Chapter 3
I don't own Sp.
Sorry for the simplistic writing style. This is just a filler really, I didn't want to write about a boring graduation so it was better talking about a party. Emotions are really running high though when Yaya allows the girls to explore their feelings.
Nagisa
Nobody would answer me. Everyone sat around a low table like usual, except Kizuna, Remon, Kagome and Chikaru were here. Chikaru's cheeks were red, Yaya's hair was messy, Hikari was holding a red bottle, Chiyo was eating a stupid rice cake, Kagome was staring at me, Remon was looking at the closet, Kizuna was looking at Remon. Where were Tamao and Tsubomi? I sat down at the table to join them, beside Chikaru.
"So, what's going on?"
Chikaru began to explain.
"There's no class today so we decided to come here and have a quiet party. How did Shizuma's and Miyuki's ceremony go?"
I thought about Shizuma, getting that certificate thingy, then the mass. It was boring and I was trying not to cry. I didn't know how to describe it to Chikaru in front of everyone.
"Shizuma was the only one who didn't cry."Chikaru giggled.
"And Miyuki? Was she the only one bawling?"
"No actually."
"That's odd."
Everyone went silent after that little bit of conversation. I was going to ask for some cake but instead I asked.
"Where's Tamao-chan?"The others fell silent again. Yaya grinned.
"Don't tell me she went to class."
That would explain Tsubomi's absence, too.
"Oshibaru knows."
I looked at Kagome holding Oshibaru on the table.
"Where?" I laughed, asking again, sounding silly.
"She's hiding in the closet."
Was that supposed to be some kind of joke? Then I heard a bang in the closet. I stood up.
"Wait…"
Hikari picked up a devise and studied it, what was going on? I went onto the closet anyway. Why was Tamao hiding from me? I grasped the door knob.
"Nagisa, what are you doing?"Yaya asked, concerned.
"Why is Tamao hiding on me?"I swung the door open.
"I found y-"
Tamao's hair was down, just like it was when she slept. Her long sapphire hair was messy, her tie was undone, her face was completely pink, she was breathing heavy, looking at me with a guilty expression, her violet eyes were swimming with an emotion I didn't recognise. I'd never seen it before, Tamao never had to be guilty for anything. She was a mess, I'd never seen her like this before, but worse of all she had a first year in between her legs, she was holding her so tight. I looked at Tsubomi, her eyebrows were knitted together, but her eyes were wide, her lips were pursed. Was she angry or shocked or confused? I didn't care. I slowly closed the door and let them do whatever the hell they were doing. I didn't want to be here anymore.
"Nagisa!"
Yaya shouted after me when I ran out of the room. Why was everyone else so silent? Why was she always the only one speaking? What has gotten into everyone? I felt so angry tears burned my eyes. I only came here for Tamao before I went to back to Shizuma. I only wanted to say I was there before I slept in Shizuma's dorm again.
Yaya
I felt terrible, I felt ruthless but the end justifies the means. Everyone secretly wanted this, just no-one would voice their opinion. Things turned out better than I expected, although I can't believe Tsubomi made the bottle land on Hikari that time. I probably looked like a bitch but I needed Tamao to be happy, Tsubomi gets crushes on all her upperclassmen, when I found out she liked Tamao I thought this was perfect. Tamao needed to get over Nagisa, Tsubomi needed to get over Hikari. I was playing cupid rather ruthlessly but I needed to. I stuck to my plan, Tamao didn't deserve any of this. Ever since I read her diary that time me and Nagisa were curious and she said what it takes for her to get over love I've stuck to this plan. I didn't need her going through what I went through. Plus, I needed some loving, too. Chikaru definitely liked me kissing her, I became breathless again just thinking about it. I swallowed down hard, I had to put on a poker face if I was going to get Chikaru. I needed someone and she was perfect. Hikari glanced at me, her sad eyes looked questioning.
"You okay?"I asked. She nodded. Now all I needed was Kagome to come out of her shell. I held the magnet under the table.
"Aren't we going to tell them time's up?"
Kizuna asked.
"Come on, they're having too much fun."
"But Nagisa seemed upset, I don't think she knew what was going on."
Remon added.
"Why was she so upset?"
Chiyo asked, seeming upset herself.
