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How can I be so beautiful

When I am so afraid


She was right all along. Trish was interested in Jeff. Those pictures can tell many things, and one of those things is that they both like each other. The thought of Jeff being infatuated with Trish made her feel stupid. She had the option of fighting for his love and forgiveness or to move on. The most important was his forgiveness.

"I need him to forgive me for all the pain I caused."

Maria was alone on this-she had to find a way to solve her mistake. Jeff and Maria were once a beautiful couple before she turned her back to him that day- April 24th 2003 and the following days.

Past: April 24th, 2003

Jeff was roaming around his girlfriend's house-he had to find something to take all the pain from his body. Why did they not understand his situation? He had to push his body every week for the sake of entertaining the fans. Did he like doing this? He was not completely sure, but his body felt better afterwards.

He heard the door and his guess was Maria-the only person he had left to be with. Matt did not want to see Jeff at all after the rumor came true that Jeff was consuming drugs. All Jeff wanted was his brother's support, but Matt wanted nothing to do with him. It hurt him.

"Jeff, I found the dress so we can go to Mickie James' party!" she shouted from downstairs.

Maria did not hear a response. Weird. He would usually say something-maybe he felt asleep. Typical Jeff-falls asleep after he waits a long time.

When she got to her room, she dropped her shopping bags. The rumors were true-he had an addiction. As she approached him, he made his way towards her. Maria without thinking stepped back; she did not want to be so close to him. She was extremely disgusted by her boyfriend. Jeff noticed her attitude so he lowered his head in embarrassment.

"Maria, I can explain," he started as he grabbed her hands.

Maria reacted. "Don't touch me! Don't ever touch me in your life!"

Not again. He thought she was going to be there for him. He was wrong all the time. This time he was by his own. With no more to think about, his eyes began to water-he was crying.

"Maria, I thought you would understand. I want you to help me. I know I can get better if you are there for me."

This made Maria's anger go to the next level. "Do you think someone clean like me will help someone filthy like you. You are full of pills and to be with someone like you, disgusts me."

Jeff's eyes were already red from all his crying. Her words hurt him.

"Please Maria..."

"No! Almost everyone in the locker room was right about you. You let your fame down and I hate you for wasting my time with someone like you."

Jeff had nothing else to hear. She had killed him with her words. He left, but after that day Jeff never spoke to her.

The following days after Maria broke up with Jeff, she was enjoying talking bad about him. That is what he deserved after all the suffering he made her go through. Some of her locker room friends supported her, but her best friend Candice Michelle did not want to be part of her group. Candice Michelle ended her friendship with Maria-a friend who she thought could help Jeff. Candice, Victoria and Amy were there for him. Amy let Jeff stay with her and he was thankful. Matt felt betrayed by Amy. He did not like the idea of his brother staying at his girlfriend's place. Jeff had to ruin everything for him.

Maria noticed Jeff has not passed by the locker rooms. Strange. He always did. Vince McMahon let all his employees know there was to be a conference in a few minutes. Maybe Jeff was already seated in the conference. Who cares? Jeff could do anything with his life.

Trish Stratus just had the longest conversation with Jeff Hardy. Maria was a lucky woman-she had the sweet and charismatic enigma, who understood how anyone felt. She was familiar with his personal problem, but that was not her business. Jeff has not change personality-wise, and to hear from Vince that their romantic on-screen angle was over, disappointed her. It did not last, but it was fun working with Jeff.

Maria saw Trish walking by with a smiling face. She knew about Jeff and Trish's storyline. Her question was, how did Trish deal with Jeff?

Trish noticed Maria in the corner thinking deeply. "Hey Maria!" the blonde greeted.

"Hi Trisha. Are you heading to the conference room?" Maria asked the blonde.

"Yes," she nodded.

Both friends walked straight to the conference room, surprised to see the rest of the roster already on their seat. Jeff was not there. That was a relief to Maria.

"Ahem!" Vince interrupted his employees conversations.

"This is not going to take long. I only want to ask you about Jeff Hardy," he began.

"What do you mean, Vince?" Amy asked.

"Jeff asked for his release two days ago and left today in the morning," he explained.

"Jeff is going through depression,sir," Candice added.

Vince frowned. "Why didn't anyone tell me that? You know how much Jeff was loved by the public. This is a huge lost. How am I supposed to tell the people he left?"

