A/N: Whoa two chapters! One weekend! I'm giving you guys this as a present. As you know due to my busy schedule, I'm not going to be able to update for at least two weeks! Gah, I know! Well anyways here's that chapter. I don't own it or the songs I use, but the plot is mine ;)

Chapter 4-

Bella POV

I woke up with a horrible feeling, like something bad was going to happen. I couldn't get Paul off my mind. I smiled just at the thought of us, and what we used to be. Today was shopping day with Rosalie and Alice. I got up and threw my house coat on. I walked down the stairs and grabbed a bowl for cereal. Jasper was sitting at the kitchen island. "Good morning."

"Morning Jazz." I looked at him, he was already dressed. "Where are you off to today?" He glanced up from his lap top.

"Emmett comes home today from Columbia." He smiled.

"Right, I forgot. I'm going to the mall today with Rosalie and Alice." He nodded his head. And went back to working on whatever it was he was working on.

"Hey, what was wrong last night? And don't lie, I'll just check with Alice." He shut his lap top, and looked me straight in the eye.

"Umm, well…" I shifted nervously on my feet. "…I saw Paul. I was pretty upset." He shook his head. Almost as in disgust.

"Bella, come on. Can we please move past him, I mean, he really is no good for you. If you're looking for someone to go out with, why don't you try and go out with Edward. You know, no one liked Paul anyways." I could feel tears coming to my eyes, my throat feeling tight.

"Jasper you're acting like an asshole. Please just leave me alone. I will deal with it by myself. And mom and dad loved Paul. What don't you get that I miss him to death." I sob left my lips. "I saw him last night, and realized I miss him. I want him in my arms again." I sobbed a little harder. I sniffled, "I need to go and get ready." I threw my bowl into the sink and ran out of the room. Jasper grabbed my arm.

"Bella he hurt you, he will do it again and again, never stopping." I shook my head and shook his hand off my arm. I ran up the stairs and slammed my door shut. God he really pisses me off when he's home from college. Okay, please don't get me wrong. I love my brother to death but sometimes he needs to know when to back off and let me deal with shit on my own. My phone started to ring. Leah, hmm. "Hello?"

"Hey Bella, I wanted to ask you something."

"Yeah Leah, what's up?" My voice sounded so curious.

"Will you do me the honor of being my Maid of Honor at my wedding?" My jaw dropped, and I half shrieked.

"AHH!! Of course Leah, I would love to." I was bouncing up and down in the middle of my room. This day just got a whole lot better!

"Great! Now I know you're going out today with Rose. Have fun, I will call you tonight."

"Okay, that sounds great. Thanks Leah, you made my day! Bye." She said good bye and I hung up my phone. Feeling better I put on a pair of blue jeans and a pink polo. Slipped on a pair of white Nike sneakers. I didn't know what to do with my hair, so I threw it up in a sloppy pony tail. I walked down stairs, figures. Edward was sitting with Jasper in the kitchen. "I'm leaving, see ya!" I opened the front door and closed it behind me. My car was sitting outside. Jasper must have pulled it around. It was my baby, it was a Jeep Liberty, forest green; cream leather interior, heated seats, a sun roof, tinted windows and an amazing sound system. I loved this car. Since Rose drove last night, today was my day to drive us around. Rose only lived right down the road. Rose was waiting outside for me. She opened the door. "Hey Rose." She smiled.

"Hey Bella. So I want to talk to you before we pick Alice up." I looked over at her, before I pulled out of the driveway.

"Sure, what's on your mind Rose?" She swallowed, glanced out the window, and she started to fidget with her hands nervously. "Rosalie, are you okay? Please do not tell me you're pregnant?!" Her eyes went wide.

"Hell no!" She laughed. "No, I wanted to talk to you about last night." Oh shit.

"Oh, what about?" I looked back at her; we were now on the main road.

"Well, I saw the way you looked at Paul. Bella you are still madly in love with Paul, you need to give him another shot. They way he looked at you. He still had love and adoration in his eyes, he still cared. Bella he loves you. I can see it, you two need each other. You were so happy with him. Please, muster up the strength and go see him. I know it will be hard. So I came up with a plan. You tell all them that you're coming to spend the night with me, you actually come, but when you get to my house you remember that you forgot your cell at home. So your running to go get it, I'll cover your ass, you go to La Push and see him. You miss him, he misses you. Plus this has gone on long enough, you two are meant for each other." I waited, but she was finished.

