Author's Note
Sorry it has taken me forever to come back to this story. My computer has a nasty virus that stole the internet from me. So I will only be able to submit when I get to library which sucks but anyway I hope you enjoy !
As always thanks to ChemicalJane for making the most awesome story!
Chapter 4
The ride home was long. Every now and then, I would glance in the back seat to check on the kid. She had cried herself to sleep, it was sad to see such an innocent, beautiful albeit weird thing in so much pain. My mind was working over time trying all sorts of dilemmas that could have caused the girl's trauma . . . my mind kept circling around one but that logically made the most sense but in my eyes, seemed the most unlikely. By the time I pulled up to my apartment my head was pounding, the stress of everything must have been getting to me. I sighed and looked over to my passengers' seat being occupied by Cullen.
"Come on let's get her inside." I said trying not to focus in on the anger in his face. He lifted her gently into his arms and opened my door before I could even cut the engine. Once inside I showed him to the guest room and he laid Ness down, she repositioned herself cradling the pillow to her head and sighed content. The image was warming watching him care for his daughter it was most definitely a different side of him that I had never experienced. Edward stared at his only daughter for a moment his expression went from distraught to blatant rage instantly, and then exited the room purposefully. He was quickly heading for the front door, he had no words for me, his focus was on the damage he was going to do, and for his sake, I couldn't allow him to do it.
"Edward!" I slammed my body in the front door and grabbed his face making him focus. "Listen to me; I know what you are feeling . . . you can't go back right now you will hurt somebody!" I pleaded with him.
"How in the hell do you figure you know how I feel! Leah you don't have any kids, no one that you would put your own happiness aside for, and for Bella to have such a disregard for Ness after fighting so hard to give birth to her, I just don't understand!" He was still angry but at least his facial features were starting to calm, which was good. I was a little pissed that he reminded me of the lack of a life that I had wanted so badly before, but since today had been warped I let it slide.
"I just think you need to calm yourself some before going back to Forks! Get perspective on what you are going to do and say." He inhaled deeply, I was still cradling his face with my hands I felt as his jaw loosened. I rubbed the sides of his face with my thumbs enjoying the smooth cool feel of his skin, I was slightly bummed when he walked to the couch and sat there.
"I don't think I can not think about what has just taken place." He shook his head in disbelief of the whole situation.
"Try to make your mind blank and think of nothing at all." He laughed so loudly it made my ears hurt. "I know that you have a million thoughts in your head and most of them aren't even yours but . . ." I sat down beside him and motioned for him to put his head in my lap, "if you just close your eyes and focus on the darkness." I said covering his eyes with my hands, again giving myself the opportunity to enjoy caressing his skin. He closed his eyes and I began to gently trace the contours of his face. We had never been like this with each other, the actions almost imitated that of a loving couple. Now that I think of it my mother used to hold my father's head after a rough day that's why the action felt so familiar.
However I wasn't doing this because of any romantic ties to Cullen I just felt like I had to save him from making a horrible mistake that he wouldn't be able to live with and as much as I didn't want to admit it I hated seeing Cullen hurt. I wanted to see him as strong, unbreakable, untouchable and to know that Bella was the cause of all of this, moreover knowing that Bella had the ability to crumble his world made my skin boil. I shook my head now I was getting pissed. I couldn't afford the go off the handle not until he left. As I touched his face and tried to soothe him I felt small pings of dread travel through my body, I realized that I didn't want him to leave . . .ever. As I stared at him I wondered what that meant? "This isn't the time to be thinking about this shit."
"Cullen," I shook as if he was asleep, I needed him to move away from me, he was too close and I needed to keep my perspective, but when I nudged him he was unresponsive. "Cullen." I said with more force nudging him harder. "Edward!" I was starting worry I didn't know how to deal with an unresponsive or unconscious vampire, from all I knew about them I didn't think they were supposed to be able to lose consciousness. I stupidly checked his heart and his wrist for a pulse and then laughed at the action. He then looked at me as if I had lost my mind. "Why the hell didn't you answer me?" I got up allowing he head to now drop abruptly to the couch.
"I . . .I just had the weirdest sensation . . . it was like I was dreaming which should be impossible being that I can't sleep, but just then I honestly felt like I was asleep or in some kind of false reality." I just frowned at him I thought he was making up some kind of weird excuse to make me forgive him for worrying me.
