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A/N: I've been told I put myself down a bit too much so I'm going to try and change that with this chapter. Here goes - I am the BEST writ... *snorts with laughter* You know what? I'm sorry. I can't do it. I'm just not good at bigging myself up, for anything at all.
Thanks to msnooky, NeroAnne, slashdlite, AnonymousPunk, Seraphalexiel and RRatedauthor for the reviews and support. You guys are awesome!
This is chapter 4 of "Last Night" and I do hope that you enjoy it.
Last time: Matt looked down at his hands before lifting his gaze to Jeff's, biting at his lip and breathing deeply. "Alright! Fuck... well, I guess you remember what happened then...?" he trailed off at the look on Jeff's face. It hadn't changed; it just seemed... somehow, fiercer... than before.
Chapter 4: Cooling Off, Heating Up
Matt gulped. This wasn't good. Not good at all. Jeff wasn't supposed to be mad; he was supposed to be happy and glad and well... okay, that's what Matt wanted to happen. It was just a fantasy though and currently? That's probably all it ever would be.
Matt could feel the burning heat of his brother's glare on his skin. If anything, it felt like it was getting hotter. Jeff obviously wasn't going to calm down anytime soon. Since there was nothing he could say to help anyway, maybe he should let Jeff cool down by himself for a bit?
Deciding on that course of action, Matt stood up from the bed wrapping the sheet round his waist as he did so. Jeff followed his movements and tried his best not to flinch when Matt moved around the bed.
"I'm gonna take a shower. Maybe you'll..." Matt trailed off as he looked at Jeff, who was still staring at him. "Doesn't matter," he muttered.
As Matt stepped into the bathroom and closed the door behind him, Jeff blinked and shut his eyes. He bowed his head as he attempted to clear his thoughts, not that it worked any.
He sat down heavily on the other bed in the room, his arms at his sides, as the 'dream' sequence ran through his head. He didn't know what to do. He put his head in his hands and lay back on the untouched bed covers.
What the fuck was he gonna do? He could remember every single little detail about last night now. He could remember how much he enjoyed it, the attention from Matt. He could remember Matt saying "I love you" to him. He could also remember his own thoughts throughout it too.
He'd thought about how wrong it was. How Matt was his brother, his kin, his flesh and blood. But he'd also thought about how Matt was making him feel wonderful, amazing things and that it didn't matter about gender or whatever. He'd even smiled when Matt had whispered "I love you".
He honestly didn't care about gender when it came to sex and love – it was the person and their personality that swung it for him. It just so happened that he'd never met a guy who made him feel anything like that, it had always been women or at least it had been until last night. So the fact that he'd done stuff with Matt did shock him – he'd never been with a guy before. He'd seen some gorgeous looking men but he'd never actually done anything with one.
He'd know Matt was gay but he hadn't expected this. He hadn't expected his brother to love him. Jeff couldn't deny it – it was weird.
He was entitled to be shocked, wasn't he? Entitled to be confused? Entitled to be angry? Okay, maybe he wasn't entitled to be angry... he had no real reason to be angry, except for Matt ruining his favourite shirt.
But he couldn't help it. Matt had tried to hide the whole situation from him. He tried to avoid the issue, tried to deny it and Jeff knew why. Matt didn't want anyone realising what a freak he was.
It was okay with Jeff. Clearly, he was a freak too. He'd enjoyed Matt's... uh, ministrations! What's that saying? Misery loves company? From the look on his brother's face as he entered the bathroom, Jeff could tell that was Matt was miserable and it was all to do with his 'freakiness' so he was now in good company.
After he went in the bathroom, Matt shut the door behind him and leaned against it, sighing loudly. He closed his eyes and tried to calm himself down... literally. Ever since he'd woken up, he'd been thinking about the night before and what they'd done and about Jeff naked... this was supposed to be helping him calm 'down'?
He wanted to pull his hair out. He couldn't stop thinking about it, picturing it. Even Jeff glaring at him and looking at him accusingly hadn't tempered the fires that were blazing inside him. He was still hard.
Pushing himself away from the door, Matt resolved to do something about his problem and he HAD to stop thinking about Jeff... he was going to jerk off and have an EXTREMELY cold shower.
Nodding his head, he opened the shower door and turned the water on. The spray touched his hand but it was too warm. He twirled the dial and grimaced as the freezing water hit him. He shivered as he stepped into the shower and under the torrent of water.
He could feel the cold on his skin but he was still hot on the inside... too hot. He wasn't even sure this was gonna work – he was too horny for that. As he stood under the stream of water letting his hair get wet, his thoughts continually strayed to his brother though he was trying to think about something else... anything else! He even tried thinking about mustard...
Pulling his hair to the back of his neck, Matt bowed his head. This was useless. Maybe jerking off would help?
Giving a mental shrug, Matt tried to get in the mood for some self-gratification. He couldn't just do it straight off. Jeff was definitely fantasy material but thinking about him wouldn't help, not when he was the problem in the first place. He'd come, still be horny and get hard again. The only problem was that no one else had really done it for him for two years now. It was only Jeff.
Casting his mind out, he tried to think of an actor that he'd seen in some movie recently. What was it again? The guy in 27 Dresses and X-Men, Cyclops... James Marsden? Yeah that was it. James Marsden. He was kinda hot, especially in both those films, though a bit weird in Enchanted.
Matt shook his head. What the hell? He was trying to find someone to jerk off too and he was critiquing movies instead? It took his mind off Jeff for a little bit but it wasn't helping – he was still hard as a rock.
Deciding to take the bull by the horns... or horn, as it were... Matt ran the palm of his hand down his body. It travelled across his chest, tweaking his nipples before sliding past his navel to grasp at his dick.
His mouth dropped open and he inhaled sharply at that first touch. Shuddering, he ran his palm over his whole length, flicking his thumb over the tip and gathering some of the precum that was there. He used it as a lubricant and began to move his hand slowly along his dick, gradually increasing the pace.
He gasped and leaned back against the shower wall. He didn't even notice the ice cold liquid hitting him as he felt his orgasm building. Small whimpers sounded in the bathroom as Matt's back arched away from the tiled wall.
His hips bucked as he tightened his grip slightly. Faint mutterings were coming from his mouth giving way to long, low moan as he came hard, spraying the shower wall with his essence.
His eyes closed and his body collapsed against the wall. That had been amazing. He was exhausted.
He jumped when he felt the cold water from the shower hitting him and turned to stare at the unit. He'd forgotten he'd turned the temperature down. Reaching out, he turned it back up as hot as he could stand it.
He stepped underneath the spray, letting it hit his face. He grabbed his bottle of shampoo and squirted some onto his palm. Lathering it into his hair, he just so happened to look down and guess what he saw...?
Matt slapped his soapy hands against the tiles in front of him. Dammit, he hadn't even been thinking of Jeff and here he was, hard as a rock and horny as fuck for him all over again.
Would this constant state of arousal ever stop? Would it ever abate?
A/N: I mighta mentioned to a few people that I was having trouble with a particular scene in this chapter so I'd really appreciate any feedback you might have on it. So, for the sake of my well being (and current sanity) I'm begging for reviews! I didn't want to do that but I just really want to know what you all thought about the scene/chapter because I've never written one before now.
(P.S. If you can't figure it out for yourself, it involves Matt and his actions in the shower!)
