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I will never give up on you for
All the times you've stayed and protected me
Tried and make me better
So now I'll try to let you know that
This is the English way to make us all fit back together
Fightstar – The English Way
Chapter Three
"What the fuck are you thinking Jake?!" Marcus snapped at Jacob as soon as the doors had swung shut to his rooms enclosing the pair of them together. He had promptly ambushed Jacob as soon as he realized that Edward was working after their impromptu celebration dinner and Jacob had some free time alone. He had dragged him, ignoring all protests, along the corridors and towards the familiar room they had shared on so many occasions.
"What are you on about Marcus?" Jacob sighed, not bothering to sit down or make himself comfortable choosing instead to hover by the door. He was intending to make this conversation go as quickly as possible so he could get back to Edward and away from the fuming vampire staring at him.
"You leave me, not twelve hours ago, in a huff, and I'm fully expecting you to come crawling back when night falls like always!" Marcus snarled, "Now you have your god-damned mate!"
Jacob glared at the tone, "You should off told me! You should off told me from the start that Edward was my mate! Apparently everyone knew and you could of told me before we ever started!"
"He doesn't deserve you! What has he done to deserve you?!" Marcus hissed, "He denied his venom, denied our life and lived like a common human! He doesn't deserve you."
"He deserves more than I can give him," Jacob growled, holding his temper in, "He is mine as much as I'm his. Go find someone who wants to be fucked around by you Marcus because you're not getting me anymore, I'm done."
Marcus' growl vibrated through his spine as the back of his hand smashed into Jacob face sending the younger vampire flying sideways into the wall adjacent to them only to jump straight back up in a crouch, teeth bared and ready to attack, "I am your superior, you would do well to remember it." Marcus was seething, looking ready to kill.
Jacob had seen Marcus mad before. Mad when he didn't turn up on time or when they had one of their many ridiculous arguments which resulted in them breaking up. But this, the raging man in front of him, was nothing like those. He looked ready to kill which, he mused, he could do without breaking a sweat. The man had centuries over him and could easily bring him to an end. Unfortunately, he was also his leader; one of the three whom he, and ever other vampire, owed there very lives too. If not for the Volturi their kind would off died out, hunted till none were left. Due to this unfortunate situation of his superior wanting to rip his head off for being rude and, in simple terms, dumping him, Jacob dropped his defensive stance, straightening slightly and basically showing he would not attack; he needed Marcus to see he was submitting to him and that he wasn't challenging so, quickly, he got into what vampires considered a submissive stance, baring ones neck to another.
After a long moment of tense silence Marcus let out one last low growl before turning away from the younger vampire, "You will learn respect Jacob or I'll teach you it. You've gotten to cocky lately. Do not think because I respect your mother and father I will be giving you special treatment. You disrespect me, you disrespect the Volturi and I'll make sure you get treated as anyone else would."
Jacob closed his eyes, taking deep breaths to try and calm himself and stop himself from snapping something back, before nodding, "Since you are no longer treating me like you've fucked me more times than I can count, I'll treat you the same."
Marcus' eyes narrowed, waiting for Jacob to say something else but it didn't come, "You made it this way, not me."
Jacob looked him straight in the eye at that, ready to take the consequences, "If we're done here, I'll see you tomorrow Marcus," his tone formal and distant.
Marcus just nodded in reply and watched with a blank expression as his once lover walked out of his door for, which seemed to be, the last time.
The door slammed shut and Marcus let a scowl fall onto his face. He needed to kill something…
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Edward didn't know what to do. He'd been away from Jacob for a good four hours thanks to his training and he knew that Jacob was settling things with Marcus but he couldn't get his thoughts to stop revolving around his newly claimed mate. He was panicking about the fact he had no experience with anyone apart from Bella while Jacob, as everyone around here knew fine well, had plenty of experience in every area possible. He knew he was going to make a prat out of himself and he didn't know what Jacob would do. Everything was messed up and he had no one he could talk to about his worries as he would usually off talked to Jacob about them and Jacob would either laugh them off or fix it but he couldn't go to him about this, it would be too mortifying.
