I hope everyone is enjoying it so far!
I was surprised they didn't go more in depth into how Eddie felt after getting shot. I find it hard to believe that anyone would just be totally ok, and I was surprised that she kept blowing off Jamie, so I wanted to incorporate some of that into my story. Don't forget if you haven't read Partners and Friends and Partners and Weddings to check them out as well. Partners and Flashbacks chapter 2 will be helpful for this chapter.
Full disclosure, I good cops in my family and I understand that there are bad ones, but I don't think every single one should all be lumped together. I am probably slightly biased in favor of the blue. I understand that there are problems but cops do not get enough credit for putting their lives on the line everyday. If you do not agree I am open to hearing all opinions, but hate and anger are not welcomed as it is not a productive use of any of our time.
"Hey come on, talk to me, Eddie" Jamie said
"It just hurts" Eddie said still laying in between in legs
"Do you want more medicine?"
"No just everything hurts" Eddie said still crying
Jamie knew it was more about Andrew than anything else.
"Jamie, I didn't even see the gun, we went up the stairs the next thing I knew he opened fire"
"There was never any indication he had one, Eddie. It's not your fault"
"But it is" Eddie said crying
"God, Eddie it's not"
"Why him and not me?" Eddie asked
Jamie felt the weight of this question, it was one he had asked himself a million times after Vinny was killed.
"I don't know" Jamie said thanking God it wasn't his Eddie "I don't know" he said quieter
"I was with him, if I had done something differently or been a head of him, or..."
"Ed you know the what-ifs will eat you alive. You did everything you were trained to do, when you guys were running you had your guns out. You weren't planning on shooting him, he clearly was planning on shooting someone. The detectives told me that ballistics popped and they tied the gun to two other homicides"
"I've been replaying it over and over and over and I can't think of what else I could have done to prevent Dunleevy and I from getting shot" Eddie said
"There wasn't, aside from just shooting him first and asking questions late. Which is highly frowned upon" Jamie said
"It's not fair" Eddie said
"It's not" Jamie said holding her tight
He could tell Eddie was uncomfortable so he let go so she could shift herself around until she was sitting up next to him with her good shoulder leaning on him.
"He didn't deserve it"
"And neither did you" Jamie said
"He was genuinely one of the good ones, just an overall good person and then this happens. I don't understand it" Eddie said
"There's not really a way to rationalize it, to make it make sense. It doesn't exist"
"I know it's not what you want to hear but it does get easier with time" Jamie said "Trust me on that"
"I feel like I don't know who I am" Eddie said
"You went through a traumatic experience, that's to be expected. I'm sure you got some PTSD going on"
"I just want to go back and change it, you know. Do something differently"
"I know" Jamie said nodding
"I miss him already. I mean a month ago he was dancing with Melissa at our wedding, totally loving the fact he was embarrassing his kids" Eddie said sadly
"I think all we can do is hold onto that" Jamie said
He still had both arms protectively wrapped around her.
"Did you see her yesterday?" Eddie asked
"No I stayed mostly with you and only left to check on Casey. I couldn't leave you Ed" Jamie said, his voice betraying him
"Jamie I could've died yesterday" Eddie said tearing up again
"I know" Jamie said feeling his emotions take over
"Promise me two things Jamie?" Eddie asked
"Anything"
"Come home unhurt every day" Eddie said crying again
"You know I'll do everything I can" Jamie said kissing her
"And if, if something were to happen to me, don't let it eat at you. I want you to be happy, always. As happy as you were in Hawaii"
"Ed, don't"
"Jamie please" Eddie said
Jamie could tell she was desperately trying to make sure everything was in order.
"I promise you that I would try, but God Janko, you ruined me for life" He said kissing her again
"Jamie, I love you" Eddie said crying into his shoulder
"I love you too, Eddie" Jamie said feeling a few tears slip out.
Jamie had originally thought that Eddie getting shot freaked him out more but she was just as scared as him. Jamie sat against the headboard with Eddie securely at his side with his chin resting on the top of her head.
"We're ok babe, we're ok" Jamie said trying to comfort her as she kept crying. The doctor had told him that drastic mood changed could be expected based on the trauma but Jamie knew he needed to get her to calm down or her headache would come back with a vengeance.
