SasoDei – Spring Awakening – Chapter 4
Don't Do Sadness
"I love you, Danna, un~" … There was suddenly an awkward silence between the two artists. The blonde had mentally dazed off in art class, thinking about the kiss, and he had become a little carried away. Deidara blinked and his face turned red as he came back to reality. Sasori was currently giving him a look of both disgust and annoyance.
"What the fuck is wrong with you? I just asked why you were looking at the wall like it was about to bitch slap you."
"I'm sorry…I was thinking about something, and I kind of dazed off…" Deidara gulped and whined quietly in embarrassment. The red head's gaze softened slightly.
"Well what were you thinking about then?" Sasori ran a hand through his hair; a habit that Deidara had noticed was similar to Konan's.
"Hey! That's none of your business, un!" Deidara glared at the red head, before remembering what Konan had said about Sasori…He wasn't good with emotions, according to her… "Hey Sasori…Do you like singing?"
Sasori raised an eyebrow "Not really." The red head looked down at the little clay figure he was painting. It was the one he had been working on last week. At the moment he was painting the mask a bright orange colouration. "I think singing is stupid."
Deidara nodded but wasn't fully convinced. "Well, have you heard of a musical called Spring Awakening, un?"
"I haven't the slightest idea what the hell you are talking about, Brat. Now shut up and let me paint."
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"Hey Hidan, un." The blonde waved to his friend as the zealot walked up to him.
"Yo." The albino grinned widely at Deidara and both began to walk home. "How's school?"
"It's alright. Today I proved that there really isn't a ghost in the auditorium, un." The blonde grinned sheepishly at Hidan. "Turns out, it's most likely just a student at this school."
"Really? Dammit. How did you fucking find out?"
"He kissed me." Deidara shrugged. "I don't think that ghosts are able to kiss people, un, I mean…They're ghosts! Wouldn't they just phase through you?"
Hidan burst out laughing. "That's fucking funny! You let a ghost kiss you just so you could prove whether he was a ghost or not?" He coughed a few times and smirked. "So what did Casanova look like exactly?"
Deidara blushed and scratched the back of his head. "I'm not quite sure, un, I was wearing a blindfold…See?" He pointed to the black headband around his neck.
Hidan blinked at it. "Where did you find that?"
"It was in the auditorium when I went this morning." Deidara shrugged. "Why do you ask, un?"
"That's my headband. I lost it yesterday after sport." Hidan grinned. "Thanks for finding it, Barbie."
Deidara took the headband off and gave it to the albino, frowning subtly in thought. "…Hey Hidan…Do you like to sing?"
"Fuck yeah! Singing is fun!" The albino slipped the headband around his neck, positioning it correctly.
"Sing something, un."
Hidan thought for a few seconds before beginning to sing. "The two of us will start off caring, all about this life we're sharing. You and I, we'll be HIGH upon the fumes of Lo-ah-ove. You'll laugh at my jokes; we'll be as sweet as two cherry cokes. And that, that's what's gonna happen!"
"Sounds wonderful, un." Deidara smiled at the albino. He had a good voice and was a good actor, the blonde had to admit. Plus the fact that he knew that song, seeing as it was from the musical I Love You Because. "Have you heard of Spring Awakening?"
"Of course, Spring Awakening is the fucking best musical ever! There's suicide, abortion, rape, girls being sexually abused by their fathers, gay guys, all the fucking good stuff!" He clapped his hands together. "Do you know that my dad writes musicals?" Deidara shook his head. "Well he does, so iTunes is stuffed to the brim with thousands of different musicals. I have over 54 different fucking ones on my iPod Touch!"
"Really, un?" The blonde only had 32 musicals on his…
"Yep! But don't get the wrong idea, I ain't gay. It's stupid that they reckon if a guy likes musical theatre, it automatically makes him a fucking homo-pussy…" Hidan shrugged and then grinned again. "Well, this is my street. Later Barbie."
"See you, un." Deidara waved and they split. Deidara gave a thoughtful hum. "So that was Hidan's headband…He knows about Spring Awakening…And I have to admit he is a good singer, un…"
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Deidara was walking to school that day. The blonde hadn't seen Hidan while he had been walking, so he had gone alone…
"Deidara?" The blonde turned around to see a familiar figure walking behind him.
"Oh, hi Itachi." Deidara smiled at the raven, stopping so that he could catch up to the blonde. "How are you, un?"
"I'm alright I guess." Itachi gave a shrug and they began to walk to school together. "Did you find your 'Friend' from the other day?"
"Well…" The blonde gave a cough. "You could say that I did."
Itachi closed his eyes, and then opened them a few seconds later. "How is the musical going?"
Deidara gave a shrug. "It's going okay…Hey, do you like Spring Awakening?"