"Okay, Rose, I'll play along. But it's only because I really do miss him." And with that, we pulled up to Alice's house. She got into the back of the car. "Hey Alice! If I knew Edward was coming over, I would have you come with him."

"Oh no big deal. Hey Rose." Alice beamed, but a stray tear rolled down my cheek, it was from talking about Paul. I smiled but Alice saw through me. "Bella, honey, no tears today." Rose snorted.

"Oh please! You didn't lose the one you love, because of you brother." Rose shook her head. "Be sides, Bella is going to get him back." I looked at Rose; she then realized she said too much.

"What?!" I stopped the car. "Bella you cannot go back to him. He doesn't want you; he's no good for you." Alice looked at me. "Bella, if you knew what was good for you, you wouldn't go back to him."

"Alice, shut the fuck up!" Rosalie yelled. I flinched at her choice of words.

"Alright, can we stop? Alice I'm sorry, but I miss him. I need to see him. He's sorry, I know he is." I looked at Alice with confidence.

"How the hell do you know that?" She looked upset. Know I said too much.

"He texted my last night." I hung my head in shame. Like I was caught red handed with my hand in the cookie jar.

Rosalie screeched. "That's great Bella! What did he say?" She beamed; her plan was going to work.

"Umm, that he was sorry for everything he put me through." Alice scoffed.

"He wasn't there for you every night that you cried yourself to sleep. It's too late for him to apologize Bella, don't let him…" I cut her off.

"Alice you don't understand, I need him. I need him to be happy, to be myself again. When he left me, he took my heart with him. I need him." I was crying now, I let the tears flow freely down my face. "You know what? I can't do this today, I'm sorry. Alice I will call when I feel better." I put the car in reverse, and dropped Alice off. She didn't even say good bye. What a bitch. Rose looked at me.

"I'm so sorry Bella, I never meant for Alice to act that way. I'm so sorry Bella you have no idea. Let's go back to your house, get some clothes, then you can come over." I nodded. Truly what I was afraid of was Alice calling Edward and telling him my plan. I really thought how I was going to get past him; I guess I could just wish he was picking Emm up. "Hey Bella?" I looked at Rose. "Do you umm think Alice would stoop so low as to tell Jasper and Edward our plan?"

"I honestly don't know, I don't know if I can even trust her any more. I'm so happy I have you Rose." The rest of the car ride was silent; we pulled up to my house. The door was locked, which meant Jasper went out. I unlocked the door and went inside. There was a note on the stairs. Hey, went to get Emmett, be back later. –Jasper. "He went to get Emm."

"Good. We have a little while before they get back." I nodded and went to the kitchen. I didn't eat breakfast, so I was starving. "What are you eating?" Rose came in the kitchen.

"Left over pizza." She looked at me. "Oh what ever Rose." I laughed. "You want to watch a movie?" She looked back at me.

"I thought we were supposed to be leaving this place so you can go see Paul?" I sighed.

"That will be later, look I'm tired and want to watch a movie." She nodded and walked to the other room. She picked out a movie. "Which one are we watching?" I looked at the title. The Ugly Truth. "Mom picked that up to watch but we haven't yet."

"Well I want to see it." She laughed and put it into the DVD player. We sat back and watched it. I instantly fell in love with this movie. The movie rolled to credits, perfect timing; I heard a car pull in. They were home. I jumped up and ran out the door, Emmett stepped out.

"EMMETT!!" I ran and jumped into his arms, Emm was truly like a brother to me and I love him so much. He squeezed me tightly, a little too tight. "Emm…Can't…Breathe…" His laughed boomed all around me.

"I have missed you my little sister." He put me down and ruffled my hair. I smiled. "What's wrong? You look like you haven't slept in days." He could always see threw me too.

"Oh, nothing"

"You miss Paul. Bella, why don't you just talk to him?" We walked inside and all hell broke loose. Jasper came running towards me. Emmett dropped his bag and moved in front of me, to keep Jasper from reaching me. "What the fuck Jasper!" Emmett boomed, he never liked violence in a family.

"Bella there is no fucking way I will let you go see Paul!" I looked at my watch, it was six thirty.

"You can't tell me what I can and cannot do Jasper!" I yelled right back at him.

