Jace

"Therapy?" I whispered, the word leaving a bitter taste in my mouth. Tessa bit her lip and nodded her head apprehensively, "Yes Jace, therapy" I took my feet off the table and leaned forward in my chair. It was still my first day back and everyone had been celebrating my long awaiting return because, well, I'm Jace Wayland. But, the celebrations were over now and Tessa pulled me aside once everyone began going to their bedrooms. She explained to me that since I tried to kill myself (which I didn't), my doctor (that bastard) recommended that I go see my therapist again. And Tessa (bless her heart, but seriously woman?) agreed with him. So now, according to Tessa, I have to go see my horrible therapist once a week until I can finally admit that I did try to kill myself and tell them why.

But that will never happen because I didn't fucking try to kill myself.

"Well, I'm not going" I stated, crossing my arms and glaring at Tessa. She sighed and reached over for my hand, but I kept my arms crossed; if she's going to make me see that awful excuse for a therapist again, then she will not get to perform his motherly affections on me.

She rubbed her temples as if she had a headache, and I did feel a bit bad for her. After all- she must be under massive amounts of stress right now- with all the kids that have been coming in lately. But, that doesn't mean I'll let her off the hook with this one.

"Jace," She spoke softly, "You are evidently going through difficult emotional trials if you cannot even admit to trying to," Tessa cut herself off before she could finish the sentence. She looked like she was on the verge of tears, "If you could just tell me why," She choked out, "Then maybe Will and I would consider saying no to therapy. But, the doctor said that you refusing to admit that you hurt yourself means that you aren't mentally stable enough to deal with whatever emotional trauma you're going through"

I refused to make eye contact with her, so I set my eyes on the coffee table, and didn't look up, no matter what she said, "How many times do I have to say it? I didn't fucking attempt to off myself! What reason would I have to do it? I'm not unhappy at all!"

My little outburst caused Will to come in, carrying Levi, the newborn baby that was brought here a week ago. He set a hand on Tessa's back; she was staring at the table, attempting to keep herself from crying I assume. Well damn it. I never meant to make her cry but...it's frustrating that NO ONE believes me!
"Jace," Will whispered, careful not to upset the baby, "Do not talk to Tessa that way. You are going to therapy. Period" I refrained from groaning and stood up, "Whatever. It doesn't change the fact that I never, and will never, try to end my life".

I got out of that room as soon as I could, before I didn't something stupid like cry. I decided to visit Izzy before I went to my room, I hadn't gotten the chance to actually speak to her since I got back and she never visited me in the hospital. Though I will NOT admit it to her face, I missed her a lot. In our time here, we have grown very close. She's like the sister I never had. And, even though she's basically my sister, she's hot. If it didn't feel like incest, we'd totally hook up. But like I said, it's basically incest.

I knocked on her door, and I heard a voice vaguely whisper, "Who is it?"
"Jace" I whispered back.
"Come in"

I opened the door, and found Izzy sitting on her bed, against the headboard, with her knees up to her chest. She was rocking back and forth, and from the looks of it, she looked afraid. She didn't even look up at me when I walked in. She's having an episode, I realized, and sat down next to her. Wrapping my arms around her, I whispered in her ear, "Flashbacks again?" She nodded her head, and then leaned her forehead against her knees. She must be crying then; she only ever hid her face when she cried.

"It's all over, Izzy" I spoke gently, careful not to raise my voice. Raised voices petrified her, they reminded her of her parents whenever they would scream at her or Alec. "They can't hurt you anymore. You are here- safe with us. Safe with me and Alec and even that flamboyant Magnus person. Where does he get all that glitter?" I heard Izzy laugh, it was a faint one, but it was still a laugh. Which made me smile; whenever Izzy laughed, you had to laugh. It was infectious. But her laugh died quickly, "But they still hurt Max" She muttered, not to me though, to herself.

I stroked her hair and kissed the top of her head, "There was nothing you could do. It wasn't your fault, Isabelle" She continued to rock back and forth in my arms, "I should have been able to save him. I just wasn't strong enough" I shook my head- even though she couldn't see me.

"No one expected that from you, alright? You, Isabelle Lightwood, are not at fault for what happened that day. Only your bastard parents are. They are despicable people; people who are now rotting in prison cells for what they did to Alec and you, and Max. And Max...I know he does not blame you, wherever he is" Izzy looked up at me, and smiled at me, despite the tears still falling from her eyes. She leaned up and kissed my cheek, "Thanks, Wayland"
"Anything for you, Lightwood" I smirked, and then wiped off the spot where she kissed me, "You got tears and snot all over my face, Iz, that's disgusting"

Izzy rolled her and and smacked me, "Way to be inconsiderate, asshole" But she smiled anyway. A smile that faded when she asked me, "Did you really try to kill yourself?" I closed my eyes and leaned my head against her headboard. She laid her head on my shoulder, and waited expectantly for an answer. If anyone was going to believe me, it was Izzy. "No" I answered truthfully, not opening my eyes, "No, I didn't"

"I didn't think so" She responded which made me smile. I brought her in for a side hug, "If only everyone were as smart as you, Izzy. Then I wouldn't have to go to see that awful therapist every week" Izzy snorted, "You're going back to Ms. Carmunk? Good luck with that" I flicked her shoulder.

We sat in silence for a few minutes, before I decided to let her sleep. She looked a bit panicked when I left the room, and I couldn't blame her; her nightmares were a bitch. But, Isabelle's strong, she doesn't need me or Alec to sleep with her every night. On my way back to my room, I noticed Clary, leaving Simon's room. When she looked at me, she smiled but quickly adverted eye contact. I never really talked to her before, but since returning from the hospital, I began to notice how beautiful her smile was. And how green her eyes were. I could have sworn they were never that green before.

"How long have you and whatshisface been dating?" I asked quietly. She turned around slowly, as if she wasn't sure whether I was talking to her or not. She had a confused expression on her face, "Who?" I nodded towards Simon's room, and she still looked kind of confused. But then something apparently clicked, "Me and Simon?" She actually seemed to laugh at the thought, "We aren't dating," She smiled, "That'd be like incest"

I kept myself from smiling, "That's good"

"Good?" Clary wondered. I nodded my head, "Very good. Maybe not for Simon, but," I paused, smiling at her, "Good" Even in the dark, I could see her blushing, "Good" She repeated.
"Goodnight, Clary"


The next morning, I was awoken to the sound of Alec and Magnus swearing at each other.

"You know what?" Alec yelled, looking like his head was about to explode, "Fuck you. Fuck your fucking lazy ass cat. And fuck every piece of motherfucking glitter that ends up anywhere on my bed" And then he stormed out. I whistled, making Magnus turn to me. He looked sheepish, which was new for him. What was Alec doing to him?

"What was that about?" I asked, sitting up in my bed. Magnus scratched the back of his neck and shrugged, "He tripped over Chairman Meow on his way to brush his teeth. I don't remember what I said after that...but...you saw how it ended" I looked at the door, expecting Alec to burst in and start cussing him out again (more like hoping) but, to no avail.

"You guys should just stop fighting and fuck already" I told Magnus. He was still staring at the door after I spoke, staying quiet. Then we both heard a cat screech and Alec groaning. "Tell me about it" Magnus muttered, before going to save Chairman Meow from being skinned by my best friend. Oh, how great it is to be back.