Hiii. I wanna thank you for your reviews, they really help me. I hope you're starting to see the problem in their relationship, I'm gonna write more flashback about their discussions.

For the new readers if there're any, Judy is Quinn's mother and Jim is Brittany's father, as you're gonna read Brittany and Jim are not on good terms. Jim abandoned Britt and Susan after a car accident when she was 14, leaving Britt to take care of her mother alone.


Santana's POV

Three months later

Some month ago Judy announced she was gonna getting married to Jim, it's a small ceremony and we're all invited, it would be the first time I go to a wedding and I'll see Brittany too. I couldn't say no because it's really important for Quinn, we're sister and I can't not be there, but Brittany will be there too, we're gonna be there at a wedding, it's stressing me out.

"San are you ok?" Peter asks and I nod "The plane is gonna land"

For a second I forgot that Peter is gonna be there too as if it wasn't already enough. He's gonna stay at my house, he already met my parents, but just a hand's shake and some causal chat, this is gonna be the first time they're gonna spend some time together. I turn to the other side, Rachel looks at me and she gets closer whispering in my hear.

"Maybe she's not gonna be there"

"She is, Quinn would kill her"

"You don't have to talk or anything, just try to avoid her, she won't come to you"

Once at home I let Peter know my parents better, we stayed home all day so they could bond, I know they like him, but I also know that no one can arrive at Brittany to them. What my dad and Brittany had was special, almost a father-daughter relationship and my mom really loves her, I know they talk sometimes, it bothers me a bit, but I let it go. Peter is gonna sleep in my room, no Brittany traces are left, I didn't have lots of her things here, just presents or things that we brought together, I put them in a box that's under the bed. Peter is gonna see her tomorrow and I'm already getting ready to fight again. It's inevitable but still I didn't told him.

Wedding day

I have a long grey strapless dress and Peter has a classic black suit with a light blue shirt. We walk hand in hand toward the building, I'm already starting to feel nauseous, my parents are already inside, almost everyone is inside, just few people are outside and thankfully Rachel is one of them, we walk to her.

"Finally" She says.

"We're on time" Peter says.

"Everyone is here?" I ask with emphasis and she nods.

We start walking inside and when I see the inside I stop, flashbacks hit me, I keep looking and all I can see it's my wedding until Peter shakes me.

"Are you ok? You look pale"

"I-I'm fine"

We get closer to the altar and I see Brittany talking to my parents, she's there and I'm here too, I stop and look at them, now? I can't handle it, why did she have to become Quinn's friend? She shouldn't be here, I don't want to see her, here then.

"Isn't that the girl from the restaurant? That day remember?" Of course he would remember it.

"Yes, we went to the same high school" Meanwhile my mom sees me and I see her say something to Brittany and without turning she walks away "Why don't you go to my parents? I'll join you soon"

He walks away and I breathe, I see Susan and I go to her, I haven't see her in months, she sees me and hugs me immediately.

"I missed you so much"

"I missed you too Susan, I'm sorry I didn't call you e-"

"It's ok San, I understand and to be honest the only one who calls me often it's Quinn" She smiles.

"I didn't know you were coming, I thought since your past with Jim you could have not come"

"We did it for Quinn and a bit even for Judy, she really changed, how the restaurant is going?"

"Really good I love it, you should come when you're in New York"

"I will, oh it's starting we have to sit"

We walk to the benches, my parents and Peter are already sit on second row, Susan walks to the back, where is she going? I sit next to Peter and the ceremony starts, Quinn is in front of me. I still can't believe Judy is getting married and to Jim! She has her past and Jim, well, I don't like him for what he did to Brittany and Susan but they got better my parents and Quinn said, but still weird. How many chances were there for them to meet at the AA meetings and got together?!

"Why didn't you tell me you knew each other?" He just left me the time to sit before start questioning.

"Now that you know it changed something?"

"No but why hiding it?" He looks at me, but I keep looking in front of me.

Quinn turns and shush us.

"Why was she talking to your parents?"

"Because they know each other"

"Why t-" Quinn turns again.

"If I hear another word I'm gonna kill you, don't test me" She says.

