Chapter 4 - 5 months later - Bella POV

Here I sit, 5 months later, on a swing in Phoenix Arizona. Yes I went back to my home town after I escaped Forks.

It's not like I had any other option. Phoenix was the only place I can turn to. Even though this place still held very painful memories.

Today I turn 5 months and Edward still doesn't know. He doesn't know where I am, If I'm ok or if Im alive. But that's how I want it.

Maybe if he thinks Im dead he'll get over me faster.

I know some of you may think that's cruel and selfish. But in reality it isn't. I'm doing all this to make him happy.

Last night I spoke with Charlie about him and he told me Edward is still looking for meI don't know how many times I have to tell Charlie to let Edward know I do not wish to be found. Last night would make the tenth time that I've told Charlie that.

But according to Charlie, Edward isn't even on the right trail. He told me Edward was heading to New York. Something about having a tip that I was living in a cheap apartment in the Bronx.

But that doesn't matter, what matters is that it's a beautiful February day and I'm sitting here in the park trying to enjoy my new life.

With a sigh I look around the park and watch all the couples and children. It was then that I remembered today is Valentine's Day.

It seemed as though I was the only loner in the park but when I looked towards the benches I noticed a man with a guitar sitting alone on the bench.

So I watched him with interest and smiled when he began playing a beautiful melody with it.

Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me
It could be for anything
I didnt ask for money
Or a mansion in malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe Id be satisfied
But then againI know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

First thing Id do, is pray for time to crawl
Then Id unplug the telephone
And keep the tv off
Id hold you every second
Say a million I love you's
That's what Id do, with one more day with you

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe Id be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe Id be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day
Leave me wishing still, for one more day
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

I watched as everyone clapped for the mystery man and seen as some wiped tears away. I was one of them, wiping away the tears that had fallen from my eyes.

Oh how I wished I could have just one more day. To just sit in his arms and watch movies or listen to music. To feel his kisses on my cheeks and face. To look into his eyes and see all the love he had for me.

But I couldn't and I would never be able to again. Because at this very moment he was in Forks with his girlfriend Jessica and they are going to live happily ever after while I watch from the sidelines with my baby, wishing and hoping that I'll be able to find a man to love me and my child at least half as much as Edward once did.

One more day, that's all I could ask God for. But that would be asking for too much. I had my chance and I blew it, now I am left stuck with the question what if.

I was snapped out of my thoughts when I saw something bronze speed past me. I turned my head into the direction that the speeding bronze thing took off in but seen nothing. So being the paranoid girl I am I pulled out my cell phone and called Charlie.

"Hey dad it's me. Can you do me a favor and check if Edward is in Forks." I asked as soon as he answered the phone.

"I'll do it right now Bells. Why what's wrong?" He asked me his voice filled with concern.

"I think he's here." I whispered staring into the direction that I saw the bronze flash.

"Alright, I'm going to check around and then I'll call you back. I'll speak to you later Bells see ya." And with that Charlie disconnected the call.

I closed my phone and stood up from the swing quickly. If Edward was in Phoenix everything would come out and I didn't want that. So I spun on my heel and made my way out the park.

I sped down the street to my mother's house and ran inside. Well not really ran because of my condition but I did move pretty quickly.

When I got into the house the housekeeper looked at me weirdly.

"Long story don't ask." I said before going up to my room.

Now I know what you may be thinking. I thought Phil and Renee stopped talking to her. And the truth is they did. But once I came to Phoenix I explained everything to them and they apologized. I went on to tell them it was ok because if it was me I wouldn't talk to myself either. And since then they have been hovering over me and the baby. Making sure we had everything we needed and that we were comfortable. After the first month home they began to annoy me.

So you would know my happiness when Mom and Phil had to go to Jacksonville because Phil had tryouts. They've been there for a month now and according to mom they are staying there because Phil got a minor league contract. She told me she'll come home when I'm in my ninth month so she can see the birth of her first grandchild. I laughed and told her ok and then she hung up.

Now I'm here in my old bedroom in Phoenix with no one else with me but the maid who barely speaks.

I let out a little laugh as I kicked off my shoes and laid on my bed. I was about to fall asleep when my cell phone went off. I looked at it and noticed it was Charlie so I flipped it opened and answered it.

"Bells honey I don't want you to panic but Edward isn't in Forks, according to Esme he went to Arizona to check out the colleges." Charlie told me sounding angry. I was about to say something when there was a knock on my door. Thinking it was Angie our housekeeper I said come in.

As soon as the door opened I felt as though the wind was knocked out of me.

"Dad I know where he is?" I said into the phone not once taking my eyes off the doorway.

"Where?" He replied now sounding nervous.

"In my bedroom doorway." I whispered before snapping the phone shut.

A/N: OMG Im soooo sorry for not updating sooner. I've just been busy with other stories and taking care of my family issues. I promise I'll update more. And sorry this is so short. I promise the next one will be longer. Any grammar errors I apologize for them now. I didn't proof read it. PLZ read and Review... some flames are allowed and questions are too.

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Diana