He'd finished training not ten minutes ago and was very slowly making his way to his rooms where he had already guessed Jacob himself would be waiting for him, no doubt wanting to consummate their relationship and these thoughts were making Edward twitch nervously. He so wasn't prepared for this…
He pushed the door open to his room, sliding in as his eyes moved onto the bed where Jacob was, as expected, lounging on his back, hands behind his head, waiting for him like he had done so many times prior.
He didn't move into the room, nor did he speak, he just stared at the picture Jacob made while expertly avoiding all eye contact.
"He hates me," Jacob said after a long, pregnant pause, "He wouldn't even let me…I dunno."
Edward knew he was talking about Marcus, could see the conversation going round and round in Jacob's brain. Though Jacob had bitched and moaned about Marcus' ways, about how he would use him, treat him like shit and, overall, be a crap boyfriend but, in their good times, when they got along and both were content, they really were a good couple. They were beautiful together, ferocious and passionate. Some times Jacob thought he could of grown to love the older vampire and happily stopped chasing all others but then were the times he wanted to rip the mans throat out because he was being a bastard. Overall the bad memories only slightly outweighed the happy ones as, if Jacob was being completely honest with himself, the sex was always good.
"He doesn't hate you," he said back finally, he was still leaning against the door, watching as Jacob sat up, crossing his legs so he could look Edward in the eye, "He just hates the idea of you with someone else."
Shrugging Jacob didn't say another word on the subject, focusing his whole attention on his tense boyfriend, "What's wrong?"
Edward shook his head, "Nothing, I'm fine."
Another tense silence met that statement as Jacob raised an eyebrow, "You're fine?"
Nodding Edward took a step from the door, gazing around for something, anything, to do, "Perfect. I was just going to…take a shower. You know, training…" he hardly had time to blink before Jacob had him slammed against the door, boxing him in and holding him tight as he lowered his mouth, lips hovering over each other's as their breath mingled.
"Don't make me read your mind," Jacob murmured, his lips brushing Edward's as he did so.
Edward threw a glare at that comment, "You swore you wouldn't steal my gift unless I gave you permission. Don't even think about it."
Jacob frowned and took a small step away, "Then tell me what's wrong."
Edward didn't want to tell him he was scared, didn't want to admit that he was being such a girl about his virginity. He had been saving it for his mate, he had now found his mate so, therefore, he should be more than ready to let Jacob take him but he wasn't. He had fantasized about sex with Jacob, had played out every little detail as he jerked his cock into an orgasm worthy of screams, but now he could really have it meant actually taking part. Was he supposed to be the giver or the taker? Was he supposed to prepare himself? What if Jacob didn't prepare him properly? What if…what if….what if…. The list went on forever and had his head spinning within seconds as all these things he'd never thought to ask anybody came rushing at him.
"Edward?" Jacob said uncertainly, bringing a hand up to tilt Edward's chin so he could see into his eyes, "Talk."
Edward wanted too, God did he want too. This was Jacob; he knew absolutely everything about him, he was his mate for Christ's sake! Jacob had always respected him for keeping his virginity firmly intact and he knew that, rationally, Jacob would never laugh at his pressing questions but he wasn't thinking rationally, he was thinking like some crazy person who can't string two words together. So, instead of trying to transfer his thoughts into something Jacob could make use of, he pushed himself forward and kissed Jacob firmly. Maybe he could just…think of a plan as he went along?
Now, Edward may not have had much experience with kissing, or anything else sexual, but he could tell Jacob was a fantastic kisser. He knew just when to open his mouth, knew what to lick, flick and twirl to get Edward to let out involuntary moans, whimpers and hums of pleasure. He and Bella, his only other sexual experience, had never kissed quite like Jacob kissed him. Bella had been soft, breakable and he'd been forced to stay in control so he didn't accidently squeeze her bones into dust or snap her neck. Jacob, however, was all hard muscle, ferocious and addicting. He didn't hold back while kissing so, after loosing himself for only a moment, Jacob had him backed up against the wall again and had his hands all over him.