"You were worried?" He smirked, "About what? About me?" He said with way too much amusement coloring his face.
"I was scared that you had become so pissed off that you went into some kinda twisted psychotic spell." I said going into the kitchen area. "Last thing I need is to deal with is a psycho vamp out for blood trying to kill me."
"Trying . . . if you are becoming human . . . I could kill you easily if I wanted to." He countered. The conversation was going in a direction that I didn't like for the obvious reasons. The thought Edward placed in my head caused me to cringe the whole blood sucking part of him was something I wished I could forget, it most definitely not part of his charm. "Leah, I would never kill you, nor would I ever want to. You know that?"
"Never say never Cullen," I murmured, "I mean look at your situation now, would you have ever thought that you would feel the way you feel now about Bella?" Saying her name put a damper on the mood that had begun to feel, which was good I needed to stay in close grip with reality right now.
"No but like I have said to you a million times, the Bella that exists now is not the one I married." He stated bluntly.
"I was never a fan of the one you married . . . I'm just saying." I smirked and he did the same, then his face became mangled in a state of confusion.
"Leah?" His eyes examined my body; I knew that whatever he said was going to be hella weird.
"Yeah," I now joined him in the living room with chips and a soda in tow.
"Are you not going to sleep tonight?" He picked up the soda and opened it for me, it was completely unnecessary but a completely Edward thing to do.
"Yeah later, what is my conversation boring you now Cullen?" I smacked him upside the head with a pillow. It was amusing to me that he would allow me to do these silly little things in reality he knew that I was gonna hit him and his reflex are so strong even if he didn't know he should been able to stop me I figured that it was because he wanted the abuse I delivered.
"No that's not it, I just thought the intent of the night was to relax me . . . I think I would feel much more relaxed if you were more relaxed." He smiled seductively, ah sex as with every conversation that Cullen and I have it comes right down to his dick and my cookie.
"Well it seems like you are feeling much better, since you now have a clear enough mind to be an annoying ass seems like it's time for you to go home." I grabbed his arm and began to pull him from the couch. He flinched his arm only slightly causing me to fall into his lap.
"Leah . . ." he placed his fingers at my chin forcing me to stare into his eyes, "I wasn't trying to annoy you. I just wanted to make you comfortable, today had to be very stressful for you as well." He ran his fingers from my chin, to my neck, and finally resting them on my collarbone. "I figured if you changed clothes and I gave you a quick massage then we would be even, considering all you did for me today it is the very least I can do."
"Yeah well lucky for you Cullen, I love massages." I grumbled as I walked off to change. I knew that I shouldn't be getting ready to let Edward touch me but of course I wanted him to, it was all that I had been thinking about since I got back to Washington and probably before that if I was truly honest with myself. "This can be platonic, right?" I asked myself as I looked in the mirror examining the way I looked in the oversized t-shirt and boxer shorts. "Yummy!" I laughed and got ready to join Edward in the living room. As soon as I opened the bedroom door, he was right outside. He forced his way inside my bedroom and inhaled deeply I knew exactly what he was doing.
"I told you that it had been awhile since I taken in your essence . . . you still smell mouth watering." He approached me grabbing my waist. "Now for your massage," he said pulling me to the bed, I was soon learning the massage was code for something else.
"I want to make one thing clear this is just a shoulder massage anything below the acceptable areas is grounds for being kicked out on your ass. Got it?" I said sat on the corner of the bed.
"Of course," He said as he got on the bed positioning himself behind me so that he would have easy access to my shoulders, "I will do whatever you wish." As soon as he placed his hands on my shoulders I flinched involuntarily, it was like my body was trying to jump for joy being connected with him again. He began to slowly move his thumbs along my shoulder blades gradually pressing deeper until his touch felt like heaven. "Does your head still hurt?" He breathed in my ear.
"A little." I nodded, I closed my eyes I was completely blissed out on the experience. He removed my hair from it's ponytail and ran his fingers through my hair, and then began to message my temples. "God, Cullen I never knew you were so good at this." It was almost orgasmic it felt so good.
"I try." He laughed, "since I am so good you should give me permission to go a little lower along your back." As he spoke, the cool gentle tickle of his breath against my ear made me tingle all over.
"Sure why not," I said trying to be funny but my breath caught in mid-sentence. With my permission, he immediately began rubbing my back, using his fingertips to apply pressure to the tense spots along my spine, the sensation was so good it made my toes wiggle. "Oh Edward . . . that feels . . . so good." I arched my back into a stretch, leaning back allowed my head to fall back on his shoulder. "Sorry." I mumbled annoyed by my small loss of control.
