Diclaimer: I still do not own anything related to the manga/anime.

Warnings: Still the cursing. Little bit of blood.

Chapter 3: Chakradagapra

"Akako-saaaaaaan, do you prefer green or blue?" I heard Yoshiko's voice through the door. " I stopped rubbing my hair with a towel and thought about it for a while. Blue reminded me of the girl. So definitely not blue.

"Green", I replied and wondered what Yoshiko was up to this time. I was still in a bad mood after seeing my body and I was afraid of snapping at Yoshiko.

"I'm back!" I heard her at the door. "May I come in? I have a surprise for you!" She sounded so happy that I couldn't say no.

"Alright, come in", I told her and pondered what the surprise might be.

"Clothes!" Yoshiko yelled, when she rushed in with a huge pile of clothing in her hands. "I brought only the coolest and the prettiest! There were some way too old and mummified so I thought you wouldn't want to wear them." I stared the pile in a state of shock. Where had she got them?

"I can't accept this", I managed to utter.

"What? No doesn't count for an answer, you know! And besides, these are all from the hospital's storage room, because from time to time we get clothes as a donation. They are ment for the patients, you are a patient, you don't have clothes, so soldier – you are gonna take them, like it or not!" Yoshiko commanded me. I blinked. Did she have a personality disorder? But then she smiled and the scary I-command-you-Yoshiko was gone. "Unless you wanna go around naked", she then said with a innocent smile.

"You are evil, Yoshiko-san", I told her. "Evil, evil person." She giggled.

"I can't help it, I have way too much energy and way too little things to do! And oh yes, I really, really need your help if you don't mind?" I blinked again and before I even answered she continued:

"You remember that I have this reaaaally big date coming up, with a man I really, really, really, really, I mean – really – like and I have absolute no idea what I should wear!" She then took a pose for me. "Should I be sexy and lucious or maybe shy and cute or beautiful and warm or or or..." she babbled.

"Uhm, what?" I asked. "You lost me when you started speaking about some guy."

"Oh yes, Iruka-sensei, he's so hot and I was so nervous to ask him out on date but he said yes and then I was flowing in the air and I was so happy and and and!" I noticed that her eyes where smiling with happiness. My bad mood was also starting to vanish. Yoshiko was good company for me.

"Why won't you just try to be yourself?" I suggested. Although I don't think Yoshiko could manage to pretend to be something else.

"But I'm afraid he won't like me", Yoshiko said with sadness on her voice and sat on my bed. "He's the first guy I've liked this much and I really want him to like me too!" I patted her shoulder. Hmm, when had I become the I-know-everything-about-love-affairs-please-be-free-to-consult-me?

"Well, if he doesn't like you, he doesn't deserve you", I told her and sighed in my mind. That was a cliché, even I knew it.

"Yes, you're right", Yoshiko said with determination in her voice. "Thank you." Then she held a pause. "And if he doesn't like me, I'll just force him to!"

"Scary Yoshiko-san is back", I yelped.

"Oh, sorry, I went overboard again. But yes, now that's taken care of, you should choose the clothes you want to keep and... Hmm, oh yes, I'll go get some fresh bandages." Then she was gone again. I scrathed my head. Was I ever gonna get use to Yoshiko's hyperactivity? Probably not. When I thought I'd seen everything, she'd just switch to the next gear. Pheew, where did she get all her energy from?

I looked at the pile of clothes. Well, if no didn't count for an answer what options did I have? I sighed with a smile and started to browse trough it. There were lots of green garments and surprise, surprise, I picked myself an olive green shirt. Before I got to choose between pants, Yoshiko came back.

"Time to show me that wound of yours!" she said happily. "It's been healing in an amazing speed. Are you sure you're not using your Chakra to heal it yourself?" I blinked. My Chakra? Chakra?

"Uhm, what?" I asked. I was totally lost. Yoshiko stared at me for a while.

"O'boy, your memory surely is lost..." she said. "Uhm. Well, basically Chakra is your physical and spiritual energy mixed together within your body. It's quite hard for me to explain it, since I dropped out of the Academy before graduating and I never quite got the hang of it..." Yoshiko answered and looked a bit ashamed.

"No worries, Yoshiko-san", I told her. "It's no big deal. Now, let's just change the bandages so I can put my clothes on. I don't feel comfortable in this towel." I probably could find out about this Chakra-thingie from somewhere else. Yoshiko grinned at me and then started to apply the medical ointment on my wound.

"You know, this probably won't even leave a big scar on you. But you truly are lucky to be alive. Just a half inch to the left and it would've pierced your heart", Yoshiko said silently. "But I'm glad you are alive! I like Akako-san!" Now it was my turn to be a bit ashamed.

"Oh, thanks", I managed to mumble. "I'll try to keep myself alive for now on."

"That's something I would appreciate very much", she told me firmly and rolled the gauze over my chest. "By the way, mind if I call you Akako-chan? I really don't like the formal suffixed at all!" She tilted her head with a happy face. "I like to think patients as my friends and not as strangers, who are just passing by."

"Well, I don't mind. At all. Yoshiko-chan, I'd like to have a friend", I told her. Actually, although Yoshiko was my nurse, I already had categorized her as a 'friend' and not as a 'nurse'.

"Yay!" Yoshiko clapped her hands. "Then we can eat cookies together Akako-chan! Before I go on my date. I'll try to bring some books too, so you have something to do with your spare time! Oh, I'll go get some now!" After that Yoshiko was out of the room again, I had new bandages on my chest and clothes on the floor. And I absolutely had no fucking idea where the thought of cookies had came from. Maybe Yoshiko got her fuel from sugar?

I sighed, but happily, when I lifted the olive shirt from floor. Well now, where was I before the Return of the Nurse?

After a few hours of cookies (and telling nervous Yoshiko the date would turn out just fine) I was left alone with books. And after reading them I started to feel like I got the hang of the Chakra-thingie. So the bad mood I had earlier was totally wiped away. Actually, life was kinda...smiling. I had food (cookays!), a nice bed, books and clothes. I had picked loose pants to go with the olive shirt (which actually was a bit too big for me, but couzy) and I felt really comfortable. The problem now was my hair. After straightening it out, it had decided to become electrically charged. I actually got electric shocks from anything I touched.

When I had finished the last book (about ninjutsus) I had nothing to do. The TV in my room was apparently not working, since no matter what button I pressed, nothing happened.

"Fucking idiot box", I told it. "You may have won this time, but the next time I'll kick your screen in." Saying it out loud actually made me feel better and I giggled. "Ok, don't worry mister TV, I won't kick you. I will just tell Yoshiko-chan about you and then you will get replaced and spend the next years of your miserable life in a junkyard. Hah, how do you feel about that?" I patted the TV and got an electrical shock.

"Oh, screw you", I muttered. I was starting to get frustrated. I had nothing to do. And I wasn't sure how much I was allowed to circle around the hospital. But the room felt so small...

Then the thought about Chakra hit me. I had spent the last four hours reading about it and how to use it, so why not try to actually use it? It couldn't hurt, could it?

I made my desicion instantly. Hell yes I was gonna try it! I felt my whole body bursting with anticipation. I was so gonna try it.

But, actually, wait. How? My mood lowered. I didn't know any ninjutsus. And I wouldn't try them even if I knew. Too much risks in there. Genjutsu wouldn't work either. Taijutsu didn't use Chakra.

"Oh, fuck, this sucks", I stated. Although... the one book had mentioned about the Chakra training. I rushed to the book and tried to find the right page.

"Training, training, training", I repeated. "Where are you when I need you the most? Oh, there, training!" The booked showed a picture of a ninja hanging upside down on a tree. I read the whole page carefully. So, the basic idea was to gather Chakra at the bottoms of my feet? That didn't sound so hard. Then I should be able to walk on the surface of the tree. Although, in this case the tree was going to be the wall of my hospital room.

"Get yourself ready wall, I'm gonna come and walk on you!" I pointed the wall. "Yes, you heard me right! You punk!" Then I walked next to it. Next stage: gather the Chakra!

Except I didn't know how to do it. Actually, the books didn't explain it either. I scrathed my head. Blimey, this wasn't so easy after all.

I thought for a while. I needed to gather energy to my feet. So, how would I do that?

"Go, Chakra-thingie, go to my feet!" I stated although I was pretty sure it wouldn't be that easy. I accompanied my words with hand movements. I felt like a total idiot. Well, I had to try?

"Now, the moment of truth", I said and put my left foot against the wall. I didn't feel secure at all. I closed my eyes and hoped with all my heart that I had at least something in my feet or otherwise I would land flat on my butt. I lifted my right leg as quickly as possible and placed it on the wall.

I didn't fall. It hit me. I really was standing on the wall. On a very weird position, because I was very afraid of falling, but still, I was standing there. I felt a tingling sensation on the bottom of my feet.

"Oh, goodness gracious, I love you God", I told myself. Now, how did I move upwards? Perhaps it really had been the talking and hand movements? If that really was the case... Oh, Lord, ninjas must look so stupid when fighting.

"Ok, Chakra-thingie! We understand each other clearly now, don't we! Now, a step upwards. With the right foor. Now! Go Chakra, go! And now the left. And right. And left. And now a huge leap with right! Now to the ceiling! Let's start with left this time! Oh fuck, this is so fun! Now, right! Left foot, move, right, move!"

"What are you actually trying to do?" a voice interrupted me. And it startled me too. Badly. I fell. On the bastard's lap. He got me. I don't know if I'd have been happier with the floor caughting me. Surely it would've hurt, but now my pride was the one being injured.

"Fuck you", I told Kakashi. He frowned at me.

"You were falling", he answered bluntly. "I could have let you hit on the floor instead, but I decided to be a nice guy this time. As I always am."

"No you're not. Nice people knock. You know perfectly well it was your fault I was started to fall in the first place!" I wasn't going to be easy on him.

"Actually, I did knock. And I heard you were in here, since you were talking to yourself. So, I helped myself in", he said and looked at me firmly with his left eye. With face only ten centimeters away from mine. I was starting to feel rather uncomfortable. He still hadn't let me from his arms. Actually, had I tried to leave?

"You would rather have landed on the floor? I caught you, because I didn't want you to get hurt, but if you really insist, I can let you land on your butt next time you feel like it", he then continued. I actually felt my face blush. Oh crappity crap, crap, crap. Now really wasn't the time to be blushing.

"Not to mention you were hilarious with your 'left foot, move, right foot, move'", he ended and grinned under his mask. This time I blushed with irritation. That son of a bitch!

"I've said this before, I say it again: Fuck you", I growled and started to struggle to get myself free. He dropped me on my feet and I twirled around to meet him face to face. "I was beginning to think, that you actually are a nice guy after all, but now that I think it again, you aren't. You are an ass." And he had the nerve to still be grinning at me.

"I still think you were hilarious. I will cherish this memory until the day I die", he told me. I really had to do my everything to not to hit him.

"What's wrong with talking while doing? After all, I succeeded in controlling my Chakradagapra! I walked on the fucking ceiling." I had an urgent need to poke him in the chest. Just to make myself clear. But I didn't, because he would've just dodged it.

"I give you credit for being able to pull out such a stunt, but really: 'go, Chakra, go?'. That's just... Actually", he held a pause, "do you have any idea what you were doing?" He sounded like he didn't really want to know the answer.

"I was walking on the walls, with my Chakra, because I was bored and wanted to try it out", I said. He really had started to annoy me. Kakashi looked a bit disturbed after hearing my answer.

"So actually you had no idea what you were doing", he concluded. "You have no idea how to control your Chakra and still you tried something like that? Are you an idiot?" Actually, let's change that 'disturbed' to 'angry'.

"Don't call me an idiot!" I almost shouted. "How the hell I'm supposed to know what I can do and what I can't do? I'm the one who has amnesia you know!" I really needed to hit something or otherwise it would soon be Kakashi's face under my fist. "I read about the training from books and decided to give it a try. Well, if that was so wrong for me to try something like that, then be at least happy I didn't do some fire ninjutsu! Although, now I'm thinking I should!" Oh, the tension was building up inside me. It really was.

"Well that's just fine! Do whatever you like, don't care about the consequences! You could have crushed that wall with your Chakra you know! If you use it too much, the surface you're trying to walk on, will explode! It's that what you want?" Oh yes, he was good at this. He was damn good making me feel guilty. Oh the glory.

