Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note.
Warnings: Smex, angst, character death.
Pairing: L/Raito, Raito/L.
Summary: Sequel to 'New Addiction'. L and Raito have started their relationship. When the past comes to haunt them, will they stick together or will it pull them apart for good?
Notes:
Chapter Four:
The next day, Raito stands tall next to his family while people speak how good his father was. It hurts deep within his chest. He has no choice but to stand here and wait for fate to hit him. Glancing around the cemetery, he tries to find someone who isn't meant to be there. Holding his sister close to his side while his mother talks with members of the police force, he thinks how he once distanced himself from his family. Only if he didn't think they wouldn't understand, maybe he would feel happier with them. He could have showed them his true side, but he feared they would not be proud of him.
Holding onto her brother, Sayu cries, "Dad."
What should he do? What can he say? As he pulls his sister closer, Raito stares straight at the grave stone that reads his father's name. Revenge is the only thing on his mind even though he promised to not to do anything rash.
By the entrance, a young man stares straight ahead. He isn't sure about this plan but he hopes it ends well. As he scans the names over the people's head, he stops on a young man with brown hair. Staring at the name above his head, Mikami gasps, "God." A sicken feeling raises inside of him to see the name 'Yagami Raito' over the boy's head. He murdered his god's family member.
Back at the grave stone, Raito feels like someone is watching him. He decides to walk around and hope to find a clue to the whereabouts of the new Kira. Releasing his sister, he whispers, "I need some time alone." Sayu looks at him in understanding. She might have been the only family member who saw the true him. As he turns away, he heads down the path to the entrance. When he turns the corner, he runs into someone. Sighing annoyed, he looks up to see the same man from before. With a tilt of his head, he apologizes, "Sorry." Strange that he would run into the same person twice.
Taking a step back, Mikami whispers, "It was my fault."
Narrowing his eyes at the poor man who is standing there, Raito asks in a cold voice, "Why are you here?" Something doesn't feel right. Could it be possible this man could be the new Kira? Could it be that easy? If he was Kira, he would never make a mistake so easily.
"I came to visit a family member." Mikami answers. He can't let his god know that he is the one who killed his family member. As he calms down, he asks, "Are you here with that large group?"
Turning to look at his family and the cops who worked with his father, Raito looks back and sighs sadly, "Yes." He wants to see the reaction within the other man. Should he get his name and try to end this man's life? But if he is wrong and this man isn't Kira, he would be killing an innocent.
Trying to calm himself down, Mikami responds, "I'm sorry for your loss. I should be going."
Before he can stop the other man, Raito watches him walk away. Well, there goes his chance to get the man's name. Glancing around, seeing no one near him, he whispers out his question, "Is he the one?"
"I can't tell ya that." Ryuk replies. "Ya know the rules."
"Yeah, I know, but it would be easily if you helped." Raito snaps back. He notices some people walking down the path and knows the funeral is over. As he leans against the wall surrounding the cemetery, he watches the police members walk away giving him a look of pity. Aizawa, Mogi, and Matsuda walk toward him. Shaking his head, he lies, "There was no one I saw out of place." He has no plan of telling them, he might have just met the new Kira. It is his right to end the one who murdered his father even if it costs him everything.
As he notices the task force looking at him, Ryuk responds annoyed, "No one! Geeze, believe Raito." He has no idea why he would lie for Raito but he did.
Glaring at the task force, Raito turns his head away. It is not time to be upset. He needs a good plan to get to Kira. It is the only way to stop the new threat even if he becomes what he hates the most. He knows he might lose L forever if he continues with his plan but his mind is set on revenging his father. Justice will not punish the murderer.
Walking to the group in front of the cemetery, Sachiko holds her daughter close and asks, "Do you know why L, the greatest detective would give me a lump sum of money for Soichiro's death."
While the others stare stun, Raito clinches his fists. How could the detective do this? He should be the one who provides for his family. Then again, L set accounts up during the old Kira Case. Still, he feels to decline the money. After all, his pride will not let him take the money. It shouldn't be this way. Before he can protest, he notices the relief crossing his mother's face. She looks so happy that they will be provided for and he doesn't have the heart to speak against it. He will have to talk to his lover later about it.
Across the city, Mikami runs into an office, staring at the other man and spits, "I killed God's family member."
The other man turns around and sighs, "Please calm down. So, you saw God?"
"Yes, I did, but I killed a family member. The cop." Mikami responds while pacing back and forth.
Sighing loudly, the other man mumbles, "If Kira was going to continue his work; he would have no choice but to kill his own family who stood in his way. You did him a favor, Mikami."