"Don't be." With that, he connected his lips to mine, never once allowing his hands to stop moving. Once his lips hit mine by body went erratic it wanted the immediate satisfaction of fucking, but Edward was moving slowly creating a moment that was almost romantic. My heart felt like to was going to beat out of my chest; it was so loud the sound was hammering in my ears. His hands began to caress my upper thighs causing the throbbing between my legs to become unbearable. He crept his hands even further up my thighs until he finally reached his objective, he placed his hand into my boxer shorts, parting my center using his fingers to creating a slow even stroking motions, while his thumb teased at my clit. His hand was so cold and so perfect, a million times better what I remembered. He was right the pleasure he gave was a hundred times better than what I had been experiencing, I didn't even pretend to not be enjoying his touch how could I with my body bucking and wiggling erratically. His other hand had found it's home under my shirt wrapped around my left breast clamping my nipple possessively. "Leah I want to make love to you now." He said as he broke our kiss, all I could do to respond was nod, I was too far gone to say no. As soon as he lay me back on the bed and went to remove my top we both here the bedsprings in the next room shift. Ness, she was the reason he was here, we should not be doing this, not with her here, and especially not today after she had experienced so much.
"Unfortunately, I agree with you." He sighed and stared at my body conflicted, "I don't want to stop, but this isn't the right time." He took his fingers that were in my shorts, placed them in his mouth, and grinned at me. "Waste not, want not," I rolled my eyes at him and he kissed me on my forehead. "I should go back home and see if I can't figure out what's going on."
After our latest stupid act together, Edward and I decided that it would be best that Rose be the one to deliver Ness back and forth for a while until she got over what happened with Bella. All of us were still working on figuring out what really happened, I hadn't spoken with Edward since he came over that night, everything I knew about him was from Rose's mouth. For a while, the situation seemed perfect, the kid was absolutely no trouble and pretty much took care of herself. Everything would have been fine if Rose didn't ask the question that she really did deserve the answer to.
"So why can't Edward come get his own daughter again?" Rose said as we filtered through the mall.
"Because I . . . we almost had an accident." I frowned at the bathing suit on the rack trying to figure out how the damned thing worked. Normally it wouldn't have mattered I preferred swimming naked, but since the Cullen's wanted to have this swimming party to try coax Ness into coming home I guess I needed one. I kept trying to tell them it was too soon, every time the girl seemed comfortable I would try to ask her about the Bella thing she would just start to cry and run away.
"What kind of accident?" Rose said picking up a couple of red bathing suits, "did you trip fall and land on his dick again? Who knew you were so clumsy?" Rose's bell like laughter echoed through the store and a couple of the other customers stared at us.
"Shut up Rose!" I chided, "I don't find this shit with Edward funny, it's fucking annoying and embarrassing is what it is. . . it was never like this before." I grumbled still fumbling with the stupid black swimsuit.
"No the whole situation is idiotic; you want this to be over? Then you should just decide to court the man you're in love with!" I smirked at her statement who really says court anymore. Rose huffed then repositioned the bathing suit in my hand so the design made sense.
"No." Was all I could manage to say. I didn't feel like having this conversation anymore I was so annoyed that my hands began to shake. I quickly hid this development from Rose I didn't want her to think she had found some key to making me phase, reality was I was just shaking because I was pissed no magical or supernatural elements included.
After a few moments of necessary silence on my part, Rose sprung into her next brilliant idea. "So you are never going to be with Edward . . . ever?" She questioned in disbelief.
"Yep that's my brilliant plan." I said annoyed that this was how my life was turning out that I have absolutely nothing or no one but myself, not that I had ever planned to have Edward it was never really an option.
"Well then I should set you up, I know a few humans that would be suitable for you." She reflected.
"Surre . . ." I laughed because I half thought she was joking.
"I'm serious and you should be too, unless you plan on being alone forever?" Until she said that I hadn't realized that besides Sam, I hadn't thought about sharing my life with anyone. Edward was something that I craved but I never allowed myself to see him in the role of husband. Just then, the thought of Edward caring for me and me caring for him ran through my head and caused my chest to tighten, it was a really nice picture, but it was only a picture.
