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The week was uneventful for both April and Shelby. They kept their distance but they were also distracted by each other and the past. They tried to forget, one in the bottle other in rearranging her house for 100th time. And they were both victims of their minds- which played tricks on them, sending them flashbacks and memories of old times. All sort of emotions were piercing their hearts- emptiness, betrayal, anger, belonging and traces of past happiness.
April walked in auditorium 30 minutes before the Glee rehearsal. She didn't expect to find Rachel Berry sitting at the piano and singing.
''Hello Miss Rhodes.'' Rachel greeted
''Hello Rachel. How are you?'' April asked as she took of her coat
''I'm fine.'' Rachel said smiling. April saw the girl smiling before and this smile was big fake smile
''No you're not. It's a fake smile- being on Broadway for so many years comes in handy with this sort of things.''
''I really shouldn't talk about it.'' Rachel said
''Rachel, everything you say will stay between us. You can trust me.'' April said
''I...I have two dads and a mom. And lately I have these dreams about us when I was younger.'' Rachel sighed ''You see, for some reason I do not remember almost anything before my 7th birthday I celebrated here in Lima. My parents said we lived in suburbs of New York, but I remember Manhattan from my dreams. And when you came my dreams triggered off. I constantly dream of a blond woman I'm running to and she waits for me and hugs me and we spin...which is crazy because there isn't any 'blond angel like' woman in my life. But then again, my parents never want to talk about New York and I don't pressure them because I can see it causes them lot of pain, especially to mom. My dady Leroy looks just scared when I talk about New York, my dad Hiram looks angry at something, but my mom...her eyes turn... You know that look people have when everything they loved disappeared?''
''Yeah, I know that feeling and that look.'' April admitted, her eyes full of tears
''Well, she looks like her heart was ripped out of her chest.'' Rachel sighed ''And for some reason, she has that look in her eyes again, even though I never mentioned New York.''
''I'm sure they'll tell you everything when they'll be ready to talk about it.'' April said ''I know that it hurts you to see your mom sad, but I'm sure that she'll be alright.''
''I hope so. I'm just used to see my mom like strong, brilliant woman. I haven't seen her cry in my life and I'm afraid I will wittiness it soon.''
''Everything will be okay, don't you worry.'' April hugged Rachel and wipe away tears that made their way down Rachel's cheeks
''I'm so glad you agreed to have dinner with me.'' said Will
''I'm happy to be here.'' Shelby said with small smile
''I heard this new restaurant is great'' said Will as they entered
''Well, I guess we'll see that tonight.''
''Reservation, sir.''the man said
''Schuester'' Will replied
''One moment sir.''
''Will, Shelby.'' said April. Shelby and Will turned around to find April with a man- her fiancee, presumed Shelby.
''April, hello. I see you came to try out new restaurant.'' Will smiled
''Yes, we did. This is Mark, my fiancee. Mark these are William and Shelby.'' April said
''Nice to meet you both'' said Mark shaking their hands
''What do you say of a double date?'' Will asked optimistically
''I like that idea.'' agreed Mark, both of them missing the looks on their dates
After they ordered their meals, boys started to talk about sports and thankfully it kept them away from their distressed ladies. They were both deep in thoughts
Shelby remembered one particular situation
Shelby walked in apartment to be greeted by smell of dinner. She stopped at the kitchen's entrance to enjoy the sight in front of her
''Yeey, we've done it. I think you're mom will be proud.'' April said
''It'll taste jummy and mom will be happy.'' 4 year old Rachel said
''That she'll be, sweety pie.'' blond said wiping flour off Rachel's face
''I'm already happy.'' Shelby smiled
In the same time April was thinking about something she avoid whole day
Rachel, Shelby and she went to Central Park. Central Parked always looked amazing in fall-hundreds of different colours of the leafs. It was a chilly day and they were running around to warm up
''Come on Rach, run to your mommy.'' Shelby said and Rachel took off. April knelled and opened her arms wide
''I'm coming mommy,'' Rach yelled and jumped on her. They fell down on leafs laughing
''Clumsy mommy''
''April.'' Mark tried again
''Hm? I'm sorry, I was lost in my thoughts.'' April smiled
''Yes, we can see that.'' Mark smiled ''We were talking about Glee.''
''Glee is excellent. We have good shots on Sectionals.'' the conversation was alright until Will asked
''So, how did you two met?''
''Well, April's parents introduced her to me on Christmas mass.'' Mark said
''Ahh, cool.'' Will said
''Yeah, it's always cool to have your parents tell you what to do.'' Shelby said
''Well, I can see your point of view,but there are always exception.'' April said grabbing Mark's hand and smiling at him
''So where did you buy a house?'' asked Shelby. She was angry, no she was furious, but she didn't see anything good in making a scene
''We don't live together yet.'' said Mark ''After we get married we'll move in together, it wouldn't be appropriate otherwise.''
''I see...'' Shelby said
''Do you find it difficult to believe?'' asked April
''No, no. I just think that people should know each other better before getting married. I mean, they should get to know each others habits.'' Shelby said
''There will be time for that.'' smiled Mark
''Yes, Shelby would you accompany me to the bathroom before dessert arrives?'' April asked with warning sign Shelby still recognised
''Gladly.'' Shelby said getting up
''Yes, you girls just fresh up.'' Mark commented and then started to talk about football with Will again
After checking the bathroom stalls were indeed empty April turned to Shelby
''What the hell?''
''Excuse me?''
''Oh please, you are sending Mark death glares whole night and those last comments...''
''What?'' Shelby interrupted ''Do you expect me to be happy?'' she moved to stand right in front of April
''What are you doing?'' April asked, her breathing getting harder. The scent she knew so well was here again and it was always so addictive
''Nothing. I'm talking to you.'' Shelby said and grabbed April, turned her around and pressed against the sink.
April had forgotten how fast and strong Shelby was and before realising what was happening, she found herself staring in her reflection, pressed against sink in front and by Shelby from back.
''He's nothing.'' Shelby whispered to April
''He'll never be enough'' she said moving blond hair away
''His touch will never have the same effect.'' Shelby said as she traced April's neck with her lips. April's breathing got even harder, her hands gripped the sink
''Tell me...'' Shelby said slowly kissing April's neck with sooo light kisses ''Does he ever get this kind of reaction from you?'' she gripped April's hips gently, making circles with her fingers. April whimpered
''Answer me...''Shelby said again ''Nooo...'' was April's breathy answer
''At the end of a night...'' Shelby asked as she sucked on April's neck ''Do you fell apart in his arms? Like you did once in mine?''
''Ohh Goood...'' moaned April as Shelby's lips continued to suck on her neck and her hands kept on moving on her hips and lower stomach
''Can he make you scream his name like I made you scream mine in utter delight?''
''My God, Shelby...'' April moaned as Shelby's hands moved on her thighs
''Answer me.''
''Never.'' admitted April
''And he never will- because I am the only one who can do that. He'll never be me.'' Shelby said and walked out of the bathroom.
Yes, this was her little victory. Letting April know he'll never be as good as her.
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