SO UTTERLY CONFUSED

Massao-na-Mizu

Disclaimer: mumble mumble I don't own Inu Yasha… mumble mumble frowns If I did, Sesshoumaru would have been partnered with Kagome… mumbles again And Naraku would be gay… He would be running around trying to get Inu Yasha…

LITTLE KNOWN FACT: Blue eyed people and animals (if there are any) have better sight than any other colors of eyes. Maybe that's why Kagome's good in archery?

A/N: The words with asterisks means that I will be explaining them at the bottom of the chapter… And help! I am in need of a Beta Reader that is good coz I'm not… Please email me if you are interested or you want to recommend someone to me!

M/N: the words in asterisk mean that there is an explanation in the translation corner. For those who have not yet read this story before, I had revised it. It is so embarrassing! I had accidentally written: pooped instead of popped! And I couldn't help but laugh!

This is the sentence: Walking off towards my History class, my friend, Rei suddenly pooped out of nowhere and grabbed my hand.

It's supposed to be Popped. blushes

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Chapter 30-Weird Freaky Days IN Senior Year

I looked pleadingly at Mama.

"Mama, I'm fine. I need to go to school. I have archery today." I reassured my mama in a pleading voice. Mama sighed and shook her head, checking temperature.

"Well, you're not that hot so I guess you can go to school." I silently yipped in delight. But mama looked at me sternly. I waited until she had let me off the hook.

"But you will have to go home if your get any hotter, you hear me young lady?" My mama said sternly. I bopped my head eagerly, like a five-year old kid.

When I was really young and my papa was still alive, Mama was really protective of me, probably because I was too weak when I was a child. Papa was the one that reassured mama that I was going to be fine. I loved papa. And I knew he had loved me… I had inherited my whole appearance from my mama… The wavy dark hair that fell to my waist, the creamy-white skin, the long eyelashes, and so on. But my eyes… My blue eyes were the only left remembrance papa has given me… That sets me out from any other typical high-school senior. It's not everyday you see a Japanese black-haired girl with blue eyes.

Anyway, I brushed my hair again; just making sure it was not tangled up. I slung my bag onto my shoulder, hurrying up in putting my black leather shoes and opening the shoji doors, revealing an impatient Inu Yasha. I was surprised to say the least. I was usually the one that wakes him up. I slowly stepped down the stairs, a confused look on my face.

He glared at me. "What took you so long?" He barked at me.

I glared at him, my hands flying to my waist. "Huh? Well at least I'm not late always! And I never nag at you! Maybe Kikyou should be the one to wake you up so your can kiss her pimples!" Eew… I wish I could take it back… Now I'm suffering from BMI. He scowled at me, a disgusted look on his face.

"Shut up." He muttered under his breathe, his head lowered. I frowned at him.

"Something's up. I know it." I said, pointing an accusing finger to his face. He sweat dropped. He turned away from me snappily.

"Can I not walk my best friend to our school?" he said, desperately trying not to blush. I couldn't help it. I laughed. Well, he looked so Kawaii! Even his ears were red so I tweaked them. He tuned redder.

Then stopped him in his tracks, startling him; my hands were on his shoulders, as I searched his golden orbs, I smirked as he blushed even more. I leaned back, and whispered to his ear.

"Say it." I said softly, grinning.

"S-say what?" He said reluctantly.

I slapped his playfully. "Silly! That you love me!" I told him, giggling a bit. His jaw dropped and his eyes widened.

"N-NANI!"

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SESSHOUMARU

I walked casually towards my old school. I let the wind caress my face, playing with my untied hair. Yes, I was in a good mood. But I will never admit it to anyone.

I almost smiled. A bitter smile but I did not. I could remember Rin…

Flashback

Not faraway, you could easily hear the easy laughter of a young girl. Namely, my favorite cousin, Rin. She ran around the gardens that mother had usually tended when she was alive.

My mother…

It had been years ago when she died. Lung cancer, it had been. No one could've saved her. I watch Rin play around, urging me to join her. I walked towards her, my every step, silent. My face betrayed no emotion. Then again, I could not remember the last it had…

As I approached her, she pointed to a rose with thorns. "See, Sesshoumaru nee-chan? Even the most beauitfullest flower has its flaws!" she said delightfully. I did not answer. Such wisdom is extraordinary for such a young child.

She knelt on her knees, examining the red flower delicately. "You know Sesshoumaru nee-chan, a rose is like a human. It's not perfect. No one is… Mama had told me that…" She had said a bit sad, she rarely saw her mother. I didn't move. I was at loss of what to do. I didn't know if I should comfort her of hide behind my stoical mask. I chose to stay silent. She was touching the fragile flower in a caring fashion.

"It has thorns. So that when you hurt it, it will hurt you back. Mama told me it was revenge!" She told me in a frightful voice. My eyes went wide momentarily. What was aunt trying to do? Make Rin into a prodigy?

"But you know, Sesshoumaru nee-chan, I think you should not plant anything that would hurt people in your heart… Because you would be hurted also!" She said, I flinched at every grammatical error, but let it pass.

End of Flashback

Do not wish to discuss about my past… Let us leave it as it is.

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KAGOME

I laughed at Inu Yasha's gaping form. My gut hurt and so did my stomach. "You look like a tomato!" I said between giggles. He burned even more is possible.

"Feh! Shut up!" he said. I couldn't. I laughed all the way to school, earning weird stares ignored completely.

After that, Inu Yasha refused to talk to me… I had tried to apologize, but he ignored me completely. Well, I shrugged it off and decided to apologize tomorrow when he had cooled off.

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Walking off, towards History, my friend, Rei suddenly popped out of nowhere and grabbed my hand.

"Hey!" I said in protest. She was out of breath and I waited for her to calm her breathing.

Finally, she looked up at me with pleading eyes. "Kagome, can I ask you a really big favor?" She pleaded.

I blinked, before put my hands automatically on my waist. "It depends…" I told her coolly.

"Well, there's a sudden track practice and our teacher said to excuse ourselves for the entire day… Well, I've talked with my teachers except for Chimiesno-san," She blushed at the mention of the name. I rolled my eyes and she continued. "Please Kagome, can you tell him that I was called in for track meet?" She said, her hands clapping in a prayer position and her head bowing. I sweat dropped.

"Okay, okay. I'll do it." I told her in a defeated voice. She grinned at me gratefully and hugged me.

"Thanks, Kagome! You're the best!" She told me delightfully.

"I wish I could believe your flattery…" I muttered under my breath as I returned the hug.

"What's that?" She asked me. I shook my head and waved goodbye as she ran towards the open fields of our school.

I sighed, getting my bag that I had dropped with all the commotion. I entered our room and bowed to Sesshoumaru and saying, "Rei Imamoto has been called for track practice. She told me to excuse her in your class, Chimiesno-san." I told him in a blank voice. He didn't even look up at me and continued checking the present log in book.

"That means she won't be in my class. Technically, she's considered absent." I looked at him. Was he really not listening to me? I thought in irritation.

"Excuse me sir, but she was excused from this class." I persisted. He looked up at me, his golden eyes, flashing me a glare. I almost stepped back with the intensity. Almost. I blinked.

"Yes, she was excused. But, the fact still remains, she is nowhere to be seen in my classroom; therefore, she did not attend my class; therefore she is absent." He told me coldly. I could only gape at him for a moment before glaring at him and turning my heel, walking away from him. What a jerk! I thought angrily to myself. I hate him! I hate him! I said like a mantra in my head. I was still scowling when I got to my seat and Inu was looking at me curiously but said nothing. I turned to him and snapped, "What?"

He glared at me and then turned away. I sighed inwardly. It was official. Today is Torture Kagome Day.

Well, at least before archery… Ahh… Archery. The only thing I excelled in that mattered. Yes, I have high grades. Yes, I excel in math (kinda…) but what matters most to me is archery. It is my art. My passion.

The thrill in releasing the arrow, letting it hurl quickly into the red-dotted center. I smiled as I made a clean shot. Freshmen gaped at me as I smiled at Atasuke, our president. He flashed me his winning smile that I was sure made most girls falter.

