Pardon the way that I stare.
There's nothing else to compare.
The sight of you makes me weak.
There are no words left to speak
Edwards POV
"Can you please open the door?" Bella shouted from her room. I took a deep breath and got up. I walked to the doors and opened them for two beautiful ladys.
"Hey Edward?" Alice greeted me with confused expression.
"They are just good friends who lives together while they parents are gone. But they aren't fucking. NOOO" Rose shook her head and welcomed herself inside while Alice stood with tilted head, shrugged and came inside.
"Where is Bells?" Rose asked me.
"Shes upstairs doing some girl stuff." I said and girls made their way up to Bellas room. I looked at my watch and noticed that its only 4 pm. So why they were here so fast? Girls. I thought and sat back on the couch gluing my eyes on TV.
Bellas POV
"Wait, so you are saying that you two live together basically the whole time and you are sleeping in the same bed and you two don't have and never had have sex?" Alice asked with disbelieve. I nodded my head in agreement.
"I don't get it. You are sleeping in the same bed with man who looks like James Dean and you never thought of fucking him?" She asked about fifth time.
"Of course I had thought of that, but he's my best friend. And best friends don't fuck."
"You are totally weird Bella, if I were you I would so fuck him." She said and licked her lips.
"Really?" Said the velvety voice from behind us. Alice blushed bright red. And me and Rose broke down laughing so hard that our stomachs started to hurt. After we were done laughing Edward finally spoke.
"Tanya called and asked if I could go to her house for a while, I came here to ask if its okay?" He asked and gave crooked smile to Alice. Alice gaped at him and he winked at her causing Alice to blush one more time.
"Yeah, sure. I think it is much better than eavesdropping our conversations." I told him and with that he walked away.
We burst out in laughing. Alice threw pillow at me. "It's so not funny. He will now probably thinks I have hots for him."
"Well you got his attention for sure." Rose said laughing.
"Okay, girls we have to get ready for party." I said and started to straighten Rosalies golden blond hair. She was the most beautiful girl in this school. She had ice blue eyes which were framed by long eyelashes. Her honey blonde hair was waiving down til the middle of her back, they looked perfect with her tanned skin. She had long legs and curves in all right places. I've always envied her. Shes so perfect.
After 3 hours and 45 minutes we were done. I looked at Alice, she looked very like Alice. She was wearing color silk-crepe dress with pink heels. It suited Alice perfectly.
Rose was wearing White dress with white heels. Dress looked perfect on her. Especially with legs like that.
And then there was me. I was wearing blue and black dress with black heels. I put on my favorite neck-less which Edward got me in this Christmases. I loved it. Edward has a such good taste when it comes to things like that.
"Bella, why you made us wear dresses? It's not that I dont like, but it's just a house party." Rose said looking at herself in mirror.
"Oh,totally forgot. Boys are taking us to a dinner tonight, after that we are coming back to my house." Alice gasped.
"Bella, why didn't you tell us earlier." She was in shock.
"Edward made me not to." I just shrugged and glanced in the mirror one last time.
"How did he made you? He promised to be your sex slave?" Rose teased me.
I laughed and shook my headed. "That dirty head of yours Rosalie Hale."
"Bells?" Edward shouted my name."I'm home. And boys are here too"
"Finally." I whispered to myself. "Okay girls, let's go downstairs to make our grand entrance."
We linked our arms and walked down the hall. When we finally reached top of stairs boys looked up. Where is Jacob? He wasnt there and that made me sad. I took a deep breath and forced myself to smile as the girls start to walk down. I could feel Edwards eyes on me. I glanced at Tanya. Wow. I thought. She was wearing red dress with red over the knee boots. I don't know what Edward thought, but I didn't like it. We were going to restaurant not clubbing.
"You look great Bells." Edward said and kissed my cheek.
"Why thank you. You look good too." I smiled at him. He was wearing black shirt with sleeves and two buttons open. It went perfectly together with his black jeans. He looked sexy as fuck.
Then I remembered Alices words. Why I wasn't attracted to this guy? I thought. He was more than perfect. Every other girl in my place would already jumped on his bones.
