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Chapter 4 - The right thing
Edward's P.O.V
I looked at her face, she lay quietly on the hospital bed. It killed me to see her strapped to the bed like she was a danger to herself. I wanted so badly to just hold her and tell her 'everything would be okay' but I knew with her newborn rage it would be nearly impossible.
I decided that it was only right that Bella saw our baby and maybe then she would be able to cope with her pain. I walked in holding our angel, she was lifeless. I walked slowly towards Bella suddenly her gaze met mine. Before I knew it she had jumped out of the window with our angel held tight to her chest. I was frozen in shock; what could I possibly do. It felt like anything I said or did just pushed Bella further away from me. Not only had I lost our daughter but it dawned on me that I had lost my Bella.
"Edward what are you waiting for we need to follow her!" Alice was already in hot pursuit of Bella. I stood still not knowing what to do. I knew deep down inside that Bella couldn't hurt anyone she was too precious.
I felt a tug at my elbow and Jasper dragged me along as he jumped out the window in pursuit of Alice. We began running swiftly through the forest. I could pick out Bella's scent immediately. We ran and ran until we saw a small clearing, it was near the Quileute border. In the far distance I saw her she sat on a wet rock cradling our child.
Alice stepped back and joined Jasper and I. We all stood still watching her trying not to frighten her into running again. I stood astonished by how softly she rocked the bundle back and forth. Bella had lied to me she did want a child and now she would never feel the joys of motherhood because I had stolen her life away from her. My knees buckled and I buried my face in my hands regretting what I had done.
Bella's P.O.V
I sat quietly, I finally felt peace as I looked down at my child. She looked exactly like a perfect mix of Edward and the old me. I looked down at her beautiful face it was slightly bluish purple. She was so adorable she had chubby little cheeks that were framed by her golden brown hair. Her eyes were shut, her long eyelashes were curled. Being curious I decided to pull her eyelid back and was immediately dazzled by her piercing green eyes. She was more human that I would have ever imagined. Her small body was soft to the touch but heavy like a small boulder.
I began to sob realizing that I would never get to hear her first laugh or cry. That I would never witness her first words or any of her firsts. At that moment it hit me that I would never get to feel the presence of a child. I thought I would be okay but the fears of changing were finally hitting me. Rosalie had warned me not to change but I always thought that I wanted Edward more than anything in the world. But at this very second I couldn't imagine a life without her. I was a mother without a child.
I held her tightly against my chest and rocked back and forth while humming the lullaby that Edward had wrote for me. I always imagined that I would have rocked her to sleep every night while Edward hummed in the background. I then remembered how Carlisle had said that 'vampire venom can do wonders'. What if I bite her and she sprang back to life, had Carlisle ever bitten anyone dead to know that it wouldn't work?
I contemplated what to do. I could smell Edward's scent he wasn't far from me, he was with Jasper and Alice. I didn't look back I knew if I made any sudden movements I would be dragged back to the house. I placed her delicately on my knees so I could look at her she lay still. I knew it was only right to give her a proper burial but something inside of me told me I had to take the chance and see if the venom had any effect.
I placed my lips on her chubby little arm and venom filled my mouth. I lightly pressed down my teeth into her skin, I could taste the old congealed blood it was not at all appetizing. I looked back at her but nothing was happening. I tried again, still nothing happened.
"Bella it's not going to work, we really need to give her a proper burial" Edward's hand was on my shoulder. For the first time in weeks I felt peace. It truly was over.
I looked up and nodded. "She's beautiful isn't she Edward?"
"The most beautiful thing I have ever seen, next to you" he mumbled. I felt his arm wrap around my me as I held our child tightly in my arms. "I'm sorry," he whispered in my ear. I had nothing to say instead I rested my head against his chest and let him comfort the pain away.
We sat there for hours as Edward held me and I held our child. He began humming my lullaby. The sun began to rise over the horizon and we both knew it was time to go back. Edward got up and held his hand out for me, I took it. "It's going to be okay Bella I promise."
I knew it was only right to stop my madness but I knew that I could never come to terms with the fact that our child was gone. And worse of all we would never have one ever again.
As we walked back to the glass house, I couldn't help but wonder could I ever forgive Edward. A part of me was gone and I couldn't help but want to be human again. As we approached the clearing the Cullen's all stood outside watching as we made our way. I held her closely to my chest fearing that at any moment they would rip her out of my grasp. Edward's hand lingered on the small of my back and the planning began.
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