"I got you Ed, just let it all out and then you can rest" Jamie said
"Jamie, I, I, don't know if I will get through this" Eddie said
"You will, you have me and the rest of the family and our friends. You helped me get through Vinny's death without even knowing it, I promise I'm here for you every step of the way" Jamie said
"How did you?" Eddie asked
"It took some time, but you're gonna be angry and that's the hardest part to overcome. Linda said we all needed a vacation so we went to her sister's place on the beach and just spending time with the family helped"
"Jamie" Eddie said nervously looking up at him
"Yea"
"I don't know if I want to be a cop any more" Eddie said looking away from him "Will you still love me?" Eddie asked
"Of course Eddie, you should know that" Jamie said, shocked at what Eddie just told him "I don't think you need to make any rash decisions right now. You know get through the day and then the night and then the week. Don't make big life changes 24 hours after you were shot. You're not thinking in clearly right now, it's to be expected. But if with time, you decide you want to turn in your papers I'll support you 100%, but I think it would be a shame. You're a great cop Eddie. The department is lucky to have you" Jamie said
"It's something that I thought of in the middle of the night when I woke up after I was shot in front of you"
"Oh Eddie" Jamie said hugging her again "Just promise me no big decisions, and you'll at least talk to me first"
"I can do that" Eddie said nodding, hugging him back
"You feel a little better?" Jamie asked her
"A little" Eddie said hugging
"Hey Ed"
"Yea"
"Don't ever do that to me again, ok lambchop?"
"I promise"
"God help me but when I realized it wasn't your blood I don't think I've ever been more relieved in my entire life, as terrible as that sounds" Jamie said
"I'm glad I came home to you too. Jamie you mean the world to me"
"I love you Eds" Jamie said helping her lay back down
"You rest, I think you need it. I'll bring the ice pack up for your ribs although I'm not sure it will do much good"
He climbed out of bed and went downstairs and heard his cell phone ringing.
"Reagan" He said not even bothering to look before swiping
"Where the hell have you two been? I've been calling you for hours" Erin yelled in to the phone
"Erin?" Jamie asked
"You have another worried sister I don't know about?" Erin said
"Sorry Er, Danny dropped us off and then took me to get my car and Eddie's meds and then I helped her shower and got her into bed, then I just laid with her and we walked about some of what happened"
"Well one of you was shot yesterday it would be nice to update us everyone once in a while" Erin said
"I'm sorry Erin" Jamie said laughing
"It's not funny"
"Ok, ok. I didn't even think about our phones until I came down to get Eddie some food and an ice pack"
"How is she?"
"She's ok, she's got some survivors guilt but she's hanging in there" Jamie said getting the packs out of the freezer and making them some sandwiches
"Do you guys need anything?" Erin asked
"No I think we're good. Eddie had gone food shopping the day before she got shot so we have a full kitchen. I appreciate it though" Jamie said
"You guys gonna come to church and dinner tomorrow?" Jamie asked
"I don't think she would be able to do both, church might be a little much with the singing and the lights. I had to turn the lights off when she was showering cause they were too bright on the concussion. Maybe a little for dinner. There couldn't be any fighting though" Jamie said
"But it will be so boring then" Erin teased
"Alright let me get this food to Eddie, she needs to eat something" Jamie said
"Jamie before you hang up, are you doing ok?" Erin asked
"I'm ok. Thankful but ok" Jamie said
"Ok, if you two need anything call me"
"You sound like mom. Bye Erin" Jamie said hanging up
He grabbed Eddie's phone out of the bag and took their food and ice up stairs to Eddie.
"Hey sorry, Erin called me freaking out cause she hadn't heard from us"
"Oh yea, I guess we probably should have updated everyone" Eddie said
"You're phone blew up, I didn't know you knew that many people" Jamie said "I also think you need to call your mom"
"I already have a headache"
"She's your mom Eddie"
"I can try and reach out to the prison see if they will let you talk to your dad" Jamie said
"I'd rather talk to him"
"I meant talk to both of them" Jamie said "I texted our friends, Hal and Kara obviously want to come see you. Spence said if you get tired of being with me if he'll come over and hang out in case you need to move around, and 'tell Officer Eddie she's pretty badass'" Jamie said reading from his phone
"Tell Spencer I may just take him up on that" Eddie said offering him a small smile
"Hold on Sarge is calling me" Jamie said walking out of their room
"Hey Sarge what's up" Jamie asked
"How's Janko?"
"She's as good as you would except"
"And you"
"I'm ok, Sarge what's wrong?"
"Have you seen the news?"
"Um, no. Why?" Jamie asked
"Well I wouldn't recommend watching it. Public Advocate Dutton is calling for a full investigation into if Dunleevy and Janko had made him feel threatened" Renzulli scoffed
"You've got to be fucking kidding me Sarge" Jamie said "Sorry"
"My exact words Reagan"
"How could she possibly think that, he drew first, fired first. Call had no mention of a gun. Literally shot Andrew and Eddie in point blank range for no reason Sarge" Jamie yelled into the phone
"I know Reagan, I know. I think you need to tell Eddie. You know she's gonna see it eventually"
"Sarge I'm trying to convince her to call her mother, that job is hard enough"
"You two need anything?"
"No we're good, thanks though" Jamie said
"Alright kid let me know if Eddie's gonna go tell of Dutton, cause I'd like a crack at her too"
"I will, bye Sarge" Jamie said hanging up
"I also had texts from Jack Boyle checking on you, it apparently was an ADT hit to shoot a uniformed cop. He had to recuse himself. Joe's ex-girlfriend texted me too to see how you're doing. She really liked meeting you at the wedding" Jamie said
"You're phone's ringing" Jamie said handing it to her
"Janko" Eddie said
"Hey Eddie"
"Who is this?" Eddie asked
"It's me, Barry. I'm sorry about letting you go, but Eddie I saw you got shot on TV"
"Bar, Barry?" Eddie asked coughing
"Yea, so what do you say. Put that and your partner behind us and say we start over?" Barry asked
"Um actually I married Jamie"
"I knew you were cheating on me" Barry said
"No, never cheated on. Didn't start dating him till long after you were gone" Eddie said
"Oh"
"Lose my number Barry" Eddie said hanging up
"You still talk to your ex's" Jamie asked laughing
"No, I mean obviously he missed me though. Who wouldn't?" Eddie said
"I would" Jamie said "You know I think I like Josh the best"
"Here we go"
"See when I had to go on that double date that lasted 10 seconds we had the car to talk about but then he shriveled up when you whipped out your gun" Jamie said laughing
"Yea and some guys are so turned on by girls that can use a gun"
"I for one was glad you didn't have a penis" Jamie said kissing her
Jamie was still leaning over her kissing her when Eddie moaned in pain.
"Oh God, Ed I'm so sorry" Jamie said
"No, no. It was nice to forget about all of this for a little" Eddie said
"Here put these on" Jamie said putting the ice packs on her
"Here's some food" Jamie said putting the plate on here lap
"Thanks. What did Sarge want?" Eddie asked
"Oh, um. I don't think you need to worry about it now" Jamie said trying to stall
"Jamie come on, things can't get much worse than losing an officer" Eddie said sadly
"Alright, promise me to not get upset"
"Alright..." Eddie said worriedly
"Public Advocate Dutton is calling for a full investigation into if you and Dunleevy made him feel threatened and that's why he shot first"
"I'm sorry I don't think I heard you correctly" Eddie said stunned
"I'm sorry Eddie, she thinks that making you guys public enemy number one is the way to go"
"Let me get this straight he beat up his girlfriend, assaulted a police officer, ran and then shot first but he felt his life was threatened?!" Eddie said practically yelling
"You can't get worked up. I'm sorry Eds. We'll just keep the TV off and stay off social media"
"Yea because that's the answer" Eddie scoffed
"You know my dad will protect you both on this"
"Yea well tell Garrett I want to make a statement"
"They would need a half hour delay not a thirty second delay"
"This isn't funny Jamie" Eddie said
"I'm sorry" Jamie said
"It's not you, it's this whole shitty situation" Eddie said
"Why don't you try and get some rest?" Jamie suggested
"My head is killing me now"
"I'll get you a cold washcloth to put over your eyes and then hopefully it will help you sleep. I'll wake you in two hours to check your name and stuff"
"Please let me sleep" Eddie begged
"I have to, I'm sorry babe" Jamie said sadly
"Fine" Eddie said
Jamie made sure she was comfortable before he went downstairs to try and answer their friends that had been calling and texting them nonstop.
Jamie saw his dad's number pop up and knew that this wasn't going to be an easy conversation.
"Hey dad" Jamie said
"Hey how's Eddie?"
"As well as can be expected"
"Good. How are you?"
"Hanging in. Dad come on I know about Dutton"
"You do?" Frank asked surprised
"Renzulli called me, didn't want Eddie or I seeing it on TV"
"What all did he tell you?"
"Just that they are going to investigate since it's Eddie and Andrew's fault" Jamie said sarcastically
"I told her she should never have said that" Frank said
"Yea, well where are you and the Mayor on this?"
"Garrett is ironing out what I wrote, he said a few things were aggressive" Frank said
"Better be, it's your daughter-in-law"
"Why do you think Dutton is going after Eddie?" Frank asked
"Another great day to be a Reagan" Jamie said rolling his eyes
"IA already closed the investigation, there was surprisingly security videos all around. He clearly pushed Miller and then ran and then drew on them first and fired first"
"Eddie wants to make a statement"
"What did you tell her?"
