With all my heart I would like to extend my thanks to the reviewers The Thunder Kitsune, YouWishYouFeltBetter, Wolfpacfaan, Veronicka, Wolf's Business and JJ Twi1ight, if it weren't for all of you guys I might have been discouraged to continue. I also thank those people who have given me constructive criticism, you really helped me alot but to tell you honestly, I suck at grammar especially on how to use the proper TENSES. This chapter will explain what happened to them after that night and on how they will continue living on with few changes in their personality. Some changes are good, some changes are bad but Everything Change to them. So buckle up and enjoy Chapter 4.
CHAPTER 4
Everything Change
Drip…
Drip…
Thick gray clouds began to form around in clumps above. Small droplets of water leaking out in small quantities, gradually increasing as more gray clouds gathered around blanketing the whole dark sky with its thick dark cottony balls. One person lay motionless in the ground, eyes staring blankly on the clouds above him.
A small rain drop reached his forehead yet he didn't budge. He didn't mind getting soaked by the cold rain. He was tired of fighting what's really about to happen, like how tired he was fighting for everyone's acceptance. Somehow the rain made him think of himself. How similar he was with the rain. How people tend to avoid him like his presence would bring sickness, totally misunderstood without giving him a chance to redeem himself of what he did nothing wrong.
But one person saw him differently or so he thought. They were very close as considering the older male as an older brother he didn't have. An older brother that helped him and protected him from the injustices of the world. But the biggest hypocrite and a liar he has ever seen in his entire life.
For the past painful years he thought he had mastered reading people behind their intentions. He thought about those dark times when people became too creative to even went as far as pretending to care for him only to squash his trust and hurt him in the end. The emotional and physical trauma has been his personal teacher that taught him to have less faith in people, yet he made an exception when Jacob came into his life.
But again, it turned out how weak he was for letting his guard fell down so easily. He was betrayed by his own decisions, in the end he got hurt again. The person he considered his everything was the same person who considered him as nothing but a toy to be played with.
His eyes started to water up but refused to cry anymore. This is his life and for him to continue living on, he really needs to accept his reality. And by refusing to cry is a very significant step ahead in embracing his pitiful life and fate.
Sudden flash of light…
BOOM!
The lightning screeched followed by the heartbreaking boomed of thunder. The harsh wind began to violently make its way, leaving leaves and twig left on its wake. The heavy rain accompanied by the aggressive wind tortured the poor frightened souls of the animals in the forest. Seth was now fully drenched by the rain yet act as if it didn't mind him at all.
He could still hear the loud music coming from the Black estate. After he left, he didn't know where to go so instead settled to rest in the cold forest floor after deciding to walk back his home when the first ray of sunlight hit the land. After all, he was just offered a ride by a person who has his fair share of betrayal.
He thought back on his life before, how he would react to this kind of treatment. His former self would probably cry until he can't cry anymore. How his old self would probably desire to end his own life but end up chickening out in the process. He would considered himself a coward for not able to do the simple act of ending his own life, but his latter self, proved him how wrong he was. If there is anything such, he would considered himself brave and courageous for being able to continue living on up till this day despite the constant curve balls life threw at him. The complete opposite of what his former has in mind.
Now back to present, he took in the sight around him. Total darkness just like the void in his heart. The cold air finally seeped in his skin, numbing several of his five senses. Finally, he felt the weight of the world crushing his consciousness until he succumbed to the darkness that covered him. He closed his eyes until slowly he surrendered himself to the dark slumber.
Inside the manor, an old man was pacing back and forth, frustration written on his face caused by the folds of his skin. He has been waiting patiently for his son to enter his room. He had ordered one of his servants to notify and fetch his son to his room and have a talk with him. It's been nearly an hour and still found himself alone in the room.
"What took h.." Billy was stopped on his own mumbling when the door clicked, informing him of the other person's presence.
Soon a huge frame of a man entered his room, his eyes downcast and a sullen expression written on his face that any typical father would be worried about but not him.
"WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED BACK THERE?!" Billy yelled on top of his lungs He didn't need to sugar coat their conversation so he made his point across. His hair standing in different directions due to him pulling it earlier, a habit out of frustration.
Jacob rose his eyebrow, pretending as if he didn't know something. But he had to do a little bit more if he was going to lie to Billy. Noticing the fuming state of his father, he knew better not to further anger the old man.
Confirming his suspicion earlier, the video camera Paul had must have played live during their little scene with Seth. It also means all the guests have seen it including his father and probably the whole town of La Push. His mind wander back to Seth, about his condition and how he would go on living with the town folks now that they have a legit reason to condemn him. Adding to the list of haters, he also has to deal with the wrath and grudge of his father Billy Black. His heart clenched painfully on the bitter realization.
And he has to go through all of it because of him. He was the main cause of his suffering. And for that he hates himself for it.
"Look dad, it's all just a game. It was just an act. There's nothing more but a stupid bet I made with Paul" he said sounding like a jerk. If there really is one thing he can do now in repent for causing Seth so much pain and suffering, is it would be to ensure his security by convincing Billy not to hunt Seth down.