"Because, she thought Tamao was hiding on her? I don't know...."
I responded to the annoying questions. I looked Kagome's blank expression. Okay, she had no idea what was going on, good. She was extremely socially anxious, I needed to help her. Chikaru told me in the bathroom she didn't want Kagome playing, she said Kagome may not seem like it but she's extremely intelligent she's just innocent. She asked me if it landed on her to make sure she didn't end up alone with someone for seven minutes. She said she was trying her best in every way to help her out of her shell so why would I do that? She told me Kagome had selective mutism, a disorder where you get too scared around people and you just can't talk no matter how hard you try. Chikaru got her to use an old teddy in her room that she had since she was a baby and that if she couldn't talk the bear could talk for her. Chikaru said it was the closest she'd get to the little blonde talking.
"Hikari, spin the bottle."
She was just like us, there was nothing different about Kagome. We had to stop treating her like a child. Hikari spun the bottle. I didn't do this before, it looked hard to do. I needed Tsubomi. As the bottle started spinning I thought about Tsubomi. I didn't think she couldn't resist temptation, maybe she gives into her feelings a little more than I gave credit for. This was going so well even after Nagisa came they continued. Was it a full moon cause everyone was acting weird. Maybe that's what happens when everyone's so love shy then this opportunity comes up. The bottle was spinning for ages. Then it slowed down, I started spinning it slowly with my magnet and then stopped at Kagome. Chikaru's alarming look caught my eye.
"Spin it again."
I asked Hikari.
"Yaya…."
Chikaru looked at me with an expression that said "what the hell are you doing?".
This time I had it land on Hikari. Kagome was just like the rest of us, she shouldn't be treated any differently. She just shouldn't be at whatever Tsubomi and Tamao are at....Hikari sighed so that it wasn't obvious. Kagome shifted uncomfortably. Her scared expression was telling, her teal eyes didn't know where to look. She grabbed her bear quickly and lifted up to Hikari face slowly. Hikari pecked her bear.
"Hikari, give her a kiss!"
I complained. Hikari looked at me with a disgusted expression, Chikaru was probably looking at me the same way.
"Who does Kagome want to kiss?"
I asked. Kagome's wide eyes softened. She looked at Chiyo, I knew it!
"Kagome, you don't have to kiss anybody."
I said, in the softest voice I could. Nobody complained, everyone understood. But we had to give her the option. Maybe she didn't even like girls, my guess was she was asexual but that's only a guess. It wouldn't be right to bet my life on it.
"Oshibaru doesn't want to go to school."
Her tender voice explained. She understood what was going on.
"Well there's only a half an hour left of school. You don't have to go to school, you don't have to kiss anybody but since you got Hikari, you can choose who you want to kiss. What do you want to do Kagome?"
Kagome held her bear close, she looked around at everyone at the table.
"Oshibaru wants to go into the closet."
"No Kagome!"
"Chikaru, calm down, let her do what she wants."
Chikaru wasn't happy with me, not at all.
"Do you want to go with someone?"
Kagome nodded, she pointed at Chikaru. I held my laughter in. This was good, this was really good. I was getting through to the girl.
"Does Kagome want to…kiss Chikaru?"
Kagome looked at everyone around her, focusing on her. She nodded her head slowly. She had to be the most adorable first year in the history of Astraea hill. From looking at Chikaru I could guess that she didn't want to even peck her.
"She's only twelve, I'm sixteen,"
Chikaru explained.
"Let's stop playing this game."
I shook my head.
"Chikaru, if you're going to reject her at least do it to her face."
Chikaru stood up, walked over to me and grabbed my hand. She dragged me into the bathroom again. When we got in we heard sobbing outside. Poor Kagome…
"Yaya, stop this nonsense. I know what you're up to, I know you're rigging this and that was okay with me. Until Nagisa got hurt, until Hikari had to cheat on Amane."
Chikaru looked serious.
"It's okay Kagome."
We heard from the outside
"It was only a peck Chikaru."
Chikaru shook her head.
"It lasted at least three seconds, both of them were glowing after it, it's not right,"
I felt a pang of jealousy in my heart. Hikari liked kissing Tsubomi?
"And Kagome, she's not even thirteen yet, she's still a child."
I went to open my mouth but Chikaru wasn't finished ranting.