"Where is Jacob?" Tanya asked me making me took my eyes off of her man.
"I don't know actually. I will call him later." I smiled and looked back at Edward whose eyes was still on me.
"Okay, who drives with who?" Emmett yelled.
"I'm with you baby." Rose said and wrapped her arms around his waist.
"I can take Alice." Jasper said and Alice smiled brightly.
"I guess that leaves me and Bella." Edward smiled at me. I looked up at him in his emerald-green eyes. Wow. I could lost in them. You know the feeling when you want to look away, but you just can't? Yeah? So that is whats happening right now. I can't take my eyes off of him.
"And me." Tanya added. Oh my. I totally forgot she's still here. I gave her a weak smile.
"And then he just turns around and yells – Rosalie Hale will you be my girlfriend? I want to be with you night and day. I know I can sometimes be the most stupidest guy, but you're no better, and that's the reason why are we meant to be – to be stupid and bitchy that and that we are two the most sexiest people so we must have to be together to make more sexy people. Rosalie I love you! I stood there in shock." Rose now was blushing and Emmett was holding her hand."I was so embarrass and mad at him for humiliating me, but I went and kissed him anyway. I love this goof so much." She kissed his cheek.
It was two years ago. They were fighting about something stupid Emmett did or said. He walked past her in mall, she didn't even looked at him and then he just said that all to her in front of all the people. Rose had tears in her eyes. Well of course it wasn't the most beautiful thing in whole world or thing guy could tell you, but it came from his heart. Its Emmett, what else did you expected? Flowers and serenade. He's spontaneous. That's why we love him.
"So,Tanya, how Edward asked you?" Alice asked her with smile on her face. Oh, this was interesting.
"Yeah, Edward, how did you asked Tanya to be your girlfriend?" I repeated Alice's question. Edward looked down at table then back at us, then at Tanya. He was about to say something, but waitress came to make sure we don't want anything else.
Ride home was interesting. There was awkward silence in the air. I was wondering if Edward asked Tanya to be his girlfriend. He never mentioned me that.
After 20 minutes awkward silence we were at my place. We walked in the house and took off our coats. I told everybody to go to a family room.
"I will go and grab some bottle of vine." I told everyone.
"Oh Bells cut that act, go and grab vodka." Emmett yelled across the family room.
"Okay." I said with little laugh and walked to the kitchen. I was searching for the glasses when I felt two strong arms wrapping around me. I turned around and I was met by the two most beautiful green eyes.
"Did I told you that you look beautiful?" He said in the most sweetest voice.
"Yes, actually you did." I answered and wrapped my hands around his neck. He swallowed and pulled me closer. Our body's were pressed together and there was sparks all over the place. He rested his forehead at mine and my breath started to get in my belly were going mad and my head was spinning.
"Oh, I so knew it!" Tanya's voice pulled me back in the reality. Edward backed off and I just gaped at very angry Tanya.What the fuck just happened?
"It's not what it looks like." we both said at the same time. Tanya shot me death glares. Then she spoke again "Well, it's not like we are together, right Edward? Shes the reason why?" She had tears in her eyes.
"Is that what you want, Tanya? To be my girlfriend?" He asked her.
"I will leave you two alone so you could talk." I said and left the room. But before I went to grab two bottles of vodka and glasses.
"Where is Edward?" Rose asked.
"Oh, Tanya saw us really in a really awkward position so now he's asking her to be his gf." I told them and handed Emmett the glasses and bottle. "Make it double." I told Emmett and Alice gave me confused look. Then she spoke "You so wanna fuck him."
"Would you all please stop telling that. No! I'm not interested in him. Okay?"
"In who?" Asked smooth velvety voice. I spun around and said "You!I'm not interested in you."
"See baby, I told you." He said to Tanya squeezing her shoulders. "there is nothing to worry about." He said calmly, but theer wa something in his eyes. I couldnt figure it out so I just left it alone.
"Okay, how about we play 'I have never'? Alice broke the silence.
We all sat at the table. Emmett filled the shots. "Who wants to start first?" Asked very exited Alice.
"This is your party, so you should start." Said Jasper smiling warmly at her. There was definitely something between them two. Since the first day they both laid eyes on each other.
