Chapter 4 (Back to Nina POV)
Its Saturday, but Victor wakes us all up early, and sits us in the Common Room. I turn to Fabian and ask what's going on. He shrugs. I don't bother asking Amber. While Victors out of the room, I take this as a great time to talk to Fabian. We haven't spoken in days.
"So Fabian, want to hang out later in my room?", I ask him in a whisper. If I didn't have a choice in the matter according to Amber, I would at least try to get him to touch me.
"Um, sure we should talk", he says, with a half smile. Victor enters the room now.
"Now you students seem to have matured a little", he begins, Trudy walks in the room, "So if our house can keep up the good work. And get our grades to perfection, I have a special, treat planned.", he says exiting.
"he got us up early for that?", Jerome asks. Trudy elaborates.
"He's gone a little crazy lately. Poor old thing. I'm sorry dearies, but things are about to change", Trudy says, leaving the room. "I'm confused", Amber says sighing. We all laughed. Well I didn't, I just placed a hand on Amber's shoulder. Poor thing.
"What, I thought Victor was supposed to like live forever. I mean that stuff he drank was supposed to make him last a long time", she says. Thats what she said, I think to myself. DarkGuy Would be proud if I actually said it. I didn't. Jerome laughs. Probably thinking the same thing.

"Come on, Nina", Fabian says standing up and we go to my room.
I hear Patricia ask, "Where are they going", and Jerome's reply, " I think Nina's gonna teach Fabian to play baseball. Second or Third Martin?". I roll my eyes and walk upstairs. When we get to the room, I shut the door.

I kiss him quickly. And counting. One-Two-Three. It takes thirty seconds, for Fabian to even consider kissing me back. That bothers me. One-Minute before I try to deepen the kiss. I open my mouth and lick is bottom lip. Another minute, until he opens his mouth and mingles his tongue with mine. Five-minutes like this. Trying to find a spark.

I don't understand why Amber wants us together. When I'm trying so hard to find a spark with him. Seven-minutes and I'm bored. I decide to try something. I have a plan. I move my hands to his chest, over his tee-shirt still. And grip at it, pulling him closely. I freeze my hands. Nine-minutes. Still nothing. He pulls away from me, and smiles.
"I could kiss you forever Nina", he says. Great. He can kiss me forever.
"Don't you ever want to do more?", I ask. He just smiles, pecks my lips, and leaves the room. Ugh. As much since as it makes to stay together, I don't want to. I get out my laptop and type a message.

DarkGuyLookingForLight21,
"1) dump that douche your dating I probably will. I'm tired of trying to get him to` just touch me."
Cursed-and-quiet777

I type that out and then look to record the time in my journal. My journal. Where is my journal? I then spend the next ten minutes searching for it. Tossing my room upside down. Then I remember and run downstairs.

Before I know it I'm pounding on a door. It opens, and a girl walks out. I don't recognize her, just that her hair is messed up, and she's reapplying lip gloss as she leaves.
"Martin, I wasn't expecting you, whats up", Jerome asks.
"Obviously nothing, pretty sure the whore just took care of that", I says unthinkingly. He laughs.
"She did. But if you want your shot, I'm sure I can manage", he says cockily.
"No. My book", I say. His smile falters.
"What book?", he asks innocently. "You know what book. Now tell me where it is?", I demand. He smirks.
"Wow, Nina angry.", he asks.
"Jerome, I swear if you don't hand me my book, your gonna loose something important to you", I say.
"Empty threat", he laughs.
"Just give me my book", I say again.
"No, no. But may I say, I was surprised to read about pages, 8 and 9 of the Nina section. If you want to try those out with somebody", he takes a step forward. I turn around disgusted and walk away. He read my journal. Not just where I keep my stats, but where I allow myself to dream a little. And yes one of those dreams go a little steamy.

I hate Jerome. He just brings out this uncontroled side of me, one where I act like that, and say things I don't mean. I go to the Common room, where everyone but Jerome is sitting. Mick is playing with a soccer ball, kicking it. Alfies talking to Amber. Joy is practically sitting on Fabians lap, he's got his hands on her.
"Classy Fabian", I say sitting next to Patricia and Eddie who were listening to music. He looks up and smiles shyly.
"What's up Nina", he asks. Oh I don't know.
"Why are your hands all over Joy, when you'll barely touch me?", I ask. Amber looks up startled. By the "Fabina fight".
"There not", he yells.
"Stop trying to start something Nina", Amber says. Wow I thought she was my friend.
"Your right", I say leaving the room and going upstairs. Back to my room. I click on to chat. How is he always on when I need him.

Cursed-and-quiet777: Hey, got time?

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: For you? Always. :)

Cursed-and-quiet777: I'm on the edge of a breakdown here.