Jeff left the company? That made sense now. For some reason, she felt terrible.

"Now that I lost one of my huge stars, I need to find my other choice for main event. You can all go back and get ready for the show."

His career was done with the WWE. Vince told the truth about Jeff's depression and his requested release from the company to the fans. Of course the public were not happy, and all they wanted was their Rainbow-Haired Warrior back. Trish already knew he had plans to depart. In their three hour conversation, he mentioned his situation and how everyday he was tormented by his inner demons. She wanted to be there for him; all she can do was give him a hug. Jeff felt comfortable when Trish hugged him-he left all his tears fall down his face. They stayed like that for a few minutes before Jeff bid farewell to the blonde. Sometimes Trish asked herself why he dated Maria. She should be helping him out with his depression.

Present Day: December 2006

Germany was the last place Maria wanted to be. Jeff and her had special memories she wished could happen again. All she remembered was the day she left him. Now he had to see him.

"Oh well, I have to be strong," she thought.


Trish did not know what she was doing. Victoria was going to Germany, but her heart was telling her to go with her. She wanted to see him. Matt and Amy told her to leave and check on Jeff, but she knew they wanted her to hook up with him. It was way earlier for that and besides, they had not gone through the friendship face.

"Are you ready Trish?" Victoria asked carrying two suitcases on her hands.

"Ready," she responded.

This is it. She was going to Germany and spend Christmas with Jeff. Or that is what she wanted.

Their trip to the airport did not take long. Not too many fans asked for a picture or an autograph. Amy and Matt followed them until they were heading to the plane. The blonde was exhausted and thankfully she could sleep on the plane.

From the other side of the world, Jeff stared outside his hotel window. Munich had a beautiful sunrise. He had to get ready for his roommate Lisa Marie's arrival and the first thing was to clean the room. Victoria was scheduled to arrive in the evening since her plane from Las Vegas departed at ten in the night. Munich was nine hours ahead due to the time zone.

"For now I have to be at an autograph section. I should be back in time before Victoria arrives," he thought.


"That was the longest time I had to sit and wait on a plane," Victoria said.

Trish nodded. "At least we arrived to our destination...well, actually it's your destination since I only came for a reason."

Victoria laughed. "This should be fun."

Trish looked at the address Jeff sent Victoria on text. They were to be roommates. She typed the address on her phone's GPS to find the hotel.

"I think we need to keep walking," Trish said as she looked down her phone.

"Okay."

After thirty long minutes, both ladies found the hotel. They went to ask for Jeff Hardy at the front desk. His room number was 831. The elevator was the best option to get there.

Jeff was watching television, wishing he understood Deutsch because it was impossible to watch the show.

Knock Knock

Victoria finally arrived. He got up from his bed to go open the door. To his surprise, Victoria brought Trish with her. Jeff made room to let the two young women come in.

"That was the longest trip ever," Victoria said as she dropped her belongings to the floor.

"You two look tired. Rest for a while and then we can eat dinner."

Jeff walked directly to the balcony. He could not believe it; Trish was here. All he wanted was to hug the blonde for being there for him when needed. Jeff rested his back on one of the balcony couches.

"You are not exhausted, Jeff?"

His eyes drifted to the gorgeous Canadian. Although both were not close friends, he felt a weird connection with Trish.

"Not really."

Trish smiled and sat down next to him. At first, Jeff did not say anything, but he wanted to know something.

"Trish, why are you here?" he asked.

That question caught Trish off guard.

" You wouldn't want to know, but all I can say is that I missed hanging out with you. Our conversations are always fun."

He could not understand these heartwarming feelings; her company brought him peace. Jeff admired how she moved her lips as she talked. This could not wait-he wanted to taste her lips.

"Jeff, are you okay? Did I say something to-"

She did not finish her sentence. Jeff's face was a few centimeters apart from hers. In seconds, his lips clashed into hers to share a lovely kiss. His kisses were amazing-long but sweet.

Jeff was confused. He kissed Trish Stratus. He had to find an explanation of the shared kiss. Trish was blushing as she stood up from her seat.

"I'm going to take a nap."

Jeff stayed quiet due to the kiss.

"What did I do?" he asked himself.


A/N: just an fyi...this is an A/U so many things may not go according to the real history of each character. I changed some things, so the story could make sense...chapter five will focus on the aftermath of their kiss, Jeff's match against John and Maria... thanks for reading c: