E POV

We finally got to the college. I didn't think I could bare being stuck in that fucking car with Mike a moment longer.

Unfortunately, I was also sharing a room with him. Fuck. I quickly shoved the box of Izzy's things in the back of my closet and after unpacking my clothes and things, I put the heavy duty padlock I had used back at Mike's place on it. No one thought anything of it. I always locked my closet. It was just what I did, as far as they knew. Mike wanted to go hang with the others that night, but I claimed I wasn't feeling great, but told him to go anyway.

Once he was gone, I had a smoke and then just collapsed in bed. I needed to just let myself catch up with everything.

I woke up the next day and yawned and stretched.

We didn't actually have any lectures today, we just had to make sure we were registered on the correct courses, and grab some details about them.


I was laying on my bed, messing with my phone when everyone else came rushing in.

"Hey, man. Feelin better?" Tyler asked.

"Yeah, I suppose."

"Well, good, cos we're going to the 'Welcome to College' thing in the SU bar tonight."

"Ok."

I didn't really feel in the mood to go down there, but whatever.


Later that evening, I was standing in the student bar, drinking beer, and waiting for some band to come on stage.

I stood and watched the stage as a small girl with long red hair ran onto stage.

"Hello fellow students!" she cried.

A few already drunk people cheered at this point, causing her to giggle.

"I'm Natasha Rye, and I'm the lead guitarist of Apassionata!"

A guy with long blonde hair pulled into a ponytail walked onstage.

"Our kick ass drummer, James Cottee!"

Next was another girl, this time with black hair.

"Our lovely keyboardist, Lacey Anderson!"

A huge Native American looking guy jumped on stage next.

"Our...very tall....bassist, Jacob Black!" The guy laughed at her comment.

We watched as the last member of the band walked on. She had her back to the crowd still.

"And last, but most certainly not least, our talented and beautiful singer! Please welcome the gorgeous Isabella Swan!"

I almost inhaled the beer bottle with my gasp of shock. It couldn't be!

The girl suddenly spun round with a glowing smile.

Izzy! The smile was all the proof I needed. I'd recognise that smile out of millions. Even after six years, it was still the same. She was alive! She was really alive! And she went to the same college as me!

"Hi, there!" she called, nodding to the guitarist to start playing, "this is a faviourite song of mine. This is Escapist by NightWish!"

I stared in disbelief as she started singing. She was incredible! Izzy had always been so shy and quiet. But now! Now she was standing on stage in front of most of the college, singing her heart out.

I took a moment to truly look at her.

She had changed so much in six years. She was slimmer than she used to be. Her hair hung down to her waist in curls. Her face was thinner and it bought out her cheekbones perfectly. Standing on the stage, she oozed confidence and sexiness. She was more than I had ever imagined her being. She was truly perfect. Beautiful.

Suddenly her eyes found us. She stared in utter shock at everyone, before her eyes settled on me. She quickly looked away, but not before I saw the pain and fear in her eyes.

The guitarist ran over and started whispering to her. They whispered furiously, trying to sort something out.

Izzy finally turned back to the front of the stage and grinned out at the audience.

"This song is for someone out there. I won't say who, I wonder if they will know, purely by the lyrics?"

She closed her eyes and started to sing. She sounded like she had been trained as an opera singer!

Sparkling angel I believe
You were my saviour in my time of need.
Blinded by faith I couldn't hear
All the whispers, the warnings so clear.
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door.
There's no escape now,
No mercy no more.
No remorse cause I still remember


She shut her eyes tightly as she took a deep breath before launching into the chorus.


The smile when you tore me apart.
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.

I sighed as I listened to the lyrics. I had certainly broken a promise to Izzy. The promise to always be her friend.

Sparkling angel, I couldn't see
Your dark intentions, your feelings for me.
Fallen angel, tell me why?
What is the reason, the thorn in your eye?
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door
There's no escape now
No mercy no more
No remorse cause I still remember

I had been watching Izzy the whole time she was singing, bitting my lip as I listened but now she looked directly at me. I gasped and felt my eyes widen as it finally clicked. I knew that this was aimed at me!

The smile when you tore me apart
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Could have been forever.
Now we have reached the end.

This world may have failed you,
It doesn't give you reason why.
You could have chosen a different path in life.

And I could have. I could have done things so differently. I could have saved us both hurt if I had just run from the forest and told her father what I had heard. He would have believed me instantly. He'd never had a reason to not trust me. Not until I betrayed Izzy.

She completely threw herself into the song now, pouring out all the pain and anger she had suffered because of me in her voice. She kept her eyes on me the whole time she sang. I could see the tears shining in her big brown eyes.

The smile when you tore me apart.
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Could have been forever.
Now we have reached the end.

Oh God! How much had I hurt her?! I felt as though my heart was trying to rip itself out of my chest.

How could I have hurt this beautiful girl?! I had to make it up to her somehow. I just had to.

The next song started, and I sighed. It was Who Knew? by Pink. I had listened to this song a lot after everything went down. It just summed up what had happened so perfectly. Only I imagined it coming from Izzy. And now it was. Why was life so fucked up? Oh yeah, cos I'm a fucking moron who destroyed his own happiness because of his own stupidity and some skank who wanted to hurt my best friend. What a mess.