"Okay." She thought for moment. "Oh, I have never shaved my head." Emmett drunk. Everyone looked at him. I couldn't help but laugh.
"Bella." He said in one word and shook his head.
"She did it?" Edward asked.
"No, she made me." It happened one summer when Edward went away with his family and I stayed here in Forks and spend most of the time with Emmett and Rose.
"Why?" Asked Alice.
"Don't want to talk about it."
"Okay, Rose, its your turn." Jasper reminded.
"I have never..owned more then two pairs of the same shoes in different colours"
Me and Alice took a shot. Someone murmured girls.
"Oh,it's finally my turn." Emmett said happily. "I have never been in love with my best friend." No one drank. I rolled my eyes at grinning Emmett.
It was now Jaspers turn. He looked between me and Edward and said "I have never kissed my best friend." I gave him death glare and me and Edward drunk our shots.
"Oh, I knew it!Bella why didn't you told me!" Rose whined
"Because it meant nothing." Edward said. My stomach fell. Nothing? Whoa. And I thought that was something.
"Yeah, nothing."
"I have never used drugs." No one drunk.
"I have never.." Edward started. "had phone sex?" Me and Rose drunk. Dont ask.
"What the hell?" Emmett asked and we giggled. It was one time when Rose wanted to train with me so she would know how it goes if Emmett would want to try something like that.
"Oh for us to know nad for you to never find out." I said and winked at Rose.
It was Tanya's turn. "I have never kissed a member of the same-sex." She said and me and Rose took another shot.
Jasper looked between me and Rose with questioning eyes. "It was totally hot." Edward said. "Watching the two most beautiful girls kissing." Jasper made face looking at Rose. I guess brother doesn't want to see or even imagine things like that with his sister on it.
"I think now I know why Bella doesn't have a crush on Edward. Shes in love with Rose." Alice said through the laughs.
"Shut up." I playfully hit her hand.
"Okay this game is lame." Tanya spoke.
"Oh, and you suggest?" I asked her waiting for something smart she would come up with but she said that she wants to play hide and seek.
"And this game is lame?" Asked Alice with shocked face. "we aren't in kindergarten".
"Actually this could be fun." Said Emmett and winked at Rose.
"Okay, lets play it. Boys will count till hundred and girls will have to hide. Once boy founds a girl he will bring her down with him and wait for the others. "
"And what happens if one girls is left alone?" I remembered them that my date isn't here.
"Humph." Alice thought for a second. "Then the girl will have to call Mike Newton and ask him out on date."
"No way! I can't get rid of him. So not happening." I warned her.
"How about the girl who are left alone is just left alone and that's it?"
"Sounds good to me." I added.
"Oh no, I know – the boy who founds this girl, owns her for the rest of the night." Alice gave me sheepish smile.
"Okay,lets take a shots before we do this." Emmett said nad after 4 shots we started toplay.
We split up and boys went outside to take a smoke and count to hundred. I walked in my walk in closet and sat in the darkest corner. The lights were out because in that way this was more interesting.
I waited about ten minutes when finally someone came in to my room. I sat still. Then the boy came in to my closet. By the scent I knew it was my Edward. And I can bet he knew that I'm here.
"Bells?" Told you "Bells,is that you?" I sat still. "Bella I know its you, I can feel it." Well probably most of the girls would find it creepy but between me and Edward was some kind of a weird connection.
"You found me." I said and stood up.
"You know I will always find you. I could never lost you." He said and his hands searched for me in the dark.
"Promise?" I asked him and his warm hands finally were wrapped around my waist holding me tight to his chests.
"Forever." This was weird moment between two us. Really, really weird. I remembered what happened earlyer when we were in teh kitchen and suddenly I hoped he would kiss me. I dont know why.
"Come, we have to go downstairs." I said pulling him by arm.
"Can we just stay here for a while?" He asked.
"Edward?" I finally got courage to ask him.
"Yeah?"
"Did you really meant that? What you said before – that our kiss was nothing?" I asked him. There was long silence.