It was as if he younger vampire had no qualms or shame. He eagerly allowed himself access to every inch of Edward's body, running cold hands through Edward's hair, down his back, around his hips and onto his arse. He didn't break the kiss as he very slowly started backing up, waiting for the backs of his knees to hit the edge of the bed before he fell backwards, arms encircling Edward to make sure they stayed connected during the transition.
Edward was lost; he didn't know what to do. He found himself on his made up bed, straddling Jacob's taught thighs while his hands gripped Jacob's hair tightly, lips moving seamlessly with the younger vampire's more experience's ones. He could feel Jacob's hands on his thighs and that alone made him want to start hyperventilating. They had done this, had done the make out part before, had spent most of the night doing just this, but it still felt weird that Jacob, his best friend, his secret desire, his forbidden mate, was touching him in more than a friendly way. He liked it, it felt better than he'd ever imagined, he'd just never thought it would feel so strange to have Jacob touch him so intimately.
"You're so hot," Jacob whispered, his lips had left Edward's and had found there way up to Edward's ear which was now under attack, Edward giving it no mercy as he drove wild moans from the body on top of him, "So fucking hot…" his hands slipped up and under Edward's shirt, feeling that muscled torso for the first time and grunting when all he found there was lithe muscle.
"Shush," Edward whimpered back, getting forced to sit up by the demanding youth underneath him if only to have his shirt ripped open in a patience shortage and it thrown to the side leaving his milky white skin in plain view of the horny vampire.
"No," Jacob smirked, flipping them over with vampire speed so Edward was now sprawled on the bed underneath him, "You are hot, everything about you just screams sex..." he pulled his own t-shirt off without fanfare, throwing it to the side before diving back down to Edward who lay panting on the mattress.
Jacob's lips made their way from Edward's lips to his jaw, from his jaw to his neck where he spent some time constructing a rather large, and obvious, hickey, making sure everyone who dared even look at Edward knew he was claimed. After soothing over the love bite with laps from his tongue, Jacob continued south pausing to give Edward's nipples some attention.
Edward was in heaven, he knew he was, he knew this was everything he'd ever dreamed of. Jacob's tongue was sending shivers across his skin, pulling invisible goose bumps from him and the gentle nips from sharp, jagged teeth were driving him crazy, forcing whimpers and moans from his throat without permission and he almost, almost, lost all semblance of thought when both tongue and teeth found his pebbled nipples. Maybe there was nothing to be scared off? Jacob would take care of him. And so what if his first time wasn't perfect? No one's was. He remembered in the back of his mind the stories his siblings had told him about their first times, the pain, the embarrassment, the cluelessness, but none of them had had their first time with their mate. They had had it with careless humans or brutal vampires. They hadn't saved theirs up for their true love or pictured it so clearly in their heads they knew exactly what they wanted; they had just thrown it away as if it didn't matter. At least, Edward consoled himself, he had made it to waiting for his mate, at least he had his loving mate to pop that oh so important cherry and start his sexual career of even if it wasn't perfect. Even if he didn't know all the answers too all his questions, even if he could hear, from his place on the bed, other vampires walking around, laughing and talking to themselves around the palace, even if his mate didn't truly love him yet…
Jacob's lips were teasing the trail of hair leading down from Edward's belly button, his experienced fingers already working on the fly of Edward's jeans, when Edward let out a sharp breath and hands pushed on his shoulders as Edward, who had, not thirty seconds before, been more than up for what Jacob was offering, "Stop," Edward yelped, scrambling of the bed and backing himself into the corner of the room leaving his confused, half naked, mate looking at him in alarm on the bed.
"Edward what…?" Jacob trailed off, not knowing what he did wrong, as his eyes took in Edward's panicky expression.
Shaking his head Edward buried his head in his hands, taking in deep breaths to calm himself before he peeked through his fingers at Jacob again, "I'm sorry, I just…I can't do this."
Frowning, Jacob pulled pushed up so he was kneeling on the bed, "Can't do what?"
Edward waved a hand at the bed, "That, this…I'm just…" he took a deep breath, "I'm not ready."