"That a thirty second delay wouldn't be enough. She didn't find it funny"
"Let her cool off, if she still wants a statement I will let Garrett handle it"
"Do you guys want to come for dinner or want Pop and I to bring it?" Frank asked
"No it think we're good. Andrew's wife wants to come see Eddie, I didn't tell her yet"
"Is it anything bad?" Frank asked
"Oh no not at all. She wants to come see Eddie for herself since she didn't get to see her yesterday. Eddie was a little mad I wouldn't take her to see her but she was too worked up. Spence and Hayley want to come so does Kara so I don't know how much Eddie will be up for"
"I hope you guys come to church and dinner tomorrow"
"I think we might need to pass on church. The lights and singing I think would be too much with her concussion"
"At least join us for dinner. You don't miss family dinner"
"Well then we're probably gonna be eating in the dark" Jamie said
"That's fine. Pop and I just want you guys around. I know you tend to play it aloof when things like this happen"
"Dad I'm ok, just trying to take care of Eddie"
"This is the first test for you guys within your marriage"
"Dad we're fine. We talked earlier when we got home. We're ok, this isn't the first time one of us has been injured" Jamie said
"I know, I'm just making sure" Frank said
"Do you want to see what I wrote before Garrett schedules the press conference?"
"That's above my pay grade Commissioner" Jamie said smirking
"Alight. Bye son"
"Bye dad" Jamie said hanging up
Jamie had cleaned up a little and did some of the laundry they had been putting off when his phone alarm went off telling him to wake Eddie. He took the stairs two at a time and walked into their room.
"Hey Ed wake up" Jamie said climbing onto his side of the bed "Come on babe, just wake up for me" Jamie said kissing her
"I'm sleeping" Eddie mumbled
"I know, that's the problem" Jamie said smirking
Eddie took the washcloth off her face and opened one eye to look at Jamie.
"Eddie what's wrong with your eyes? Can you not open the other one?" Jamie asked, starting to panic
"My eyes are fine. You turned the light on you dummy"
"My bad Janko" Jamie said quickly going to turn it off
"Alright what's my name?" Jamie asked
"Pain in the ass" Eddie mumbled
"Ok" Jamie said laughing "Date?"
"I never know the date Reagan you know that. It's Saturday and we were married on October 12th and you worry too much" Eddie said
"Ok, ok. One more thing before you go back to sleep" Jamie said
"What" Eddie said
"You got a list of visitors waiting to see you" Jamie said
"Who?"
"Hayls and Spence, Kara and Melissa"
"Dunleevy?"
"Yea, she wants to come check on you for herself"
"Her husbands killed and she's worried about a few ribs" Eddie said getting agitated
"Hey babe, that's the survivors guilt talking"
"I know" Eddie said closing her eyes
"Spencer and Hayley wouldn't take no for an answer. They will be here shortly"
"Hayley worries too much too" Eddie said
"The people that love you and care about you are allowed to worry about you" Jamie said
"Yea well don't. I'm fine" Just then their door bell rang and Jamie went down to answer it.
"Hey Spence, Hayls" He said hugging Hayley "Aww Spence how sweet, you didn't need to bring me flowers" He said laughing
"You wish, they are for Officer Eddie not Sargent Jamie" Spencer said
"How are you two?" Hayley asked
"Hanging in. Eddie's a little agitated that people would ever consider worrying about her so don't take it personally" Jamie said
"We wanted to give you space yesterday but I had to see her today" She said
"I know she'll be glad once your here"
Jamie led them up to their room and warned them that Eddie was still in a decent about of pain but wouldn't admit it.
"Babe you awake?" Jamie asked
"Yea you work me" Eddie said
"Eddie" Hayley said running over to the bed
"Hey Hayl" Eddie said hugging her
"I'm glad you're ok" She said, voice shaking
"Officer Eddie, these are for you" Spencer said placing the flowers on the dresser and giving her a hug
"Thank you"
"Glad your ok. I'm not ready for Jamie to be living on my couch"
"I'm glad you guys came" Eddie said smiling
"Ed what's up with your hair?" Hayley asked
"Jamie tried. I can't make fun of him for trying"
"It's cause she already did" Jamie said
"I'll fix it. I figured I could paint your nails for you. Give you the full treatment" Hayley
"I would love that" Eddie said
"We'll leave you two alone" Jamie said
He and Spencer clearly knew they weren't wanted.