"Nice shot." I shrugged nonchalantly, aiming another arrow… But when I tried to concentrate, my walls seemed to collapse… My vision was blurry and my head was all feathery light and spinning like a drunken top. I let go of my bow and arrow and fell down on my knees, holding my head. I heard Atasuke shout.

"KAGOME! What's happening to you? Are you alright?" He asked me worriedly. People had gathered around me. I nodded, my eyes half-closed and I attempted a weak smile.

"Yeah… Just got a bit dizzy." I told him. He frowned at me.

"I think you should go home. You need some rest. Would you like me to get you an escort?" He asked me with concern. I shook my head weakly, numbly trying to get up.

I succeeded, showering and then getting dressed in a plain white shirt and plaid pants.

I walked slowly out of the shoji screens and into the courtyard. I sat down on the hard cement bench, trying to breathe. When I felt better, I stood up, hearing a bit of incoherent words I made out as, "Drunk, Higurashi?" A male's voice had said. I shook my head irritated.

"No, I'm dizzy and I can't seem to see you clearly." I said, waving my hands in an attempt to feel him (: blushes: no! I'm not groping him!)

He caught my hand, his own hand, feeling my burning cheek. "Fuchui." He snapped at me. "You're sick and you came to school? How dumb are you?" He snapped at me frustrated more than asking.

I blinked. "Is that a rhetorical question?" I asked him, finally collapsing in his arms.

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SESSHOUMARU

I was stunned to say the least. What did I do to deserve this? I was just walking casually when I saw Higurashi, one of my students and my dim-wit half-brother's best friend, looking drunk. And now, she's collapsed on me.

"Is this on cue, Higurashi, that when I come you collapse?" I asked her sleeping form, annoyed. I sighed. I looked stupid asking her when she's asleep. I opened her bag and searched for her school ID to see where she lives. (A/N: The ID's in our school has our address on the back… I don't know if they have it on Japan schools so I'm assuming they do …)

Successfully seeing it, I browsed it, and then carried her light body in my arms. When your school's only a block away from your house, do you have to use a car? I sighed. I wished I had decided to drive and rode my car to teach. Then I won't be carrying Higurashi home today then.

Miserable Higurashi stirred in my arms. I tightened my hold on her. She was muttering incoherent words… only one was audible. And I wished I hadn't heard it at all…

"Rin."

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"Rin." She murmured to herself. I stiffened. Rin? How could she have known Rin? No, wait… I suppose there are other people named Rin. I stayed silent. Let my curiosity pass…

I rang the doorbell of their house and was surprised to see a twelve year-old boy smile up at me, his eyes traveling to Kagome and instantly turning into a worried frown. He opened the door wider, giving room for me to slip in with Kagome in my arms. Mrs. Higurashi had gasped, showing me to the living room where I set Kagome down. Her mother had taken her temperature and gasped, shaking her head sternly.

"I told her to go home when she feels warmer… I should have known her to be persistent." She said more to herself than to me. I did not answer. She looked up at me and smiled… I suddenly remembered my mother… She had always a smile on her face whenever she sees me… I said nothing, keeping my face expressionless.

"Thank you for taking home our Kagome. Are you her friend?" She asked me kindly. I shook my head.

"I'm her substitute teacher." I told her simply, betraying no emotion. She nodded, a bit taken aback by the information. She looked at me confusedly.

"Aren't you a bit young to start teaching?" She asked me curiously. I nodded my head, my eyes still in contact with hers. She had brown eyes… So she must have inherited her eyes from her father…

"I'm a college freshman, incoming sophomore. I had been asked to substitute and I am advanced in my schoolwork so I'm merely waiting to be promoted to sophomore. Toyama-sensei favored me for I was top of the class in my batch, which is why he had called me to substitute for him." I told her in a monotonous voice. She didn't seem to mind my tone, nor was nervous around me, unlike other normal parents. She seemed to have been smiling ever since she was born.

"Well, thank you very much, Mr.-" She addressed me.

"Chimiesno, Sesshoumaru." I replied cordially. Her eyes widened.

