Day Four- Learning to Submit
Edward had stayed over the entire night. In my bed. And we spooned. We spooned. Nothing sexual or erotic, just loving and peaceful. It almost felt normal to have him in sleeping beside me, like we were a real couple. But its a cruel moment when reality smacks you in the face and realization sets in that this isn't real. It isn't loving. It's business. I can only hope that I can feel like this with Jacob. Silly me! Of course I will! It is Jacob I want after all, right? I turned over and looked the sleeping godlike man laying beside me. A sudden surge of anxiety and morose filled my stomach up and for a moment I thought I was going to be sick.
I only had two more days with Edward.
Which meant in three days was my official date with Dr. McDreamy.
Would I be ready? Of course I would, I had Edward 'Sex God Extraordinaire' Cullen as my teacher. Jacob won't even know what hit him. And even if we didn't make it to home base on date one didn't mean that we couldn't hit first or second. I was prepared....no! I wasn't prepared! Edward never showed me home base! We've only made it to third! Was he planning on stopping after third base?! My anxiety went away and was replaced instead with a barrel full of bitch. I threw my pillow at him and was delighted when I was awakened with a loud "Oomph!" and a hard thud.
"Fucking hell, Swan! Did you not take your happy pills this morning?!" He shouted at me from the floor.
Did it make me a bad person if I was slightly happy at this sight? No. No, it did not.
"Cullen, we haven't made it to home base you stupid ass! I only have three days until my date and I don't know how to have sex!" I shouted back at him.
"Aw fucking hell Bella! That's what this is about? I said you would be prepared for your date and you will be. I won't let you go in there with the big boys not knowing what to do." He groaned as he crawled his naked ass back on the bed, not even bothering to cover himself up.
I wanted to eat ice cream off that ass.
"You know, if you take a picture it'll last longer." He mumbled into the pillow.
"A picture of what? I have no idea what you're talking about you pompous ass." I rebutted as I blushed horribly.
"So you do know what I'm talking about." I could hear the smile in his arrogant voice.
"Unlike some people, I have a job to get to. So if you'll excuse me I need to use the facilities and take a shower." I said as I wrapped the sheet around myself and walked towards the bathroom.
Immediately his head popped up and his grin widened from ear to ear.
"Want some company?"
We were going to be late.
Yes, we were late. Twenty minutes late. As soon as we made it into the hot steamy shower there were hands and tongues and mouths everywhere. I'd gladly stay later if I could wake up to that every morning. With someone who wasn't Edward. Right. Non Edward.
I shook my head a little as I tried to focus more on what I was doing instead of drifting back to that stupid man who haunts my dreams. I grabbed a few charts and went down the hall towards my first patient for the day.
Name: Charlotte Jane Cullen
DOB: 07/20/1920
Dx: Pneumonia Complications.
X-ray of thoracic cavity ordered by Dr. E. Cullen to r/o TB. Pt is tachycardic, complains of dyspnea, DM II. Pt arrived via ambulance to the ER due to high febrile state: 103.2 F. NKDA. Pt is using sliding scale of insulin aspart, rapid acting. Currently on Levofloxacin 500 mg I.V. QPM, APAP 500 mg Q6H, Solu-Medrol 125 mg I.M. Q8H. Dr. Cullen should be paged STAT in regards to questions or concerns for this pt.
Cullen? E. Cullen? As in Edward Cullen? Must be a relative. Gently I knocked on her door and entered the sterile room. Sitting in the bed was an old woman, though still beautiful, looked like she was death. Her long snowy hair cascaded in thick waves down her narrow shoulders. Intense green eyes looked up from their gaze out of the window and into mine. She was most definitely a relative of Edward's.
"Hi Mrs. Cullen, I'm Dr. Bella Swan." I smiled as a I gently shook her frail little hand in mine.
"Ah yes, Dr. Swan. You seem to have stolen the heart of my dear grandson." She smiled sweetly.
"Oh I don't know about that. Edward and I went to med school together and completed our residency's at the same time. I'd say we're good friends."
It even sounded like a lie coming out of my mouth.
She laughed light heartedly and sighed. "Oh Dr. Swan, you are just as charming as he described you. You just wait and see, my love. Both of your heads will be out of your asses soon enough. Forgive my crudeness Dr. Swan, but at least now you have an idea on where Edward got that side of him from."
I smiled at her, completely at a loss for words and feeling very unsure of myself.
