Chapter 4... "Tessa, I can't hold this back anymore." "I know Will, I can't either."
Will couldn't help but feel like the luckiest man alive when he saw that small smile light up his Tess's beautiful face. He gently caressed her cheek and Tessa looked up at him with those beautiful gray eyes of hers, filled with her love for him. He wanted to kiss her right then and there but the consequences could be deadly, because he knew that once he started there was no going back. There was no way he could stop himself. Any other night he would have pushed her away, always caring so much about that damned curse than the way he had hurt her. But tonight, tonight was different. It was just him and Tessa, screw the rest of the world. She seemed to see that in him, that all he wanted was her, that there was nothing that mattered more. But he knew that he had to tell her that he had to hear himself say it. He still couldn't believe this was happening. But he also wanted to make sure that he wasn't forcing her into something. He could never do that to his Tess.
"Tessa, I shouldn't be doing this but Tess, I can't explain right now but it's not right and I want you to know that...that you don't have to do this." he finished, his voice rough and cracking at the end. He even took a step back from Tessa, giving her space to move. His face turned to the floor and he almost turned away, if it wasnt for Tessas small hands turning him to face her. His eyes looked her way and what he saw was the same way he always imagined her looking at him, with love, desire, and passion. But he still had to hear her say it for herself.
Tessa looked at her angel, her Will, her first love. She was shocked at his gentleness, his caringness, when he quietly told her that she didn't have to do this. It shocked her, that Will, William Herondale of all people, was giving her choice, even though she could tell that all he wanted to do was take her right then and there. Not that she minded of course, she longed for his touch as much as he did, and the fact that he was giving her a chance to walk away made her love for this beautiful boy grow even more.
"Will, come on, look at me." she said gently as his bright blue eyes finally reached hers. They looked at her with such care that it took all her might not to kiss him right then and there.
"Tess, this isn't right. You and Jem...he's courting you,it wouldn't be fair." Will said, and she could tell he was trying to change her mind. She had no idea why, but right then it didn't matter. Nothing could hanger her mind. Nothing, not even if mortimain's entire clockwork army came at her. She loved Will, and he would be hers tonight.
"I know." Tessa said, pulling him closer.
"Tessa, please, I dont deserve you after how rude I've been to you. " he tried again, but his eyes and voice betrayed him.
"I know that too." She said as her arms wrapped around his neck, leaving his face mere centimeters away from hers, and her body completely molding into his.
"Tessa, Tess..." he tried, and then quietly said, "Tessa, I...I cant hold this back anymore." his voice was barely a whisper as he looked into those beautiful gray eyes of his Tessa.
He looked at her with such passion that it melted her heart and she knew that right then at that moment, she couldn't deny the fact either. "I know Will, I can't either." she whispered before capturing his lips in another heated kiss. His hands wrapped around her small waist, and her fingers entangled themselves in his unkept black hair. Wills hands were all over her body, his mouth was all over her mouth, and Tessa Gray had never felt so alive. Their lips fought for dominance, leaving them panting for air, and longing for desire.
The stone of the balcony rail was digging into Tessa's back but she didn't care. Having a sore back was the least of her problems. It seemed that every where he touched, she burned and ached for his touch. Just wanting more and more, she couldn't get enough. His lips now left her mouth as they peppered her neck and jaw with sexy kisses. Will grazed his teeth gently, teasing her and making her feel such pleasure like never before. Oh how she needed him more. "Will!" Tessa gasped as she felt a sharp bite on neck. She knew he was leaving marks, but right then she didn't care whether he left marks or not, she just didn't want him to stop.
Will felt himself grin when Tessa let out that blissful gasp, pulling him closer and closer. But he felt like teasing her, as he gently grazed his teeth around the sensitive skin of her collar bone. He heard her moan again as he did so. God, he couldn't wait to hear her screaming his name.
Tessa was burning, even more than before. Oh the things that Will was doing to her body just didnt seem enough. She wanted him more than ever and part of her knew that he knew that too but was just having too much fun teasing her. She impatiently clawed at his shirt, attempting to get it off when Will, quick as a flash did that for her, discarding the rumpled up piece of cloth like it was trash.
She gasped at how muscled he was, his arms and torso outlined by dark runes. She wanted to trace every single one of them, and that's exactly what she did. She felt Will groan as her hands traced his scars and runes. She'd never seen so much of a boy before and she had to say she liked it very much. This was different than that time with Jem, it was like she had done it just because she was...starved of someone's touch. She had wanted Will so long that Jem had just come into play for a substitute. She felt guilty just thinking about it, but all that guilt dissolved when Will bit down on her neck again, making her moan even louder. That's it, she needed him. There was a fire starting in the pit of her stomach that she couldn't stop and it was eating her up. She needed Will.
"Will...you...me...b-bed...NOW" she managed between gasps and moans. God forbid what Will was doing with those magical hands of his but it felt so good, forget what Aunt Harriet would say if she saw him.
"What was that Tess?" asked Will teasingly, as he lifted Tessa up so that she was straddling him. He looked at her gray eyes filled with desire and longing. Her cheeks were flushed and her brown hair was messy from when he had burrowed his face in it trying to get as much as Tessas scent as he could. Her nightgown was sticking to her with sweat oh so sexily, that he had to agree he couldn't tease her much longer.