Jacob's eyes widened, he had completely forgotten that this was Edward's first time doing…anything. He internally started berating himself for being such an inconsiderate mate; this was not a good start to their mated life. "Shit Edward, I'm sorry, I completely forgot you were new to all this," Jacob said, trying to sooth his obviously anxious mate, "I just got to wrapped up in everything…you're so hot…I just…can't think around you…"
Edward nodded, bowing his head so he didn't have to look at that pleadingly apologetic look in Jacob's features, "It's fine, I should if said something."
Jacob shook his head, rising from the bed and taking a hesitant step towards Edward, "No, I'll do better, I promise, I said I could take it slow and I meant it. We'll do this at your pace okay? No pressure."
Edward nodded again. He remembered that conversation; he had joked that maybe he didn't want to take things slow…no wonder Jacob got the wrong idea, "I'm sorry."
Jacob came to a stop a foot or so away from Edward's tense body, "Don't apologize for nothing. Your first time should be special, you know I've admired you for not throwing your virginity away, and I promise not to do anything until you are absolutely ready, you chose what we do, when we do and how we do okay?"
Edward glanced up through his fringe, looking Jacob's worried eyes straight on, "Thank you."
Jacob smiled faintly though Edward could still see the worry in those eyes, "Anything."
They stood like that for a long moment, silent and slightly awkward. Jacob taking in the innocent, vulnerable man he had standing before him with no shirt, unbuttoned jeans and hair falling into his eyes. He looked so unbelievably cute that he couldn't help but fight a grin; this was his mate. Before he could voice that little tit bit, Edward himself had moved forward, folding Jacob in a tentative hug which Jacob took full advantage off, wrapping his arms around the smaller vampire tightly and burying his nose in Edward's fluffy hair too take in that irresistible scent. When he felt Edward slowly pull back he dropped his arms immediately, looking into Edward's eyes for an idea of what he should do next.
Edward knew Jacob was waiting for him to act, waiting for a signal from him, so he quickly diverted his gaze to the window, eyeing the gray sky before turning back to Jacob with a hesitant smile, "You want to go on a walk with me?"
Jacob knew that Edward was just trying to go back to normal, pretend like the previous half hour didn't happen, and he was happy to play along, "Course, you want to go now?"
"Err…" Edward gazed down at himself, "Let me jump in the shower first?"
"Sure, I'll go tell mum so she doesn't freak when she can't find us, and meet you at the front in ten minutes?"
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The city wasn't too busy, it never was outside tourist season, so Edward and Jacob made their way through the little cobbled streets together, talking about nonsense and generally ignoring all subjects categorized as 'serious'. Volturi was a beautiful place and privet enough that it made both feel at home easily. This was their territory and there was nothing to harm them within the walls of the city.
When they reached the lookout point, the highest bit of the city walls, an hour or so into their slow meander they both quickly settled themselves onto the wall side by side, gazing out over the vast planes of Italy contentedly. It was then that Edward decided to bring up something he knew would most likely end in an argument.
"I was thinking I should leave in a few days," he said suddenly, breaking the silence that had fallen across them comfortably, fiddling nervously with the fingers of Jacob's right hand.
Jacob's head snapped to look at him, "Excuse me?"
"Leaving, you know? Forks? Bella's funeral?" Edward said uncomfortably, Jacob wasn't going to like this…
Jacob frowned, "You're actually going?!"
"Of course, just because we got together doesn't mean I can just let her death happen without consequences," Edward said.
"But…I…you…you can't!"
Edward didn't look up, "I have too, I shouldn't be more than six months."
"Six months!?" Jacob breathed incredulously, "You're going to chase after some nomad for six months!?"
"You knew this…" Edward started.
"I know! I didn't think you'd actually do it though! You live here now; you can't go back to Forks…you can't just up and leave now I've just figured it all out," Jacob said desperately. He didn't know why he had a sudden panic about Edward leaving; he just couldn't fathom being stuck here without him, without his mate.
"Jake…" Edward said, making sure his voice was low and soothing, "I'm not leaving you. I'm going to pay my respects, visit my family then track Victoria. I'll phone you!"
Jacob just shook his head, "You don't even know how to track Edward; you've had no training."