Stopping in his tracks, Mikami asks hopefully, "You think so?"
The other man replies with a smirk, "Yes, Mikami. Everything is going according to plan. Soon we can get our god away from L and make sure Kira raises once more."
As he smiles back, Mikami retorts, "Soon God will return and nothing will stand in his way."
Turning around, the other man mumbles under his breathe, "Yes, nothing will stand in the way."
At a hotel, Raito walks in with his head held high. When his eyes notice L working on one of the many computers, he growls, "You shouldn't have done it."
Without taking his eyes off the screen, L responds, "I set those accounts up when the task force worked for me and if anything happened to them." Turning around to face his lover, he continues, "Even if the Original Kira did not kill Yagami-san, it still deals with the Kira Case." He watches the man he fell in love with show hurt. Before he could say anything to give comfort to Raito, the others walk in the room with determination on their faces. It would seem none of them will take off a day.
Covering his pain with his perfect mask, Raito walks forward and takes his seat beside L. It is like the old days, where L and he were working side by side. He wonders if he could have that after the case is closed. He knows that won't be possible. L will end their relationship as soon as he figures out what will happen. Finding the crime photos, he asks, "What is this?"
'Kira come and find me.'
L turns around to look at the photos and explains, "I believe Kira started off killing first."
Glancing up at the shiginami, Raito asks, "Do you know, Ryuk?"
"Nay. I wish I did, it would help more." Ryuk answers. He wants to tell more than he is but he knows the rules.
'You will get the human you were once attached too and force him to help find our missing shiginami. You will not let any information slip or else, Ryuk.' The old man told him.
Finding some apples on the table, Ryuk flies over and grabs one, munching on it. After eating one juicy apple, he sighs, "I wish I could help ya, but the old man made it clear about the rules."
Raito nods his head and goes back to looking over the files. Every victim was a criminal. So, it is true that Kira did it. Standing up, he mumbles, "Need some time alone." He leaves before anyone can say a word.
L asks, "Was there anyone out of place at the funeral?"
"We didn't see anyone. Raito swears he didn't see anyone either. Ryuk confirmed it." Aizawa answers.
Nodding his head, L stands up and waves for the others to continue to work. Right now, his lover needs him even if Raito says he wants time alone. Walking down the hall, heading to the bedroom, he knows his lover will not share any information about Kira. He can see it in Raito's eyes, they burn with revenge. As he opens the door, he finds clothes thrown everywhere. Sighing, he steps in and asks, "Are you all right?"
"No!" Raito screams. There will never be a moment where he is all right. He thought being with L would erase his past but it was a lie. Of course it was a beautiful lie. As he feels arms wrap around his body, he mumbles, "It was a beautiful lie."
"A lie is just that a lie." L replies sadly. Even he wanted to believe the lie. He didn't want anyone to ever know about Raito's dark past. Holding the younger man's body close to his own, he whispers, "We like our lies. We are being so childish."
"It is who we are." Raito retorts while closing his eyes. In this moment is where he wishes to be forever. He wants to forget there is another Kira out there, looking for him, who might have already found him. Turning around, he leans forward, kissing L. He wants to forget even if it is being childish.
L is thinking along the same lines. He wants to forget what almost tore them apart. Pushing Raito backwards, he watches as the teenager gasp in surprise when he hits the bed. Climbing on top of his lover, he kisses the other again, nipping at Raito's lower lip. Breaking the kiss, he stares into the eyes that are crimson instead of the honey glow they once had.
As he sees something different within L, Raito asks, "Do you still want me even now?"
He notices the pain within his lover's eyes. He notices Raito tense, waiting for his answer. Part of him wants to pull back and leave. He worked so hard to get Kira out of Raito for good to only have Kira back again. Pulling back, L sighs sadly, "I can never be with Kira."
Tears are ready to fall but Raito holds them back. He can understand L reasoning and that is what hurts the most. Who would want to be with a cruel monster? Leaning up, he pleads, "Make me forget only for a moment. Let me believe in a lie."
All his control breaks within him. Even if Kira is there within his lover, he can never deny Raito. Taking Raito face into his hands, he kisses the teenager with everything that he hides behind a mask. L shows he is very much a human being. When he is pulled down on top of Raito, he moves his lips down to Raito's neck, kissing, nipping and biting it.
"L." Raito moans feeling those talent lips move over his sensation skin, marking him L's. This is where he wishes to be. When he feels L's hand move over his clothing, he groans, "Make love to me."