"I said sure Rose. I'm pretty sure you are going to do whatever you want to do anyway." I said taking the bathing suit to the cashier.
"You're right about that." Rose murmured.
The beach was a bad idea that I had been dragged into. The Push was bare at his time of year and the sad cloudy weather was the perfect time for a leechy family reunion. I sat on the sand and I watched Emmett toss Ness into the air. Rose sat beside me stretched out in her red bikini as if she were tanning. Then I saw them enter my sight, Bella and Edward. He held her hand as they walked onto the beach. He was a lying ass, I should have known that he would fall back into her web.
"Now that's a new development." Rose said looking in the direction of my stare and the back to my face. "There's probably a logical explanation." Sympathy covered her face, I must've look more pathetic than I felt. I actually felt relieved that I was right, that falling for Cullen would have been the stupidest decision of my life. He glanced up at me briefly wearing a expression I couldn't read.
"Hey Ness!" His daughter stopped play fighting with Emmett to take in the sight of her mother and father together. She seemed stunned and confused, the kid ran to me and then wrapped herself in my arms, she immediately began showing me visions, of Bella and Edward's unhappiness, how could he be that stupid . . .she doesn't make him happy, she thought.
"Ness love, what's wrong?" Edward reached his hands out to her.
I'm not talking to him while he is with her, tell them, she thought as she squeezed me tighter.
"I told you she's not ready for a reunion like this yet. She's not going to talk to you." I said bluntly but I almost felt sorry them. They really thought that this was going to work but I had warned them.
"I won't live in hell, just because you are content to." She looked at her father with such cold eyes, that if Edward had a beating heart it would have shattered into a million pieces. "I can still live with you right?" She looked at me searching for my approval. I looked at Edward making sure that he was still okay with the living okay with her with me, he nodded sadly.
"Yeah if that's what you wanna do, but it seems your parents really miss you." I said trying to get her to have some concern for her parents.
"I don't care about her," she glared at her mother, "and he knows that what I'm doing is right." She got up and walked away from all of us leaving me right in the middle of hell. Bella just looked at Edward and extended her hand, he took it, and she made sure to deliver a smug glance my way as they walked off.
"Hey, hey come back here for a second!" Rose yelled to them, I knew exactly what she was going to talk to them about, and I did not want to be present. When they started to walk back to Rose, I was half way to the salty beach water. The last words I heard before diving into the water was Rose asking them what the hell was going on.
I let the water take me over huge waves circled around me thrashing me about, which was something I expected to be painful but instead the sensation just left me slightly winded. I took a second to come up for air, as I inhaled I experienced my anger from seeing Edward with his wife. I never felt like this before, when we were actually fucking I was never this possessive, I personally hated this new emotion that I had now attached to Cullen, it made me feel needy and I wasn't the one that needed him, he was supposed to need me.
Part of me wondered what caused the change, what made him fall back in love with Bella. Thunder clapped, causing my attention to divert to the sky. "Full moon" I floated on my back momentarily staring at the sky, storms didn't bother me I found peace in them, being in the water during them however isn't the smartest thing I've ever done, but I was mystified and how the clouds darkened and how the night took on a menacing look. It was scary yet beautiful in a way it was almost as if I was hypnotized by it. "Leah!" I heard Ness and Rose in the distance, they were calling me, and I was ignoring them. I knew my way back home I didn't need any of their assistance. "Leah get out of the water!" Rose yelled louder, as much as I liked her she was starting to piss me off. I dove deeper into the water not wanting to be bothered.
I swam deeper and deeper disregarding my need for oxygen it was like I was running from something, running from him and the feelings that I couldn't get rid off. Maybe I should just stay in the water and left myself drown everyone's lives would be better for it. I wouldn't be the bitch that caused problems for everyone anymore I would just be Leah the stupid bitch that killed herself. I smirked at the thought I wouldn't give them the satisfaction. My father used to tell me that we are all given life for a reason, that was why I was always searching for my purpose, my purpose couldn't possibly be for me to kill myself, what would be the point in that? As soon as I decided to swim back to the surface I feel two cold arms around my waist pulling me up forcefully.
Edward carried me back onto the beach firemen's style and plopped me on the ground. "We told you to come in! You could have killed yourself!" He chided me as if I were his child.
"Get out of my face Cullen, I'm no concern of yours." I moved past him grabbing my shorts and putting them on. Everyone else had exited the area, he grabbed my arm, and I pushed him back. "Don't touch me ever again!" I growled.
