"Elsa. Psst. Elsa! Psst" my sister's voice had awoken me from another nightmare as usual.

However, I found myself not wanting to open my eyes. Sometimes, if I do not want to actually sleep, but keep my eyes closed, I can still feel restful without having to have my re-occurring bad dreams.

I found it difficult to keep my eyes from opening, as my sister began to bounce on me.

"Wake up. Wake up. Wake up" she repeated like before.

I grumbled and tried to shut my eyes tighter, "Anna, go back to sleep" and take advantage of the fact that you can dream pleasantly. I froze for a moment, realizing how rude that thought came out.

"I just can't. The sky's awake, so I'm awake, so we have to play" I tried to avoid grunting when she rolled her body on me.

Why should I? I was too old to be playing after all." Go play by yourself" besides, she did not always need me to play. She was creative, unlike me. She was energetic enough, unlike me.

Surely, she could have one of the nanny's play with her if she wanted them too. They would do anything for her.

I pushed her off the bed and immediately regretted it. What would happen if she hurt herself from the fall? Then it would be all my fault if Anna cries, and I would be in big trouble. I should have known better.

After a few seconds of silence, I felt Anna re-climbed and actually forced my eye to open, "do you want to build a snowman?"

Did she…just ask me what I wanted to do? It was not like yesterday, where it was something she wanted to do, and was only asking me to join her, but she actually asked me. She actually asked me what I wanted to do.

My eyes shot open, and I smiled at the thought, "…definitely." I sat straight up, but cringed a bit when my hand was pricked by something.

"What's wrong Elsa" she asked while jumping off the bed.

I shook my head, "it is nothing Anna. Just give me a second, and I will meet you outside" and waited patiently as she danced her way out, closing the door behind her.

With a quick glance to my hand, I noticed something in the palm of my hand. It was a small icicle, no bigger than a thorn on a rose.

My nightmares must have caused me to create pieces of icicles, and I ended up sleeping on them. Luckily, it was easy to pull out, but I could still feel it sting for being there for a while. I decided I would check the rest of my bed later on tonight. That is if it had not melted by then.

I slipped on my shoes and rushed out the door with the eagerness of doing what I wanted to do for a change. The moment I left the room, Anna grabbed my hand and pulled me all the way to the ballroom.

"Come on, come on, come on, come on" I felt a bit paranoid. If we were caught I would be in big trouble. I was not worried about Anna, because she did not know any better. I did though.

"Do the magic, do the magic" I laughed. That is what I loved about my little sister so much.
Sometimes, being able to have ice magic and impress people made me feel special. It made me feel as if I had done no wrong. I did not have to place my foot specifically anywhere, I did not have to motion my hands any proper way, I did not have to memorize any steps to do this. No one else could do this, which meant no one could tell me how to do it.

I waved my hands; creating a snowball in process before throwing it in the air and making it burst. No one can tell me how to control my power properly. It was one of the few things in my life that they cannot tell me what to do.

"This is amazing" I felt so happy being praised. I do not get praised for doing things right, it is usually expected of me. Anything that was not a lecture or pointing out my mistakes, there were no compliments. Receiving no comments at all was my compliment.

"Watch this" I tried not to squeal happily as I tap my foot on the floor, allowing a layer of ice to cover the ground.
Soon enough, I began to find myself trying to keep up with Anna's energetic attitude, "again! Again" she kept jumping from snow platform to snow platform, running even faster.

"Slow down" I stated. Why will she not listen to me? I knew that she often never listens, but can she once just listen to me? Especially since I am her sister.

I began to worry while I took a step back. The ice caused me to slip to the ground, but I was more focused on Anna falling.

"Anna" in the blink of an eye Anna was struck by my powers, sending her to tumble safely in the snow. I rushed over to hold her, and could see a strand of her hair turning white. "Mamma! Papa" I dropped all formalities due to my lack of understanding of what to do. I had just struck my own sister!

I could see all the ice around the ballroom growing sharper as my parents rushed in, "Elsa, what have you done? This is getting out of hand!" I bit my lip, knowing what I had done.

"Anna" my mother yelled as they both took her in their arms. It was all my fault. I did not mean to. I knew I had no right to make up excuses, but I could not help myself.

"It was an accident. I'm sorry Anna" but they ignored me.

"She's ice cold" my heart began to race, knowing perfectly well what it could mean. How could I do such a thing?