Unbuttoning Raito's shirt, showing the perfect form Raito carries, L lets his hands wonder over the firm body, making the other man moan and pant in bliss. Yes, this lie is perfect. Moving his lips down, he takes Raito's nipple into his mouth, making the other scream in ecstasy. He feels heat pooling down in his groin. As much as Raito wants this, he also wants it. Biting down on the hard nipple, he gains the most beautiful noise he ever heard.
Arching up, Raito pants, "L… L… Oh god…" The rest of his words die in his throat when he feels L's lip move down his body. His mind goes blank and goes into over drive. When he feels his pants pulled off him roughly, he looks up at L with pleading eyes. Right now is where he wishes to stay forever. The world can take a seat in the back. Leaning up, kissing the only man who understands him, he mumbles in between kisses, "Love me. Never let me go." What is he asking? Is he asking for salvation?
Caressing Raito's face, L replies even if it sounded sappy, "I will always love you and I will never let you go." Even if it kills me, I will never let you go. He thinks. Standing up, he pulls his shirt off to hear a loud gasp coming from Raito. He drops his pants and boxers. Pulling Raito's boxers off, he climbs back on top of his lover, the only one for him. There is no one else who would ever be like Raito and right now he doesn't wish to loss that ever. Rubbing his body against the younger man, he blocks out everything except those sweet sounds coming from Raito's mouth. They squirm against each other, wanting the upper hand, kissing and touching each other only they find pleasing.
As he flips the detective over, Raito leans forward, brushing his lips against L's. No words need to be said. Them being together is enough. Hands brush against pale skin, making him crave the older man more. Heat raises inside of him and he can feel sweat pouring down his body. Their bodies mold together like they were always meant to be like this. Their dance against each other drives an intense desire course through him. Kissing those soft sweet lips against, he grabs the lube always hidden on the pillow. Even though L is usually the top, he will have his control tonight. Maybe it is because he is Kira again or maybe he just wants to please his lover as L pleased him all the time.
Feeling fingers slick rubbing against his opening, L stares into desire filled eyes about to protest but stops. There is no point in stopping his lover this time around. He owes the teenager this. Grabbing a hold of Raito's shoulders when he feels two fingers slide into him, he bites his lip to stop the whimper ready to escape his lips. He will not show the other he is uncomfortable. This is what Raito needs and he will be damned before he stops it.
Pushing his fingers deeper, Raito watches L's face go from pain to ecstasy in seconds which lets him know that he found L's sweet spot. Teasing the bundle of nerves for a few seconds, he pulls his fingers out. He can't take it any more. He is ready to explode and he wants the older man, to make L his for the world to know. Throwing pale long legs over his shoulders, he leans forward, pushing inside and feeling the muscles tighten around him almost like L doesn't wish to let him go. Nipping at L's neck, he whispers, "So tight, Lawliet."
It hurts but he ignores the pain and focus on Raito. As he gasps feeling Raito's cock slide deeper inside of him, L groans, "Raito." When Raito is all the way inside of him, he orders uncaring of the pain, "Move."
That is all he needs to hear for him to pull out and push right back inside. Everything goes away. The pain of losing his father escapes his mind. The sorrow he feels when L leaves disappears. All Raito can feel is pleasure. Thrusting in and out, hearing L moans and grunts, he can't control himself. He continues to go faster and harder, marking the older man his own. Biting L's neck, making sure everyone would know that the detective is his, he groans, "L."
When he feels a hand clamp over his cock, L sees white stars behind his eyes. Everything disappears except his lover. Moving his hips forward, trying to gain more pleasure, he moans, "Raito. Raito. Raito." After Raito thrusts a few more times, his mind blanks and he cums screaming out his lover's name in ecstasy.
Feeling the muscles tightly around him, Raito explodes inside L, making the other his forever. Collapsing on top of the older man, he whispers, "L."
After Raito pulls out of him, L wraps his arms around his lover, pulling the younger man toward him. While running his fingers across Raito's naked sweaty skin, he asks, "Did you enjoy yourself?"
"You let me have control."
"Raito needed it."
Closing his eyes, Raito mumbles, "I wanted you to be mine always." For he knows after this is over, he might just lose his lover for good. He doesn't fear for the other's life but because he will kill the new Kira, he knows he will lose L. When fingers stop running across his skin, he hears the older male's breathing even out.
"That was too much fun." Ryuk chuckles. "And at one time you wished to kill him."
Glaring at the shiginami, Raito is ready to speak to hear his cell phone ring. Not wanting his lover to wake up, he grabs his pants on the floor and answers while sitting up in bed, "Hello."
"God."
