I have been going through this for about three days now. It could never get off my mind. I don't think it will ever get off my mind. It's growing bundling up inside of me like a bid ole hairball. I still can figure it out. Can one moment have an impact on everything that's going on around you? Well, apparently because it's happening to me. And I'm tired of it.
I walk into Sonic Boom at about 10:30am and ready to start my shift. I see an woman walk in looking for something or maybe someone. I decide to help her.
"Can I help you ma'am?" I asks.
"What? Me? Um…" She pauses. "Yes, if you can help find someone."
"I guess I could try."
"I'm looking for Austin Moon. I hear he like to hang out here a lot" Great! Someone who I am trying to avoid now is someone I need to look for.
"Uh… Yes. I know him. He's my best friend." I says proudly because the other side if it is way too scary to think about right now even though I can't stop thinking about that moment we had the other day. Its way too complicated.
"Oh!" The girl laughs. She looks about our age. Which are 19 years old in case you didn't know. "So you know him."
"Yes I do. He is probably at the University Library." Why did I lie to her? She seems so nice and innocent. What's wrong with me? "Actually I don't know where he is."
"Okay." The girl turns around and starts heading out the door.
Before she gets a chance to exit the store is ask her. "Who are you?"
She turns around to face me. "I'm Ann. An old friend of his."
"I'm Ally Dawson." She turns and walks out the door. She looks pretty. Totally not Austin's type. Not that I know who his type is but I know for sure that she is not his. She has dyed red hair but I can tell her natural is brown. Blue eyes and tanned skin. She wears too much make-up. It's like she is trying to prove a point here. Yes, it's Miami, but really? She is pretty because I can just tell if you take away the make-up and the curls she can be pretty.
Yesterday, I accidentally bumped into Austin at the beach. We talked like normal, obviously not knowing what's going on with me. He wanted to know where I was for the past four days and he wanted to talk to me. Which he did, it was about a new song. Which we are writing together right now.
I figured out what that moment made me feel and how I know what it makes me feel. But, there is no way I can tell anyone. I can't risk everybody knowing including the press. I just don't work that way.
"How about this." He starts to sing.
You're Always on My Mind,
I think about you all the time
I think for a moment. This looks awfully familiar.
Let's not talk about it
Drama we can live without it
Catch a wave if we're bored
There's a clock we'll ignore
I wouldn't mind ignoring the clock so I can spend just a little more time with Austin Moon.
Find a way around it
Hey, girl I can tell it's something
Even when you say it's nothing
He's on to me. What? No way! It's all in my head. Stop thinking Ally!
When you're playing with your hair
Like you just don't care
I don't technically play with my hair. I chew it when I'm nervous. But, I thought I got over that habit. Guess, it came back after have not seeing Austin.
I can tell your bluffing
Don't take this the wrong way
I love the things you do its how you do the things you love
But, it's not a love song, not a love song
I love the way you get me but correct me if I'm wrong
It sound like this song fits me and Austin because I love to correct him. When he says or does something wrong (or not the way I do it) I correct him.
This is not a love song, not a love song
I love that you bought the tickets
And you don't make me watch a chick-flick
We've come so Far
Being just the way we are
We have come so far. We have been best friends for ever. But if am being precise it's about FOREVER! Literally! We have known each other since we were born because we are neighbors.
If it's not broke don't fix it
I can guess the meaning
When you don't say what you feeling
If you got a broken heart you can punch me in the arm
Now that's what you needed
"That's a really good song!" I exclaimed.
"Really?" he replies.
"Yes. You have been doing better and now even better at your song writing!"
"Wow thanks Ally!"
"Now tell me."
"Tell you what." Austin asks looking confused.
"Who's the song about?"
Austin lifts his eye brows and his eyes widen. "Didn't you hear the lyrics? It's not a love song."
"Yes it is you only put that in it so you could sing it to that special someone. Now who did you write the song for?" I explained. I will sooner than later will get the name of the girl he wrote it for.
It's been a few hours since Austin left and I am sitting on the couch in the practice room thinking about different girls he has had a crush on or dated in the past. I started with me. That was too long ago and we promised that when the time is right we would then start dating. I know it's the totally the wrong time to tell Austin I have feelings for him and anyway there's no way he would anyway. Then I thought of Kira. Heck No! She broke his heart by cheating on him with another guy aka. Dallas. Dallas is a guy I liked but then I found out when he did. Then I thought of the swim suit model. Then thought no. She moved back to Russia for a 2 year modeling contract in Russia she is not coming back anytime soon. And she is way too air headed to date anyone anyway. Austin doesn't have time for that. I couldn't think of anyone. Maybe he is right. It's not a love song.