"I was worried she wouldn't be happy you guys were here" Jamie said
"We wouldn't have taken it personally, it's understandable. I mean she put me in my place the very first time I met her"
"That was funny" Jamie said laughing
"How you doing with it?" Spencer asked as they sat on the couch
"I think she's handling her getting shot better than me, I could've lost her yesterday. I mean the whole time we were partners neither of us got shot yet the second she's my wife, she does. God Spence when I heard the shots and saw her fall down the steps and then I saw blood, I couldn't think straight. I couldn't get her clothes off fast enough to get to her vest"
"In this situation would you rather have not been there or do you think it was better you were there?" Spencer asked
"Rather my wife not get shot" Jamie said
"Well yea" Spencer said
"I guess since she's ok, it was better I was there. Could see for myself. Anything else, I don't know what I would have done" Jamie said shaking his head
"So help me God Spence I can't tell you how relieved I was when I knew it wasn't her blood" Jamie said
"You can't beat yourself up over that, that's natural"
"Dunleevy was a friend, good cop. He's got his own distraught family. I know what that's like too" Jamie said
"You can't carry the guilt of the world on your shoulders"
"Pretty big guilt"
"Alright so if it had gone the other way you would be telling me that you wished it was this way. It doesn't make you a bad person Jamie. It makes you human" Spencer said
"Makes me a bad cop"
"It makes you a good husband Jamie" "This conversation isn't gonna go anywhere good"
"Yea well neither is any of this. I mean the public advocate is blaming Eddie and Andrew for getting shot, my dad hasn't said anything yet and the mayor is leaning more towards Dutton's opinion. I mean there's a lot of anger in this too" Jamie said
"I was hoping you guys hadn't seen that" Spencer said
"Renzulli called me, he didn't want us to see the comments and stuff" Jamie said
"Some days I don't know how we got here. I mean when I first came to New York with you I was scared to death of your dad and grandfather. Like they couldn't arrest me for anything I did in Boston and yet just because they were cops I was worried walking in your house. Where did that respect go?" Spencer asked
"We ask ourselves that everyday. I understand that there are bad and corrupt cops and trust me no one wants to see those cops punished more than I do but at the same time why are we all getting lumped together? Why crucify all of us? Cops do a lot of good too it just doesn't get put out there like it should and that's because most cops just consider it part of the job" Jamie said getting heated
"You talk to Eddie about all of this?" Spencer asked
"No not all of it. I can't unload on her right now. I gotta be the strong one, the one to hold her up"
"Yea and what happens to you when you can't hold it all up"
"I'm fine"
"If you say so" Spencer said
"It's not the easiest thing in the world to see the woman you love get shot" Jamie said
"I hope to God I never go through that I hope you never do again" Spencer said
"Me too" Jamie said
"You feel a little better?" Spencer asked
"A little" Jamie said
"Come on I want to go hang out with Officer Eddie" Spencer said getting up
They went up the stairs and saw that Hayley was sitting next to Eddie on the bed and they both were crying.
"Hey Ed are you ok?" Jamie said concerned
"Yea we were talking about yesterday and I just can't stop crying" Eddie said
"That's normal" Jamie said as his cell phone started to ring
"Um Ed it's your mom" Jamie said worriedly
"I don't want to talk, I'm not up for it" Eddie said
"Ok, I handle her" Jamie said
He said on the end of the bed and gave Eddie's leg a reassuring squeeze
"Hey Nancy" Jamie said answering
"Why have you two not called me" Nancy barked into the phone
"Um, it's been a rough 24 hours" Jamie said
"Exactly so why do I have to find out that my daughter was shot and then released from the hospital from the news!"
"I wanted to call you but Eddie wanted to wait, she didn't want to upset you" Jamie said hoping to diffuse the situation "She needed to calm down and process everything before she called"
"When are you going to make her leave that stupid job"
"I don't make Eddie do anything, her career is her choice" Jamie said
"So if she wanted to be a stripper you would allow that?" Nancy asked
"If that's what she truly wanted to do and it would make her happy, yes" Jamie said
"Put her on the phone"
"She's asleep" Jamie said getting up from the bed, Hayley and Spencer were trying to calm her down so Jamie went back into the hallway
"Well when she realizes how stupid she is being tell her to call me"
"Nancy, that's your daughter who almost lost her life yesterday and that's the way you want to talk to her?" Jamie asked getting protective
"I've told her for years this was a bad idea"
"I thought you too buried the hatchet, what happened?" Jamie asked having no patience for this conversation
"You should leave the police as well, provide my daughter with a better life"
"I'll tell Eddie to call you when she's feeling up to it" Jamie said hanging up
"I'm sorry I wanted you to call your mom" Jamie said walking into the room
"oh no" Eddie said starting to cry again "What did she say?"
"Don't worry about it ok babe" Jamie said
"I think we better go" Hayley said
"You guys want dinner or anything?" Spencer asked
"I think we're good, thanks guys" Jamie said
"Hey you need anything you call me, day or night" Hayley said
"I love you Hayls" Eddie said hugging her
"I love you too" Hayley said hugging her back, careful not to hurt her
"Jammo starts annoying you call me Officer Eddie" Spencer said hugging her
"Thanks Spencer. I even love you too"
"I'm glad you're home, I love you too" Spencer said
"We'll let our selves out" Spencer said patting Jamie on the back
"Bye Hayley. Thanks for coming over guys" Jamie said hugging her
After Spencer and Hayley left Jamie made them some scrambled eggs and toast, not wanting to give Eddie anything too heavy. He brought it upstairs and were eating it in bed.