"I said-" she began but couldn't help but gasp when Will pulled her even closer. She was now sitting on the balcony rail, straddling Will and holding on to him like there was no point of letting go. His eyes were so dark and filled with passion, they were like midnight. His hair was mussed up from her hands and his chest was bare. It was obvious he wanted her-no NEEDED her as much as she did.
"Will, I want you." Tessa whispered, looking at him with her eyes filled with love. He felt his need for her grow even more.
"Tess, I want you too, but you have to know once we start, I can't stop. I just can't." He said, his tone almost serious, if it wasn't for the love and desire in his voice.
"I know Will, because i don't think I can stop either. I don't want you Will. I...need you." she whispered softly, her warm breath tickling his ear.
"Brilliant. So my room it is?" he asked, a smile on his face when she looked at him with confusion and said,"You have a room?"
"Yes Tessa dear, I have a room. And more importantly I have a bed. " he said, the inneudo clear in his voice when he picked her up off the edge and fastened his mouth to hers once again.
He led her through the dark Institute, down hallways and stairs, she had no idea where they were going, like she cared anyway, as long as she was with Will, she knew she was safe. His lips never once left hers as he navigated his way to his room, and within minutes, Will was fumbling through the door, finally getting it open and pushing through, with a giggling Tessa. She leapt from his arms and looked around at Wills room.
It looked like any other teenage boys room, messy and mostly unkept but the one thing that striked it different were the and books and books, everywhere, stuffed in his dresser, piled against the walls, stuffed between the mattress. Tessa gaped in awe, as she heard Will cursing as he struggled to close his door. A pile of books were blocking him from closing it. He finally did, letting out a sigh of relief.
"Like what you see, Tess?" Will said as his arms, wrapped around her waist, his lips gently giving her a chaste kiss on her cheek.
"Will, you never told me that you -is that a Tale of Two Cities?" she asked shocked. He had told her he hated that book. She turned around and looked at him, her hands on her hips.
"Fine, Tess, you caught me,I guess there was more to the book than I first saw. You were right." he said grumbling in a way that made Tessa laugh out loud. He looked so adorable when he was like that.
"See Will, I TOLD you so!" she said in an extremely childish manner and they both fell on his bed laughing.
He turned and so now that they both faced each other. She was so beautiful, he still couldn't believe that she was right here, with him in his bed, looking at him with a smile that could light up the entire world. He pulled her close so now that their foreheads were almost touching.
"Theresa Gray, I have loved you since the moment I saw you and I will love you as long as I live, and If there's life after that I'll love you then. Tessa Gray, you are mine." Will said softly and he felt Tessa's hand caress his face.
"I know William Herondale, I love you too." she said and their lips met in a gentle kiss. This kiss was so much more, it was unlike the other heated kisses which were all just desire and longing. This kiss was different, it was like they were treasuring every second, each filled with their pure and undying love for each other, not just lust.
Their sweet kiss lasted for some time, but sooner or later, Tessa felt that same heated sensation run through her body, making her burn and ache for his touch. She pulled a shirtless Will on top of her as their kiss deepened and the animals in them came out.
"Will, just..just take it off!" Tessa said impatiently as Wills hand trailed the edge of her night gown. With one swift motion the frail piece of cloth was off, and Tessa was on full display for Will. She felt herself flush and tried to cover herself up, but Will only pinned her hands above her head. "Tessa, you're beautiful and dont you forget it." he said fiercely as his lips captured hers once again.
Sooner or later, Tessa's nimble hands managed to get Wills pants off and Will loomed over her looking like her own dark angel, not a piece of cloth on either one of their bodies.
"Tess, I love you." Will said quietly, then she felt a stab of pain and couldn't help but gasp out loud.
"I'm sorry Tess, itll be over soon i promise." he whispered soothingly and she opened he eyes to see his caring eyes looking at her with his pure and undenying love for her. She felt better already.
They started out slow, but it was just a matter of time before Tessas hips rocked Wills and they found themselves in an entwined rhythm.
"Oh Will, DON'T STOP!" Tessa moaned, the pain had subsided and was a gateway to pleasure she had never imagined she could ever feel. It was like heaven, except better since Will was there with her.
"I feel within me a peace above all earthly dignities, a still and-" Will said between gasps. His face was beaded with sweat as he moved at an unearthly fast place.
"-Quiet consience" Tessa finished, her cheeks flushed, her lips swollen from kissing, asking Will, "Will, why on earth are you quoting Shakespeare when you're making love t-OH WILL IM GONNA..." she yelled and Wills pace began to quicken as well. She screamed his name, and he swore that he had never heard anything more beautiful, as the pleasure shot through her, leaving her limp and tired.
He came seconds later, his voice screaming "TESS!", then landing right beside her, tired as well. He looked at the beautiful goddess next to him and couldn't believe what he had done. She looked at him with her gray eyes, which had a strange new brightness to them, as she pulled him closer.
"I know myself better. But, this I know, too: I would embrace any sacrifice for you and for those dear to you. Will you hold me in your mind as being ardent and sincere in this one thing? Think now and then that there is a man who would give his life to keep a life you love beside you? " Will said quietly, and Tessa felt her heart swell. He truly was her Sydney Carton from the Tale of Two Cities.
"Thank you, Sydney. God grant that it may never be necessary. " she finished, their lips almost touching.
"I love you Tessa Gray." Will said as he pulled her close, so that she lay on his chest.
"I love you too William Herondale." she whispered as she snuggled into Wills protective arms and closed her eyes, smiling, feeling like herself at last.
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