((Ok I hope that you enjoyed Free for all. It was originally going to be called Free Fall because there was something I wanted to incorporate into it but I couldn't find the wording for it. I hope that you will like the new chapter! It is Sharpay centric. It mostly tells more about her. As always, R&R! I have to add a warning that is special to this chapter. I normally do this for my Cloverfield stories, but still this one needs it. Warning: Language.))
Chapter Four: Wild Spirit
Sharpay POV
Damn those people get me so fucking mad! I can't stand them sometimes! We use to be friends, Troy, Gabriella, Taylor, Chad and I. But ever since school started again things went sour. Why Mrs. Darbus Chose Gabriella over me for head of the drama club a have no idea! I mean I AM drama. I was happy that the Dream couple did break up and all and I was so happy that the top Prima-Girl and Primo-boy finally got together (me and Troy) but I mean damn! He dumped me… For my damn brother! My twin! Seriously! I mean how fucked up is that? And now to top it off he is living with us? What the hell? Of course on the other hand I can see where he is coming from. He lost his brother, one of my best friends. He got kicked out, due to his brother snitching on him. Wow I taught Alex well. But I mean, he could have moved in with Chad or Gabriella. Hell even Taylor. He might have been able to move in with the bitch known as Zeke. But he moved to Atlanta leaving the team, leaving the school, and leaving me. I loved him. And I know that he loved me.
But as always I went off on him when he dumped me. I always had an attitude problem but I can't help it. I just get so mad sometimes. Half of the time it's like I don't even know what I'm saying. I hate not having what I want! It just isn't fair! I mean hello, I do deserve everything that I get and I deserve everything that I want because I do suffer for the arts. I mean seriously I really work my ass off for the theatre and the arts. My body hurts just about all the time. I have to stay thin, stay perky, stay… stay perfect! It's just too much for one girl! That's another reason why I turned to all of the shit that I was doing.
The drugs, the cutting, the booze, everything. I couldn't take it. And then Zeke broke up with me. Wow. Can we say Sucky? Then trip one to Rehab. That one was during Spring Break. What a way to spend it huh? Strung out and going through rehab on one of the best times of the year. That time I went for Drugs and Drinking. The second time was during summer vacation. One of the other best times of the year. That time it was for Drinking, Drugs and cutting. The most unfabulous times of my life. The only part that was good about going was that I met new people. People who understand how I feel and everything. And some of them were going through the same things as me. Like Micka, She was sixteen and had already been through more stuff than me. She Drank, did just about every drug that there is, she cut, she got busted by the cops multiple times, fought with her family, drew a knife on her brother and almost killed her older sister. For some reason the two of us became best friends during our week stay there. And then on my second trip back, guess who I ran back into, Micka. This time it was GTA, depression and drinking. That time instead of being in separate rooms they put us together. It was awesome.
In one of the group meetings, she told us why she came back to Mount Kelon Rehab.
FLASHBACK
"My mom had put me back in here. I had stolen her car, went joy riding, and to top it off I went to a party. It was there that I started to drink again. I was twenty-one days sober. It was a couple of shots of Jose Creuvo. Then I made the mistake of mixing white with dark liquor. I had downed an entire bottle of Jack Daniels. I also had like six rounds of Jell-O shots, three bud lights, two Heinekens and one forty ounce of Smirnoff." She told us with a little grin.
"Micka, why are you smiling?" Francis, one of our counselors asked her.
"Because I found it amusing, I liked the feeling. I felt like I had no worries. It was amazing." She told us.
PRESENT
It was a couple of meetings later that she had told us finally why she had started drinking again.
FLASHBACK
"Micka, why don't you tell us what made you start to drink again? That way we can help you." Francis asked her finally.
"Well… I was depressed. I felt like the alcohol would make me feel better. But it didn't. It made me feel worse so I kept drinking trying to get rid of the pain and hurt. After a while it worked. But then a few hours later it returned. It was like I couldn't get away from it." She said teary eyed.
"What had happened Micka?" I asked her while trying to comfort her.
"I was raped by my uncle when I was eleven. It was horrible. I trusted him and everything. He- he stuck roofies in my drink when me and one of my friends were spending the night. We still have no clue what he put into Kelsie's drink. All I know is just that she wound up having a conversation with suitcases. The sad part was, was that they were talking back to her. After that I really didn't talk to my uncle much and last year we were watching the news and his picture came up on the screen. That morning he was arrested." She said crying as I put my arm around her.
"Its, Ok Micka." I told her trying to comfort her.
"No Sharpay, its not. It will never be alright. You have no fucking clue what I have been through." She practically yelled at me.
"Micka, watch your language. There are some little kids here." Francis told her noting Jena and Geri, the twin thirteen year olds there for drinking.
As we finally got her calmed down our day went back to normal. Six group meetings, lunch, therapy, dinner and then bed.
Present
As I sat on the stairs thinking I kept hearing Ryan singing upstairs. I only heard bits and pieces but I kept hearing the words "Walrus" and "Carpenter". My guess is that they are watching "Alice in Wonderland". As I walked up the stairs I just kept thinking about everything. My life the choices I made, Alex. Even though he was way younger than me I actually have to admit something. I was in love with Alex Bolton. Ok I know it's wrong. I was in love with my then boyfriends little brother. That's the thing though. I was in love with Troy's YOUNGER brother… not his twin. It was different. Wasn't it?
((I really hope that you enjoyed Wild Spirit! We learned a whole lot more about Sharpay. I didn't really mean for the Sharpay loves Alex thing. I just wrote what was coming out of my mind. As always R&R!))