"…I know where we have to go" they stood up and told me to hold on to Anna for a brief moment. During that time, I could see a bit of glare in their expressions. The moment they left me alone with Anna I buried my head into her body.

I did not know that my powers would shoot out like that; it was just a panic reflex. I knew I should have never listened to Anna, and because of me, Anna could die any minute. I looked around again to see the ice becoming sharp.

Why could I never do anything right?

They came back soon enough to grab Anna and me. We ended up setting off by horse to a destination that I was unaware that existed. I was even more surprised when actual rock came to life.

"Your majesty. Born with powers or cursed" I kept silent, knowing that I would only make things worse by trying to help.

"Born. And they're getting stronger" I tried not to look away as my mother brought Anna over to the talking rock. I only hope Anna was ok…what if they think I did it on purpose?

"You are lucky it wasn't her heart. The heart is not so easily changed, but the head can be persuaded" my heart felt as if it had been struck instead. If I had accidentally hit Anna, then I would have ended up killing her.

"Do what you must" just hearing my father talk made me guilty. He did not have to say anything, but I knew he blamed me for this. I am the only one who caused this. It was my responsibility to take care of my sister and I could not even do that right.

"I recommend we remove all magic, even memories of magic to be safe… But don't worry, I'll leave the fun" did that mean he would remove my magic also? I was perfectly fine with that. I did not deserve this ability in the first place.

It was not what I was expecting. When he said removing all the magic, he meant the magic that was killing my sister. I watched with a broken heart as all her memories of my powers disappeared, but it was for the best.

"She will be okay."

"But she won't remember I have powers" I kept on forgetting to speak formal. My head was spinning on just trying to keep my thoughts together.

"It's for the best" I could hear the disappointment in his voice. It was for the best though.

"Listen to me, Elsa, your power will only grow" that was something I did not want to know. I am already stressing over the fact that I almost killed my younger sister. "There is beauty in your magic…but also great danger" I know. "You must learn to control it" I know. "Fear will be your enemy."

I gasped and hid my face in my father's chest. His hold did little to comfort me, "No. We'll protect her. She can learn to control it. I'm sure" I felt as if when he said 'protect her' he really meant Anna. It was my fault that Anna was hurt. If anyone needing to protected, it was Anna.

I listened intently and with guilt as my father and I agreed that I should stay in my room whenever possible. My lessons will be taken in my room, as well as my meals. Not once did I ever disagree with him.

The moment we returned to the castle, I rushed straight into my room, not bothering to stop if they called out to me. They did not. I closed the door and sat with my knees drawn up to my chest.

I was the oldest, and, therefore, all responsibility was placed on me. I could not even keep myself from hurting Anna, so how can I be expected to run a kingdom. Just moments before I was actually happy doing something that I thought I could never mess up on, but I was wrong.

I sat there until the sun rose, and the moment I heard a knock, I looked up.

"Elsa! You won't believe what I dreamt of" I kept silent, hoping she would think I was asleep, "I dreamt I was kissed by a troll. Pretty funny huh- Elsa, the door is locked" she began to jiggle at the knob.

My heart was beating fast at the thought of Anna coming in. I had to make a decision; to keep my sister safe or keep her happy? "…Go away Anna" I held my breath waiting for her to cry or beg.

"I see, you want a day to yourself huh? Like your own Elsa time or something" that was not what I meant. "All right Elsa. We will play tomorrow. See you later for lunch" but I was not going to go out for lunch. I was going to eat all my meals inside my room from now on.

I looked back to my bed for a brief moment, noticing something glittering in the light. After I stood up and slowly approached my bed, I saw a small hole.

My hands had run gently on the surface of the sheets, before I pricked my fingers. I gasped quietly and decided to tug on the blankets as well as the covers. I was shocked.

The nightmares did not create bits of icicles, but my whole bed was pierced and destroyed in large daggers. The tip had barely made it to the surface. My next nightmare would have sent the ice to stab me.

That was my final reason to keep Anna safe. It was more than obvious by now that I was a threat to Anna, and to everyone in the kingdom. I had to quickly chisel away at the ice with anything strong in my room, before my nanny came in for my basic lessons.

When she did come in for my first lesson she brought up something, "I heard that you have decided that you would be in your room more often. Is that right?" I nodded, and wondered if my father had mentioned to her about my ice powers.

