When I pulled away Edward still seemed a bit shocked. "What you thought that I didn't know about oral sex? Edward I may be a virgin but I'm not stupid." I told him with a smile.

Edward shook his head to clear his thoughts. "No Bella, I never said you were stupid I just…I didn't think you'd even consider anything like that." He told him with wide eyes.

"Why not?"

"I didn't even think of that as a possibility." He told me truthfully.

It hurt to think that the man I wanted to know intimately didn't even consider oral sex. Did he NOT want to? Did he think I couldn't please him?

"Why not?" I asked, the hurt evident on my voice.

"I just…I…" he stammered for a bit. "I just didn't think you'd be okay with that. I didn't want to mention it and make you uncomfortable." He said looking me in the eyes. I could tell he was telling me the truth.

"So if you weren't thinking about oral sex, then what were you thinking about?" I asked him after a while.

Edward looked down and for a moment I thought that if he could blush, he would. "Toys."

My eyes widened. That is most certainly not what I was expecting. "Toys?"

Edward nodded. "Is this making you uncomfortable?" He asked me holding my hand.

"No, just…I've never thought about toys. I've never even used them." I confessed, a blush creeping up my neck.

Edward seemed to find my embarrassment amusing as he cracked a small smile. "Well we could always try them."

I didn't respond. I only kept looking down at our hands. "I don't…I don't think I feel…"

Edward leaned over and kissed me softly on my lips. When he pulled away they felt like they were on fire. "It's okay if you don't feel comfortable with the idea. If you're not up for it we don't have to us them." He told me sincerely.

I nodded my head. "Right now I don't think I'm ready to use them, but I wont rule them out." I told him with a slight smile.

Edward chuckled softly and leaned over to kiss me again.

"So Emmett and Jasper were talking to you about toys?" I asked him curiously.

Edward looked down again. "Not really. They were kind of on the same track as you with the oral sex." He told me.

I laughed. "Emmett I could see that coming from but Jasper? I've got to say I'm kind of surprised."

"Apparently Alice isn't as innocent as she looks either." He said shaking his head.

I only laughed harder.

We spent the rest of the evening curled up on Edwards couch listening to a wide variety of music. His taste was all over the place. Though I considered my taste in music rather eclectic, Edwards was way more than mine. He had everything from Classical to Old School Hip Hop. Yes Mr. Edward Anthony Masen Cullen liked Old School Hip Hop. He tried to hide a Run DMC CD from me, but I saw it. That wasn't even the most shocking CD he owned either, nope not by a long shot. Apparently Edward liked musicals too. He had everything from Annie to West Side Story. I couldn't stop laughing at that, which of course made him mad but I just couldn't help it.

Edward watched me as I let my eyes rake over all the titles on his walls. Some of the titles were unfamiliar to me, others I knew and there were some that I'd never expected to see in his collection. Edward mentioned to me that he was right now on an EMO kick listening to The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus and Fall Out Boy. After a while Edward stood up and grabbed a CD from the wall, not even searching for it, just picking it out of the collection as though he'd memorized it's location. Putting the CD into the stereo he grabbed my hand and pulled me to sit next to him.

"Earlier when we were downstairs and you yelled at me, this song popped into my head." He told me with a smile as he pulled me too him, my back against his chest.

The room was filled with a nice soft tempo rhythm and blues sound which later picked up and I faintly remembered the tune. I looked up at Edward in shock. Who knew Edward liked Ne-Yo.

It's just the cutest thang when you get to fuss and cussin
Yelling and throwin thangs, I just want to eat you up
I don't mean no disrespect when I start staring, knowing that it makes you madder
I'm sorry but seeing you mad is so sexy yea

Could it be the lil' wrinkle over your nose?
When you make your angry face
That makes me wanna just take off all of your clothes mmm
And sex you all over the place yea
Could be the lil way you storm around

that makes me wanna tear you down
Baby i aint sure, but one thing that I do know

Is that

Everytime you scream at me
I want to kiss you
When you put your hands on me
I want to touch you down
When we get to arguing
Just got to kiss you Baby
I don't know why its like that
But your just so damn sexy
When your mad


Baby don't, think I don't, take you seriously
But I just cant help the fact, you attitude excites me
And you know ain't nothing better
than when we get
Mad together and have angry sex
I blow you out
Then we forget what we were mad about

