Ok here's another exciting chapter for you guys last chapter was pretty long so I'm going to make this long too. Or at least try to. Thanks for the awesome reviews. I got a few more stories written about Bella and Jacob I might even do Bella/Paul story I don't know I'm still thinking about it but I think I might. Anyways I will try to post more chapters as soon as possible like I said before if you guys see that I haven't updated in a while it's because I was shipped off to boot camp so please don't be angry with me please. Because I will continue to do this even when I am away. Don't worry I won't forget about you guys cause you are what make these stories possible. So anyway on with the show.

Bella: Hey Jay I'm glad you made me out to be fighter.

Me: You're welcome Bella. I just didn't like for you to be control by someone. I wanted you to have your own control your own attitude.

Bella: Well you're doing a great job. I love it so far.

Me: No problem Bella. Look it's starting here is where it's about to hit the roof.

Bella: oooh now I'm curious to find out what happens now.

Disclaimer: As always I own nothing everything belongs to Stephenie Meyers.


Chapter 4: The Truth

(JPOV)


We managed to find her walking towards her car in the empty street.

"Bella!" I yelled.

"Jesus Christ don't you have anything better to do than to follow me? You're so fucking nosy."

"What are you doing here Bella? This place is dangerous."

"I don't need your help. As you can see I can take care of myself." She pulled another cigarette to light it. I took it away and threw it away.

"You know what? That's really starting to piss me off. You can't keep doing that."

"Yes I can and I will. Now are you going to explain to me what the hell is going on here?"

"I don't have to explain anything to you Black." She glared at me burning a hole through me with her piercing dark eyes. If looks can kill she'd do it.

"That's it. I've had it." I snapped.

"Oh so you finally giv…hey! what are you doing? Give me back my keys!"

I snatched her keys from her hands and threw it to Embry.

"You're driving Em." I looked at her. "Now get in the car."

"I'm not gett…"

"I said get in the fucking car now." I cut her off. She looked surprised the way I snapped at her. She huffed and sat in the back seat.

"We're going back to the house."

"Hers or yours?" asked Embry.

"Mines." We got in the car and I sat in the back seat with Bella. She had her arms crossed at her chest. She looks beautiful even if she is all mad. After about 15 minutes, we turned to the road to my house.

"My house is not this way." She said looking all around her.

"We're not going to your house we're going to mine."

"No way! I'm not going back to your…"

"Shut it! We're going to my house cause you are not going back looking like that. God knows what Charlie would say if he saw, you looking like that. I'm going to clean up those bruises and I'm going to find out what's wrong with you." She scoffed.

"Good luck with that."

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Once we arrived, I noticed that Dad still wasn't here. I guess he was staying with Old Quil. Embry and Bella stood in the living room standing while I grabbed the phone from the table. As I dialed the numbers and put the phone to my ear, I looked at Embry.

"What are you doing Black?" she asked. I nodded to him. He knew what I was going to do. He nodded back and grabbed Bella by the arms.

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

"What are you doing? Let me go!"

"Hello?" Charlie picked up the phone.

"Hey Charlie." I saw the look on her face. Her eyes went wide. Bella opened her mouth to say something.

"Cha…" but Embry quickly covered her mouth with his hand.

"Oh hey Jacob what can I do for you?"

"Well I saw Bella today at school we hit it off to a good start. And since we were getting along so great we hung out at my house watched movies. We did a lot of catching up." Bella struggled you can see the fire in her eyes.

"I'm glad you guys are hanging out again."

"Yeah it feels great. So Charlie in the middle of catching up and watching movies she fell asleep on the couch. She must've had an exhausting day at school." She struggled harder against Embry. I knew this was going to piss her off but I needed answers.

"So I don't want to wake her much less have her drive back exhausted. She's going to stay over for the night and I'll make sure she gets to school on time tomorrow." Her eyes went even wider.

"Yeah I wouldn't want that either. Ok make sure she gets there on time and no funny business Jacob I mean it." I looked at Bella and smirked.

"You have nothing to worry about Charlie. I'll take very good care of her."

"Alright Jacob see you later."

"Thanks Charlie," I hung up the phone and Embry let her go.

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

"You fucking dick! Why did you do that? I'm not staying in this house with you!" she charged for the door but I grabbed her arm whipped her around and pulled her to my chest.

