Later
I was so excited. We were leaving for Ithaca the next day. I had begged Carlisle to not tell Jacob that we were in Ithaca. Carlisle was against it, but he didn't object. My mood was always cheerful and nothing would make me sad. The night before we left, Edward and I went on a hunting trip. We raced each other and tried to hunt the same deer. It was really fun. After about two hours, we collapsed on the soft ground, laughing. I snuggled up into Edward's side, and he put his arm around me.
"I love you," Edward whispered.
"I love you, too" I whispered back.
We lay there for a few moments.
"Bella…"Edward trailed off. His voice wasn't suggestive. It was hesitant and unsure.
"What? Edward, you know that you can ask me anything," I murmured.
"Well…Bella, you know that we're going back to where..."Edward took a deep breathe before continuing. "To where your family is. Well, you do know that your child will probably alert Jacob of your presence…And Jacob won't be too happy about you being here. Bella, please understand that I have no aversion to you seeing your daughter. I'm just worried about an outburst from Jacob. And your daughter might have some werewolf in her…" Edward said in a cool voice. He didn't fool me. I knew how much this hurt him.
"Edward…You know I love you…But there are some things I haven't told you…"
Edward shifted his position so he was staring at my face.
"Tell me," He demanded.
"Well…Jacob told me a lot about werewolves. You know everything but this one fact I'm going to give you. Once a werewolf has a son, that son is destined to become a werewolf if any vampires are around. But, if the son's mother has no Quileute blood in her, the chances of the boy becoming a werewolf are less likely. But if the child is a girl, she will have no werewolf in her, Quileute mother or not."
Edward lay quiet again. I knew he had trouble discussing the daughter I had with Jacob. Esme was sad whenever the subject was discussed. She knew how it felt like to lose your child, but she could never sympathize with me completely. I had gotten to know my child; Esme never knew her son to well. If I could cry, a tear would be running down my face. Edward seemed to sense my distress. He wrapped an arm over me comfortingly over me and kissed my lips. For some strange reason, that kiss brought up painful memories.
My first kiss with Jacob.
When Jacob and I first slept together…
When I found out that I was pregnant.
Jacob's face when I told him that I was pregnant.
When we got married.
When Alice was born…
The last memory made me sob, and Edward pulled me closer.
"Shhh…don't cry, baby," He whispered as he kissed my hair.
He pulled me even closer, and we spent the night in each other's arms.