"NO! I told you he was no good for you! YOU WILL NOT GO AND SEE HIM! That's final." I looked at Emmett.

"Lower your voice Jasper!" Emmett yelled. "Why can't Bella go and see Paul?" He challenged Jasper.

"Because, he hurt her once and he will do it again. He's not sorry for anything. Bella he's a fucking druggie! Leave him in La Push were he fucking belongs." I looked at him; Edward had his mouth hanging open. Rose gasped and I felt my knees get weak.

"What?" I gasped for air. "What did you say?" I felt tears coming.

"You fucking heard me! I witnessed everything. Maybe you should ask your little friend Paul what he really did in high school! Maybe you should ask him about Emily, and what he did for her and what he got in return." That did it, I was lost and confused.

"What are you talking about?" I looked over Emm's shoulder, "I'm so confused." Rosalie came over and took me by the arm and led me upstairs. She opened the door to my room; she sat me down on my bed and let me bawl my eyes out. What was he talking about? Did Paul lie to me throughout our whole relationship? Did I really care? If it was in his past, should I care? Yes I wanted my Paul to be open and honest with me, but maybe he put it behind him looking to move on. I don't care, I kept telling myself, I still love him, right? I was a confused mess. Rose rocked me gently I could hear more yelling going on down stairs; Rose smoothed my hair out of my wet face. Rose looked down at me.

"Go, go see him Bella." I looked at the time, it had been hours and I was still crying. It's was now nine thirty at night.

"I can't Rose, he'll see me. I don't know if I can confront him again." She shook her head.

"Go, now Bella, you need to show Paul you still love him before it's too late." I stood up, I looked at Rose, and her shirt was ruined.

"Oh god, I'm sorry Rose I ruined your shirt." She giggled.

"No big deal, I'll steal yours." She laughed again, "Go Bella." She pushed me out my door. I ran down the stairs. Jasper met me at the bottom.

"Where the hell do you think you're going?" I looked Jasper right in the eye.

"To see Paul, get out of my way!" I tried to push past him. Emmett came up and grabbed him, but Edward pushed Emmett. Two against one, not fair. "EVERYONE KNOCK IT THE FUCK OFF! LET ME BY I WANT TO LEAVE!" Everyone looked at me and I took it as my chance to get to the door.

"Bella, don't leave. I swear to god, I will tell mom and dad." I turned to see Jasper standing there.

"What are we fucking three now? I don't really care!" I turned back around to hear Emm yell 'love ya Bells'. I yelled back, "Love ya too Emm." I sped down the driveway, and headed down the familiar path to La Push. I pulled up to Paul's house, it was late but I didn't really care. I stopped the car and jumped out. Tears started to flow down my face knowing the problems I had to face when I got home and the fact that I was seeing Paul again. I knocked on his door and impatiently waited. I heard him coming down the stairs, I wave of butterflies hit my stomach. He opened the door. As soon as he was in full view I jumped in his arms and cried like there was no tomorrow. I wrapped my arms around his neck and his wound around my waist, "Paul…" I sobbed into his neck, I heard the door shut.

"Bella, what's the matter honey?" I really couldn't answer, not yet. He rubbed his hand up and down my back. He sat us down on the couch but I refused to move. "I knew you would come back, I've missed you, your home now. I'm officially home now." I smiled. "Now please, tell me what's wrong?" I looked him straight in the eyes.

"Everything!" He smiled.

"Well there will be plenty of time for that later. Right now I'm so psyched you're here! I could sit here for hours." I nodded, he kissed my forehead.

"Paul promise me something."

"Of course, anything." He looked at me.

"Promise that you will never become a jealous freak again. And that one day, you will tell me what's in your past." His face fell, and his body stiffened.

"Who told you there was something in my past?" I was all of a sudden upset that I brought it up.

"Jasper mentioned something about. But I don't care, not now!" He looked upset. I cupped his cheeks with my hands. "Just one day tell me."

"I don't know Bella." I nodded.

"Okay. I'm sorry." He looked at me.

"No! I'm sorry!" He shook his head. "You have nothing to be sorry for. Only I do."

"Well I forgive you. I want you to hold me right now, like you used too." He nodded.

"Will he be mad that you are here?" I moved my hands from his face letting them fall to my side.

