-Cottage - After Life-

Buffy was still completely silent as she debated on how to tell Conner about the supernatural. As he stared at buffy, Conner started to look a little worried, "Buffy?"

Buffy took a deep breath, "Well Conner...When people are born they're born into a world where almost everybody is the same. They grow up learning that there are no monsters under the bed and that magic is only a gimick but you and me, we're special. You're going to be born into a world that exists with the normal one. It's going to be scary a lot of the time because what you see will frighten you but you have to remember that your dad is never going to let anything happen to you."

Conner still looked confused, "What makes our world special?"

Buffy pondered her answer before speaking, "Well, I don't know if you know what vampires are yet but they exist. In a short explanation monsters are real and they are very dangerous. There are people though who are destined to save the world from those monsters and that's me and your dad. I used to be the slayer, the one girl who had the abilities to fight these vampires but then I died and now it's up to your dad and my friends that you saw earlier."

"Does my dad have your strengths too?"

This was the hardest part of the explanation for Buffy, "Well, your dad is actually a vampire." Before Conner went insane Buffy hurried to calm him down, "Don't worry Conner, you're not evil. See you dad is a vampire but he has a soul. There are only two vampires in that world you are not aloud to harm and that's Angel, your dad and Spike. Usually vampires aren't aloud to have children but you're different. The second you go into that world Conner, you're going to be a miracle. No matter what anybody says or does around you I want you to know that."

Conner looked curious now, "Why would someone say I'm not a miracle?"

Buffy smiled, "Angel has this thing where it's really hard for him to express his feelings at all and I just need you to remember that when you grow up and he's brooding in a room that it's not your fault. Plus watching him brood all the time is worth hearing him speak when he finally does."

"How come he doesn't talk a lot?"

Buffy shrugged, "I don't know. Sometimes I think it's because he's always thinking but I never really asked. My friend Xander always used to tell me that I shouldn't trust him because people who hide that much have a reason to lie but when he talks you know you can trust him. He get's this look in his eyes and you know for sure that he's telling you the truth." She really stared at Conner now as she spoke, "You know, you have the same eyes?"

Conner looked down and if he could he would of blushed. "I guess, thanks."

Buffy smiled, "Your welcome."

Conner smiled and leaned in on Buffy's shoulder. They just sat in a nice silence together for a while until another thought popped into his head, "Am I going to be able to fight these monsters too?"

Buffy nodded, "Oh yeah Conner, Whistler said you were meant to do great things and I believe him."

He lfted his head to stare into her eyes, "Do you want to train me?"

Despite Buffy's better judgement she was flattered and smiled, "We'll see tomorrow."

Conner smiled but then something started ot bug him, "Did Whistler say why he wanted you to guide me?"

Buffy shook her head, "He was really cryptic about it but I think he just wanted me to guide you, like give you advice about living in the world."

Conner thought about her answer, "So what's your most important advice?"

It took Buffy a few minutes to decide what she wanted to say but when she found it she smiled, "No matter what happens or what people say to you always remember that it's okay to ask for help and there's always going to be people around you that you can talk to. Even though I'm dead you can always talk to me and especially your dad. He may not be so open or good at dealing with children but you can go to him for anything."

"I hope I remember that."

Buffy lifted her hand and ruffled his hair, "I hope you remember too." They stayed just sitting there in that position for the longest time until Buffy realized his eyes starting to close. She smiled, "Come on Conner, I think you need to sleep."

Conner sat up, "I don't want to go back."

Buffy stood upa nd grabbed his hand, "You don't have to. I think I saw more then one bed."

Conner nodded and let Buffy guide him towards a bedroom. He lay down and Buffy tucked him in. Conner looked Buffy in the eyes, "I am going to remember you right?"

Buffy didn't honestly know the answer but she smiled anyway, "You better." After a short quiet moment she walked back to the doorway, "Sleep Conner, I'll be on the couch for a little while longer."

He nodded and shit his eyes. Buffy walked back to the couch and sat down after wrapping a balnket around her. She stared at the T.V. and took a deep breath before closing her eyes and speaking, "I want to see Angel and everyone with him."

-Entering The Hyperion - Garden-

Angel, Wesley, Gunn, Lorne, Cordy, and Fred and the guys are making their way through the garden and into the Hyperion. Fred was amazed already, "Are-are you sure about that?"

Cordy went into reassurance mode, "Trust me. Tacos everywhere - and - soap!"

Gunn turned into guy mode, "Yo, that portal jumping is a fun ride. We sell it to a theme park we could get paid!"

Angel pushes himself to the front of the group so he could get to the door leading itnot he hotel, "Okay. Can I say it? I wanna say it."

"Say what?"

Angel pushes the double doors open and walks into the lobby along with everyone else. "There's no place like.."

He trails off as the sight of Spike, Willow, Xander, Anya and Dawn caught his eye. Angel's smile vanished as his eyes matched with the blonde vampire, "Spike?"

Cordelia was right there with him, "What the hell are all of you doing here and with Spike?"

Spike got off his chair and stood eye to eye with Angel. The intensity of the moment could errupt a volcano but Angel finally broke the silence, "It's Buffy."

