Wow, I'm actually updating! Sorry for the really long wait. I really don't have an excuse! Now that it's spring break hopefully I'll be updating more!
Lily cursed herself as she stormed out of the common room and to the Great Hall. What was wrong with her. There must be some type of problem. Maybe her mom had dropped her on her head when she was younger and damaged something. Or Petunia. She would have to write home and ask. But really? Toast food? James would probably never talk to her again. Not that she cared. I mean, she hated him, right? Lily had once read that there was a fine line between love and hate, and although she hadn't believed it at the time, now it didn't seem so crazy. He had smelled so good. Like pine trees and cinnamon and the grass right after it rained. Hmm, that didn't sound so good in her head. It actually sounded kinda gross but she was clinically insane so maybe she just liked the smell of weird things.
"Lily, wait!"
She turned around to see James running after her. Great, that was just what she needed now!
"Uh, I'm gonna go…to the bathroom," She said and started running in the other direction. Why was she running from him? Now, Lily felt pathetic and she couldn't even figure out why. It was just because she didn't like him. Right? Or was it because she did like him. And then before she could figure out why a waterfall of tears came pouring out of her eyes and she was full out sobbing. If she could just make it the bathroom she could figure out what was going on, but the tears were blurring her vision. Finally, Lily just gave up and sank down behind a tapestry. She just sat their crying her eyes out and the worst part was that she honestly just didn't know why. After about ten minutes she heard footsteps and tried to be silent, but her breath just kept coming out in shaky breaths. The footsteps stopped just outside her hiding spot and a moment later someone tentatively stuck their head inside.
"Black, I know that this is the perfect time for you to make my life miserable but please, for once, just leave me alone," Lily said when she Black's ruffled hair. She held his unreadable gaze for a moment but soon the tears came leaking back out and the sobs were breaking through. She buried her head in her hands again and prayed for him to leave so she could be miserably in peace. After a few moments of silence she assumed he was gone. She resumed her sobbing in peace, but then she felt an arm go around her shoulder and against her better judgement, she leaned into the warmth and comfort. Another arm began to stroke her hair in slow, methodic motions. Five minutes later Lily finally stopped crying and took her head out of her hands. Even though she knew it had to have been him she was still surprised to see Black staring at her.
"Why were you crying?" He immediately asked her. Wow, straight to the point.
Lily couldn't help but chuckle. "I honestly have no idea." Her turn now.
"Why are you here?"
"I saw someone crying. I wanted to help. Did your crying have anything to with a certain James Potter?" Black asked, his trademark smirk coming back.
"NO. Maybe. I really don't know. And it isn't as if I would confide you anyway. You're his best friend. You'd tell him."
"Not if you asked me not to." He said sincerely. She knew that she should just get up and leave right now but she really needed someone to talk to and he was conveniently right in front of her. And something in his eyes told her that she might be able to trust him. That this wasn't Black. It was Sirius.
"I really don't know. I just made myself seem like a complete idiot and know he probably thinks I'm crazy." She finally said. For some reason that made him laugh.
"I doubt it. Ever since the first time he saw you all we've ever heard about is how perfect you are. Lily this, Lily that. Lily just looks so beautiful when she hexes me."
This was news to her. Wasn't it all just some elaborate game? "He really likes me? Why didn't he ever tell me?"
"He did, Lily. You just weren't listening." She thought back to all the declarations of his love for her, all the notes, all the presents. Maybe he was never the mean one.
"Yeah, maybe I wasn't"
"The real question now is: Do you like him?" Lily waited for the customary "no", but it never came. A "yes" didn't exactly fit either.
"I think that I'm starting to." Sirius looked satisfied with her answer. Suddenly, she felt self conscious. She had just bared her soul to Sirius Black.
"Now that I told you all these things, you have to tell me something about yourself." She said, poking his shoulder.
"What sort of thing?"
"Something that you've never told anyone else before." Sirius thought for a while then finally started to talk.
"Well, you know my brother, Regulus? The Slytherin? He wants to join You-Know-Who. And I know that I should be disgusted by him, but I just wish that he would see that it's wrong. And then we could be family again. When we were little and too young to care about any of this, we were best friends and I just want that back again. It's wrong, though. I should just hate him." He said, all the while staring straight ahead.
Lily smiled. "That's not wrong. It's family. My sister hates me for being a witch, but sometimes I wish that we could go back to when we were little. Maybe, one day he'll see that what he is doing is wrong, and you'll be waiting for him."
"Yeah, maybe." Sirius said and gave her a little half smile. "We should go. It's probably lunch time by now!" He stood up, then held out his hand and helped her to her feet. AS they were walking down the corridor, turned to look at her.
"One more question. What is toast food?" Laughing, Lily explained to him how her crazy mind worked. After laughing with her, he held out his hand and said, "Let's make a deal. If you call me Sirius, then I'll call you Lily." Smiling, Lily shook his hand.
Ok, before everyone freaks out NO there will NOT be a Sirus/Lily twist. I just really like them as friends. Sorry for James/Lily this chapter but I'll make up for it with their first kiss next chapter! I already have the next chapter written so I'll probably update sometime tomorrow! Don't expect anything the next day though! I'm going to The Hunger Games! Anyone else going?
