I swear that I listen to much better stuff than this. This is just what came up on my iPod.

And this was sort of inspired by personal experience, you could say…

OKAY MOVING ON (bright red)

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4: Halo (Beyoncé)

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Vanessa's. Boyfriend.

These two words were not supposed to be next to each other in any galaxy anywhere. Had she ever had a boyfriend? No (crushes didn't count, but they contributed to her cynical nature). Did she know girls that did? Oh yeah, and how stupid it was.

Love didn't mean anything. And every time somebody said they found the one they were destined to be with, she gagged hard. Vanessa knew that destiny was only a concept. People weren't made for each other; not in any way, shape, or form. Liking someone in that way could never make a difference. Despite how her dad tried, he knew it as well…and Vanessa could see just how nicely his life was going.

Everybody knew how Vanessa felt. Everybody knew she was pretty much alone…the pessimistic, creepy girl who was always angry and who hung out with pessimistic, creepy people. Nobody in their right mind would want her; heck, even her weird friends would never take someone so freaky.

And then she had a boyfriend.

Everyone's jaws initially dropped when they heard the news, but when they saw Johnny himself…it was still pretty shocking, even if they seemed alike. But that wasn't even the weirdest thing.

What WAS the weirdest thing was how Vanessa acted. Her yelling progressively lessened and lessened until she only ever saved it for something legitimately annoying. Along with this, the pessimism faded. She no longer found herself destined for failure and thought she could achieve something if she tried. It might've even been possible that she became a bit…mellow.

Someone finally asked. They had to. What was it about Johnny that had such an effect on her? It needed to be addressed.

Her answer was simple.

"I had walled myself off, but he cared about me…then, I decided to tear my walls down. Best decision I ever made."