"Ed you doing ok?" Jamie asked
Eddie didn't say anything, she just closed her eyes.
Jamie took the tray from her and set it on the dresser and went back to sit next to her.
"I don't think I can see Melissa" Eddie said
"I think she just wants to make sure you're ok" Jamie said
"How do I sit her ok when her husband is dead?"
"Eddie you got hurt, it's ok to admit it. And I don't think she's gonna blame you. Dad said she was really upset when she found out it was you that got hurt"
"Jamie if it was you that was killed and there was someone else that was ok, I don't know how nice I'd be to them" Eddie admitted
"You fly off the handle that's to be expected" Jamie said kissing her
Eddie just glared at him.
"You know you must've freaked Spence out he didn't even make fun of your sunglasses" Jamie said
"Jamie this is all just too much" Eddie said
"It's been a day, give yourself some time. You just have to give yourself time to process" Jamie said
A little while later Jamie shook Eddie awake.
"No more questions"
"No Melissa will be here soon" Jamie said
"I'll bring her up here, ok?" Jamie asked
"I guess" Eddie said
"You can do this Eddie. I know you're not feeling too strong, but you are" Jamie said
"That must be her" Jamie said as he heard the door bell ring
He took the tray to the kitchen and went to open the door.
"Hey Melissa" Jamie said hugging her
"Oh Jamie" She said hugging him tightly
"How ya holding up?"
"The kids, I have to be strong for them"
"Where are they now?" Jamie asked
"Home with my parents. My brothers in the car"
"He can come in too" Jamie said
"I need to do this on my own" Melissa said "I just needed to see Eddie"
"I get that"
"Thank you for doing what you could for him" She said as they walked to the stairs
"I wish I could've done more" Jamie said looking at the floor "She's upstairs in bed"
"It's ok" she said
"Hey Ed, Mel's here" Jamie said as they walked in
"Oh Eddie" Melissa said as she walked over to the bed
Jamie said in one of the chairs and pulled the other out for Melissa
"Mel I am so sorry" Eddie said instantly crying
"It's not your fault" Melissa said crying as well
"It is, I was right there and I ... and I couldn't do anything to stop the bullet" Eddie said
"Eddie" Jamie said
"No, I know it's not. The kid's know that. Eddie it was that guy that shot my husband and you, not you. I would do anything to have Andrew back but I'm glad I didn't lose both of you" Melissa said hugging Eddie
"I'm so sorry" Eddie said crying
"Me too. I wish this hadn't happened to you two"
Jamie sat there and knew that Melissa wasn't mad, she was just truly sad about her husband. He felt his own emotions rising at all of this.
"I wish I could've done more to stop it, to help him" Eddie said
"He died with a friend Eddie, he wasn't alone. For that I am grateful to you"
"How can you be so nice to me, I was with him I should have stopped him from getting shot. How? I don't think I would be as clam as you"
"God Eddie I would never be mad at you. I'm sorry you felt that way since I didn't come see you yesterday"
"Oh no I never felt that way! You had much bigger things to take care of. I just hopped you wouldn't be made at me for him getting shot" Eddie said
"No never" Melissa said "I just have one question for you"
"Of course, anything" Eddie said
"Will you speak at his funeral Eddie? I can't, I just can't. My oldest is going to and his partner and I know Frank but I was hoping you would too. You're family Eddie"
"It would be an honor to tell everyone how great he is, was" Eddie said
A little while later after Melissa had left Jamie was sitting next to Eddie who had been mostly quiet.
"You wanna talk about it?" Jamie asked, breaking the silence
"For someone that has a concussion, I've had to do a lot of talking when I really didn't want to" Eddie said
"I'm sorry so many people care about you babe" Jamie said
"I have to do it, don't I?" Eddie asked
"That's your decision" Jamie said
"What would you do?" Eddie asked him
"No matter how hard it would be I was speak at the funeral. I did it for Joe and Vinny and I still don't know where I got the strength for that" Jamie said
"Will you help me with it, I can't exactly type right now, I think the light would hurt"
"Of course Eddie. I would do anything to make this easier on you" Jamie said
Eddie took Jamie's hand and just closed her eyes and held it. The lights were off but her head was still spinning even with the sunglasses on.
"Do you think you could carry my downstairs, I need a change of scenery" Eddie said
"You sure, I don't want to hurt you" Jamie said
"Yea, I mean if I could breath I'd walk it slow but I just don't really wanna give the stairs a try" Eddie said
"Ok" Jamie said getting off the bed "You probably should take another pain pill too"
Jamie carried her down and got her settled on the couch and gave her some medicine before he sat on the other couch with a book.
