Ahhh! This one not only took much longer then I expected, but it is also much shorter then I intended it to be!
I hope you guys havn't given up hope on me yet!
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Oh! And just incase I have a couple of my few readers who are slightly lost in what's happening, I'm just basically bouncing backand forth between the two characters to get their P.o.V's on the situation from past to present. Hope it's not too confusing.
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Chapter Four
A mistake.
Childish behavior on my behalf, I shouldn't have left any trace of my being what so ever. At least I had taken that rosary away from her ages ago… I was trying to omit myself from her memory, but obviously my attempt was futile. But, truth be said, I didn't want her to forget—I wanted her to remember even the finest details as I did… But I was simply being foolish.
I stood silently in the Farplane, upon the wide, vast field surrounded by horseshoe falls, water wildly down wildly around the small tranquil area. My feet were planted firmly into the emerald grass, staring out into the mysterious landscape before me. The water seemed to outstretch for miles. I was furious with myself, confused; baffled to even why I would consider reminding her of my existence.. I passed away when she was merely a child, old enough to be her senior. The older guardian she knew me as was only a reflection, no, an illusion of myself… The only difference? I aged. But—
..Why would I leave my weapon behind?
My beloved Masumune.. The very weapon I never released from my grasp.. Perhaps it was because I knew there would be no danger in the Farplane? I was lying to myself and I knew it. I was torturing her, that was all I was doing with my peculiar behavior as of late… That was if I still remained within her memory… But even if I didn't, my gentle reminder left behind wouldn't do much justice.
I rose my currently usable, gloved hand to the bridge of my nose, my forehead creased along with my brows arching furiously… What was I to do about it now? It wasn't like I could return to the world of the living and retrieve what I left behind by magically snapping to erase the mistake I had made…
But what if she never finds it? On the same note, what if she already did? Struck upright in the rubble of what was previously Zanarkand.. The very beadery I tore from her hands as she slept peacefully… It was infuriating. She knew nothing then, not a single thing. I was still human to her, not a condemned being simply hanging on by the pyreflies that weaved through my very structure. What a careless move…
I could feel her approaching along with Yuna and an unfamiliar female… Zanarkand was linked to the Farplane and to Spira, just as Guadosalam was. I really wish it was as easy to exit the Farplane as it was to enter, just as those three did previously to take care of business with a particular fellow… It was there I got a brief glance of Rikku.. My, she really did grow in the few years—she grew into a woman. But it was then had I realized that she had truly forgotten about me. Her face seemed almost expressionless besides for that grin she always plastered across her pretty features… I could always see through that faux mask of hers… She always did put on some sort of masquerade to conceal her true feelings. But she was happy that day. She was determined. I nearly sighed with relief to know I was off her mind.. But that good feeling only lasted for a matter of seconds before the emotion known as sorrow washed over me…
However, I didn't really know anymore…
All I could really do now was sit and watch as the events unfolded… I prayed to Yevon that she of all people would not use the entranceway to the Farplane for merely a pleasure. I must say, I was disappointed in Yuna for that… After all, Tidus never really was among us… He was almost as fabricated as I was. Hopefully she would forget and allow me to wallow in my own pain. I never should have used her to drown away my own misery… In doing so, I caused her much grief and sadness… Something that I never intended to do to begin with…
Forgive me, Rikku…
Forget me entirely. Illuminate me from your memories and replace it with a vague outline. For, I never was supposed to be there after all…
