Chapter 4


Damn I stink… I drag my still aching feet to the bathroom losing my clothes one by one on the way. I don't leave in a big apartment… though after leaving in a trailer even a 1DK is huge… The bedroom is slightly separated by the living room and the kitchen. It is big enough so that you can move in it and small enough to not feel alone… but tonight is one of those times… I have 1034 people under me, the Four Saint Beasts are always at my disposal… I can't help but feel alone.

My feet touch the cold bathroom floor and I realize my heart feels the same way.

I wake up to the song My baby loves lovin… guess this time Akito is the one controlling the body. I don't mind waking on a '70 song, beats the hell out of some of the bands Agito listens to… you can't even understand the words that they're yelling.

"Akira kun lunch is ready!" it is Akito's turn to cook and I can feel the smell of grilled meat. Kaito is out for one of his special meetings with the higher ups so today the trailer belongs to me and the little chef. I slept the entire morning since the night… like most nights lately… I looked at Agito's sleeping face.

I get to the first floor and watch the small frame skillfully move around the tiny kitchen. He prepared beef teriyaki… mmmmmm that smells delicious. I always enjoy spending time with Akito. He's a really sweet kid that brings out the best in people… though sometimes he uses too many proverbs and I only understand about… sigh… nothing of what he says. We arrive at desert and he puts in the middle of the table an apple pie. Did I mention that I love his cooking? He grabs a strawberry milkshake from the fridge… guess he prepared it earlier… and we start discussing about the latest books that hit the stores. He knows a lot about… a lot… basically he's a walking encyclopedia. I enjoy reading but if a book doesn't captivate me in the first 2 pages I don't bother reading the rest so the little kid always recommends me something he knows I'll enjoy. When he finishes his drink he switches eye patch and lets the Shark out. Akito doesn't like things that are sour so he's always the first to drink and then lets Agito have his BOSS coffee. I look at him as he takes the cup Akito always prepares for him and stops the music.

"Fuck. How can he listen to that junk?"

I take another piece of pie… even though I'm already full… I want to stay at the table a little longer… though I don't really understand why I need a reason, it's not like I have somewhere to go.

I make sure the water isn't too hot before getting under the shower. I always loved feeling the water running on my body… it gives me a peaceful feeling.

Since when did I start thinking about the future? I always thought that doing it wouldn't change anything… I just wished that my days with the Shark would always be the same. When did my feelings for him started changing?

"What are you doing?" Agito's voice takes me by surprise. I look at the grinning shark in front of me with a thoughtful face

"Thinking"

"Fuck! You're thinking face looks constipated"…………WHAT? I grab the pie sitting in my plate and throw it in Agito's face.

"WHAT THE HELL DID YOU SAY, YOU STINKY SHARK?" He jumps over the table and grabs me by the collar. I'm prepared to defend myself from his punches but instead he takes the remaining pie and shoves it down my throat.

"YOU HAVE A PROBLEM YOU SHITTY FACE?" ever since our lips met … and IT WASN'T A KISS… he's been calling me a lot of names with shitty in them… sigh… it's been an year since it started.

I tackle him to the ground and we start fighting. You know wrestling? Well our fights aren't faked. Every punch and every kick you receive you can count on the fact that it's gonna leave a big bruise. After some long hours we can't even move so we just lay on the floor trying to catch our breaths.

"I'm taking a shower. Clean this place up. Fuck it's a mess."

"Like hell I'll do it alone, first we clean then we take the showers"

"You fucking asshole this is all your fault" he says that but in the end we end up cleaning the trailer together. When we finally finish everything he goes to the 2 floor to take his towel and clean clothes. He comes back at the first level and makes his way to the small bathroom when he stops.

"You missed a spot. Fuck you can't even clean yourself" I thought most of the pie ended on the floor and on our clothes …

"Huh?... Where?" not that it matters since I'm the next one to take a shower.

"Here" he takes the collar of my shirt and pulls me to his level before licking the remaining pie from my neck. My body becomes numb under his touch… so gentle.

"Akira flavored pie… hmmm… it tastes better than I expected" he passes by my side while his hand slowly goes down my chest to my abdomen before leaving my body. I feel shivers going down my spine, my body becomes hot and it starts aching… not talking about my pants that suddenly became way too tight for my taste. My mind is clouded… I feel high… I never knew my body could feel like this.

I turn the shower to cold water and can't help a shiver when it touches my skin.

I only manage to move after I hear the bathroom door close behind me and the shower. I slowly move to the door and touch it. He's just on the other side… I envy those water drops… I want to be the one touching his bare chest, follow every curve of his muscles, kiss every part of his body... I want to hear him moan under my touch. Morality is man's creation… I don't care that I desire another man… that's not what's keeping me away from actually touching him.

I take a step back… and try to distract myself… damn… it's not working. I get to the 2 floor and take everything I need for the shower when I hear the door opening. I lower my head to the first level just to see Kaito with a pissed off face.

"Hi Kaito" he mutters a hi back… guess something didn't go right.

"Any news about the next missions?" He sits at the steering wheel.

"Yeah … they're all crappy… but some American big fish is starting to move"

"Nike?" from his look I understand that I shouldn't ask anymore. He lights a cigarette and he's eyes look somewhere far away. It's always better to leave him alone when he's like that so I get to the first level and quietly wait my turn to take a shower.

When Agito gets out of the shower I can't help but look at a small water drop going down his neck.

'I get up and trace the water drop with a finger while my left hand goes around his waist dragging him closer. I love the way he's hair caresses his face when it's wet. I look at his face while one of my hands goes under his shirt and the other through his soaked hair. I lower my head and slowly kiss him'

"Your turn" my dream ends when I hear his voice.

"Yeah" I look down… can't really look in his eye… I wouldn't see what I want… I need a cold shower.

I got used to the cold water… or maybe it's the fact that my skin is burning that is worming the water before touching my skin.