Spike nodded, "Something happened and... you and me need to talk."

Angel shook his head and looked at Willow, "Where is she?"

Xander spoke for Willow, "Talk with Spike Angel. We'll explain to your friends."

Angel went back to glaring at Spike before worry got the best of him, "Let's go." Spike nodded and followed Angel toward and Office leaving the Sunnydale gang to explain buffy's death to the L.A. gang.

-Office-

Angel practically slammed the door as he followed Spike into the office. Spike sat down in the chair just in time for Angel to start yelling, "What the hell did you do?"

Spike shook his head, "It wasn't me this time Angel. Something bad happened and Buffy wanted me to tell you."

Angel was more worried then mad now, "What happened Spike?"

Spike took a deep breath knowing this would be the first time he said these words out loud, "There was a fight between Buffy and a god and in the end Buffy beet her but... Dawn's blood opened a portal that could only be closed with Summer's blood and Buffy sacrificed herself. It killed her Angel."

Angel stood there frozen still trying to process every word Spike said. When the words 'killed her' started running through his head over and over his body fell back and soon the only thing holding him up was the wall. He was trying everything in himself not to cry or show his vulnerability but Spike could see it instantly.

Spike stood up and walked to the door. He patted Angel's shoulder and tried not to cry himself, "I'll be out there."

He was about to walk out when Angel started to speak, "I should of been there. I should of stayed after her mom died like she told me to."

-After life - Cottage-

Buffy sat in tears and now crouched in front of the T.V. with her hand against the screen. "Oh no Angel, don't blame yourself, please don't."

-Hyperion - Office-

Spike thought about what to say as his eyes dropped to the floor, "Believe me Angel, being there doesn't make a difference."

"You know I promised her once, that I would always take care of her, that no matter what I would be there."

Spike nodded, "You weren't the only one to break a promise." He reached into the pocket of his coat and took out a piece of paper with Angel's name on it, "Plus, she knew she was going to die. Here's your goodbye."

Angel grabbed the paper quickly and unfolded it. Spike patted him on the shoulder again before really walking out the door this time. The second he was gone a few tears fell from Angel's eyes as his body slowly slid down the wall to a crouching position. His letter was the most emotional, obviously. It read;

Dear Angel,

I guess getting this letter will come as a big shock to you because well it means I'm not there anymore. I should of told you at my mom's funeral that things were bad but I couldn't bring myself to say anything. Now I know you're going to find some reason or some way that you think this is your fault but I need you to know it's not. The choice I made was mine and I think I'm going to be okay. I just couldn't leave without telling you one more time how much I really do love you. I missed you so much but I understand now that world was just not ready for you and me. I'll be waiting Angel, I'll wait all eternity, I promise.

Always your girl Buffy Summers

At that moment Angel couldn't control his emotions anymore and burst into tears.

-After Life - Cottage-

Buffy was pretty much broken now as she watched with intense eyes the sight before her. She took a deep breath and knew she couldn't watch anymore, "I don't want to see anything."

The T.V shut off and Buffy was left to mourn the fact she would never see her friends and her Angel ever again. It took her quite a long time to make it back to the couch but when she did her tears calmed down and now she was down to sniffles and a few whimpers. She was about to fall asleep until the door flew open. Instantly Buffy was on her feet and in fighting stance. She sat back down again when she realized it was only Whistler.

Whistler noticed her current state but knew not to mention it so he made different conversation, "You know you don't always have to be on alert here. Violence doesn't even exist."

Buffy nodded, "That's a change."

Whistler walked to the couch and sat down, "So, how's Conner doing?"

Buffy half smiled, "He seems to be really interested in what happens in the world. I told him about demons existing and stuff. I even told him his dad was a vampire."

Whistler nodded, "Good. Now it will seem farmiliar to him when he's born."

"He even asked me to train him. You think I should do it?"

Whistler thought about it, "Defenitely. A boy in the world with slayer moves. As long as he is on our side that should be amazing."

"He might not be on our side?"

Whistler shrugged, "There is a possibility but there was also one with you. Every slayer is born with the fact she could go good or evil. Conner is just a male you."

"So we can do anything?" Wistler nodded, "What if I want to read or something? How do I get a book?"

Whistler stood up and walked to the back of the room where there was a mirror on top of a dresser. "Ask the mirror if you can have some thing and whatever it is will appear. Don't think about asking for money because you don't need that here."

Buffy stood up and followed him towards the dresser, "Okay then, I think I'm okay."

Whistler looked her over and smiled knowing she could use some good news, "Your mother says she understands." Buffy smiled back at him, "She says to do what you have to."

"I think I have to do this."

"Good." He walked back to the couch and threw himself on it, "I'll be crashing here to keep an eye on you two."

Buffy wrapped her blanket around her again, "Okay, I'll be in my room."

When Buffy was out of sight Whistler put his hat on his head, "Sleep slayer, tomorrows a long day."

A/N - So that was the majority of the emotional chapters anyway. The rest is way better, believe me this is my favorite story of the ones I wrote.