"Does that wall look like exploding to you!" I yelled. "No! It has no crackles on it! I didn't use too much Chakra! I did it right!" Actually I know that Kakashi would probably win the debate, but... I guess I'm a losy loser then? The urgent need to hit something just grew inside me. I was a really losy loser.

"No you didn't, you shouldn't be saying 'Go, Chakra, go' while controlling your Chakra! Think it for a while, does it actually make any sense to you?! How would Shinobi's fight one another if Chakra would be controlled by voice? That's just... plainly dumb!"

"Well, the books didn't tell me how it's done!" I still tried. Ok, I had already lost hadn't I? Now I was angry at myself. Oh fuck, I really needed to hit something. Really, really bad. I heard a buzz in the back of my head. I would hit him. I would definitely hit him soon. Know when to stop. That was something he clearly didn't know. I wasn't stupid and I didn't like to be called one!

"Maybe you should've asked someone who knows and not be a fool, who tries something she clearly doesn't undestand!" The next thing I heard was an awful crunch. The thing after that was the feeling of awful pain. Kakashi turned his head a little and looked a bit shocked.

"Did you just...? Oh fuck", he said. That was the first time I heard him use a swear word. It actually surprised me a bit and I was going to point that out to him, but absolutely nothing came from my mouth. I had been so mad. So fucking mad. But now I knew I truly was an idiot. Kakashi's face had been lucky today.

"Alright, don't panic", Kakashi said to me. Panic?! Me?! I was not going to panic. I was going to scream soon. The pain had really started to hit me. I felt an urgent need to yell 'fuck' as hard as I could. "Go sit on the bed, I'll call the nurse." I turned to look at my fist. I still leaned it against the wall I had hit. It had broken. I could see my own bones. My own fucking bones.

"Akako, breathe", Kakashi told me and took a firm grip of my shoulder. "Now, sit on the bed." He led me to the bed and pushed me down. "Sit. Stay", I heard him say. The pain stirred in my hand. I stared at my knuckles. What had I done? What an idiot I was! Who would actually hit a wall? I almost laughed at myself.

I felt something soft in my hand. Kakashi had pressed a towel against it, probably to stop the bleeding. The towel woke me back to face the pain. God, it was horrible. I didn't want to feel it. Not at all.

"Go away", I whispered to it. "Go fucking away." The pain had woke an unpleasant feeling inside of me. This wasn't new. Pain was familiar to me. I hated pain. I hated it, and I wanted it to go away.

"What? I'm not going anywhere, the nurse is already coming here, I pressed the call-button", Kakashi answered. "Try to calm down, everything's gonna be fine." No, everything wasn't going to be fine. I wanted the pain to leave. Right now!

"No, I want it to go away", I muttered absent-mindedly. "Make it go away, please." Kakashi forced me to look him in the eye.

"Calm down, the nurse is gonna come soon with med-nins, they are going to make you feel better", I heard him say. I really wanted to believe him, but I couldn't. I started to stare at the towel. I felt my knuckles under it. They were the source of the pain. I had to do something about them. I needed to fix the bones, fix the skin, fix everything and the pain would go away.

"Akako, what are you doing?" I heard Kakashi ask. I didn't answer. Wasn't it obvious? I was fixing things to way they were. We both heard the crunches coming from my hand. I almost passed out due to pain.

"Don't try to move your hand, you'll just make it worse!" I felt him take a good grip out of my shoulder. "If you don't stop this, I'll have to force you to." And I stopped. Not because he had told me to. But because I was ready. I felt tired, but I had fixed it. No more pain. I didn't want to feel pain ever again. "Akako, are you here? Do you hear me?"

"I fixed it", I told him with a happy smile. He looked at me confused and revealed my hand under the bloody towel. It was a perfectly healthy hand, with no broken bones nor skin. Only thing that proved it had actually been a mess while ago, were small scars and the blood on the towel. Not to mention the crack on the wall.

"Akako", Kakashi started. "How did you do this?" I looked at him confused. Didn't he know how to do it?

"I... I..." Actually, I had no idea myself. "I told it to go away." Kakashi looked at me with amazement in his eye.

