Chapter Four:
Confessions
Eren had been granted a rather large apartment for himself and Mikasa it took up nearly three times as much as the house he'd shared when he had been a child. Wearing a simple green tunic and blue jean pants he hardly noticed when she came into the room.
Mikasa hadn't taken off her uniform since they've returned to the city allowing his eyes to wonder he still can't believe this is his. People either wanted to please him or kill him, but since he's defeated Annie the people wanting to kill him has lesson.
Their had been some damage to the city but now people understood. Theirs more then one of him, and not all of them are on their side. Could their be another city of humans out there? They had sent these human titans to kill them? Were all titans partly human? Trapped? Just how much of their humanity do they have left?
Learning Annie's identity had put things into a whole new perspective. She's proud of the way she fights, but she's fighting on the wrong side. Still they had both thrown their humanity in more ways then one. And he's not naive enough now, he understands that if their going to win they need him.
Humanity this and humanity that, lost in it all Mikasa sat opposite side of him. "Here," she said handing him a plate. It almost made him sick that the people in the inner cities got to eat like this. An entire plate of meat, noodles, things he'd never dream of.
"You need your strength Eren," Mikasa spoke coldly as if catching on to what he's thinking. The walls are made out of wood like his old home. But the counters are made out of some sort of smooth rock which he has no way of understanding.
"Thanks," he spoke light a shiver running down his spine just thinking back to Levi's team his mind is whirling with thoughts.
"Eren," Mikasa spoke up sharply a hard glare on her face, "If you look like that any longer I'm not sure what I'll do," she warned her eyes dark looking into his. A look of longing on her face she really is beautiful he felt his own cheeks redden ever so slightly.
Mikasa is very close right now his eyes glance at her neck it's beautiful and slender, drawing his mind away. "Mikasa," he stopped placing the plate of food on the small table rest besides him. "I have a question," he stopped turning to look at her.
"Is it true that you like me more then a brother?" He had been trying to ignore it, thought he had just imagined it. Truthfully he hadn't thought of her in that way until very recently, the out right question is enough to make her face go beat red.
Her face ears look like their blowing steam she opens her mouth and stumbles with her word. Tears burn into her eyes and his hand reaches out placing over her head. "I'm sorry,"he started but she grabbed a hold of his arm angrily.
She's really strong it huts her hand is shaking and she's suddenly on top of him glaring down at him, "About time you noticed," she yelled at him her voice quivering. Anger burning in her eyes he said nothing.
"Just about everyone, even people I've never met before figure it out in an instant! What took you so long!?" She yelled at him. Her love for him is that toxic it dose wonder for his pride to think she loves him that much.
Eren frowned staring her breasts are right in front of him the curves he stares feeling a tingling sensation at the tip of his groin. Face flustered he put his hand over top of it allowing his ears to redden. "It's not that I didn't notice Mikasa," he snapped.
Mikasa stopped her face still flushing she looked away he can still feel her grip loosening sliding down his arms. "It's just I didn't use to think of you any way but a sister," he admitted staring at her. Her face reacted badly tears dripped down her face.
The normal reserved girl shedding tears for him, "But now I'm starting to see you as a woman, not that you weren't one before," he spoke slowly sitting up. Mikasa turned away and Eren let her relish understand what he's saying.
"I tried to ignore it, but I found myself paying more and more attention," he felt his heart pounding in his chest feeling a tingling sensation in his fingers. "At first I thought I made it up, and it was just in my head."
Mikasa glanced at him, "I see," she stammered settling back down her hands playing with the scarf tracing it.
She appeared almost sad, dazed but glanced in his direction, "I should feel happy that you accept my feelings," But she looked almost depressed about it. She'd often go into her room alone locking the door behind her.
"I know that you like alright I know that you love me, and I don't feel that way but I am starting to like you," he explained nervously it sounded a bit lame. He knows how well devoted to her she is her eyes looked anywhere but at him.
"It's more then enough Eren," Mikasa sounded calmer now as if she had gathered her thought she turned to look at him. Hiding his manhood his face reddened trying to keep her from looking at his erection.
Face flustered he looked away when she came closer then back at her again a smile on his face, "Life is short, and we've lost so many,"that's one of the reasons why he had decided. Decided to tell her how he felt he inched closer allowing her eyes to widen with surprise.
Tentatively the kiss is quick, hesitant her blush had faded to a steady flush but he notice it grows while he brushes their lips. The first kiss is quick and he stares at her trembling lips before feel her hesitantly inch closer.
She deepens the kiss pushing on his lips he's never done this before so he pushes his lips on her. The kiss is warm her lips are hungry she really loves him. Face flustered her grip has loosen and she's not looking at him.