"Leah, I think you are misunderstanding the situation." He tried to soothe me. "Bella and I are . . ."
"No you hear me Cullen! I don't give a flying flipping fuck about Bella or you!" I said and my stupid female emotions allowed a tear to actually escape and flow down my cheek, but I wasn't sad I was pissed that he was still gonna try and play me after what I had just witnessed, but it didn't matter because I didn't intend to listen.
"We are trying to get our daughter back; my appearance with her was only for Ness' sake. Bella believes that the reason our daughter is so temperamental is that she believes that Bella doesn't love me anymore and that the child doesn't want to live a lie. By providing her with a believable united parental unit maybe she will learn to trust Bella again." He seemed like he believed what he was saying, unfortunately I was going to have to tell him that he was full of shit. "I am being serious Leah!"
"Well then Bella is wrong," I stated bluntly, "if that were true your daughter should be mad at you too right? Ness should be wondering what you did to make her mommy stop loving you but she doesn't, she doesn't have a problem with you at all. It is something that Bella did dumb ass!" I rolled my eyes at him.
"What is then?" He countered, he seemed exasperated as he threw his hands in the air.
"I don't know I'm not a mind reader!" I arched my eyebrow at him, "you figure it out." I pulled my keys out of my pocket indicated that I was more than ready to get the hell away from him.
"Leah wait one more thing," he said grabbing my arm again, "are you really allowing Rosalie to match with a suitor?" He tilted his head inquisitively. The way he worded things sometimes still tripped me out.
"Yeah she said she didn't want me to die alone and I can appreciate her concern." I laughed darkly.
"I don't know how I feel about that." He frowned as he thought of what he was going to say next.
"Don't worry I can tell you what you are supposed to feel, nothing, which is exactly what I feel for you anyway so it's fine." I walked past him ending our conversation.
"I can't allow this, my selfish nature will not allow for you to be with someone else." He said apologetically.
"There's nothing you can do to stop it." I said without looking back at him. He was exactly where he needed to be, behind me, and hopefully I would never look back.
The kid and me made it back home she sat at my bar style counter as I rummaged through the fridge. I sat a pint of rocky road in front of her and a cold beer in front of myself and we both sighed.
"Today has been long and pointless," Ness said as she attacked the carton with her spoon. I couldn't agree with her more all today did was bring about pain. The annoying thing is the more pain or anger I felt, the drearier and rainy the day became. I picked at the top of my beer bottle not really knowing what to say to her statement.
"You can't blame them for trying kid." I took a drink and she rolled her eyes.
"She is lying to him and he is too blinded by her to see it. I don't know how I ended up with a mother that was so cold and selfish." I laughed because those were characteristics that were usually used to describe me.
"Your father would say that your mother gave up a lot to be able to give birth to you . . . and I agree it was a very selfless act." Not that I was the biggest fan of Bella I just wanted to kid to keep things in perspective, Bella did give her life so that Ness could exist.
"She didn't do that for me, she did it because she wanted to have my father's child. Now that I am here she doesn't care about my feelings all she cares about are her selfish needs." The kid's eyes started to tear.
"I'm sure your mom cares about you." I said sounding uncharacteristically sympathetic.
"And I'm sure she doesn't," the girl moved to the couch and cut on the TV. I joined her I sat as she angrily flipped through the channels. The girl was over dramatic and super sensitive just like her dad. I half hearted patted her on her leg, trying to calm her. "Stop you don't mean it." She frowned angrily as snatched her leg away from my hand.
"I don't want you to be mad." I said blandly, "It's a waste of time, who knows years from now none of this will matter." The statement reminded me of a previous conversation I had had with Edward.
"I will never forgive her so my emotions are relevant." Her bluntness always surprised me. I always thought Ness would be bubbly but was actually a very real chick, surprisingly deep for her age. After a while, she maneuvered and rested her head on my chest and fell asleep, as she slept her hands rested on my arm and her dreams infiltrated my mind. Her thoughts and visions sped through my mind expeditiously. The first was of Edward and me two years ago, she watched as we made our way to his cabin, and she had heard our pants a moans as we had sex for the first time. She didn't seem mad, she actually remembered the thought as when daddy became happy again.
She showed another memory of when I was gone, Edward was in my mother's house with Seth talking causally, he then walked over to the wall removing my picture from the hanger. "How's Leah?" Edward asked never turning to Seth but his tone had change.
