Chapter 4 – And Misery Will Sing

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The next few days were lonely ones. They passed slowly and painfully. After I reported to Master that I had completed my mission, I went to my room and haven't left for 3 days now. Master had no new missions for me, and nobody knocked at my door. That night I had missed my date, and since then I hadn't seen Riku. I felt nothing for standing him up, the sorrow of losing Akio controlled my emotions. Even Nemu didn't come to my door.

I was sitting on my bed, staring at my door that hadn't moved in hours, studying the grain on it because I had nothing better to do. Suddenly I heard a knock, and I lifted my head. It hurt to move, but I got off my bed and walked to the door. My kimono was new, I had to throw the old one out, but I was sweaty and it was already sticking to my skin.

I opened the door slowly. Though I had waited days for someone to come to see me, just to see me, so I would know someone cared, answering the door knowing it couldn't be Akio dulled the excitement I thought I would feel. I still felt like crap.

Two shinigami whom I had never seen before stood in the doorway.

"You are under arrest for the murder of Shika Akio, you are guilty until proven innocent," his words were like a dagger piercing my heart. I didn't resist, I had no fight in me from days of depression. The two shinigami leaded me through the 12th division building, and we passed Master's Lab.

"Wow, what's that stench?" one of the shinigami complained.

"I don't know, but I smelled it when we came in, too," the other one answered.

"Master?" I whispered. They aren't going to take me away from Master, are they? Now that Akio is…gone…I truly don't have anybody left. Master is all I have, if they take me away from him, I'll just be an empty shell.

The thought disturbed me.

After we left the building I was sure that Master didn't know they were taking me. I had to do something to get away from these men. They hadn't taken my zanpakuto, and I could still flash step faster than most in my division. I was going to run. Abruptly I took to my feet, and in a matter of minutes I had lost my pursuers. I returned to my division building, but went in the back way because I was sure that after they had given up looking for me they would return here. I instantly ran to my Master's lab door and knocked.

"Master!" I yelled. "Master, they have come for me. They are going to take me away; they know I killed Akio! Master!" Nobody answered the door. "Master!"

"You murdered Akio?" I turned around to see Aoi behind me.

"I…I did," my eyes turned to the floor. "It was Master's order."

"Mayuri's orders or not, how could you do that?" she punched me in the face, and I hit the lab door behind me and slid to the floor. "You bitch! He was my brother! Why the hell did you kill him?" she kept punching me, and I knew I deserved it.

"Master told me to," she didn't like my answer, and beat me even harder.

"Screw you!" she yelled. Nobody was drawn to the scene, and strangely I hadn't seen any other members as I had left the building with those shinigami. Where was everybody? "I'll kill you, you freak! You weren't even born; you were made! What gives you the right to kill him?"

She picked me up by my kimono and kept punching me. My nose was bleeding, my face was sore and I couldn't see out my left eye very well anymore. I caught her punch, not willing to take any more punishment right then. I had to find Master.

"I have to find Master, get out of my way," I threw her to the ground. She was no match for me. "Aoi, I'm sorry." I said as I ran off, but I knew she didn't believe me.

"Bitch!" she shouted down the hall.

Nobody else was in the building. I found that quite odd. Where else could Master be?

"Master!" I called out for him. I couldn't find him anywhere, where could he have been? "Master, where did you go?"

At that moment I gave up hope of finding him, and suddenly the two shinigami that had taken me before came running down the hallway towards me telling me not to move or they would attack. I didn't move.

They reached me, took my zanpakuto, blindfolded me, and cuffed my arms. I thought it to be a little extreme, but they were fat and panting because of the chase, so they obviously didn't want to work anymore than needed.

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I sat for days on end in that cell. Four brick walls surrounded me. There was a steel door in one allowing some light from the crack underneath, because there was no window. I sat in a corner, engulfed by the darkness of my fate.

Sitting there, away from Master for so long, not even knowing where he is, I felt dead. I thought I would die in there, with little food and water, and no contact to anyone but the person who delivered the meals that I barely touched. I couldn't eat. I had killed my dearest friend and lost my Master, my creator, and my guide. All I could do was sit there, wilting, dying, and decaying.

I was also in pain physically. My eye was swelling and blood coated the left side of my face. It throbbed continuously.

In that dark prison I had given up hope. I didn't wait because there was nothing to wait for. I just was. I was there taking up space, being neither a hindrance nor a help to anyone. And if you cannot help nor hinder anybody, what is there to do? There is nothing. Once hope is gone, you have nothing.

After what must have been days, because the man had brought me many meals, I finally closed my eyes to sleep. Before I could drift off I realized something. I still had hope. Hope that Master would free me, and I'd be able to see him again. Wishing to sleep meant I was tired and wanted strength, which meant I was still alive. I was still alive. I could breathe, I could blink, I could talk, and I could sleep. Sleep sounded very nice…

…as long as I woke up again…

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