"Yes, it is right" I formally replied.

"It is good to hear that. You need every ounce of your time to focus on your education. You do not have time to be playing" I nodded and kept quiet.

The lessons continued along with my nightmares. I would often find myself waking up early from a bad dream just in time to chisel away at the ice. I used to be able to remove it without thought, but for some reason the ice that I unintentionally created refused to dissolve, unless by force.

The day after my 'Elsa time' Anna came knocking on my door, mainly because she already tried to jiggle at the knob a bit before.

"Elsa! Let's go play. Elsa, Elsa, Elsa" she repeated, hoping to get an answer from me. I had to be strong. I would break Anna's heart, but it would not kill her.

"Go away Anna" I tried to avoid quivering. The ice covered my bed sheets, forcing me to crumple it up to avoid spreading.

"Oh…oh, ok…I will try tomorrow then. See you Elsa" I could hear the disappointment in her voice. I could hear the disappointment in everyone's voices. That was all it was.

On that same day during one of my lessons, I could hear a loud crash from outside, followed by the sound of laughing.

"Come and catch me" she squealed, and I lifted an eyebrow in curiosity.

"Princess Anna, let's finish our lessons for today. All right" the voice passed by the door and disappeared along with Anna's voice.

The next day, Anna's voice woke me up. For a moment, I freaked out and accidentally froze my pillow thinking that Anna had managed to slip in my room.

However, she was only talking through the door. Actually she was singing.

Her voice was so pleasant unlike my own. I wish I could sing as well as her. I knew she wanted me to come out, and for a brief moment, I was actually thinking about doing so but the pillow told me otherwise.

"Go away Anna" I stated. The pain in my heart did not subside with each time I had to say it. It was my fault that all of this happened. If I were not so much of a horrible person, none of this would have happened.

"Uh…sure… I guess" and I could hear the same disappointment as she left me alone. Anna was so lucky. She never had to deal with this. It was easy only wanting to have fun, rather than worrying about powers that could kill someone.

During my lessons, I was able to take a break. I peeked out the door of my room to make sure that Anna was not there, before slipping out. I walked around the castle to stretch my legs, ignoring the door that I had told Anna to never go down in.

At one of the corners, I stopped when there was another loud crash, "Oh Anna" the voice of a nanny spoke.

"I-I'm s-sorry. I didn't mean to. It was an accident" it sounded as if Anna was about to cry. Was she about to get in trouble?

"It's not your fault. Accidents happen, so cheer up. I will make you something to eat" I sighed. Anna hardly ever gets in trouble. She was too young to know better.

I quickly made my way back to my room for the continuation of my lessons and closed the door behind me. If I had stayed there any longer Anna would have seen me out of my room. I had to be careful.

The idea of running into Anna and causing another blast of ice created a buildup of ice of one of the flower vases. It shattered, and I gasped. I kept forgetting that if I did not focus, my powers would spread. As my father says; Conceal it, do not feel it, do not let it show.

Linda came in right at the moment I was trying to use a towel to clean the mess up, "what happened here?"

I was not sure what to say, "I…bumped into the vase…sorry."

She strolled over to pick up the pieces for me, "you cannot do this. You are supposed to be more graceful. How can you rule a kingdom, if everything you touch breaks" but it was my first time that I actually broke something.

I found myself bringing Anna in the topic, "Anna broke-" and Linda gave me a disappointed look. I looked down towards the floor, in order to avoid her guilt trip.

"Anna is younger than you. She does not know better. She does not have a kingdom to run in the future. I would suggest taking responsibility before playing the blame game. You are too old for that" and she walked out to throw away the pieces.

She was right. I should know better.


Thank you so much for the reviews. I have a grammarly edit account and have been using it. Sometimes it does not always tell me what specifically to change. Elsa is the only one that is supposed to have no contractions in her sentences. She is very formal. I know in the movie she does use can't, wasn't, but eh. It does not seem like she should/would act. The others are fine. They are supposed to be talking their actual formality of the 1800s but that stuff gives me a headache. I actually talk like this XD 'let us' and 'we are' etc.

I appreciate the pointing out on my grammar. Sometimes the site does not recognize that dialogue and grammar do not go side by side. Over half the time we talk, we are often grammarly speaking wrong.

Do not worry, I always re-read my chapters and constantly fix errors that I might notice.