This will probably be the most unique chapter in this story as it takes in to consideration that Kent and Fiora are extremely quick thinkers; especially when it comes to a very important matter like a confession of love.
That being said and explained, this chapter will, in respect to the story flow, last 1 second as it consists entirely of thoughts. And just because Fiora's thoughts are listed after Kent's doesn't mean that Fiora thinks all of these things after Kent; rather that they are thinking these things at the same time.
I do not own Fire Emblem or it's respective characters.
ONWARD!
Kent's thoughts...
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! What have I done? I can not believe I let that slip! Do I not think before I speak so often? And if I don't, then what else have I said in the past! NO! I mustn't think about the past, I must think about the present!
O.K.! There is no possible way I can fix that mistake; so let's look at my current situation. I'm sitting right next to Fiora; my comrade and closest friend. I've just told her that I am in love with her. Fiora has better than perfect hearing, and judging by the look in her eyes, she knows what I said. Everyone else is asleep by now, so this entire situation should be rather secret, but what does that matter?
I have insulted her! In expressing love for Fiora, I am conveying that I see her not as a friend, comrade, and partner; but just as a woman and nothing more! I know that she is more than just a woman, and I have always thought of her as more than that, but I am giving her the impression that I think of her as just a woman in saying that I am in love with her.
What if she loves me back? No, how could she love someone who has insulted her?
But my feelings for her are undeniable! When Linus threw his shield at Mark, I was about to rush to his side and lend my aid. But then I saw Fiora: completely at the mercy of someone who was about to... 'take her from me' as I thought of it at the time. She became my top priority. No, my only priority, and I didn't care whether Mark burned to ash or not. I wouldn't have cared if the entire world burned to ash! I thought of nothing but Fiora, and everything else was forgotten!
That was what I was doing while she was in the medical tent; I was thinking about her! I was thinking of her and how we have shared so much together; how I've always felt something for her I could never explain. I thought of how though I've saved her from death many times, today it came far too close and I almost lost her forever. I decided that I was in love with her. No, I realized I was in love with her! I realized that these feelings for her must have been love.
I also decided to keep it a secret. Why? Because it just seemed like the right thing at the time. It doesn't matter anyway; it's no longer a secret!
Why am I so ashamed? I don't know why but I just am! I must apologies to her. WHAT? Then what does that leave me with: 'I love you. I'm sorry.'? That just doesn't seem right! But what else can I say?
She does not love me. That means that I have not only lost the chance to have her as my own, but I have also spoiled our friendship. 'Have her as my own' what am I thinking! Am I so madly driven by my love that I set aside all respect for who she is and see her as nothing more than a goal to reach, or a mere... object of desire!
I'm not worthy of being in your presence any more, Fiora. These thoughts that I have for you do not make me even worthy of looking upon you.
Fiora's thoughts...
What did he say? He said he loved me. He said he loved me! Kent, oh what a wonderful thing you have done! I was hoping that you felt the same way about me as I did about you!
Wait, do I truly love this man in front of me? I suppose I always have been a bit fond of him ever since the day I met him, but I always suppressed these feelings; always knew that such a thing could not be possible. But these thoughts they grew as I got to know him better and now...
Kent, you have been my comrade, my partner, my companion, my closest friend, and today you saved my life in a way that was different from the other times. For today, I had my first taste of something I have never been exposed to: fear. I was afraid that I would die, and I would not only lose my life but I would lose you forever as well. I would be parted from you for the rest of eternity, and that would be the Hell that Linus spoke of.
I thought that you had no love for me when you came up with this idea of 'dividing the sexes' because that would mean that we would no longer spend any time together. I thought that you would never see me as the woman I am. And though until this very moment we were friends, and I was positive that you had never loved me, I just had to know for sure. I knew that you would never lie to anyone, especially me, and I asked you if you had ever loved someone. And you made a mistake! You accidentally told me your deepest, darkest secret! You've given me more than friendship; you've given me love!
WHAT AM I THINKING! Am I so madly driven by my feelings that I would exploit my closest friend and trick him into telling me whether or not he loved me! And besides, it was I who wanted to continue the 'dividing of the sexes' thing! Kent told me to forget about it but I decided not to, and it was I who wanted to go ahead with the procedure! So what does that make me?
I must have been thinking as little as Kent was just the shortest of moments ago. WAIT! I'm still not thinking! I know now that Kent loves me, but he has no idea that I love him! I must tell him. I must tell let him know that I-! Kent? Why have you stopped looking at me? Are you... ashamed?
FIN!
Well, that was a bizarre chapter, I just thought that it would be interesting to tell what people think when someone confesses their love (either deliberately, or accidentally as in this case). I know that this should be the most serious part of this fic, but I still think that love is ultimately a weird thing; even though I've never had a taste of it myself (sob, sob!).
Now this is probably the part where you're thinking, "What kind of chapter is this!" Well, this chapter has many... unique qualities. For one thing, it doesn't fit well into context with any of the other chapters, and for another, it's just barely long enough for it to be it's own chapter. It also quite effectively (in my eyes) lubricates the transition from chapter 3 to chapter 5.
Next chapter up tomorrow! (Sorry about the long wait, but it'll be worth it.)
R&R, or give me a flame,
for I shall read them all the same.