Could it be the lil' wrinkle over your nose?
When you make your angry face
That makes me wanna just take off all of your clothes
And sex you all over the place
Could be the lil way you storm around?

that makes me wanna tear you down
Baby I ain't sure, but one thing that I do know Everytime you scream at me
I want to kiss you
When you put your hands on me
I want to touch you down
When we get to arguing
Just got to kiss you Baby
I don't know why its like that
But your just so damn sexy

And


Everytime you scream at me
I want to kiss you
When you put your hands on me
I want to touch you down
When we get to arguing
Just got to kiss you Baby
I don't know why its like that
But your just so damn sexy
When your mad

When the song ended I just sat there. Edward leaned down and whispered into my ear, his cool breath tickling me. "You are so sexy when you're mad, even when you're yelling at me. It's so hard to control myself."

I shivered in response. "Do you really mean that?" I asked him without looking up at him.

Edward nipped at my earlobe gently. "Anything you do is sexy."

I smiled a little at that. No one had ever called me sexy before. "Well you're not that bad yourself." I said with a slight giggle in my voice.

Edward gently took my face in his hand and moved my lips so that his cool ones could capture them into a kiss. "I love you so much." He whispered to me softly after pulling away.

"I love you." I whispered back, knowing he'd hear me. I disentangled myself from his arms and stood up moving to the shelves on the wall. I knew I'd seen the CD before, just didn't know where it was.

"What are you looking for?" He asked me.

"Early this millennia, Alicia Keys. I know you have it here somewhere, I just can't remember where I saw it." I huffed, placing my hands on my hips as I stared at the wall.

I felt Edward behind me within a second. "Here you go." He said handing me the CD. "What do you want that for? I didn't think you liked Alicia Keys."

"I told you I like a lot of different music. Now sit while I play a song that reminds me of how I feel for you." I told him as I carefully popped the CD into the disc player, trying my hardest not to break anything. Once the CD was in and I put the right song on I took a seat next to Edward.

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Some people search for a fountain
Promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them

And in a world on a silver platter
And wondering what it means
No one to share, no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

The song was over but I was too scared to look up at him and see his reaction. I wasn't sure how he'd take it. After a few moments of silence I couldn't take it anymore and turned my head to look up at him. His beautiful topaz eyes stared down at me in wonder and it confused me. "Edward?" My voice finally broke the silence.

A huge smile then broke out across his handsome face and my eyes widened in surprise.

Leaning down he captured my lips again in a kiss. This one filled with more passion than the last. I guess it was safe to say that he liked the song I chose.
When he pulled away and I he reminded me to breath I smiled. "So you like the song?"

Edwards smile was blinding. "I loved it." Then his brow seemed to furrow and his smile faded.

"What's wrong?" I asked reaching up to touch his statuesque features with my warm hand.

"I just…it scared me that you feel so…strongly about me, about us. I just…I don't know how to feel about that." He told me softly.

I quickly dropped my hand. "I'm sorry." I mumbled pulling away from him. I tried to stand up and get off the couch but Edwards strong grip kept me in place.

"Where are you going?" He asked.
"To find something else to put on." I told him as I struggled to pull out of his grasp.

"Bella come on, I'm sorry. I just…that song, it scared me, cause that's a song I'd choose to describe how I felt about you. It was just…shocking, to see that you really do feel the same." He told me holding me to him but moving me so that he was now gazing into my eyes. I could see the love in his eyes but it still bothered me, it seemed as though he still didn't believe I really did love him.

"Edward why does it shock you that I love you? That my feelings are true? You would think that after everything that's happened in the past year, it'd be clear to you how much I loved you." It hurt that after all this time he still doubted my feelings for him.

"I'm sorry Bella. I don't doubt that you love me. I know you do. I see it in your eyes. I know you do. I just…it's still so shocking to me that someone so angelic, so beautiful, could love me…a monster." He told me.

I sighed, I really hated when he spoke of himself like that. As though he was just some horrible monster. "Edward if you continue to talk about yourself like that I'm going to leave."

"Sorry." He mumbled, not looking at me. "Don't leave me." He said pulling me tighter to him, finally looking at me with sad eyes.

"Never."