"Concussions are boring" Eddie said
They had all the lights off and there was barely enough light for Jamie to read his book by the window.
"Just think of all the electricity we're saving" Jamie said not looking up
"I don't like sitting, I can't even watch TV"
"Nope" Jamie said
"What if you put it on so I can listen to it" Eddie said
"You said noise was bothering you" Jamie said
"Well I have done enough talking today" Eddie said
"Just try and relax Eddie" Jamie said
All of a sudden Jamie heard a key in their front door.
"Who is it?" Jamie asked getting up
"Kid it's me and Pop" Danny yelled as he walked in
"What are you guys doing here?" Jamie asked
"Checking up on you"
"Where's Linda and the boys?"
"Mother, son event at school" Danny said
"Doesn't explain why you broke into my house"
"I had a key" Danny said "Thought you guys could use some company" Henry said
"Well keep it down Eddie's had a long day and now she's bored because she can't do anything" Jamie said
"We brought pizza and beer" Danny said holding them up
"What's going on?" Jamie asked
"We can't check up on you?" Danny asked
"Nah, you usually have an agenda" Jamie said
"Jamie, we need to tell you something" Henry said
"Ok..." Jamie said not liking where it's going
"You father is speaking with Poole and Dutton in a press conference shortly"
"Great" Jamie said rolling his eyes
"We thought you could use the moral support" Henry said
"So why's Danny here?" Jamie asked
"I'm so glad I was worried about you two" Danny said "Wanted to make sure you were taking good care of Eddie"
"Not because I'm the fragile one that needs every one to save them?" Jamie asked sarcastically
"No, because you're family and times like this is when we stick together the most Jameson" Henry said
"Alright but Eddie can't watch TV" Jamie said
"We'll go in another room" Danny said
"Ha and leave her out. Good luck" Jamie said
"Can I at least see her?" Henry said
"Yea she's on the couch" Jamie said
"Eddie, how are you" Henry said walking over to her
"Hey what are you doing here?" Eddie asked
"Needed to come make sure you were doing ok" Henry said
Eddie just looked at him.
"Put an old man's mind at east" He said
"Jamie walked in with Danny behind and Jamie said on the coffee table in front of Eddie.
"Um, Ed. Dad's having a press conference with Poole and Dutton to talk about the shooting; that's why they came. To make sure we're ok"
"Why do you always have the Reagan boy's club meetings without me?" Erin asked walking in the door
"Everyone?" Eddie asked, not sure how much more company she could handle
"It's always like this" Jamie said
"Eddie how are you?" Erin asked
"I guess ok" Eddie said
"I brought this for you. Everything you need to relax. There's some magazines in there as well for when you feel up to reading a little once you head feels better. There's also a lavender/peppermint eye mask that I swear by. Throw it in the freezer and it will calm you eyes and some candy to keep you entertained"
"Thanks Erin. I really appreciate it" Eddie said genuinely touched
"Alright it's about to start. Eddie you want us to go elsewhere?"
"I'll deal with watching it, I need to know what's being said about me" Eddie said
"If you need us to turn it off let us know" Henry said
"Keep the sunglasses on" Jamie said
"Pizza anyone I'm starving" Erin said walking into the kitchen
"I take a slice" Jamie said as Danny handed him a beer
Jamie sat down next to Eddie on the couch.
"I don't get one?" Eddie asked
"Not with pain meds" Jamie said
"Ugh"
"One sip" Jamie said handing her his bottle
She took a longer sip than Jamie was expecting but he just laughed as she handed it back to him.
"You have a rough day or something?" Jamie asked her
"Nah not at all" Eddie said sarcastically
"Alright it's starting" Henry said unmuting it and Erin handed Jamie his pizza
"You sure you don't want a slice?" Jamie asked Eddie
"I think it might be too much, can I just have a bite?" Eddie said
"Somehow I think I'm losing my beer and slice" Jamie said handing her the plate
Henry, Danny and Erin all sat around the TV and waited to see what was going to happen.
Garrett started talking first. "I would like to thank everyone for coming out to hear Commissioner Reagan, Mayor Poole and Advocate Dutton. Mr. Mayor"
"Good evening. I would first and foremost like to express my deepest condolences to the family of Officer Dunleevy, he paid the ultimate sacrifice to our great city. I would also like to offer my well wishes to Officer Janko as she recovers. Both officers showed an extemporary duty to this city. Commissioner Reagan"
"Good evening. Officer Janko is at home resting with her husband. Both of my officers did what they were trained to do as did Officers Miller, Dugan and McKenna as well as Sargent Reagan. Domestic situations are never easy and rarely does one follow another. There was no indication that there was a gun, Internal Affairs has cleared both officers of any wrong doing"
"My office is still conducting an investigation as to whether Officer Dunleevy and Officer Janko provoked the incident" Dutton said
"Excuse me?" Frank asked
"I'm sorry what?" Jamie asked looking at Eddie
"Dad better fix this, Eddie's one of us" Danny said
"Yea, why do you think Dutton is going after her"
"Officer Janko, by the defendant's account, shot first. It seemed as if she escalated the situation"
"WHAT?" Eddie yelled
"Public Advocate Dutton I am not sure who is giving you your information but we have on security tapes that the defendant shot first at Officer Dunleevy and Officer Janko returned fire"
"Commissioner isn't it true that Officer Janko is married to your son?" Dutton asked
"Yes, my youngest, they have been married for a month"
"And he was her training officer?"