"Please Mrs. Cullen, call me Bella. I'd like to discuss what's going on and look at some other possible treatments. Are you up to it right now?"
"Alright Bella but only if you call me Charlotte. I'd gladly enjoy your company whether it be disguised as professional or otherwise." She winked.
"Charlotte, can you lean forward for me so I can listen to your lungs? Perfect. Now can you take slow, deep breaths?" I asked as I guided my stethoscope over her back.
"I'm sorry Bella, it hurts to take a deep breath. I don't think you're going to able to do to much." She croaked out in between a cough.
"No, you did fine. There's some rattling going on in there which means that we haven't cleared the Pneumonia. You've already been on the this antibiotic for ten days and it doesn't seem like its doing much good. I think I'm going to switch you over to something a bit stronger. Your oxygen is a little low so I'd like you to go on some. You can take it on and off as you need but try to keep it on for at thirty minute intervals." I explained as I connected the nasal hose to the oxygen meter on the wall and turned it on.
"You're a wonderful doctor, Bella. I'm glad I got to meet the girl my Edward will be with before I make my journey to meet my beloved Peter. Edward takes after him so much. You would've liked him." She sighed deeply as she relaxed back on to her pillow.
"Rest now Charlotte. I'm going to send respiratory in to get you a breathing treatment and I'm going to contact the pharmacy to get your anti-biotics changed. Edward or myself will be back later to check on you."
She gave me one last smile before she closed her eyes. I quietly walked over to the sink to wash my hands and left her room. What a sweet woman. Edward is so lucky to have her in his life. Her words of love made my heart swell and I thought it was going to burst all over the room. I stopped at the nurse's station to page the respiratory therapist and call down to the pharmacy. I hadn't even gotten one number dialed and I sensed him by me.
"I see you met my grandmother." He stated simply.
"I did. She's wonderful."
"I think so too. What did you think of her current treatment? It's not helping." He exhaled deeply as he ran his fingers through his hair.
I had never seen him look so vulnerable. It broke my heart.
"I don't think the Levaquin is strong enough. I'm changing it to Vanco and putting her on oxygen. I was getting ready to page the RT when you came."
"God Bella, that's a good idea. Why the fuck didn't I think of that?" He berated himself.
"She's your grandma. Your mind was on her getting better and how much you loved her. Don't worry. I'll consult with you with everything concerning her." I smiled reassuringly as I placed my hand on top of his.
It was a simple, sweet gesture that one friend would offer to another friend. But no matter how many times I told myself that, it just didn't feel right. It felt like I was trying on a pair of shoes that didn't fit but I wanted them anyway.
"Thanks Bella. That's why I asked to have you ordered as her attending. You're the best." He smiled again.
I blushed. I could feel it starting from the tips of my toes all the way to my cheeks.
"Listen, I was thinking for tonight's lesson you should come over to my place. It would probably make things....easier. Especially for what I have planned."
I thought my insides were going topsy turvy at his words. I swallowed loudly and nodded like an idiot.
"Great. You remember how to get there right? I know its been about a year since the company barbeque but its not too far away from your apartment."
"Yeah. I remember." I spoke slowly.
"And tonight Bella...we're hitting home base." He whispered in my ear before he walked away leaving me standing at the desk with the phone in my hand. I was gaping stupidly.
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I arrived at his townhouse after my shift was over at seven. I was going to stop by my house to change into something more...comfortable. Then I realized that would be pretty stupid considering we were going to be naked anyway. I raised my hand to knock on the door but before my fist even connected with the wood, it opened with a shirtless Edward standing in the doorway wearing nothing but a smile and a pair of low rise jeans. I drooled a little.
"Swan, on time." He greeted as he ushered me inside.
"Nice place Cullen. I remember the first time I came here I thought you were gay."
"Oh? And why was that?"
"Because its decorated nicely. I haven't met a straight man, let alone a single straight man that can decorate."
"Oh Isabella, you shouldn't have said things like that. It does not make me very happy." He whispered darkly in my ear as he stood behind me, his arms wrapped around my waist.
My breath hitched in my throat and I closed my eyes as he lay sweet kisses along my neck. He turned me around slowly before he crashed his lips to mine in a hungered frenzy. I let my body melt into his embrace and moan escaped between the two of us. Abruptly he pulled away, both of us panting for air.
"Listen closely, Isabella. My room is the second on the right. Go in there, undress and wait for me on my bed. I'll be in there in five."
I nodded and walked towards the hallway in a haze, an intense, lust induced haze. I reached his room and with a shaky hand I turned on the light. His room was painted a rich, cobalt blue with a big plush bed and a large balcony overlooking the ocean. It was beautiful. My hands fumbled with the buttons on my blouse until I was finally free of the material. I reached down and unbuttoned my pants before I pulled them over my hips and let them pool on the floor by my ankles. I kicked off my flats and the rest of the pants and sat on his bed in my bra and panties. I felt really exposed but really excited. I heard the footsteps coming down the hall and my breath hitched in my throat.
"I see you don't know how to follow instructions." Edward said arrogantly as he strode over to me.
I was just about to protest when he stopped in front of me and placed his finger across my lips to shush me.
"I didn't give you permission to speak, did I Isabella?" He asked in a knowing fashion.
"I wasn't aware I needed it." I gritted between my teeth.
A large smile appeared on his face and he shook his head from side to side.
"Tonight's lesson is how to be submissive to your lover. You cannot say or do anything unless I give you permission. Failure to comply will result in punishment."
"What the fuck?!" I shrieked.
"Bella, Bella, Bella. What did I just say? Stand up."
"No." I said, my voice faltering.
"I said....stand...up. Now. Unless you want to me get out the leather strap."
Leather strap? Having to hear no more I stood up off the bed.
"From this point on Bella, you will only address me as Sir. You are not to question me, talk back to me or breath unless I tell you to. I will give you a word to use incase you wish to stop. Once you say that word, everything ends and you will go home. Do you understand? You may speak."
"Yes, Sir." I spoke quietly.
This was not how I envisioned home base.
"Good. Your safe word is Jacob. Now turn around, palms flat on the bed."
I did as I was told. I had no idea what to expect or what was going to happen. I figured this was some sort of foreplay. It was kind of kinky and erotic. I was starting to get into this role playing thing until I felt a hand come across my ass. I yelped.
"Already disobeying Bella? I said you cannot speak. We'll have to add one more." He spoke darkly behind me.
"But it hurt! I wa-" I tried to explain.
Before I knew what was happening next, he grabbed me and brought my down on the bed with him, me across his knees. I was fucked. This spanking was going to happen whether I wanted it to or not. I closed my eyes and braced for the next impact but was pleasantly surprised when I felt his cool fingertips gently rub my ass. I relaxed into his embrace. Stupid move on my part. It wasn't ten seconds later that his hand didn't come down and spank me again in the exact same spot. I bit my lip to prevent me from crying out again. He spanked me a total of ten times. It felt like a hundred. My poor ass was stinging something horrible.
"You did well Bella. Now stand up." He finally spoke.
I did as I was told, yet again, and winced as I got up off his lap. He stood up too and walked towards his dresser across from his bed and rummaged around in one of the drawers. My eyes widened as I saw the leather strap.
"Turn around like you were with your legs spread wide and hold on to the bed post." He ordered.
I grabbed onto the wooden post and spread my legs shoulder width apart. I was terrified but also incredibly turned on. I was anxious to see what he had planned with that strap. His hands roughly grabbed my hips and pushed my ass out in the air. I could feel my panties starting to get wet. I started to relax until I felt a light stinging sensation between my legs. He hit me with the strap!
"How does that feel, Bella? You may answer."
"Painfully good, Sir." I moaned out as he smacked me again, hitting part of my clit.
"Good. Now Bella, since you didn't completely undress earlier, you can finish doing it now."
With hesitant hands, I unhooked my bra and let the straps slip down my shoulder and onto the floor at my feet. I wiggled out of my panties and they resided next to the rest of my discarded clothes. Edward's hands came up behind me, grabbing my breasts roughly. His fingers pulled and pinched my hard nipples. I arched my back at how wonderful it felt.
"Do you like that Bella?"
I moaned.
"Answer me or I'll spank you another fifteen times."
"Yes, Sir. I love it."
"Say it. Say you love it when I play with your tits like this."
I moaned again. This man had such a dirty mouth and it was so arousing.
"I love it when you play with my tits. Please..." I started to beg when the ache between my thighs became too much.
"Please what Bella?" He asked.
"Please. Touch me. I need you." I was almost on the verge of tears I wanted him so bad.
"Get on your knees, palms flat." He whispered roughly.