"Bells, sometimes you are really stupid." he told me and hugged me tighter. "Of course I didn't meant it. What did you wanted me to say? That that was best kiss ever in front of my new girlfriend?" He asked with chuckle.
"Yeah, you are right. I just thought. Oh never mind." because I even didn't know why did it upset me so much.
"We should go." I told him and walked downstairs with him following behind me still holding my hand.
We saw that Alice and Jasper was already there with big goofy smiles on their faces. Not long after that Rose and Emmett came down so this means that Tanya was left by herself.
"Maybe you should go and search for Tanya?" I asked Edward. "She already doesn't like me. I don't want her to be jealous. If you remember what happened last time."
"Shes not her Bella."
"I'm just saying that you need to go find our girlfriend Edward.
Flash back
"Edward where are you?" I was worried. Past two months he has been so distant to me. Today we were suppose to wait our parents home from their trip and Edward wasn't here yet.
"Sorry Bells, I had things to do."
"Yeah, you have a lot of things in past two months. I see you only in school Edward." I was worried. Edward never did that. "You know that our parents will be at my house?"
"Look, Bella I have to go. See you at school." With that he hung up. What was gotten to him. Was it Kate? No,she would never do that. She is nice. Maybe Edward don't want me to be his friend anymore?
End of flashback.
"Bellaaaaaaaaaaa" I heard Emmet's drunk voice. "this party is avsom." He blustered out. Its been two hours when we came downstairs and start to drink and dancing. Now I was left alone. Alice was making out with Jasper, Emmett and Rose were trying to walk to the guest room. And in the other guest room I think Edward is screwing Tanya. I hope he will change the sheets tomorrow.
I showed Alice and Jazz their room and went to my own. Once I was changed in to my tank top and shorts I went out of my bathroom. And I was surprised when I saw very confused Edward sitting on the edge of my bed.
"Hey." he looked up at me. "I thought you were screwing Tanya." I chuckled.
"No, she passed out." he informed.
"Oh, and that's why you are here? Because she passed out?"
"What? Bells? Why are you saying that?" He stood up and came closer to me. Then he smiled. "Are you jealous?" You wish.
"No." said and walked to my bed. He grabbed my hand. I raised my eyebrows at him.
He smile and walked closer to my stereo. He put a CD inside and I heard the start of one of my favorite songs. He came back to and walked me outside on balcony. He put my arms around his neck and his own arms was resting on my waist.
Is this the end of the moment
Or just a beautiful unfolding
Of a love that will never be?
Or maybe be
Everything that I never thought could happen
Or ever come to pass and
I wonder
If maybe
Maybe I could be
All you ever dreamed, cause you are
He rested his chin lightly on the top of my head while singing along the song.
Beautiful inside
So lovely and I
Cant see why I'd do anything without you, you are
And when I'm not with you
I know that it's true
That I'd rather be anywhere but here without you
I looked up at him and he was smiling at me.
Is this a natural feeling
Or is it just me bleeding
All my thoughts and dreams
In hope that you will be with me or
Is this a moment to remember
Or just a cold day in December?
I wonder
If maybe
Maybe I could be
All you ever dreamed, cause you are
The last two lines he sang in my ear. Then he slowly put one finger under my chin and made me look up. And I saw the moon. Bright full moon. I looked back at him and smiled. We were dancing in the moonlight. Seeing moon this bright was a rare thing in a cloudy place like Forks.
Is this the end of the moment
Or just a beautiful unfolding
Of a love that will never be
For you and me?
Cause you are
You're beautiful inside
You're so lovely and I
Can't see why I'd do anything without you, you are
And when I'm not with you, I know that it's true
That I'd rather be anywhere but here without you
Suddenly something unexpected happened. Edward kissed me. First his lips slowly and softly touched mine. I stood there confused as moving. I wasnt kissing him back and I wasnt pulling away either. Then the kiss started to get more eager. I didn't even noticed that I was kissing him back. He was holding me so close that our body's melted together and I tugged my fingers in to his hair pulling him closer, but then he pushed me away with terrified look on his face.
"Oh my god. I'm so sorry. this was a mistake. I'm sorry." WIth that he rushed out of my room leaving me there totally stunned.
"What the fuck?"