"You can go Embry I'll call you if I need you."

"No problem Jake. See you later."

I dragged Bella to the bathroom grabbed her by the waist and sat her on the bathroom counter. Got the first aid kit from the cabinet below and started cleaning the bruise on the left side of her forehead with a cotton ball and alcohol. She flinched but continued to stare at me.

"Why are you doing this to yourself Bella?"

"It doesn't matter. It's not like anyone cares anyways." She said looking away.

I stopped cleaning the bruise and put my hands on the counter with Bella in the middle.

"Bella that's not true."

"No one has yet to prove me otherwise. And you have proved to me exactly that. That no one cares. But you know you showed me that there was something wrong with me. Cause that's what I kept thinking about a lot. You showed me that there was indeed something wrong with me because every guy I dated has treated me like dirt like a piece of shit. That's when I became that very thing you called me 5 years ago." She sneered. "A bitch. I became a cold heartless bitch. That cares for no one and doesn't need anyone. And I have you to thank for that."

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I pulled back just staring at her. I couldn't believe what I heard. It's my fault. She hopped off the counter.

"Now you can go back to whatever girlfriend you have and leave me alone cause this is one girl who doesn't need saving." She aimed for the door but I blocked her.

"You're wrong about that." I said looking down on her practically looking at her soul.

"About what?" she raised an eyebrow. "And can I please pass so that I can get some water? I'm really thirsty you know." I stepped to the side letting her pass. "Thank God."

I followed her to the kitchen watching her get a glass and fill it with water.

"So, Black what am I wrong about?" she asked as she finished her water and stood in front of the fridge looking at the pictures on it.

"You're wrong about being a cold heartless bitch. I don't think you are one." She turned to face me and scoffed. I came closer she tried to step back but the fridge was in the way.

"I think you put on this show to hide the truth." Her breath quickened and swallowed hard as I came closer.

"T…truth about what?"

"About how you really feel." Now I was mere inches from her. Her heart sped up she panted softly. I love how I had this effect on her.

"I-I have no idea what you're talking about." I chuckled softly I saw it gave her goose bumps and shivers.

"That's not what you said when you were drunk." The look on her face was priceless. I pulled back and walked to the living room. She followed me.

"No way. What did I say? What did I do?"

"I have no idea what you're talking about Bells." Pay back was a bitch. "Oh and FYI I don't have a girlfriend. Just thought you should know." But I intend to have one very soon.

She raised an eyebrow. "Really? I find that hard to believe."

"Why is that?" I smirked at her. Hearing her heart skip a beat.

"No reason. Besides I don't have to explain myself to you." She said as she crossed her arms.

"So you gonna tell me how you flipped me over like that? Or how you broke that guy's hand?" she sighed.

"Fine. I'll tell you. You're so fucking nosy." She said. "I've been training since I was 14 because of an incident that happened to me 3 months before I turned 14." She looked away when she said that. What did she mean by that?

"What incident? Bells what happened?" I could tell she was holding back her tears.

"Can we please not talk about it? I don't want to talk about it." I came closer to her took her hand in mines.

"What happened Bella?"

"I- -I just don't want to talk about it." I brought her hand to my lips kissing lightly.

"Please Bella. Tell me." She swallowed hard once more and cleared her throat.

"I…uh…" Bella took back her hand turning around giving me her back.

"I…um…I was dating this guy and uh…we went out one night to his house. His parents weren't home. So we were watching a movie when we started making out." She held her midsection.

"So um…he wanted…to uh…go further. The next step so to speak." I'm going to kill this guy whoever wherever he is. Touching what is mine.

"But I wasn't ready." Thank the heavens and all that is holy. "He kept trying though and trying. Till he got…" Bella took a deep breath. "…till he got rough…with me. Because I wasn't giving him what he wanted."

"Bella what did he do?" I asked when a low growl escaped my chest. My wolf wanted nothing more than to kill this guy. And wanted to comfort her but I kept myself at bay.

"He uh…he punched me in the face. Slapped me. Kicked me in the stomach and in the ribs fracturing two of them. I was bruised all over. Then he…he started unzipping his pants while I was on the floor in pain. But something snapped in me I don't know what it was.

"It felt like something inside me took control over me on its own. Before I knew it I had kicked him in the nuts and ran away in the rain. In the middle of running I came across this place where they train you how to defend yourself. I went in and they taught me everything they know. But that wasn't enough for me. I wanted to know more. And I did.

"And soon I became unstoppable. People challenged me but never won. I became cold, heartless a person with no heart a person who didn't give a shit no more a person who has so much anger and so much rage inside doesn't even care if they kill another person. Sometimes the rage and the anger would be so much that it makes my whole body shake. But like really shake and I don't know why. But then I take deep breaths and calm myself down."

Wait a minute. Her body starts to shake when angry? Is she showing signs of phasing?

"I've gotten stronger a lot stronger actually in the last few years. Like the punches I receive when I'm fighting don't even hurt. Doesn't even phase me. I don't feel it. But then I thought that's because I'm numb already that I don't feel anything anymore." She exhaled and turned to face me. "So now you know." She put the mask on once again.

"Don't close yourself up again Bells."

"Just drop it Black. I don't want to talk about this anymore."

"Ok Bella."

"Now where am I sleeping?"

"In my room. I'm going to sleep on the couch." I said. "I'll give you some of my clothes to sleep in."

We both went to my room where I got her a Black t-shirt and grey sweat pants.

"If you need anything I'll be out here." She nodded and I closed the door behind me on my way out.

Made my way towards the living room and I just stood there thinking about what I just heard. I clenched my fists my Bella my sweet Bella was almost raped. And I wasn't there to protect her to help her to make her feel safe. It made my blood boil knowing I couldn't do any of those things for her. And that someone had hurt my imprint. My body started to vibrate I knew I was close to phasing but soon realized she was here in my house in my room safe from harm. I calmed down knowing she is here with me.

She will never be hurt again. I'm going to do everything in my power to get her to trust me again and protect her. I'm not making the same mistake twice. I'm not letting her go again. I laid on the couch in attempt to get some sleep some well needed sleep.


(BPOV)


I woke up like around 3am just out of nowhere. This had been stupid staying in this house with him. Well I'm not going to stay here any longer. I stood with the same clothes on I didn't feel like changing clothes at the moment.

Put my sneakers on and left my hair the way it was. It was no longer in a ponytail it was just loose. I thought about escaping through the window when I realize I didn't have my keys.

They were on top of the table in the dining room. So I opened the door quietly and crept quietly throughout the hallway. I saw Jake sleeping on the couch with one hand behind his head and the other on his stomach.

Would I give to run my hands on those abs. Wait. What? What's wrong with me? Thinking about shit like that. Where the hell did that come from? I had to slap myself mentally for that. Soon I noticed that in order to get the keys I had to pass the living room to go to the dining room then I had to pass the living room again to get to the door.

Great. This is gonna be fun. Lucky me. Ain't my life just full of fucking surprises? What's next? Scratch that I don't want to know. Well it's now or never.

Slowly I walked passed Jacob and out the living room and into the dining room. Quietly I picked up the keys making sure they don't make any noise. I turned to walk back to the living room.

About like half way there I stepped on a floor board that squeaked. I stopped instantly. Then I heard a howl I turned to look out the window. I saw nothing.

Turned my head back to keep going when I saw a body in front of me. Scared the shit out of me till I found out it was Jacob.

"Jake! God you scared me."

"Bells what are you doing?" I had to think of something.

"It's none of your business Black." Wow good job Bella you have a great way of handling things. What an ass I was. I couldn't come up with something better?

"Oh really? And what exactly are you doing with the keys? You were gonna sneak out weren't you?"

I huffed as I stepped back when he stepped closer.

"You're not going anywhere Bells. Besides you wouldn't have gotten very far anyway. I heard you the moment you came out the room."

"Oh yeah watch me." As I turned around Jacob grabbed me and whipped me around. Soon my back was against the wall.

"You know Bells if you run…I will chase you…" he said in that husky voice of his which made me feel like putty. I had to slap myself mentally again for that.

"…and I will catch you…" We were mere inches from each other. I could feel the heat coming off of him. It was clouding my judgment. It was getting hard to think straight.

"…and I will never let you go." A small gasp escaped from my mouth.

I had hoped he did not hear it. Cause I had to act and quick. I pushed myself off the wall which caused him to step back.

"I'd like to see you try." I walked passed him to the kitchen all this talking always gets me thirsty. Turned on the light and grabbed a glass and filled it with water.

I noticed that Jake was staring at me with a very confusing look on his face. I lowered my glass.

"What?"

"Your face."

"What about my face?"

"The bruises on your face are…are gone."

"Oh that? I'm a quick healer. That's nothing new. Freaked me out in the beginning but now not so much."

He strode over to me and grabbed my arms to take off the gauze.

"Your scars…they're gone too." He said. "But how?"

"I don't know never really gave it much thought Jake. That's one mystery I haven't been able to solve." Snatching my arms away.

"Bells you don't have to be this strong person you lay out to be."

I turn away from him and put my hands on the counter. "Yes I do."

"Why?"

"Because crying is a weakness a sign of weakness and love is a waste. A waste of time. At least I know that I continue to be this strong person that took me so long to be I know I won't get hurt over something so stupid like a broken heart and then crying over it. Besides no one would want me anyway. I'm nothing just a nobody. Just a girl with a very bad attitude and past to complete it."

The hairs on my neck stood up I knew he was behind me. I felt his heat on my back.

"That's not true Bells." Every time he says my name like that my brain turns to mush. Then I felt him come closer. He leaned towards my ear and whispered.

"I want you." He put his hands on my waist pulling me closer to him. His touch gave me the shivers.

Jacob moved my hair to side to expose my neck. Gliding his lips ever so softly on my neck.

"You're beautiful. You always have been." Jake turned me around and cups my neck.

Why is my heart beating so hard and so fast? I've never reacted this way before why now? Why him?

"You don't have to be strong anymore Bella. Cause I will never hurt you. I'll protect you."

He lowered his face closer bringing his lips to mine. Kissing me softly. I had a sudden urge to deepened the kiss and as if he read my mind he did exactly that.

I have never experienced a kiss quite like this. It was a warm passionate kiss. It took my breath away.

He was impossibly fit, every muscle blending perfectly into the next and I can feel him positively vibrating with life.

He then kissed me aggressively his hot mouth and the flick of his tongue touching my lips both coaxing and demanding all at once as if he knew something about me that I've never discovered.

There was dizziness and rushes of heat and pounding pulses of my blood. His tongue seeking entrance which I granted him. His mouth ravaged mine with desperation and a primal need.

It was as if I was the last girl on Earth the only girl worth kissing. I felt the heat of his breath as it rushes over my face and into my mouth. His fingers swept up the curve of my lower back.

Jacob growled low in his chest as my mouth welcomed him further.

"Bella…" he whispered. I froze snapping back to reality and pushed back. Both panting trying to catch our breath.

"I- -I don't know what came over me."

"It's ok Bella."

"I'm sorry… but I- -I can't do this." I walked back to the room.

"Bella wait!" I heard him call but I closed the door. This was crazy. How could this happen?

I'm so ashamed of how quickly my body reacted to his touch. Now more than ever I have to be strong if not stronger. Cause there is no way I'm letting this happen. Because it's better to be alone no one can hurt you. And I am not going to get hurt again.

I am not going to go through the same shit twice. And I don't care if I have to be the meanest bitch there is cause I am no longer the sweet Bella that people once knew. No this Bella is different one who will shoot now and ask questions later.

Crying is for the weak and that's one weakness I don't need.


I gotta say this was a my longest chapter yet took me forever to type.

I also noticed I have to keep writing this story cause I'm almost getting to where I left off writing in my notebook.

But don't worry there will be plenty more chapters. I'm hoping to make this story pretty long.

I have a pretty good imagination and I have a good plot I just need something to get to that plot.

I'll think of something. So anyways let me know what you think about this chapter please review.


Next on "Falling Apart"

"What the fuck Paul? How could you do that?"

"Do what?"

"Ask Bella out."

"Oh that. I've learned to appreciate the finer things in life. And Bella is one of them."

"Well stay the fuck away from her."

"Jake you made the mistake of dissing her and pushing her away 5 years ago. Besides the way I see it she wants nothing to do with you. So maybe she'll give me a chance seeing how you lost yours."

Paul was right I did lose my chance but I was working on that. There's no way I'm letting her slipped away through my fingers again.


Well guys see you next time with another chapter ready for you.

Hope I made your time worthwhile.

Sincerely:

Jay

(Future Sailor Of The United States Navy)