I watched her singing and I felt so annoyed, watching her up there. Not at her, but at myself. I should have been there to see her transform into this beautiful girl. But, I repeat, I am a fucking moron.

The guitarist, Natasha, walked over to Izzy again and whispered to her again. Izzy gave a bright smile and nodded.

"Ok, this is our last song, people. Hope you enjoy it!"

No! Please don't stop singing yet! I could listen to you forever!

I was driving in my car,
When I heard the loud guitar
Of the band you used to hate
You said so on our date

Well the song was really bad
But it made me think of you
I believe that what we had
Was a miracle of two

I don't wanna know the reason why you ran away
I don't wanna show the tears I shed on you

I'm moving on I know I'm done
I'll find a place where I belong
I'm not afraid Just like you said
I've been disgraced just far too long

Why was it wrong to stay with you
Why was it wrong to love you back
I'm not the one who chose this way
I'm not the one who pulled you back
And now
I'm still here

Izzy looked straight at me again, her eyes flashing with anger. And hurt.

Without you

Ah. So this was aimed at me again. This was to show me that she had moved on. Well, so she should have. Didn't stop me being annoyed at myself all the more though.

I was going for a walk
When you called this afternoon
"I don't know if we should talk
But I have to see you soon"

Well you know that it's too late
I have grown away from you
And I closed my iron gate
I'm better off alone

I don't wanna know the reason why you turned away
I don't wanna show the blood I shed for you

I'm moving on I know I'm done
I won't look back until you're gone
I'm not afraid Just like you said
I'll find my peace under the sun

Why was it wrong to touch your face
Why was it wrong to keep my space
I'm not the one who put you down
I'm not the one who let you frown
But now
I'm still here Without you

I know people like the games
You can't make them stay the same
I don't see how love can end
We should all stop to pretend
No more lies and no more pain
I can't stop the fate again
I will find my peace somewhere
I will find a way - so I'll smile

She gave the most breath taking smile I'd ever seen. She smiled right at me, but she didn't look at me now. Her eyes were fixed on the crowd further out.

I'm moving on I'm not afraid
I'll find a place where I belong
I know I'm done Just like you said
I've been disgraced just far too long

Why was it wrong to stay with you
Why was it wrong to love you back
I'm not the one who chose this way
I'm not the one who pulled you back
And now
I'm still here

She looked up at met my eyes again.

I'm sure I must have looked like a total bastard. I couldn't contain my glare. But again, it wasn't aimed at her. I was glaring at life and fate for causing all this shit to happen. I was glaring at myself.

Without you.

As the song finished Izzy held her head up high and smiled out at the crowd.

"Thanks for listening, we've been Apassionata, and you've been a fucking awesome audience!"

The crowd cheered and yelled "Encore! Encore!"

Izzy walked over and put her guitar away before putting the microphones and stands away.

I watched as she hopped up onto the drummer's stool to reach the banner behind it.

I winched as Natasha smiled sweetly as she danced up to Izzy before she kicked the stool away.

To my shock Izzy squealed with laughter as she toppled backwards.

She landed in the drummer's arms as he caught her.

I used to do that. Catch her when she fell.

"Natasha!" he scolded, laughing. "You are such a bitch sometimes!"

"I know! I didn't even do anything!" Izzy giggled.

Natasha smiled and bounced off again.

"Umm...James, d'you mind putting me down now?"

"Oh! Sorry, Bellsy! Forgot about that!"

"Yeah right!" she called as he walked away after placing her on her feet. "You just wanted to feel me up, asshole!"

He turned to her and placed his hand over his heart, with a mock hurt expression on his face.

"Isabella! I would never do that! I'm a gentleman!"

Izzy snorted. "Gentleman my foot! You, James Nicholas Cottee, are not, I repeat not a gentleman! You are, in fact, a goddamn perv!"

He laughed and grabbed her and pulled her to him.

I think I growled a bit.

"I am not a perv!" he laughed.

"Urgh! You so are! I saw you staring when Tasha pulled my bikini bottoms down that time!"

"I was 17! What was I supposed to do?! I was a horny 17 year old boy, and there was this oh so sexy 17 year old girl, half naked in front of me! It would have been an insult not to look!" he cried indignantly.

Izzy just fell about laughing.

Once they had finished clearing up, they walked off stage and she looked straight at us.

Jessica and the others were watching her and sneering at her.

I just kept glaring. She had a boyfriend. He was the one who saved her now. He was the one who watched over her.

God, my heart hurt so much! I missed her more than anything. I had to make this right! Somehow!


There you go sweeties! One new chappie for you!

There is a bit of a playlist. The first songs are the ones which we witnessed Bella sing. They are in order.

Escapist – NightWish. (although we don't see the lyrics in the chapter)

Angels – Within Temptation

Who Knew – Pink

Without You – Anna Tsuchiya

Then there are a couple of songs which inspire the chappie from Edward's point of view.

Watch Over You – Alter Bridge

Amazed – Lonestar

So, hope you enjoyed. The next chappie is in the works!!!!

Please review sweeties! I do so love it when you do!!

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