SO i have decided the La push boys will not be playing a big part in this story at least not for now with where i want this story to go they will get a mention as regards to the treaty but i doubt anything more. Hope you enjoy this Chapter still a bit short but wanted to get a bit of Bella in before i go back to work.

Bella POV

Pain that is all I felt I couldn't even move out of fear it would just hurt more. Charlie had given up trying to break me out of my stupor I knew I was hurting him by being this way but I couldn't help him. The pain came in waves like an angry ocean and I was the rocks the waves smashed against, when the waves weren't raging there was nothing I felt nothing just empty I yearned for these moments these moments were when I didn't think about anything the moment I started to think was the moment the waves hit and it would take too long to calm them down. So I kept my mind blank as much as I could but it was hard sometimes the thoughts just came.

I wasn't sure what day it was or what month for that matter it was snowing outside but that meant nothing in Forks. I had heard Charlie leave but I didn't know when it could have been ten minutes or ten hours. I ate when the thoughts came I would force something down my throat something wet and then something tasteless I knew it was my body trying to survive trying to get through this torment but in truth I didn't want this. I would find myself showering most often keeping clean the water going as hot as it could go as if this could wash away some of the agony I was in as if it could take my memories with it down the drain. School had finished I went at least I think I did there were times when I would look up and I would be in a classroom on occasion I wondered how my grades were doing but I could never bring myself to care.

I was in my room now I recognized the walls I was sitting in the rocking chair and i was un moving the stillness seemed to help keep the pain at bay but I knew no matter what I did no matter if I didn't think or move the dreams always came. They were the worst of it all the pain I could never escape I would hear him over and over the first word would bring me comfort a sense of hope and then as he would speak would break even more every time. There was a knocking sound from downstairs I remained still it happened a few more times before silence. It might have been a minute or an hour when my window opened from the outside and as I saw the two vampires enter a new level of torturous pain hit and one of the Vampires fell to his knees.

Carlisle POV

We reached Bella's house soon after we entered forks, Charlie's cruiser was gone but Bella's truck sat in the driveway it looked like it had not moved for a while there was a layer of snow covering it and beneath there was a layer of leaves from the surrounding trees.

"She's inside" Jasper said as we got out the car

"How is she feeling I asked" curious to the look on Jasper's face

"It's strange she feels almost…empty?" He answered we approached the door and knocked "She heard us her emotions are changing" We knocked three more times before we decided to go through her window. We jumped up after making sure no one would see us looking through the window I was shocked Bella who had been pale before now wore a grayish tinge to her skin she had lost an awful amount of weight that had me concerned her eyes were sunken slightly and there were dark circles that made her look like she had broken her nose recently she was staring at the window unblinking un moving I was even more worried now than when Jasper had told us what would befall Bella if we stayed away.

We opened the window and jumped in Bella's eyes moved to us and as they did Jaspers knees gave out beneath him he groaned in pain his hand reaching up and grabbing his chest.