Hey Guys! I'm so sorry about doing the updating just now! Where do I start? How do I even explain myself here? Well first I had a severe case of writers block, then school started again (perfect I know D:) Then came Christmas and then now we're here...2013! Happy New Years by the way! So in any case I'm so so sorry about all of this! But this is a fresh start! So here we go... Chapter 4! :D
Disclaimer: I do not own any parts of Camp Rock (Characters, Locations, Nothing sadly)
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"Hey, Can we talk?" He asked.
I smiled and gestured towards the bed where he sat down and began to speak.
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"So what's on your mind Gray?" I asked him trying not to sound too eager even though there were a thousand questions burning on my tongue.
"Well it's... How do I put this? You and I have been getting pretty comfortable with each other, yeah?" He asked.
"We live in the same house, so I'd hope so." I said with a teasing voice.
"Come on Mitch, this is serious." He said.
"Ok, ok. Yeah I'm comfortable with you." I replied with full on seriousness.
"Good. I'm comfortable with you too." He said smiling.
"So where does this leave us?" I asked him, finally letting one of the questions slip.
"I mean, I like you, but I don't want to jump into anything right away. My last relationship didn't last very long because we jumped into it too quickly, I don't want to hurt you. And with you just getting out of the hospital, I just... I don't want to jump into anything right now." He said to me, looking right into my eyes.
"Oh... that's fine, I guess, I mean neither one of us want to get hurt." I said feeling a little dejected.
"Exactly! But keep in mind that I like you. I just want us to get to know each other better first."
"Yeah, I understand. Umm, Shane would you mind if actually went out for a while? I think I want to visit Caity." I said, just desperate to get out of the house, away from Shane for a few hours. I needed to talk to Catilyn about all of this too.
"Uh... Yeah I guess that's fine. Just don't be gone too late, and call me when you get there. Do you want me Nate or I to drive you?" He asked, over protectiveness kicking in quickly.
"I'm not going to make you guys drive me at this time. I'll just take the bus over to her stop and she can meet me. I'll be fine." I actually hated taking buses, but if it was between that or sitting in a car with Shane for fifteen minutes, I'd happily take the bus.
"Mitch, I don't think that's the best idea..." He said.
"Shane, it's the bus, with lots of people. Besides, my dad is wanted every where, I can't see him riding the bus at a time like this!" I said, getting slightly frustrated. It was still my life, despite Shane wanting to keep me safe.
"Okay, I guess. Just call me when you get on and off. Ok?" He asked, backing off, clearly sensing my frustration.
"I'll text you. I don't want to be making phone calls on the bus." I said.
"I guess that's fine. Just be safe, ok Mitch?" He said smiling. My heart melting slightly while he grinned.
"Yeah I promise I will." Smiling back. I grabbed my purse and quickly walked out of the room and out the front door to walk to the bus stop at the end of the street.
After that conversation I was even more confused as to where Shane and I stood. I mean I understood he wanted to wait for a while, but what I got from that conversation was that he wanted a pause in this. I would rather move as slow as syrup forward, but a pause? Does that mean he wants to see other people? I should've got that from him, I mean I'm not his type. I'm not as pretty as all the other girls, what with all these scars now. I'm musical yes, but not everyone wants that. Maybe Shane and I were better just as friends. I'm ok with this... right? Who am I kidding, I was sure as hell was not ok with that.
The bus finally came and took me to Caitlyns. I texted Shane when I got on and off like I'd promised, then met up with Caitlyn and told her everything. She agreed with me and said she'd ask Nate about it. The rest of the night was spent talking about her and Nate, and watching movies. After all of the heaviness, and even though I'd seen Caitlyn earlier this afternoon, I needed this girl time.
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Sometime in the evening, probably around nine thirty, Nate stopped by. He'd said that Shane told him I was here and offered me a ride back, which I'd gladly excepted. One bus trip was enough for me. Nate, Caity, and I talked some more and around eleven we said goodbye to Caitlyn.
When we got in the car, Nate quickly brought up a conversation topic. Which just happened to be Shane and I.
"So Shane told me you guys talked..." Nate said.
" Uh.. yeah." I said, not really wanting to talk about with Shane with his brother.
"Look Mitchie, Shane got hurt in the past, his ex, she really... did a number on him. It took him so long to get over her, and now letting someone else in is just hard, you know?" He said.
"Yeah the way he was talking though he sounded like he'd really just like to put a pause on us." I confessed.
"I'm sure he doesn't want that to be forever."
"I sure hope not. Nate, I really like him..."
"I know. He likes you too. He just needs time." Nate said.
"I hope that's all it is."
"It is." Nate said then patted my shoulder.
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We got in fifteen minutes later, and there in the front living room sat Shane, planted on one of the couches.
"Hey Shane." Nate said as we walked in.
"Hey guys, How was Caitys?" He asked us.
"Good, well I'm going to go to bed. See you guys in the morning." Nate said exiting the room.
"Night Nate." I said.
"Night!" Shane chimed in.
"Mitch, about what we talked about earlier-"
"Shane, It's fine. I'm actually really tired, I'm going to hit the sack to. Night." I interrupted not wanting to re-live the conversation that had taken place earlier.
Shane sighed and muttered a good night. I walked up the stairs into my room, desperate to just fall asleep. Sleep did actually come quite quickly though, and for that I was thankful.
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Ok that's it. I know it's a little short, I just found this chapter difficult to write, but don't worry the next one is so much better and will be much longer! Please review! The more review I get, the more eager I am to update sooner! Thanks guys!
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