"You really shouldn't be asking about her . . .dude . . . I read her letter to you. I really shouldn't even like you considering the fact that you used her, even if she allowed you to . . . it was still wrong." Seth's voice was monotone and his face somber it was the closest I'd seen Seth to expressing an actual angry emotion in a long time, part of me was actually warmed by his protectiveness where I was concerned.
"I am aware of the wrongs I've done Seth. Trust me I am more than sorry my immature and selfish needs caused Leah to have to leave. I've tried but I can't bring myself to feel negatively about our time spent together."
"That's fine and good," Seth got up and took the picture away from Edward hanging it back on the wall. "My question is why? I thought you loved Bella?"
"I did," Edward sighed deeply, "I did, I really loved Bella, she was the first woman that I saw myself with, and I must have thought that I was some exception to the rule believe that I would never find another woman attractive. I must've thought that Bella was a exception to rule as well, I thought she wouldn't change I thought that her personality and warmth would be able to transcend through the process of being undead and for a while it seemed like maybe I was right, but not now she is just cold to me. The great thing about your sister is that I never know what to expect . . . even though I can read her mind I never know what she is really going to think about what I am going to say. She is witty, clever, feisty, stubborn, and . . . I love her."
"Loves her," Ness murmured and repositioned in her sleep, "not fair . . . bitch." The statement surprised me I didn't think the kid used profanity. I grabbed her hand and watched her thought curious what she was dreaming about. Seeing it though her eyes it was like I was hiding behind a corner as I heard Jacob's voice.
"You shouldn't do this," I heard as Bella ripped his shirt off and slammed him against the wall, "you're married you know, and I don't want . . ."
"Shut up Jake . . . you know the deal . . . you give me what I want and I allow you to spend time with my daughter." As she spoke rubbed herself against Jacob and he cringed as if he was disgusted, "If you don't cater to my needs, I won't cater to yours." She then dropped to her knees and unzipped his pants.
I gasped in shock by what I'd seen, I was then immediately ripped from the sight. The girl now stared at me alarmed, "Leah! I didn't mean for you to see that. I fell asleep, promise me you won't tell anyone!" Her face now balled up in agony.
"At least now I understand why you are so angry!" I tried to speak calmly but it didn't work. "I can't believe that she would do that to her own daughter, I knew that there was something screwed up about her . . . and don't even get me started on Jacob."
"I don't even want think about him right now I'm just trying to process everything. I just want to get past this moment." Her eyes began to fill with tears. "Seriously, you won't tell anybody right?" I shook my head to appease the girl but in reality, I couldn't promise her anything.
When Ness fell asleep again I placed her in my car and headed back down to Forks. So many things were running through my mind as I drove. The first thing I thought about was how badly I wanted to kill Bella because just kicking her ass would do my emotions justice. Second, I wanted to kick Jacob's ass for being such a dumb dick. Why didn't he just phase and rip Bella's head off (that would have ended all of our problems). Third, and this was the loudest thought blaring in my head was that I had to tell Edward, he had to know what Bella-the-perfect had done. The emotion that I was feeling wasn't based on spitefulness or vengeance, but hope. I hoped that this information would be enough for Edward to leave Bella, not based on any feelings he had for me but because Bella was warped in the head and didn't deserve him.
I parked my car outside the Cullen's residence and sighed as I cut the engine. My hands still gripped the wheel as I prepared what I was going to say in my mind all the while Edward's face wrapped around my brain. "Daddy," the young girl murmured from the back seat. I adjusted my rear view mirror so that I could get a full view of her sleeping face. I felt like shit, I was sitting here wishing for the destruction of her family while she slept in my backseat. The reality was that for some reason unknown to me this kid had decided to trust me, and for some odd reason I really didn't want to let her down.
"I know how to make this better for you Ness," I said to the sleeping child, "You're not going to like it, both of you are not gonna like it."
Rose was at the door as soon as I exited the car. "Hey." She smiled she lifted Ness from the backseat and walked with me inside. "Why do you look sad like your best friend died. I smirked as I proceeded to walk into the house, at this point in time Rose was the closest thing I had the resembled a best friend and she was pretty cold and dead as far as I was concerned.
We entered the living room and I scanned the area Esme, Carlisle, and Bella were sitting peacefully still like statues conversing so quietly that I could barely hear them.
