Hey guys, I'm so sorry it's been so long but exams got in the way and I just didn't have the time to write. There's been a little change of plan with this story. Chapter 4 has been removed and this is the new chapter 4. I just wasn't feeling the story and I didn't know what way to go with it. This is just a short chapter to get back into things. I hope you enjoy and don't forget to review and ket me know what you think. Any suggestions are welcome.

Chapter 4

Several days later and I'd neither seen or heard from Elliot. Wedding preparation was in full swing and it was now just two weeks away. The atmosphere in our house was electric. Everyone was happy and excited, all except for me. I was miserable. I'd sat down with Lorraine the day after the hen party and told her everything that happened with Elliot. She told me I was being stupid and that I should have just went with it but I couldn't. I just can't.

I sat on the sofa in the living room, digging into a big tub of ice cream watching a football game while everyone bustled around me. I wasn't in the mood to slap on a smile and pretend everything was great, so I didn't. Suddenly a dark shadow cast over me and a figure blocked my view of the tv. I slowly looked up to find Charlie standing in front of me with a less than impressed look on his face. "Get up" he demanded. "What?" I questioned wondering what he wanted with me. "You've been sitting there for three days doing nothing, there's wedding stuff that needs to be done by the bridesmaids which is uh you and you're starting to become one with the couch, so up you get we are going for a run" he ranted. He stared at me until I got up off the couch and went to my room to get changed. I threw on so grey jogging pants, a blue sports bra, blue runners and I tied my hair up into a ponytail and made my way back down to the living room to Charlie who was waiting impatiently. He tossed me a bottle of water and headed for the door. "Oh yeah…" he said as I followed him out the door only to stop dead in my tracks at what I saw, "Ann and Elliot are coming with us". I glared at Charlie who smirked at Ann who'd obviously been in on the whole plan. Apparently everyone knew about what happened the other night. Just great.

I looked at Elliot cautiously. He was staring at the ground or out at the lake but not once did he dare look at me. I don't think I could handle if he did, I'd probably break down into tears. "We're going to go up the mountain if that's alright with you guys, we'll until we get to the foot, then if you want to keep running go for it but i'm going to stop there, can't be exhausted for the wedding" Ann squealed. Elliot just nodded at her and took off in the direction of the mountain trail and we all followed. I loved to run. It cleared my mind, made me forget all my problems but it was hard to forget this time with Elliot here. We ran in silence the whole way to the top of the mountain, stopping only a few times for Ann to catch up. She was a swimmer not a runner and she wasn't used to the constant uphill pace. "I think we should head back" Ann panted as she tried to get her breath back "We're all having dinner at your place tonight and I want to help your mother with the cooking" she motioned to me. She turned and started to walk with Charlie and I followed behind. "I'll catch up with you in a little while" Elliot called after her as he sat down on a log . They continued walking.

I couldn't leave things this way. Elliot was angry, I was hurt and the atmosphere was just awkward. I turned around and walked towards him. He was bent over, arms resting on his knees and his jaw clenched. He was so angry. I slowly made my way and stood in front of him. He didn't look up, didn't move. he didn't even flinch. "Hi" was all I could manage to get out, I didn't know what else to say. "Go away Sarah" he said, his voice dead and angry. "I'm sorry for the oth.." I started but I was immediately cut off "Save your sorry for someone who cares because I am done!" he exclaimed, standing up to look at me I could feel my heart break into a thousand pieces. "You've been leading me on for weeks and everytime I try get close to you, you push me away so I'm done, go find some other guy to play your hard to get game with". Tears began falling down my face and I felt like I'd just been stabbed. "Is that what you think? That I've been leading you on? that this is just a game to me? I thought you knew me better than that. I'm sorry that I can't be like every other girl and let myself be with you but I won't allow myself to get hurt again, I can't get hurt again Elliot" I sobbed quietly. He glared at me for a moment before walking away and then he stopped abruptly and turned to me. "You know hurts me, the fact that you think I would hurt you like he did, do you really think that little of me. The worst part is that you can't even see what you mean to me. I've never felt this way about any girl ever yet you still think you're damaged goods. It sickens me to think that one guy did this to you but it kills me to know that I can't fix it and it sickens me that you think that I'm like him. So I'm done with this, with you" he said quietly and walked away. I sat on that log and cried for hours. Elliot's words broke my heart, I felt lifeless.

I walked slowly back to the house. Dad and the guys were setting up the barbecue outside and Mom was bringing out plates and cutlery. "Hey sweetheart" she shouted and smiled warmly "How was your run?". I walked up to her, shook my head and began to sob. She ushered me inside away from prying eyes and sat us down on the couch. I told her everything, what Elliot had said, what I had said. "Oh baby, I'm sure Elliot didn't mean what he said, people say things they don't mean when they're angry and you can't just switch off your feelings for someone. Gosh you guys have had a thing for each other since you were kids" she smiled and I let out a giggle between my sobs. "I've messed it all up mom, he hates me" I said sadly, he really must hate me, I hate me. "He doesn't hate you, he's just hurt, he has tried so hard to make you forget Jack, even I can see that, he's just upset that your hurt and he can't do anything about it. Men are like that, they want to fix everything and when they can they lash out. He'll come around, trust me. Just give him time and try to talk to him… calmly" she smiled "Now go get ready for dinner, the Murtaghs will be here soon". I smiled and walked down the hall into my room. I wondered what dinner would be like now. Do his siblings know what is going on, would he even show up, I had no idea, but I hoped he would because the truth of the matter was he was the light at the end of the tunnel.

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