"You're related to Inu Yasha?" Mrs. Higurashi inquired. I nodded.

"He is my half-brother." I said, feeling more and more interrogated by the minute. She nodded again, smiling up at me.

"Well, would you like to have some refreshments?" She offered me. I shook my head.

"I should be going now. I only dropped by to return Higu-Kagome safely. Good day, Ms. Higurashi." I said, almost calling Kagome by her last name, standing up. She led me to the door, saying good bye.

While walking home, thoughts flooded my head….

Kagome Higurashi…

Rin Ishikawa…

What was the link? Why did she know about Rin? What did she know about Rin? I shook my head.

No, I thought to myself. I have already decided that there must be possible a thousand people having the name, 'Rin'. There could be no possible connection between them. None. I continued to walk until I reached the house, ignoring my brother and entering my new room. And even as I was taking my warm evening shower, all I could think of was…

How and why did she know her?

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KAGOME

I opened my eyes to be greeted by the things of my room… I shook my head, trying to regain some memory of what happened yesterday. I could not remember ever going home yesterday… The last time I was conscious was…

"Drunk, Higurashi?" A male's voice asked me in an amused voice.

I had shaken my head in an irritated sign. "No, I'm dizzy and I can't see you clearly." Heck, I even forgot my own words… I had tried to feel my way, and he caught me by the wrist… And that was all I could remember.

I tried to raid my mind… Where have I heard that low voice? My hand flew to cover my mouth as I gasped. My eyes went wide… No, it couldn't be…

Suddenly, there was a rap of knocks on my door and my mother opened the door, revealing a tray with hot soup and tea. She smiled at me.

"Oh, good, Kagome! You're awake! I brought you some breakfast! No, young lady, you are not going to school. And didn't I tell you to go home as soon as you get warmer or feel dizzy? Thank goodness Chimiesno-sama was there to bring you home!" She scolded me. I blinked, totally confused.

"Wait, rewind and freeze!" I said, struggling to get a hold of my thoughts. I supported my head with my hand. I blinked again.

"Chimiesno… You mean Inu Yasha?" I don't usually call Inu by his whole name. But this; was serious.

My mother shook her head. "No. His half-brother… I don't think he gave me his first name. No, wait, he did! It was Sesshoumaru!" She told me, lost in her own thoughts. Ugh… This is so not good.

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Is that a cliffy? Shrugs I don't know… Anyway, thanks for all those wonderful reviews! I hope you send more! Oh, and as I promised, I added a meaning section:

Sukebe- It was in my other chapter which I forgot to give a meaning. Luckily, Profiler 120 was kind enough to point it out to me. It means pervert or a naughty person in a sexual way. You see, I feel that the word, hentai is too much used. I wanted my fic to be… More original so I categorize that word as cliché'

Fuchui- It means careless… -

BMI- Bad Mental Images I was teasing my friend one day in the play shop and telling her disgusting stories and she kept shouting: "BMI! BMI!" So I thought I'd share the new knowledge with you guys…

Nani- it basically means what

Kawaii- it means cute…

If I missed some more, please be so kind to inform me! Thank you and review!

Reviews Corner:

Mystical AngelQuite hectic. But you shouldn't be threatening me for I hold the power! (Grins sadistically) kidding

Youkai Kagome- ok, I will. -

Mala Valvah- Thankies! - I will.

Profiler 120- thanks for reviewing!

Sesshyangel- thankies! I'll be sure to make it a bit more… Um… Neat and clear… -

Taiyoukai-kai- Aww… You're flattering me… - you're right, the Microsoft word is wrong. You see, I typed it as lost, but it tried to correct me. And I believed it! Arrgh! Anyway, thankies! -

Jessica M.- Sorry, but the pairing will be Kag/Sess. And if you read this chap, it will explain why Rin cannot be partnered with Sesshie. Also, it is my beliefs that are strongly against Rin/Sess. Forgive me…

Sesshoumaru77- I will finish it, little by little the story's plot will thicken, until it has thickened and it has ended. As for your other questions, I cannot give away my plot bunnies… Gomen.

Emme- it's me. Thanks for pointing that out, btw. I owe you one!