It feels as if god has awoken some sort of primal urge inside of him. Oh god, please let this happen. A grin grew on his face. A cheeky one at that a look of cold determination burned deep inside of him. Mikasa wants him he knows that.
Gently he touches her face staring at her their both hesitant now staring at one another. Now what are they going to do? She might not return his want, or perhaps she'll hate him for it.
The kiss is wet and he sees her flinch he's never seen her look so nervous before breathing hard he grabs her back staring at her pale skin. She looks to be in cloud nine a content look on her face, something he had seen in his Mother's eyes.
Suddenly she flinches when his hands dig into her back he can feel the softness of her uniform. For some reason he's getting plenty of excited his erection is throbbing. Gritting his teeth he kisses her harder on the mouth.
Here she's soft because of the clothing a part of him wants to take it off right now but he can't do that. They say nothing just enjoying each others company, what more is their to say anyways? Nothing really perhaps they'll have a future together.
Enjoying the look in her eyes she groans gasping while he kisses her looking away in shame. Just hearing her breathing is a major turn on for him, he hates to admit it but he wants to he wants her. Eren's not some school boy he's been fighting in a war.
But Mikasa is just so pretty and this new sensation makes him want more, she wants him to. Her breathing is out of whack just at him kissing her. "Eren don't stare so much," she half mumbled the way she spoke made him blink with surprise.
He never thought she'd be so timid really, she's a bottom Mikasa? Sure he's seen some old porno's before heard a million stories from his buddies. But he's never sealed the deal before his lips tremble as he admires her.
"Look here," he whispers drawing over her skin Mikasa dose not move for a while. Her face is flustered looking back at him her lips quiver. Like she dose not believe what's happening Mikasa has never looked so fragile before.
It scares him a bit, "Are you sure your alright?" concern grew in his throat and she sighed in defeat trying to gather her voice.
Mikasa stiffened, "I'm alright it's just well I never thought you'd return my feelings," that's not exactly true he's not in love with her. He dose like her is this wrong then? Pondering he frowns he can see her stare at the floor.
The white blouse that adorns her skin he had always found the outfits a little bit inviting, the brown jacket over her shoulders. Gritting his teeth he tried to calm down feeling himself resist the urge to tear her shirt off.
How could anyone not return their feelings for her? He'd never thought that she'd be so shy before in all honestly.
Struggling Mikasa smiled at him a rare sight indeed he felt like he's been run over by a truck, "You can touch me more Eren." Just sitting on top of her is a bit startling. Glancing at her he gulped nervously he might hate himself later.
At least his groin will, "Are you sure Mikasa? We don't have to do this today," he licked his lips his hands itching.
Mikasa kneed him in his crotch earning a hefty moan out of him it startled him and he fell on top of her burying his head into her breasts. "Shut up Eren!" she snarled at him, "You can't just stop here," she tried to calm her trembling voice.
Clawing at him like she thought he's going to make a run for it. But it's hard for him to talk with a mouthful of her breast. Even if their clothed he just want's to lie their forever their so nice and soft like clouds.
Anger and Eren winced but their so soft and squishy. He's surprised how tender they are, "Their so soft," he sounds dazed with a mouthful of breasts. That in itself is a miracle Mikasa stares at him and starts mumbling excuses.
"Alright just calm down I just wasn't sure if you were okay with it," he snapped at her and she looked at him with sparkling eyes. Eren felt like something inside him is yanked out, a look found it's way onto his face.
And he knew right then what he's going to do he buries his face into her neck stealing her scent, "Mikasa," he whispered into her ear this is right? Right? And gently he nips it this earns him a sharp gasp of surprise.
"You idiot," she huffed keeping her eyes closed trying to stop the sounds from leaking out of her mouth. Every sound felt like music to his ears like a stroke to his ego, he kisses her on the forehead gently.
Theirs no way he's going to stop now closing his eyes he brushed his face upon her skin. Breathing hard she wiggled squirming and opened her eyes at last, feeling pleased with herself he left her gasping for air.
"Eren," she hissed he kissed her softly on the ear generally licking it. Eyes wide she dug her shoulders into the bed. Pushing his lips on her's he felt her sweet mouth it's like she's candy, he's discovered something.
Eren loves this side of her, her lips are hot moist and she's not resisting. She melts with a single kiss her lips taste so soft. Flesh hot, he generally places his tongue inside of her mouth. At first he's hesitant but he enters.
The kiss becomes hot their both wrestling with one another struggling for breath both of their eyes are wide with surprise. It loosens into admiration as the kiss goes on, kissing she's shoving him back and he's pushing her down. Their fighting again but this time he's lost in it all.
Everything seems more important now they pull apart nosily but quickly quite themselves with more hard kisses. He's not sure how much of this he can take with her all over him, with her here her hands hanging around his shoulders. Clinging onto him as if he's her life line, she really dose love him after all.