Edward shifted uncomfortably, not allowing Jacob to pull his hand out of his own in protest, "I'll figure it out, it can't be that hard."
Snorting Jacob shook his head, "I don't want you to leave me for…that girl. You should forget about her."
Raising an eyebrow Edward finally look up from their twining fingers, "Bella's dead, I'm just going to pay my respects to Charlie."
"You knew Charlie for less than a year and I doubt he's going to be glad to see his dead daughter's ex boyfriend," Jacob muttered, kicking his heel against the wall as he glared out at the fields surrounding the city.
"I'm just being polite Jake," Edward murmured back softly, "Plus it gives me a chance to see my family."
"You have family here!"
Edward smiled, knowing Jacob was clutching at threads, "I know." He leant over and nuzzled his nose into Jacob's cheek, "You're my family. But Carlisle, Esme…they're….They're my parents Jake. They're like Heidi and Felix…parents."
Jacob nodded, he'd heard a lot about Edward's family, his parents and siblings, had even expressed an interest in meeting them one day, but he didn't like the idea of Edward having a family outside him, "Come back after you visit them, leave your nomad."
Sighing Edward dropped his head to Jacob shoulder, "I can't, I won't. I need to do this. I'm sorry it'll take so long and…I really don't want to leave you for so long but I have too. Please understand."
Silence fell over them and a good ten minutes passed before either spoke, "Fine," was all Jacob said but it was all Edward needed as he pressed his lips to the corner of Jacob's own.
"Thanks."
Jacob just shrugged, not looking at Edward and the older vampire knew he had upset Jacob but he didn't know how to fix it…
"Hey," he murmured softly, "Come with me."
Jacob frowned, "What?"
"Come with me," Edward repeated, the idea running through his head, "Come to Forks with me then help me track Victoria, you can track things quicker than me. We'd be done much sooner and it would give you a chance to get out of the city for a bit."
Jacob had turned to him with his eyes narrowed, wondering if Edward was teasing, "You mean that? You want me to come to Forks? Meet you family and stuff?"
Edward grinned and kissed Jacob's chin, "More than anything," his smile didn't waver as he admitted that. He hadn't been looking forward to going home alone anyway, he didn't know what his family would be like now he had changed so drastically and having Jacob, his mate, to introduce to them might help plus he really didn't want to be apart from Jacob for a few hours let alone months, "So do you want to come?"
Jacob scooped Edward into his arms, hugging him tight and letting his head bury its way into Edward's neck so his expression was hidden when he spoke, "I'd love too."
"Good," Edward beamed, wrapping his arms around Edward neck, "Now you just need to convince Heidi to let you go…"
Jacob froze, he hadn't even thought about what his mother would make of their newly made plans, "Oh shit."
Heidi sat stock still, her eyes narrowed on her son and him mate who were both shifting uncomfortably under her gaze together on the couch.
"Mum! Say something!" Jacob whined after the silence got too much for him, "It's not forever, I'll be back before you can miss me!"
Heidi just glared at that comment, "You think I won't miss you when you're going to be gone six months you big prat!?"
"So you're letting me go?" Jacob actually sounded surprised, he had been expecting he'd have to petition to Felix to get his insane wife to agree.
"You're my son! You're not supposed to leave without us into the world…anything could happen," she was on her feet now, pacing and chewing at her usually immaculate fingernails, a tell tale sign she was stressed.
"Mum? I've told you, I'm not leaving forever, just a few little months and I can look after myself! Plus I have Edward with me, nothing's going to happen."
Heidi looked apologetically at Edward, "I know but…no ones there to look after you!"
Rolling his eyes Jacob fought to keep his face in line, "Mum, I can look after myself you know? I thought that was the whole point of training me so hard?"
Before Heidi had a chance to answer Felix stalked in looking curious, "Corin said you needed me?" he glanced between his pleading son and anxious looking wife, "What's going on?"
"Your son wants to leave!" Heidi exclaimed dramatically and threw herself into the arms of her very confused husband.
"Jakes wanted to leave for years, what's changed?" he asked curiously, glancing to his son who had his hands holding up his chin as he stared at his insane parents.