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: Tell me whats wrong?

Cursed-and-quiet777: My boyfriends, still the same douche, who's going to second and beyond with a girl, when he won't touch me. And I want to break up but then my friend keeps blaming me for ruining her favorite couple.

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: :(

Cursed-and-quiet777: I'm just over reacting, right?

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: No, sounds like you DESERVE to complain. Go on, and don't apologize.

Cursed-and-quiet777: And on top of all that guy I'm tutoring , stole my book!

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: Thats good.

Cursed-and-quiet777: Not certain pages.

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: I'm intrigued.

Cursed-and-quiet777: ;)

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: But anyway, don't you get a say in your own life? If you want to dump him, dump him?

Cursed-and-quiet777: Not that easy. my friend ""ships" us.

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: Oh. Well then make him dump YOU

Cursed-and-quiet777: How? He cheats on me, and yet were still together.

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: You say he treats you like a child? Act like one.#2) Pull a prank + #3) For a day, dress on the wild-side = #1) Break up with that douche your dating.

Cursed-and-quiet777: you make it sound so easy...

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: It is call that friend of yours, the one you told me about, have her help you.

Cursed-and-quiet777: Okay. I will. Thanks for the help.

DarkGuyLookingForLight21: No Problem. Look I gotta go-talk to you soon, tell me how it worked out. ;)

He logged off. I text Patricia, Need Your Help my room u can bring Eddie. After I explained it to them, Patricia helped me out. I knew what I would be doing some Monday. Once again I had a plan.

It was Monday morning early. Before Amber was even up. That Patricia and I started getting me ready. Wild-side here we come.

We straightened my hair. It was so much longer. I had gotten cut earlier so it wasn't too long, just a little longer than Ambers. Then we teased it up. I laughed at my appearance, with just the hair. Then Patricia applied thick eye make-up. She handed me a pair of fishnet tights. Heeled boots, she tugged my skirt up, and undid the top buttons on my shirt.
"You do not look like Nina", she laughs.
"Nope. Do I look good though?" I asked.
"I approve", Eddie says walking in the room kissing Patricia.

I must approve. From the list. Could DarkGuy be Eddie? No, it couldn't be. I shake the thought away. It's not like DarkGuy even lived in the same town, let alone house. I smile. Time to complete number 3.

We walk downstairs. And I watch Fabians eyes, show the disrespect for my clothes.
"Well well, Nina. Taking a ride on the wild-side?", Mick asks. Jerome looks up and smirks.
"Now who's a whore Nina?", Jerome asks. I fight the urge to blush. And instead play the role, if I want Fabian to dump me, I have to play it all the way out.
"I don't know Jerome, that girl inside of you waiting to come out", I ask.
"Oooh, burn", Alfie says. I imitate Jerome's smirk perfectly. And sit down.
"You know I like this new Nina, maybe this one will try pages 8 and 9", Jerome throws back, trying to throw me off. I don't let it.
"Maybe", I reply watching his face turn to shock.
"What is he talking about Nina?", Fabian asks. I just shrug and head off to school. Jerome once again sat next to me, he had to.
"Nina can I be honest with you?", he asks, taking out his books.
"Sure", I reply.
"I don't like this new you. At all. When I called you uptight Martin, I meant loosen a few buttons and let your hair down. Maybe pull the stick out of your ass, not change you", he said. Taking me by surprise.
"What do you mean".
"I don't like THIS Nina", he says shrugging.

Did Jerome just show emotion? No he wouldn't. At the end of class. He approaches me again.
"So you going to help me, study for the heart. I'm dying to know what Victors special treat is?", he asks. I smile nodding.
"Sure", I say to the guy who finally showed some emotion. Sure to the guy seems to like me as me. It's not like he's changed. But I am.

I go to class and talk to Patricia. After school she wants to take me shopping, so I can "Embrace" the new look as she put it. I accept. But we don't go to the same stores Amber takes me to. We go in this edgy vintage store, that even with my uniform on, my new look makes me look like I fit in. There's a girl behind the counter. Her hair is blue, but it oddly suits her. I can't belive these are Patricia's "people".
"Hey Trix, who's your friend?", she asks.
"Tats, this is Nina?", she says. As we approach the girl. Tats, must be for the hundreds of tattoos she has. I watch her face turn to shock.
"Wow, Okay. Not how you described, her. At all", she says.
"She's changing her look for a few days, I knew you could help.", Patricia says.
"In-permanent tattoo, and some fake piercing?", Tats, asks. Patricia seems to be considering it, then speaks.
"One step further, lets dye her hair", Patricia says. I can't hide my shock.

No way was she cutting me hair. No way was she dyeing my hair either. Patricia shut shoved me to "Tats", and smiled. Great leave it to Patricia to take this one step too far.