His hands have torn the buttons from her blouse showing the valley of her breasts he's never seen her's before. Or real ones to say the truth, he pushes her shirt gently out of the way kissing her on the bottom of the neck. Sighing softly she messes his hair with her fingers.
The time for words is long forgotten she returns his kisses like his they've become quicker with more need and urgency. Gently his hands brush her stomach earning a soft sound from her lips something between a moan and a soft sigh.
Her body is surging with power is written on her body while they peel off each-others clothes. He sees it in her muscles, his body never felt so strong before. The sound of their love making is better then any porno. It's nothing compared to this.
Her shirt falls to the floor while her hands move up quickly over his head. Yanking the green sweater off him its thrown to the floor they kiss fighting with their tongues. Pulling her into a sitting position he moves up on her allowing her to feel the full force of his need.
He grits her teeth trying not to let himself release just yet, which is harder then it looks. Mikasa eyes are closed some times, she's enjoying it. Squeezing onto him other times she's limp but she obviously wants him too.
She lifts her hand hesitantly resting on his bare chest before kissing him gently. Her skin looks so inviting he grunts watching her look at him. Gently her hands move to his manhood and begs to free his pants.
She get them around his ankles staring at his pointing man hood it's closed but is fully restricting. Face really now she makes a noise, "It's big," she mutters with surprise. Eren face reddens and all restraint is thrown out the window he jumps her.
"Not really it's actually just," average but he scolded himself. Why would he want her to know that? Face fully flustered he stops himself that just sounded stupid why would he admit that? Could Mikasa be a virgin?
"Wait Eren," she babbled feeling his lips on his neck he kisses her aggressively grabbing her hips and lifting her legs up into the air. He can't wait anymore he just can't, "I'm going to," she babbled but he ignores her using his fingers and his hips to hold her up into the air.
Eren watches her jolt with electricity her hand moving out over her face while she moans at him tearing off her clothes. Tearing he rips at the leather latches keeping her contain ripping open belts, tearing herself free.
Wild and savage he's surprised by his own fierceness she's only in her underwear now her boots long forgotten. Staring at her naked toes she's so red now she's babbling. "Eren," she groaned with humiliation but she's surrendered now.
Looming over her he can't control it and begins to kiss her stomach his hands working on her panties, her hands dig into the sofa. Crawling he sucks on her hip kissing the outside he works downwards. Generally he looses control enjoying how soft she is.
Once she's clear his hand moves entering her vagina lips, he licks his lips nervously. Glancing at her face she's lost in it all. No longer able to hold in the soft sounds, generally he touches her and she stiffens.
Arching her back her toes flexes digging into the couch, he can't believe he's here. Touching her he enters a little more and her breathing increases. She makes a light sound while he enters her. Grunting she gasps tears tickling in her eyes.
Slowly and generally he watches her breathing through his nose holding in his breath, she feels so tight he grabs a hold of her hip he can't get very far like that. He's seen what they look like on anatomy books, but this is better then any book.
He's stiff sticking out breathing hard he looks at her fully feeling her trying to talk. Like she's choking or something, spinning he felt his face fluster while he enters her walls. This time it goes by easier and he slides in, she's already wet. It's kind of sticky, slimy he pushes his finger in repeatedly earning a soft grunt.
Grits his teeth pumping her with two fingers now it feels so good. Her legs twist brushing his arm he lifts his head staring at her foot in his free hand. Climbing closer he hesitantly licks her on the inside of her leg.
Eyes pop open she stares at him shooting him a startled look, mouth open she's unable to stop herself from releasing. Biting the skin he nips her gently kissing her, his hand moves in moves in smoothy. She cries the loudest when he dose that, she feels smooth but rougher inside.
The sound of her moaning she flexes inside before jerking her foot back, "Wait, wait," she grunts nearly kicking him in the face.
Grunting he grits his teeth breathing hard he can't stop himself but he gently kisses her foot, "You like it right?" had he done something wrong?
Mikasa has both hands by her face eyes screwed touch, "Just wait you have to let me," she sounded tense but warn out. Grunting she gathered herself breathing hard, "You have to let me breathe Eren," she grunts his hands resting inside of her.
"Oh this is my first time so I didn't know," he whispered sounding nervous. Mikasa eyes open and she closes them again she breathes through her nose.
Letting her gather her energy he gently touches her once more this time coming closer he lowers her leg and she glances at him. Climbing on top of her he wraps both arms around her naked body bringing them both close together. Holding her hard their bodies squish together and he closes his eyes.
"Mikasa, let's stop here for today," He whispered over her head she's limp like a doll. Completely tired out her eyes are closed hands in his lap.
He allowed himself to release inside of his pants he couldn't help it anymore, Mikasa kept her eyes closed. "Alright,"