"Hello Leah?" Esme said obviously questioning my presence in her home. I inhaled deeply Edward's scent was in the area and it was strong, he had to be upstairs. I looked back at the vampire woman that greeted me.
"Hey . . . where's Edward? I need to talk to him." I said heading toward the stairs I needed to talk to him before I talked myself out of the decision I had made.
"Like hell! I'm not letting anywhere near my husband!" Bella hissed as she placed herself in front of me blocking my path to the stairs.
"Look this is about YOUR daughter will you just move!" I growled and thunder rumbled in the sky, I couldn't believe that it was about to storm again. I made a weak attempt to side step her that she easily blocked.
"Well then you should address me with what is going on with Renesme. You really have no reason to even look at my husband." There she goes with that my husband shit again I was going to punch her in her smug little face so help me God she was plucking my last nerve . . . all I need was one hit and I would be satisfied. The acidic burn I felt in the woods began to creep up my spine as I stared at this pathetic woman.
"Honestly, I don't think you want me to do that." I growled once more and she giggled and held her stomach that was now filled with laughter.
"You are all bark and no bite . . . I know Leah that you are nothing and have nothing, you are absolutely no threat to me." She pushed me and I stumbled back into the couch. The acidic burn I was feeling earlier now caused me body to feel like to was on fire as rage filled me.
"Is that so . . ." she allowed me to get in her face I stood there for a moment and this little voice in my head said grabbed her by the neck, so I did and I lifted her into the air with no strain at all, "Don't ever underestimate me or threaten me again or I will end your life." I spoke in as deep and as cold a voice I could muster I watched as her eyes widened with shock and fear, I won't pretend like the sight did give me a small once of satisfaction but I quickly realized that scaring Bella was not what I came all the way to Forks to do. "Now listen to me, I just need to talk to him . . . that's all I'm gonna do." I dropped her to the ground and stepped over her finally making my way upstairs.
I found him at his piano with several pieces of balled up works on the floor, his hair was disheveled and his face was stressed.
"Hey . . ." I said as I walked into his space, part of me was concerned about his disposition but my visit wouldn't allow for the warmer part of me to be evident. He looked at me and his eyes softened I believed I even saw a small glimmer of happiness in them, before they dropped by to the piano keys in front of him. I sat beside him on the piano bench and sighed.
"God, I don't know where to start." I frowned I was still processing all the things I needed to tell him.
"Don't stress yourself about it," he placed his hands on the keys and began to play a beautiful albeit sad melody. "I know what you are hear to say and the decision you've made . . . you don't have to say anything . . . you don't even have to be here, matter of fact you should leave." He twisted his face in an expression that if he were a normal person tears would have ran down his face.
"Edward . . ." I groaned and stopped his hand on the keys, "I don't want you to be unhappy. I just think that Ness' happiness will bring about your own happiness. If you disregard her feelings you will not be able to live with yourself. That's why . . ."
"You want me to stay with Bella." He scoffed and looked me in my eyes. He looked hurt almost devastated, I couldn't really understand why Edward and I had never made any kind of plans to be together, we were never supposed to be long term, so saying goodbye shouldn't hurt, it should be painless and easy.
"If Bella has you and she feels you fully love her, then she can stop what she is doing and she won't ruin Ness' life."
"There's bound to be another way to resolve this." Edward spoke as though he was whispering to the piano keys. I sighed and rubbed my chest all of a sudden I felt like I was experiencing a horrible case of heartburn.
"There probably is another alternative, but this is the easiest way to ensure everyone in your family's happiness. You should be happy about this deal I'm not normally this nice, trust me you are getting off easy." I laughed trying to make light of the situation but he just sat there frozen staring at his keys. I got up to leave and then paused I didn't want to leave him this way. "Edward . . .," he stood up and wrapped his arms around me. He must have realized that I fully and seriously intended for this to be our final goodbye that their was never NEVER going to be an us, and that I would never speak about the past again. He pressed himself against me so tightly that I could barely breathe. I wanted us to fully enjoy this moment so that I may never forget his touch and so that he would never forget mine. "I'm sorry Cullen." I whispered into his chest.
"Me too."
The End . . . no I'm just playing lol. There's plenty more to this story I haven't even addressed the reason why Leah can't phase yet. The question is will Leah and Edward ever stop with the nonsense and just hop into bed? Only time will tell! As always read and review!
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