Chapter Four
"Any time you need to talk Veronica, this is my house number where you can reach me or here in the hospital. Remember that this is not your fault. I think it would be best if you were to talk to a professional about what has happened. It will be really uncomfortable at first, but it will really help in the long run."
"Thank you Alicia. For everything."
"It is what I am here for. Your test results should be ready in about one to two weeks. You have a waiting room full of people. Would you like me to send them all in?" Alicia asked.
"Just my Dad for now please."
"Sure I will be right back." Alicia left Veronica alone for a moment to collect her thoughts and get changed into the street clothes her Dad had brought for her so she would not have to put the dress back on. She knew that the crimson dress was stained with horrible memories she would never get to remember.
As she finished up and sat back down on the table her Dad came rushing through the door and embraced her in a bear hug. "Oh my God Veronica are you okay?" He half cried out.
"It is okay Dad. Everything will be fine."
"Aren't I the one who is supposed to say that?" Kieth says will a slight chuckle. "What happened Veronica? Please tell me." He pleaded as the agony returned to his face.
"Dad I was at Shelly's party and I was only drinking a little bit. The last thing I remember was talking to Lily and then grabbing one more drink before Logan was coming to get me. The next thing I know, I was waking up in a strange room. I..I.. Dad, I was raped." Veronica choked out with a sob. Her body began to shake as her father held her close and let her have a good cry in the comfort and safety of his arms. Their tears flowed like one.
After about ten minutes of crying and whispered reassurances to each other that it would be okay and it would get better. Veronica dried her face and looked up at her father. "Dad do you think that you could send Logan in here and give us a chance to talk for a couple minutes?"
"Sure thing. I will send him in and be right out in the waiting room if you need me. Lily and Duncan are also out there and incredibly worried about you. Come out when you are finished with Logan and ready to go home."
"Thank you Daddy. I love you."
"Veronica, I love you so much. You are my world and I promise you that we will find out who did this and they will pay." With that said, Kieth turned around and left the room.
A minute or so later an emotionally exhausted Logan burst through the door in a rush. "Veronica what is going on? What happened? Why are you here?" The questions running out of his mouth quicker than Veronica could think of how to answer. She knew that she had to be one hundred percent honest with him and remember that it was not his fault.
"Logan, I am going to tell you what happened but I need you to promise me you won't say anything until I am done. Can you promise me?"
"Yes."
"Okay, well last night at Shelly's after you left, I went over to say goodbye to Lily. She was standing around with some random guys from Pan High. They were all over her so we only talked for a couple minutes because I was mad at her for dragging me to a party and then ditching me right away. Not that she would ever stop to think that the reason I was mad would be her.
Anyways I was sitting on the couch waiting for you but I got thirsty. I went over to the bar area and grabbed a soda. I guess all our drinks finally caught up with me so I headed over to the washroom. I ran into some guy from Pan who was all over me and just seriously wouldn't leave me alone.
I guess Cassidy saw how uncomfortable the guy was making me because he came over and said he wanted to show the guy something outside. I knew he had caught on because Cassidy threw me a wink over his shoulder and then locked the guy outside.
As I was walking through the living room trying to find the washroom, Troy came up to me. He seemed surprised to see me there and I guess thought that I had come for him. We talked for a couple minutes and I told him you were coming to get me.
He seemed pissed cause he just said 'whatever' and walked away. I put my drink down on the table because the hall outside the bathroom was empty. When I came back out it was still empty, so I picked up my cup and finished it off and went looking for you.
The next thing that I can remember Logan, is waking up in the guest bedroom at Shelly's house. I woke up there with my dress straps undone and my underwear on the floor. Logan, I was raped last night." She choked out as tears assaulted her eyes again.
As Logan sat there listening to Veronica retell her story, tears built in his eyes. But it was not until the disgusting word 'rape' left her mouth that he began to sob.
He knew instantly that he could have saved her. If he had not stopped at the store on the way home she would not be there right now. They would be out at the beach having a romantic picnic and Logan would be telling her about how he has been in love with her since the first time he lay eyes on her.
But that would never happen now. She would never love him after he failed her so badly.
Veronica's voice interrupted Logan's thoughts, "Logan I know you well enough to know that right now your brain is running a thousand miles a minute and you are thinking that this is all your fault. Logan I need to you to know that this is not your fault at all. I know that you would lay down your life for me and you do everything you can to protect me-"
"- but this time it wasn't enough."
"Logan you promised not to interrupt me. You are not to blame at all. If you are to blame then I am just as much to blame as you are!"
"No Veronica, this isn't your fault."
"And it is not yours either Logan! Please. You went out to help a friend because it is what you do. I made the mistake of leaving my cup out at a party. I know that there was a reason you weren't there and you need to trust that you are not to blame at all. If you are going to blame yourself Logan, then I will too. We both made mistakes and we need to forgive each other."
"There is no reason for me to forgive you of anything Veronica. I am the only one who needs to ask for forgiveness. I took too long and I couldn't rescue you." Tears were still staining both of their cheeks as the spoke to each other.
"Logan I need your forgiveness because I gave up on you coming back and I went and got another drink because I thought you had forgotten me. I should have known better and never have doubted you. I have already forgiven you for not coming back in time.
I could use someone to rescue me now though. I am really going to need someone to stand by me and be there with me when I find out who did this to me."
"I will always be there for you Veronica. More than you will ever know. This is not the way I wanted to tell you but I need you to know that I love you Veronica Mars. I have for a long time and I just never realized."
Veronica gasped at the admission that she had thought would never be possible just hours ago. More tears cascaded down her face as she looked deeply into his eyes and knew that he was telling her the truth. Logan loved her and would always be there with her. "I love you too Logan." she whispered.
Logan had no idea how she could ever love a guy like her after something like this had happened to her. He only knew right then that things would never be the same, but it would be okay because they loved each other and they would be there for each other through it all.
