Ahsoka's POV
Do I had to ask? Of course it could be worse, but did it have to be?
I had the order to look over a group of youngling for the week, 'caus etheir master isn't at them Temple.
Fortunatly it was the group with who I build their lightsabers. I looked over to Katoonie. They were meditating. I rested my head in my hand and looked from one to another Youngling. I signed and I guess Katoonie had heard it.
„Are you okay?" she asked.
„Yes, I am. Just train meditating."
She closed her eyes.
„Maybe you should try it to. I can sence your frustration."
I swallowed. I hadn't care about if they feel what I feel 'cause nobody even cared about me. But when a Youngling could feel it.
I sat down. Legged. I rested my hands on my legs and closed my eyes. I winced as I felt that I would get a vision, I wasn't afraid just curious.
I felt confused. I was in the Temple, but everything seemed….different. There weren't the usual Padawans and younglings running around the halls, or the Knights and Masters in the war room. I decided to go to the Council and ask what was going on.
As I stood outside the Chambers, I suddenly heard voices. One I immediately recognized – Yoda. The other it took me a while to realize it was Anakin. I was about to enter, when they began talking again.
"Sure about this, are you, Skywalker?" Yoda's voice sounded concerned….sad.
"I'm sure, Master Yoda. I know I said that I thought she could be trained. But I can't. She isn't willing to learn."
My heart dropped into my stomach as I remained with her ears pressed against the Council Chamber's doors, my heart breaking. He wanted to bring me back to the Temple?
Yoda's voice popped up. "Unwilling to do this, I am. Yet, Skywalker, certain, if you are, than perhaps…"
"Master Yoda, I'm pleading with you to take her back. I no longer want her. She's irresponsible, rude, arrogant, defiant, and she's certainly not learning anything." There was a pause as he took his breath. "I don't even think she should be ranked as 'Padawan' any longer…"
I sank to the ground, my body shaking, my eyes moist. I didn't want to hear anymore. He was practically begging Yoda to send me back. And not even to be a Padawan! I grabbed the wall as if it were my lifeline to keep me from breaking down. Maybe it was…
"NO!"
My eyes snapped open. My breathing was fast and my eyes need a little bit longer to realize where I was. Katonnie looked with big eyes at me.
„Are you okay?"
„Yes... continue training, I need some fresh air."
I stood up and left the room not carrying that all Younglings looked at me. I ran trough the temple until I reached the south Plattform. I stopped at the edge of it. I looked around.
I sat down with my legs over the edge and watched the sunset. I signed. My vision has to be real, it was so clear. Master Plo had once said.
„If a vision is so clear as it would really happen, it is rarely untrue."
This vision has been to real. Would my master really do that? I disappointed him and I guess I have to pay for that. I signed and looked at the sun.
I heard someone walking over to me. She sat down beside me. I looked at my side and saw Sarah. It was impossible. She was dead. Grievous had killed her a year ago. She must be a part from my memorie which I transformerd with the force into a ghost. She watched with me the sunset.
„You are afraid, aren't you?" she asked.
„I-I have no idea how to handle the situation. Normally Anakin or someone esle is with me, helping me, but now..."
I looked to her. I hadn't been able to help her a year ago. I still miss her. She was my closest friend, actually my only one.
„I am sure you get through this … You always could do that good."
„Sarah, I-I just want to turn the time back. Even to save you."
„Don't blame yourself for it, Ahsoka. Our life gives us chances to show that we are ready to life, that we are ready to do what is right, but when you give up yourself, your life will give up you as well."
„I miss you."
„I know you do. But I will always be there."
I tear rolled down my cheek as her ghost dissapeared with the cold wind. I looked at the sunset. She was right. We had the chance to make the best out of our lifes. To life them. It is our choice, do we stand up when the life brings us to fall, or do we lay on the ground.
Anakin's POV
I saw her sitting at the edge of the plattform. She turned her head to her side and said something. I was to far away to hear what she said, but I was sure she talked to Sarah.
She only can transform the Sarah in her memory into a ghost when she feels alone and upset. Maybe I've done the wrong thing.
I should give her a chance. I just hope she will take it this time. I watched with her the sunset, until I signed and walked down the corridor. Lost in thoughts.