"Nagisa ran out of here Yaya."
"Nagisa can't walk, she has to run everywhere."
I sighed inwardly.
"Chikaru…Give her a peck, she deserves to be treated like the rest of us."
Chikaru looked cross, I'd never seen her look that angry, only when she was playing Carmen.
"What? She deserves to experience unrequited love? To have a fling with someone she cares about when she wants so much more? She deserves to have her heart broken in so many ways imaginable to human mind only ten times worse then anyone can comprehend unless they experience it? She doesn't deserve any of that, she's a good kid."
A fling when she wants so much more? My heart fluttered when she said that.
"We all were good kids, we all have to grow up sometime though."
"She's still a kid Yaya. Her first love, her first kiss, they should be with someone she cares about, who cares about her."
Chikaru glared at me, her cheeks were red again.
"You want so much more?"
Her cheeks grew an even darker shade of red.
"And what?"
"You wouldn't even let me touch your boobs."Chikaru rolled her eyes.
"More importantly you're still a child."
She turned to leave, I reached out and grasped her shoulder.
"What do you want now?"
"What are you going to do about Kagome?"
I asked.
"I'm taking her back to her dorm now, along with the other two. What are you going to do with Nagisa? What if she has feelings for Tamao just stronger ones for Shizuma? What if seeing that made her jealous and made her realise she could have feelings for both? She doesn't need that burden. What are you going to do about Hikari? She obviously has feelings for you."
"Obviously? Really?"
"You and Tsubomi from what I can see, you can like more than one person you know?"
"But you can only love one person."
"What makes you so sure?"
"I've tried it."
"You're a child, you wouldn't know any better."
Chikaru hurried away, like a mother with her three kids. She left me standing in the bathroom. Tamao and Tsubomi were finally out, they were looking at me along with everyone else. My chance with Chikaru flew out the window. I knew I would've been so happy with her.
Tamao
Why was Nagisa so upset? It was probably because she had no idea what was going on. After Nagisa closed the door again Tsubomi said something that really hit home.
"She's running away from you again."
She whispered, stroking my cheek. I really couldn't resist her and she was only thirteen. It felt like she was older than me. But Nagisa's expression was stuck in my head, she looked at me like I was slaughtering babies or something. I didn't understand why but I wasn't throwing away my shot at love. I started thinking about me and Tsubomi being together. I couldn't stop then. This was exactly what I needed to get over Nagisa quicker. I had no idea what was going on with Chikaru, I wasn't even listening, I was lost in a deep passionate kiss. I had no idea why nobody stopped us either, the time had to have run out, we must've been in there for thirty minutes straight. But when we came out Chikaru was walking out with the other Lulim girls. Yaya was standing in the bathroom looking bitterly at her. Hikari and Chiyo were sitting there indecisive. Yaya took a deep sigh. She sat down at the table again.
"We're all attracted to girls right? We shouldn't hide it. If you like someone, you should go for it because if you don't take the risk you take an even bigger one. Everyone deserves a shot at love, that's all I was trying to do."
Yaya sighed again. It was only me, Tsubomi, Hikari and Chiyo. I'm sure none of us had Yaya explain her motives to us like that before. I thought everyone was going to be silent but Hikari spoke up.
"Do you love Chikaru then?"
Yaya never answered her, she lay her head down on the table. I looked at Hikari, she looked devastated but she always did even if she looked at little sad because had such sad eyes.
"And Tsubomi, do you love Tamao?"
I knew she didn't love me but I looked at her, waiting for an answer. I never had someone love me before…
"Do you love me then? You kissed me for longer than just a peck!"
Hikari's eyes shot away from Tsubomi. I'd never seen Hikari like this before.
"I just don't think this game was a good idea." Hikari looked flushed.
"I have to go now, please excuse me."
Chiyo stood up and bowed. She walked briskly out the door.
"Some party that was." Yaya moaned.
"I better get going, too."
I said quickly, I couldn't stand the atmosphere any longer. I fixed myself some more and headed out the door.
"Thanks for having me Yaya."
Yaya looked up from where she was resting her head.
"I hope you had a good time."
I looked down at Tsubomi.
"I had a great time, I just need to find Nagisa."
I said, smiling at her. She smiled back, she had such a sweet smile.