"You... You can actually heal yourself with your Chakra? Did you feel something similar to when you walked on the ceiling?" he asked. I thought about it for a while. Perhaps, yes. Well, not quite the same. It had felt little different.

"It felt green", I answered him. "The walking felt blue." Then the nurse came rushing in. It wasn't Yoshiko of course, since she was on her date, but someone taking care of the night shift.

"Something was wrong in here?" she asked. "Emergency?" Kakashi stood up from the bed and scratched his head.

"No, not anymore. She just lost herself for a while", he explained. I stared at him. Oh, no, he didn't just? Oh yes, he did. The nurse looked at me with a weird look and then smiled while looking extremely uncomfortable.

"Well, I'm glad there are jounins to take care of her", she said to Kakashi. "Please, be free to call me, if she needs sedatives." I felt my mouth fell open. She was actually believing Kakashi! I wasn't crazy, for fuck's sake! The nurse left the room before I got to explain to her what really had happened, so instead of her I decided to glare at Kakashi.

"Oh, don't look at me like that, it's better she doens't know what really happened", Kakashi told me. "And actually, if you punch a wall so hard you break your knuckles..." Ok, he had a point again. I sighed.

"I know. I lost myself totally."

"So, you were saying it was green, not blue?" Kakashi asked me. "That would indicate it was healing Chakra."

"No shit?" I murmured. "I wouldn't have guessed."

"So funny. Would you have guessed only higly advanced users of healing Chakra can use it to themselves? It's not common, not at all."

"I sort of figured that out when you didn't know how to do it", I answered. Was I being too cocky? Maybe I was. He deserved it. It was his fault I had hit the wall. I looked at my knuckles. So Yoshiko had been right after all. I had helped my chest to heal as well.

"You really have a nasty attitude", he sighed.

"Well, you were the one to sneak on me, call me an idiot and the reason why I hit the wall! Be lucky, it wasn't your face. And actually, what are you doing here? We already filled the form."

"I was appointed to take the night shift and I decided it would be nice to say hi, since you don't have that much visitors, but apparently you don't need them." He sounded a bit angry and yeah, he made me feel guilty again.

"Oh", I just said. I felt extremely guilty. He was really trying to be nice to me and here I was... Oh my. Damn this pride of mine! "I'm sorry for being a true pain in the ass." Phew, it was hard for me to say it.

"No harsh feelings", he answered. "But don't pull such stunts again. I really don't want you to get hurt." He had a soft look on his face and I felt the blush coming again. God, he was a hard person! I tried to keep my poker face. No blushing, no blushing, I told myself.

"I think you should go to sleep soon, you've used quite amount of Chakra tonight. I'll be somewhere nearby reading, so if you need something, call the nurse or me." I decided immediately I would rather call the nurse.

"So actually your night shift is for what?" I then asked. A thought had crept to my head. He looked at me confused.

"I'm supposed to watch that you don't snap again. If you do, I'm ordered to put you to bed by force, so nurses can give you sedatives. I think I've mentioned about it before?" Yes, he had said something about jounins keeping an eye on me, but I didn't think they still would do it. But wait - how did they know when I snapped, if they stayed in another room? Kakashi looked at me with a suspiciously.

"Why you have such a funny face?" he asked me.

"Do you actually keep on eye on me the whole time?"

"Well. Yes, we kinda have to. It's orders, you know." He still looked suspicious. I think he guessed where I was getting at.

"How? You can't see through walls." Now Kakashi had a slight tint of red on his cheek. "So, how you do it actually? I'm quite curious."

"That mirror isn't really a mirror", he revelead. I felt my face turn red. I knew it had to be the answer but still. I had poked at my naked breast in front of it after I had returned from the shower.

"You son of a bitch", I yelled.

"I wasn't in that shift!"

"Pervs! That's all you are! Peeping Toms!"

"I wasn't in that shift, do you not hear me!"

"Well, I bet someone was! After all I am so dangerous with my nonexistent breasts!" I felt the anger stirr inside me again.

"I don't actually think they are that small", Kakashi answered before thinking. Then he realised what he had just said and guessed it was better from him to leave.

"I'll categorize you as 'a bastard'", I murmured to myself.