I scooted onto the bed and assumed my position. I could hear the sound of a zipper and rustling fabric. Soon I could feel what this was doing to him too.
"Fuck Bella, do you have any idea how fucking hot you are right now? Your gorgeous round ass right here teasing my cock. You should've been punished much worse then what I gave you. Such a little cock tease."
My head lolled from side to side as moans escaped on their own accord. I gasped when I felt his fingers push inside me, curling during their descent. Faster we went and I was so close to an orgasm I could taste it. Just when I thought I had hit it, he pulled out. I whimpered embarrassingly. I didn't have time to feel the emptiness for long.
"I'm going to fuck you from behind like this Bella. I want you to play with your clit while I fucking claim your body. You are not to cum until I tell you. You don't even want to know what I'll do if you cum before I say its ok." He threatened in a low voice.
"Please Edward...." I whimpered.
His one arm wrapped around my waist while the other grabbed my hair and pulled me closer to him. I screamed out some incoherencies when he slammed into me. I had never felt anything so wonderful in my life. I was filled to the hilt with him inside of me. My fingers were rubbing mercilessly against my clit as he continued his assault.
"God your fucking pussy is so tight. You feel so fucking good Bella." He managed to choke out in between thrusts.
I brought my hips back to meet his and there was so much friction I thought I'd die. It took everything in me not to cum. His hand that was in my hair found its way to my right nipple where he continued his assault.
"You want to cum, don't you?"
I couldn't do anything but let out a half whimper half moan. All words were lost to me. All vocabulary and anything that might've been important was gone. I was simply a bundle of nerves that were aflame from incredible pleasure.
"Say it."
"Fuck yes! I want to cum! Please!" I screamed in absolute agony.
His thrusts picked up speed and I heard him moaning. He was close.
"Now baby! Cum for me!"
As soon as the words left his mouth, I pinched down on my clit and screamed his name in pure ecstasy over and over again as my body convulsed around him.
"Fuck Bella! I'm cumming" He cried out as he shuddered and released.
We both collapsed on the bed in a sweaty heap, our breathing erratic. I thought my heart was going to beat out of my chest.
Edward moved off me and laid down next to me, his arms holding me in a tight embrace.
"Was it worth the wait?" He asked sounding winded.
"If I had to wait a hundred years to have sex like that again, it'd be worth it. That was...." I sighed.
"You did wonderful Bella. Not bad for your first time role playing as a submissive."
"Honestly that was nothing what I was expecting."
"Oh? You were thinking leather and handcuffs?"
"Yeah, I guess."
He chuckled lightly as he nuzzled his nose into my neck.
"Next time, love."
Next time? As in we'd be doing this again? I think I just came again.
I heard Edward's faint snoring and I had never felt to free, so invigorated, so....loved. I knew that it was all in my head but it felt nice to have the charade. Even if it was only for a little while. I tried to scoot out from under him but he wouldn't allow it. He pulled me even closer and whispered softly in my ear, "Please don't leave me."
I closed my eyes and smiled as I pulled the blanket up over us. I had just started to close my eyes and relax into his embrace when I heard him sigh so quietly, "Please don't go to him. I love you Bella."
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AN:
Explanation of :
DOB: 07/20/1920
Dx: Pneumonia Complications.
X-ray of thoracic cavity ordered by Dr. E. Cullen to r/o TB. Pt is tachycardic, complains of dyspnea, DM II. Pt arrived via ambulance to the ER due to high febrile state: 103.2 F. NKDA. Pt is using sliding scale of insulin aspart, rapid acting. Currently on Levofloxacin 500 mg I.V. QPM, APAP 500 mg Q6H, Solu-Medrol 125 mg I.M. Q8H. Dr. Cullen should be paged STAT in regards to questions or concerns for this pt.
DOB = Date of birth
Dx = Diagnoses
Thoracic Cavity = Chest
R/O = Rule Out
Dyspnea = Shortness of breath
DM II = Diabetes Mellitus 2 (basically type 2 diabetes)
Febrile State = In a state of fever
Insulin Aspart = Brand name could be Novolog. It's a fast acting injectable insulin.
Levofloxacin = Levaquin, a very strong antibiotic
QPM = Every evening
APAP = Acetaminophen (Tylenol)
Q6H= Every 6 hours
Q8H= Every 8 hours
STAT = Immediately
The shoe quote was from P.S. I Love You (Movie make me cry everytime!)
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