"It's a pretty good musical. My best friend was pretty obsessed with it at primary school, so I learnt all the songs from him." He gave a shrug.
"Can you sing, Itachi, un?"
"Sure…" He began to sing. "Awful sweet, to be a little butterfly…Just winging over things, and nothing deep inside. Nothing going, going wild in you, you know, you're slowing by the river side, or floating high in blue, or maybe cool to be a little summer wind. Like once through everything and then away again, with the taste of dust in your mouth all day but no need to know, like sadness, you just sail away. 'Cause you know, I don't do sadness. Not even a little bit. Just don't need it in my life, don't want any part of it. I don't do sadness, hey I've done my time, looking back on it all, then it blows my mind. I don't do sadness, so been there. Don't do sadness, just done care."
… "You're a really good singer, un." It really wasn't the singing that was beautiful, more like the emotion behind his voice which was truly saddening.
"Thanks. Spring Awakening is a very tragic musical."
"Who were you talking about before? …You said that your best friend in Primary school was obsessed with it…" Deidara scratched the back of his head.
Itachi closed his eyes. "Sasori."
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"Is there perhaps a reason why you are looking at me so intently, Brat?" Sasori frowned at the blonde and ran a hand through his hair.
Deidara blinked. "Well…It's just that Itachi told me that in primary school you were pretty obsessed with Spring Awakening…And yesterday you said that you hadnt even heard of it, un…So…Were you-"
"Lying?" Sasori raised an eyebrow at him. "You know, I never actually denied that I liked Spring Awakening. You just jumped to conclusions." The red head dipped his paint brush into a small puddle of white paint. "Spring Awakening is alright, I guess."
"Can you sing, un?"
"…Sure, I guess." Sasori cleared his throat, and then began to sing. "Where I go, when I go there, no more memory anymore. Only men on distant ships, the women with them, swimming with them, to shore. Where I go, when I go there, no more whispering anymore. Only hymns upon your lips, a mystic wisdom rising with them, to shore. Touch me. Just like that. And I'll; oh yeah, now that's heaven. Now, that I like, God that's so nice, now lower down, where the sins lie." A smirk spread on the red heads lips. "How's that?"
Sasori's voice was nothing special. It was alright, as in he could hit the notes, though there was nothing behind the lyrics, such as feeling or meaning. Deidara nodded. "You're good at hitting the notes…You must be really familiar with the songs, un."
The red head shrugged. "I guess. It was my mother's favourite musical, so all the songs are on my iPod. I learnt them all off by heart in her memory."
Deidara nodded. "I never had a mother…Though I have two dads, un."
"So you're like a clone, or something?" Sasori chuckled for the first time since Deidara had been there.
Deidara listen to the chuckle suspiciously. "No, I was adopted shortly after I was born."
"That's nice, Brat." Sasori placed his paint brush down. "Well, what about you?"
"Huh?" The blonde frowned. "What about me?"
"I don't sing for no one, Brat. Show me what you got."
Deidara gulped, but gave a nod. He closed his eyes and sung the first song that came to mind. "There's a part I can't tell, about the Dark I know well…You say, 'time for bed now child', mum just smiles that smile, just like she never saw me, just like she never saw me…So I leave, run, just to hide, knowing deep inside, you are coming to me, you are coming to me. You say all you want is just a 'Kiss goodnight', then you hold me and you whisper 'Child the Lord wont mind. It's just you and me, Child you're a beauty. God its good the loving, ain't it good tonight? You ain't seen nothing yet, gonna treat you right, it's just you and me, Child you're a beauty'…"
"That song is pretty sad, I guess." Sasori gave a shrug and pushed his small, finished, sculpture over to the blonde. "Here."
Deidara picked up the statuette, examining the red head's creation. It was of a boy with short black hair, a black cloak which had several red and white clouds on. His face was covered by a bright orange swirled mask. "Does it have a name, un?"
"Yeah, his name is Madara." Sasori's gave the small figure a grim expression. "You can keep it as long as you promise not to break him because of your petty views of 'Art'."
"Really?" Deidara smiled at Sasori. "Thanks, un."
That settled it. Danna was either Hidan, Itachi or Sasori.
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"What do you think, Tobi?" It was now Drama, and Deidara sat with his raven friend in the auditorium. He showed Tobi the figure of Madara that Sasori had given him.
"…Tobi thinks that-"
"Hey, what are you doing in here?" Deidara looked to the stage to see Pein and the rest of Akatsuki standing there. "We're going to use this area to practise."
"Okay, un, come on To-" Deidara looked to see that the raven had disappeared. "Tobi? Quit hiding under the chairs you coward!" The blonde began to look under the chairs, trying to find the raven haired boy.
"What are you doing? Get out already."