Peter doesn't say anything else thankfully.. Where's Rachel? I lean forward and look around and she's sit with Susan and Brittany on the other side. They're not sit there for Jim obviously, but to leave some space between us. The ceremony goes on and I keep thinking on what plates I can change at the restaurant, I have to distract myself, but Peter thinks otherwise, he slides his hand on mine bringing me back to what's happening. I look at him for a second and then to the ceremony, where are we? They're about to say their "I do", I feel my throat closing, I'm not gonna cry, I'm not gonna cry, I try my best to not cry, to not let Peter see me like this.. I lean forward to look at Brittany, she's crying then she goes outside, I lean back to my sit and look forward try to stay calm. I'm so not gonna feel bad for her. After the ceremony we all go to the restaurant, we sit at our table, we're sit with my parents Rachel and Quinn's aunt, Brittany is sit on the other side with Susan, Quinn and some of her relatives.

"Are you ok baby?" My mom asks taking my hand and I nod.

"There's something I should know?" Peter asks and I shake my head "How come Quinn is not sit with us?" He asks looking around finding her with Brittany, why does he always have to question everything?

I really don't know how to answer him, why isn't she sit with us? Because her and Rachel switched so she could spend some time with Brittany and Susan too, 'cause Brittany and I can't be near. Yeah I'm telling him for sure! Why can't he just let it go?

"She wanted to spend some time with Susan and there wasn't space for all the people" Rachel says.

"Who's Susan?" I look at Rachel.

"The woman next to her" She doesn't say anything else and he doesn't ask more. I shouldn't have brought him, but I couldn't not bring him! We already fight for everything and he keeps saying that I don't tell him anything and that I don't do anything for him so I had to bring him, well most of all because he saw the invitation..

The rest of the dinner went good, he talked more with parents, he and Rachel aren't really friend, yes they talk, they always see each other at our house but it never become a friendship, Rachel knows all our problems, she's Brittany's best friend and I think Peter thinks she's weird and I can understand him, we all thought she was weird when we were in high school! He talks more to Quinn, I don't know why, she's weird too!

Both Rachel and Quinn know that we have problems and everything, it's just that Quinn tries to like him for me meanwhile Rachel doesn't want to even try. When we are outside we're always with his friends, they're fine but it was all different when I was with Brittany, we were always together, me her Quinn and Rachel, best friends all together, it was family, another story. Something catch my attention and not only mine, Jim is at Brittany's table, I see people look at them.

"I don't understand why can't you do some step toward me" He says to Brittany, he's not really shouting, but he's almost there.

"Jim please, it's your wedding day, enjoy it" Susan says standing up trying to get him away.

"I'm enjoying it and I would like my daughter to be happy for me" I can see Brittany trying to stay calm, she's looking down at her hands on her lap.

"Jim please" Quinn says too.

"No, she's just an hypocrite" He says a little louder, he's not drunk, there's not even alcohol here.

"Jim if you keep doing this we're going away, this is Judy's day" Susan says.

"How can you be still pissed at me? Still not talking to me? You're at my wedding and you're perfectly fine to talk with my wife and the others and you look at me like I'm a stranger, I got it before, but now? How can you tell me I'm not your father for what I've done when you did the same thing?" I see Brittany's eyes, I see anger in her, I see what it's gonna happen in my mind, all in a blink, without thinking I stand up and shout her name, I stop her, before she punches her father.

She was already up ready to hurt him, but my voice stops her, I can see her breath harshly, for the anger.. to not cry.. for my voice. She looks at me and I look at her, staring hard at each other, I don't understand what's behind those blue eyes, too many feelings are in there, Judy brings Jim away and everyone starts to sit again. Me and Brittany are still up, still looking at each other, I'm on the edge, I'm testing my body and I don't know how long I can resist before it gives up, but I can't stop looking at her.

I don't know what to think, it's not like I wanted to help her, or I didn't want to help her, it just happened.

Quinn takes her hand and Peter takes mine, it's time to join the world again, I feel all these feelings, I look around trying to not explode right here, I look at my dad and the first tear comes down, my mom holds my hand and I take my tear away from my face.

"I think we should talk about the things you haven't told me"

"When we're back in New york"

"Why?"

"Because now I don't want to" I stand up and walk outside to Quinn, I feel relieved when I see that Brittany isn't there, I sit next to her and she takes my hand.