"Edward's going back to Forks for a bit then he had a nomad he wants to kill; he asked me if I want to go," Jacob explained, his pleading eyes on his father to see sense.
Felix nodded and glanced down at his clutching mate, "And you don't want him to go because?"
"He's leaving us Felix! Of course I don't want him to go! He's my baby, he's my little baby. He's not supposed to go out their, all alone…"
Felix nodded and pulled her in for a hug, looking at his son and Edward, "Get lost for a few hours, we'll talk about it," he motioned to himself and Heidi who was looking hopefully at her husband as both Jacob and Edward filed out the room.
They walked in silence down the corridor, Edward's hand clutching onto Jacob's, as they listened to the beginnings of what promised to be a rather long and loud argument between parental figures, "That could of gone better." Jacob's commented dryly.
"She'll let you leave; she knows you'll do it anyway. She's just being a mum by not wanting you to go," Edward assured his boyfriend who let out a chuckle before he quickly dragged Edward into his own room.
Heidi paced in front of her son and Edward once more a couple of hours later. She was stressed, that much was obvious, but she was trying her best to stay calm under the orders of her husband who was standing not two meters behind him watching her like a hawk.
"We're discussed your little…idea," she started off, not look her son in the eye, "And as much as I want to, I cannot keep you here."
A tense silence followed as they waited for her to say something else but nothing came, "That's it? I can go?"
Heidi looked ready to protest but her husband jumped in before she could, "We can't keep you here Jake, you want to go, you can go."
Jacob grinned and jumped up, "Thanks! I thought I'd have to sneak out in the middle of the night and-"
"There are conditions Jake," Felix said sternly under his wife's pointed look, "You'll be phoning every other day, we'll be asking Demetri where you occasionally just in case and, this is for you to Edward, if it takes you too long to find this nomad, one of us will be coming to get you and you'll be dragged back here and I don't care what you say about it; Got it?"
Jacob looked like he wanted to argue but Edward squeezed his leg softly to tell him not to, his parents had a right to be worried and both, no matter how much Felix tried to hide it, were dreading saying goodbye to their son for the first time since they'd turned him. So, sighing, Jacob gave in and nodded in his acceptance to these conditions, "Right, fine."
It only took Heidi three steps before he had her son in a tight embrace, holding him tight, "I'm going to miss you!"
Jacob glanced at Edward, then at his apologetic looking father before he wrapped his arms around his mother's waist loosely, "Yeah, I'll miss you too mum but I'm not leaving for a few more days."
"I know," Heidi sighed, pulling back and gazing at her son with an unreadable expression on her pretty face. "You've grown up so much," she hummed, turning to envelope Edward in an equally tight hug. "You look after my baby Edward, and I expect to see you back in the same condition you leave in."
Edward smiled, knowing that Heidi was almost as worried about him as she was her son, "I will."
"Hmm," Heidi said while stepping back into her husbands comforting arms, "You two better go get ready for the council. We'll have to tell Aro what you're planning to do and no doubt he'll give you a few more conditions."
Nodding both Edward and Jacob left Heidi's rooms in a much happier mood than they had previously been in. They would be leaving, leaving the city for a few months to visit Edward's family and both were pretty excited; Edward to see his family and Jacob to simply get out of the cage they call a city. What they didn't think of however, were the creatures still dwelling across the forest from the Cullen's.
A/N: I know this chapter isn't brilliant but it just wouldn't...write so yeah. I was going to write some really inappropriate sex into it some where but i figured since this is Edward's first time he would be jumping right into it even if it is his mate? Loosing the dreaded V is always an embarrassing situation and i guess i don't want his to be perfect since, in reality, it never is? or something sentimental like that ;) I wrote this on an emotional day; my excuse for ignoring steamy sex in favour of awkward turtle moments.
Oh! If anyones a Beta and looking for some work I'd loooove it if you took up this story...i know i make mistakes and i'd really appreciate it if someone wouldn't mind doing some grammer checking ;) PM/email me if you're interested...
Hope you liked it and I can't honestly say when i'll have the next chapter up seeing as i've not even started writing though i do have an idea about what's going to happen in it (:
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