"Just a second, un, I'm just trying to find my friend, Tobi. Come on Tobi, quit being a coward!"
The room suddenly went a few degrees colder. "…What did you just say?" Deidara looked back to the stage to see everyone was staring at him. A look of absolute fury suddenly plastered Pein's face. "I WILL NOT HAVE YOU DISRESPECT AN AKATSUKI MEMBER, LET ALONE ONE WHO IS DEAD!"
Hidan, Kakuzu, and Zetsu rushed forward, grabbing onto their leader before he got the chance to bash the blonde into a bloody pulp.
Deidara starred at them in shock. "Dead…? What are you talking about, un…? I was just talking to him…He was sitting right next to me…" He saw Itachi and Sasori exchange a solemn expression.
The blonde noticed then that a shadow appeared in front of Pein. It was Tobi.
"What's wrong, Leader-Sama? Tobi's right here! Tobi isn't dead!" Pein didn't react at all, seeming to not even see the raven haired boy.
Itachi stepped forward, "Pein, you and the others go back to the normal room. Sasori and I will tell Deidara."
The orange haired boy glared hard at the blonde and straightened up somewhat. "Fine then." Hidan, Kakuzu and Zetsu let go of their leader, and he walked off backstage. Konan shot Deidara a worried expression, and then followed him. In less than a minute, the only ones left in the auditorium were Sasori, Itachi, Deidara and Tobi.
"Tobi doesn't get it…" The raven looked between the three boys. "Why doesn't Leader-Sama see Tobi?"
Itachi hopped off the front of the stage and sat down in the front row seat. Deidara hesitated before sitting in the seat next to him, statuette still held in his hands. Sasori sat down on the edge of the stage, and Tobi sat next to him.
"You see, Tobi, you died two years ago. Don't you remember?" Tobi shook his head. "…"
Sasori gave a sigh. "Listen Tobi, you failed, and your parents were mad at you. So you came here and…Well…" Sasori made a gun shape with his hand and pointed it at his head, giving a cocking motion. "Bang."
Deidara suddenly understood the song which Tobi had sung when he had first met him. Tobi had a little gun, little gun, little gun; Tobi had a little gun, which gave a great big bang.
Tobi gave each of them a wounded expression, his one visible eye widening with tears. "But…But…" The raven burst out crying. "IT'S NOT TRUE! TOBI IS A GOOD BOY!"
With that, the boy disappeared from sight. There was a sudden buzz and the lights went off. Deidara wasn't sure of what happened next. He felt a pair of arms wrap around his body, and he was pulled suddenly to the side. There was a loud crash behind Deidara, and the blonde felt terrified.
As soon as it had started, it was over. The lights flickered back on, and Deidara looked over his shoulder. A row of three seats had been hurled through the air at the spot where he had previously been sitting. The chairs were mangled, and Deidara gulped. He looked to the floor to see that the small statuette sat partly broken. The blonde was about to look to his saviour, when the lights suddenly flickered out once more. Deidara felt the arms release him, and he was pushed in the direction of the exit. He started running, completely terrified. All that the blonde knew was that he had to get the hell out of there.
Deidara reached the exit, slamming the door open with his shoulder. He got out of the auditorium, and was filled with relief. The blonde caught his breath and looked back at the door. Wait…Where were Itachi and Sasori?
Deidara knew what he had to do.
The blonde opened the door and marched back into the dark auditorium. "Dammit Tobi! Turn the lights back on this instant, un! I'm your Sempai, and I don't care HOW upset you are, you have to do what I say. Get over it, Tobi!" A few moments of hesitation went by, when all of a sudden the lights turned back on for a second time. "Now apologize, Tobi."
"…Tobi is sorry, Sempai, Renshi and Danna…" The raven haired figure appeared on the stage, rubbing his one visible eye. He gave a sniffle. "Please forgive Tobi…"
Deidara looked to see Sasori and Itachi were still in the audience area. The red head was helping the raven, who appeared to have hurt his leg somehow.
Wait…Tobi had said 'Danna'…That meant that it was either Itachi or Sasori!
"It's okay, Tobi." Deidara went to help support Itachi. "What happened?"
"I tripped when I was trying to escape. Most likely possibility is that I sprained my ankle." Itachi grimaced as he applied some pressure to his foot. "Yeah, definitely."
"Let's get you to the sick bay, un."
...Itachi or Sasori…One of them had just saved his life…Which one was Danna?
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That's What's Going to Happen – I Love You Because (A song about Dating)
Don't Do Sadness – Spring Awakening (A song about Suicide)
Touch Me – Spring Awakening (A song about sexual frustrations)
The Dark I Know Well – Spring Awakening (A song about Child Abuse)
Happy Birthday to me~