"She left with Susan" She says "Thank you"

"I didn't know I was gonna do it"

"Well thank you anyway, I know it wasn't easy"

"Right then it was, I wasn't thinking about what happened between us, it was just me trying to stop a person I care about doing something she would regret, like nothing ever happened, now I have to face Peter, he wants to know" I roll my eyes.

"You knew it already, before or then it was gonna happen"

"How's your mom?"

"Pissed but happy that nothing happened, I can't believe he said that"

"I know it's not the same thing, even if it hurt really bad anyway, but if you put yourself in his shoes you could have thought that"

"Maybe but it really wasn't the time"

"That for sure"

"Ehy Quinn I have to go" Rachel says walking to us.

"Already" She nods.

"Susan needs a hand finding Brittany"

After an hour or so we all go home, Peter didn't say a word to me and my parents stay quiet too, I'm sure they are gonna call Susan once at home.

We leave Ohio with Quinn, Rachel already left with Brittany, when the plane landed Peter left without saying goodbye and I take a taxi with Quinn, maybe it would be good to take some time off.

Flashback Brittany POV

I'm pissed, Santana told me boys are trying to mark their territory around her, I trust Santana and I'm not worried, but the thought of them flirt around her is really disturbing! That and then I asked her if girls tried something too, it's New York I don't believe there aren't lesbians there, but she said no one did. When I told her it was weird since she's the most beautiful girl she said that she doesn't have a "gay sign" on her head so they don't know, I did agree with her obviously, but then I asked her how come no one knew, she must have told all that boys she has a girlfriend. Apparently she told them she's taken but she didn't specify by who, I'm not really mad 'cause I know she's reserved but I can be a bit pissed right?

Now we're walking in the street hand in hand trying to find some good shop to buy something for Rachel's birthday, we enter in one clothes shop, I thing Rachel would like this shop. We look around and then I see a man and a woman looking at us, they have disgust in her eyes, I don't really care about people like that, but before I can say it to Santana I feel her hand leave mine. I look at her and she has seen them, I don't say anything, we keep shopping without looking as a couple, this hurts me a bit, is she ashamed?

Sometimes it feels so, it's not the first time it happens, it's not like I want her to say to everyone that she's gay for first, but I would like to hold her hand whenever I want. Am I asking too much?

I remember the first time we went public, it was at the prom, after she sang to me and asked me to be her date I was really nervous, what if someone tried to embarass her? Or worse.. I bought my white smoking and red tie with a huge smile on my face, the only thing I could think about was her. I went to her house with a bouquet of flowers, when Maribel opened the door Santana was already downstairs, I looked at her and she was so beautiful, her long red dress was tight on her, her body looked perfect, more than the other times. I saw things differently than usual, it was probably the consciousness that we were going to be together in public.

Thankfully that night went well, it started goood 'cause we went all together with Quinn and Rachel too, so it seemed as a friend date, but then we started to dance together, closely, people started to look at us, it was uncomfortable, seeing them talking about us, looking at us, Santana had a little panic attack but we managed to keep it in control. The night went on without problems, we had fun and Santana let herself go from that day on,yes people still looked at us the week after but no one dared to do something or talk funny, Santana was still a Cheerios.

So once at home from our shopping we sit on the couch and turn on the tv, she doesn't say anything so I try to ask.

"What happened at the shop today? We were fine and then everything become weird"

"Nothing happened"

"San please be honest, I saw that couple too"

"Then why are you asking me?"

"Are we coming back as we were at the beginning? Is it gonna be as high school?"

"What are you talking about?"

"Are we gonna hide again? Are you ashamed of us?"

"No Britt, it's just that some people don't want to see us" She says.

"So? It doesn't mean we can't do it, we weren't doing anything bad or outrageous, we were holding hands as everyone does, gay or not gay"

"You know how I feel about people who don't understand"

"I know and I understand it's not easy, but those people don't have anything to do with us, so why care?"

"Please Britt I don't wanna talk about it, there's nothing to say, I just let your hand go, it's not the end of the world"

"It's the meaning of it" I say.

After that we keep watching the tv without saying a word until Quinn comes back home.


I hope you are gonna hate less Britt, maybe just understand her a bit. Just to be clear I don't want you to start hating Santana, I just wanna show you that she still wasn't ready and that caused problem between them. No hate, just patience.

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I'm just gonna tell you, you don't wanna miss next chapter..

-Deb