"Yes, they both went out of injured leave and started a relationship at that time. Which has nothing to do with this incident other than Officer Janko being injured in the line of duty"
"You and your department are clearly biased"
"Public Advocate Dutton you are out of line" Poole said
"Officer Dunleevy lost his life because the defendant wanted in a gang and the initiation was shooting a uniformed officer. Officer Dunleevy and Officer Janko were only shot because they were wearing the uniform and doing their job. They did nothing wrong and this uncalled for" Frank said
"Character assassination. I give that bitch another second before she brings up my father" Eddie said as Jamie put his arm around her
"Maybe we should turn this off" Jamie said as his phone rang
"Hey partner where are you?" Casey asked Jamie on the phone
"My living room" Jamie said
"Did"
"Casey it's already on, we're watching it"
"Oh"
"It's ok, Janko wanted to see it to"
"Alright"
"Thanks Case" Jamie said hanging up
"No leave it" Eddie said
"Officer Janko's father is in federal prison, I think that the city deserves to know who their "police" are" Dutton said "Are you aware of that Commissioner?"
"As her boss and father-in-law I am and I can tell you that she is an exemplary cop. She disclosed her fathers history on her application and it was never an issue within the department or my family. This assassination on my officers is to stop. If you shoot at a cop you better damn well expect to be shot. The use of force was never in question, it was a crowded apartment complex and my officers ensured the safety of those residents. That will be all. I have no appitite for you railroading my officers" Frank said
"The DA's office is reviewing whether or not to release the security footage as it is graphic and out of respect to the officers and their families the DA has not made a final decision. I would also like to echo what Commissioner Reagan has said, the use of force in this instance was necessary and no further action will be taken. The next thing is supporting Officer Dunleevy's family and Officer Janko and her family. Thank you" Poole said cutting Dutton out of the view of the camera.
"Jamie, Jamie" Eddie said in a panicked voice trying to get up
Jamie took one look at her and knew she was about to be sick.
"She's gonna be sick" Jamie yelled said getting her onto her side
Danny sprinted to the kitchen and tossed Erin the dishpan that was in the sink and luckily empty. Jamie had his hand under her mouth as she started to get sick Erin quickly put the pan under Eddie. Danny got Eddie a glass of water and some paper towels. Erin started cleaning the floor and Henry went to the linen closet to get some towels.
Eddie finished throwing up and groaned in pain and started crying.
"Ed" Jamie said gently as he tried to sit her up with his one hand as he took the towel from Henry.
Erin sat down next to Eddie and Jamie got up to clean himself up.
"Thanks Danny" Erin said as he took the glass from Danny
"Small sips" Erin said putting a hand on her back
"Eddie are you alright?" Henry asked her
"I think so, can we turn off the TV and all the lights?" Eddie asked
"Of course" Henry said
"We got the son of a bitch Eddie, he's not going anywhere" Danny said "I will personally see to it"
"Really cause apparently it's all my fault. Never knew that I was asking to be shot just because I wanted to be a cop. Who new meaning to she was asking for it and what was she wearing" Eddie said
"You feeling ok? How's the head?" Jamie asked sitting on the arm of the sofa next to her.
"I think I need to lay down" Eddie said as she felt her emotions starting to take over
"I told you dad would back her" Erin said to Danny
"Let me take her up" Jamie said
Jamie picked her up and carried her upstairs and carried her to the bathroom so she could get ready for bed. Once Jamie had laid her under the covers he made sure it was as dark as possible.
"Can you stay?" Eddie asked as tears started to run down her face
"Of course" Jamie said laying next to her
"I told you it was all my fault" Eddie said crying
Jamie carefully lifted her into his arms and just held her as she cried.
"What does ... does my dad have to do with this, how could she say I provoked it?!" Eddie asked
"Don't listen to her Eddie, I mean who even knows who the hell she is. My dad and the mayor backed you. You got all of us. You gotta calm down for me ok, I don't want you making yourself sick again"
"It's not fair Jamie"
"I know" Jamie said holding her tighter
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