"I don't want to go home tonight."

"Then don't, stay with me Bella, please." I looked at him, confused. "Bella, we really need to figure things out, just me and you. I need to know, where do we stand. I mean you obviously still find comfort in me, you traveled her at ten at night to see me…" I cut him off.

"Paul I haven't seen you in two months, I miss you, and I miss us. I don't really care anymore what people say. I think we need to talk about why you acted the way you did that night." I could feel myself choking up. But I would not let any more tears be shed; I was sitting in Paul's embrace, no need for them. "I think that's our problem, we need to talk." He nodded. He let out a breath.

"You know, I saw you in that restaurant, in could tell right away you were losing sleep. I felt so guilty. Then Leah came up and slapped me." My eyes went wide.

"Why? Why did she slap you?" How could Leah do such a thing?

"'Cause of what I did to you silly. She was upset at me. I mean all of your friends hate me." I smiled, leaned forward and rested my head on his shoulder. We sat there for about 20 minutes with him rubbing my back, his hands twisting in my hair, the only thing that could be heard was our breathing and steady heart beats; before he started to talk again. "You know I can't live without you in my life, I have tried in my life so hard to do everything right, but this time around I'm going to get it. I have you right now and I refuse to lose that…" I went to go cut him off but he placed a finger on my lip to silence me. "We can make something good of this, losing you once was all I could take. We're going to do this right this time, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for everything. My life with you means everything, so I'm not going to give up easily. I will not let him stand in my way. I promise you, I misunderstood, that's all. This love kills me slowly but I know deep down it's not over, it was never officially over." I could feel myself getting chocked up over his words; I have never seen this side of my Paul. "Oh, Bella. I'm so, so, so sorry! That night that we last talked, you know that night I walked. I could never get that memory out of my head." He was staring off into the distance. "I will never forget the way you look. How broken, I didn't know what I was doing. I have practically died without you here. It hasn't been the same. All that I'm after is a life full of laughter, well as long as I'm laughing with you. I'm thinking that all that still matters is love ever after. All I really ever wanted is a happy ending. After the life I've been through, I need you by my side. 'Cause I know there's no life after you." I sobbed a little. "I promise you that one day soon, I will tell you everything. Anything that I left out, I will tell you." I nodded.

"I love you Paul." Tears loosely clung to my eye lashes. We just sat there, I never wanted to move. "What time is it?" I sat up and looked at him.

"Quarter to eleven." Whoa.

"Don't you have work in the morning?"

"Nope, I lost my job the night I saw you. I ran out and James fired me."

"Oh. I'm sorry Paul." He just looked at me, "what?"

"Please never apologize; it wasn't your fault I ran out. Too embarrassed to stay there." I nodded. "Are you ready for bed?" I looked at him, confused. But I nodded. I trusted him too much, for my faith to brake in him. He picked me and re-adjusted me to carry me up the stairs bridal style. He leaned down; I felt his lips brush up against my ear. "One day I hope I will be carrying you just like this on the night of our wedding." A small smile made its way to my face. I think I just found my happy ever after. We went down the hall to his room; he sat me on the edge of his bed and went to his dresser. He turned around and handed me one of his t-shirts, it would be large enough to look like a dress on me. I went to his bathroom to throw it on. I got back and curled under the large comforter. I turned to face Paul; he draped his arm over me. "This is how it should be. How it used to be." He kissed my nose gently.

"I know Paul. How about we talk more in the morning, I'm really tired." My eyes felt heavy.

"Bella?" Paul sounded tired himself.

"Yeah Paul." I wanted to sleep, but I haven't seen him in so long, I could listen to him for hours.

"I could sit here, no matter how tired I really am, just to watch you smile in your dreams. I could stay lost here in your arms forever. From this point on every moment I spend with you is a moment I will forever treasure. I don't want to close my eyes, I don't to fall asleep, and I never want to miss another thing. Every night I dream of you, but those dreams never top you here in my arms. I want to stay close to you, I thank god that we can be together. I love you Bella…" Paul lulled me to sleep. Tonight I would sleep peacefully, in my lover's arms.

A/N: This chapter was longer than I intended, but as the words of my English teacher, 'these suckers can have a mind of their own, and write themselves.' Lol. Anyways review it, if I can get 7 lovely reviews I will post another chapter next week, even in my hectic week, promise!