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Chapter 3 - Coming Home
Quite a few months pass and Kwest seems to get more worried each day. I don't understand it. He won't tell me anything.. I finally got up the courage to ask what was going on again. Same answer everytime. 'Nothing.' Of course it's something! If it was nothing then Kwest wouldn't have the attitude he had. If you wanted to call it an attitude. Anyway..I'm doing a little better. I don't cry every night anymore..Nope..Now it's every other night. Hey, I'm getting better, okay? It's almost been a year since he left..when that point reaches, I think I'll get a little better. Besides that..My third album is almost finished. It took this one the longest, but Darius was planning on having my album release party mixed with my 18th birthday. Some plan. My birthday is in a few weeks and I'm kinda scared about what kind of crap Darius has up his sleeve. Knowing him, he might invite Shay and ruin it for me. Okay, he's not that cruel..but I am scared.
"Jude, hun, that is the outfit." Mason says, watching me twirl in a black evening gown. The front hung low and the bottom of the dress slanted. It reached my ankles and then went across to the other side which was a little bit above my ankles. I didn't favor it that much but Mason seemed to love it.
"I don't know, Mason." I fidgeted with the straps and felt his hands on my forearms so I turn around to face him.
"I do. You look great." He says, smiling down at me. I roll my eyes and push his cowboy hat down over his eyes. It's just too fun to mess with him!
"Thanks." I say, laughing as he fixes his hat, proudly.
"Never gonna' get rid of that thing, are ya?" I taunt, walking inside the store's fitting room and start to change back to my normal clothes.
"Hey, I don't tell you how to dress." He defends. I just smile inside the stall and shake my head.
"True." I say. Finally dressed, I walk out with the dress in hand.
"Are you sure?" I ask, unsure of whether or not I should get it.
"If you don't buy it, I will." He says, trying not to laugh. My eyes widen and I can't help but giggle at his crazy words.
"Okay, okay, I'll get it." I say, walking up to the counter and pulling out a couple of twenties from my wallet.
The rest of the day went pretty interesting. I hung out with Mason and we went birthday shopping. I feel comfortable with him..he's one of the few people I feel comfortable around these days. After shopping we stopped at a little cafe to get something to eat.
"So, how are things with you?" He asks, taking a bite out of his burger. I smile at the ketchup that made it's way down his lip and to his chin. I hand him a napkin.
"Pretty good. You?" Things have been pretty good I guess.
"Good, good." He says, smiling. I smile back and nod.
After a long and confusing conversation, A conversation with Mason is always confusing, We pay for our food and decide we better get back to G-major. When we got there I immediately spotted Sadie who was staring down at some sort of magazine. Kwest was next to her, both of them had discomfort written all over their faces.
"Hey guys." I say in a cheerful voice, trying to lighten the mood. Sadie immediately pushes the magazine under a stack of papers as if I couldn't see her with it in the first place. I might be blonde, but come on Sadie.
"Hey Jude." She says, smiling a little too widely. Kwest just looked at me and had a warm smile.
"Sadie, what was that?" I ask, putting my dress on her desk and walking around to look through the papers. She holds her hand out to stop me and looks at me like I'm a little kid and that I just got beaten or something.
"Jude..you don't want to see it." She says, concern dripping from every word. Now I definitely have to see it.
"Saide, come on." I push her aside and take the magazine from under the papers and give the cover a good look.
"Um," I start, my voice quickly going up an octive. I felt as if I couldn't breathe at that moment. The sight before me was just too much..
"He looks happy." I say, trying my hardest to keep what I actually want to say inside. He did look happy..and so did she.
"Jude-"
"What?" I interrupt,"He does look happy..I'm happy for him." I say, trying to convince myself more than Sadie or Kwest. Sadie smiled weakly and nodded, knowing I was breaking down inside. So this is what Kwest was keeping from me? That Quincy was getting married? Now I understand it..
"So um, Kwest..you want to work on my song?" I ask, my voice was quivering, but that I couldn't help. Mason had his hand on my shoulder and was rubbing it, reassuringly. I look over and smile at him quickly before I walk over to studio C.
Once I'm inside and alone I get to actually think this over. Tommy was getting married. He'd only been gone..not even a year and he was getting married? How is that even possible? How can you meet someone that fast? Well, It is Tommy. God, I'm giving him way too much credit.
"Ugh, Quincy..how can you still do this to me?" I say aloud and collapse into a chair, bringing myself towards the desk and cradling my face in my hands.
After a few minutes the door opens and Kwest walks in, startling me. I look up with teary-eyes and try to smile. He must have noticed how much I was hurting, but it was Kwest. He knew when I didn't want to be asked about my feelings. He knew when to back off. And this was one of those times.
"Hey." He says softly, sitting next to me.
"Hey."
"You ready to record?" He aks. I nod and grab my guitar, carrying it into the recording booth. He gives me the nod and I take a deep breath and start strumming.
"Everyday I die a little more from my insanity
Everyday my head falls a little more, lowering my faith
Everyday I drift a little more, unable to see your eyes
And everyday I cry a little more, unwillingly to my surprise.."
After that I kinda tuned myself out, if that makes sense. I can't get my mind off of Tommy..just when I thought I was getting over him..He's moved on. Though he was never really mine..I thought since he asked me out that night he had actually wanted to start something finally. I guess I was wrong.
Weeks crept up quickly after that-I think it's safe to say I'm freaking. I'm turning eighteen..the big one-eight, you know..the age Tommy couldn't wait for? Yeah, that one! Two more days..just two more days.
"Finally turning eighteen." Jamie says, coming up to me with a smirk plastered on his face.
"Zip it, Andrews." I say, pushing his shoulder. He mocked hurt and walked into his office at Patsy's demmand. Yes, Jamie now had his own office. Darius was growing to like Jamie..it was kind of cute, actually. Speaking of the devil..
"Jude! My office. Now." Darius' words were cold and they bit at me. I definitely didn't like his tone..this couldn't be good.
"Have you came up with a song you want to sing at your party yet?" He asked, gesturing for me to take a seat in front of his desk. I do so.
"Yeah, I guess." I've written alot lately..no big deal. Darius was obviously happy with that statement, he was smiling.
"Good." He says, entertwining his hands on his desk. I nod and bite down on my lip, wondering if that's all he wanted. I don't want to ask so I guess I'll just sit here and wait.
I'm sitting here staring at him and he looks like he's thing. What about? The world may never know..I think he wants to say something. He's very hesitant about it, though.
"Look, I'm gonna be straight up with you." He finally says, making me jump slightly at his deep tone. I continue to bite my lip as he says this. Straight up with me? About what?
"What's up, D?" I ask, watching him search for the right words to say.
"I've kept in touch with Tom.." He starts. Funny, I don't flinch at his name anymore.
"Why are you telling me this?" I ask, trying to figure out what he was getting at.
"He's coming home." My throat freezes up and my lip slowly slips from my teeth's grasp. He's coming home? As in..here? G-major?
"When?" I'm surprised Darius could even hear me, but he did. He took a few minutes before answering.
"Tomorrow."
WHAT? He's coming back tomorrow? He just decides to tell me? Why would he do that to me? Wait..cool it Jude. No big deal. He's getting married, remember? It's okay. You'll be fine. It's just Tommy..
"Oh." I say. It's all I can say. Tommy's coming back.
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