" Seth I'm sorry for all the pain I have caused you. It was for the better of us. To keep you safe is my top priority. I'd rather see you hurt and in pain than to see you get harm and worse killed by the same blood of mine. If only we were free to love and be accepted by our love ones, things would have end up in a different way, a less painful way" Jacob mentally prayed that somehow, his thoughts would get across to Seth's. He was starting to tear up in front of his father. Such display of affection and weakness to the boy would sell him to his father and give him more reason to hunt Seth down. So he did his best to keep the tears at bay and invisible in his father's scrutiny.
"I don't believe you. There got to be something more of the story than what I've witnessed. The boy's love declaration must have been very intense and he seemed confident for him to blurt it out just like that. As I connect the dots, it would all make sense. You not wanting Bella, frequent absences in the manor and you getting all worked up when I talk about the boy, Seth isn't it? he questioned but nonetheless didn't wait for a reply and continued his findings " If that boy distracts you to do the right thing, might as well deal the problem at once" he said authoritively. Billy is a businessman so he's very keen in observing people's reactions and being the head and owner of several companies, made him an expert in the field of logical reasoning.
Jacob's eyes bulged out comically. He went through all and sacrificed his happiness for Seth's security and it seemed like it wasn't enough now that his father threatened Seth's life? Oh no! he didn't went all this way just so his plans will fail, if either way it ends up losing Seth, he might as well be with Seth's remaining days fulfilling him with love and comradeship.
"Is that how you see things? What if I tell you the sole reason why I don't want Bella anymore is because of how manipulative and controlling you are in my life. You are always meddling between my decisions that are no longer your concerns. I'm a person and I deserve to love, to love freely not forcefully." He stopped momentarily, emotions bubbling up his body.
"I thought you being a father would understand your son's happiness. If only you didn't choke me with your insensitive abrupt decisions, then maybe I would have still loved her right now. But with you always choking the life out of me proved it's impossible. Remember this, I may have proposed Bella to be my fiancée but take note, the true me does not want to be with her. It was truly against my will, but if there's someone who is very hasty to marry Bella then it's you! I hope you feel good knowing the truth huh, to allow me to exist but not really living." At this point, his face was pure red in anger. His father somehow seemed to shut up after his outburst, trying to process what his son just blurted out.
Jacob felt relieved, relieved of two things. One that he finally put some sense on his father and two, he managed to change the topic about his relationship with Seth without his father knowing it. He dodged the bullet once again but nearly got hit. He allowed his emotions to take over and surprised himself on what he did.
" I don't care what you think of me but our plan will continue on. You are going to be with Bella. If you want your precious little Seth safe and away from me, do what I say. For the next two weeks, you and Bella are going to be busy. Take her on multiple dates and be in her side 24/7" his father said in a heartless tone.
Jacob couldn't believe the man in front of him. His change of attitude surprised him. From being a man with few flaws that made him human to a heartless selfish demon in seconds. His father didn't say more and went outside closing the door pretty harshly.
Jacob followed suit but went straight in the hallways to the stairs and finally his large room. Bella was nowhere in sight so he fell back on his bed trying to recollect all that happened to him today. The party was still going on downstairs with only few loud people dancing and chatting. He then heard the sudden drizzling of the rain and felt the cold December air kissed his heated skin coming from the partially closed window.
Immediately, his mind went back to Seth. He suddenly realized that Seth could have been staying outside in the rain without someone giving him a lift back home. He jumped off his bed and ran fast downstairs towards his garage. He quickly wore his jacket and brought his umbrella and car key. He managed to avoid encountering some nosy guests and sprinted towards the garage. In no time, his car roared back to life and went on his way finding Seth.
It's almost forty five minutes and yet he hasn't find Seth. His hands began sweating and shaking not from the cold but to the idea that Seth would have probably been experiencing a severe case of hypothermia. Judging by the temperature, it would be going to snow any moment now. It is probably around zero or one degree Celsius, the pooled floor began to form a thin layer of ice.
That was until he heard a shuddering sound. He followed the sound but the whirling wind made the task difficult. Something caught in his line of vision, a form of a dark figure slumped on the ground with its back on the tree. He immediately took the shivering boy who was unconscious in his car and headed instantly back to Seth's house.
On their way to Seth's house, Jacob managed to removed Seth's wet clothes, he followed what his instincts told him, no malice laced on his intention but only for Seth's well-being. He let Seth wore his jacket and switched the car heater to a maximum.
The boy's skin color before he took him in was dangerously bluish white but now, with the extra warmth provided by his jacket and heater, his face started to turn to pink. The boy was still shaking even in his unconscious state. Jacob stomped the gas pedal doubling the time to reached Seth's house.
When they arrived, Jacob picked the lifeless form of the boy and slowly placed him in the tattered couch. Since Jacob practically lived with Seth, he knew where Seth hid the spare keys of his apartment. He didn't waste any more time and lit the fireplace warm, putting ample amount of logs in the fire to provide the much needed warmth. He pushed the couch closer to the fireplace as near as possible. Minutes later, the boy stopped shivering and soon drifted off in a peaceful slumber.
The man took the chance to admire the boy one last chance before he'll return back to being a jerk again. He sat beside the boy whose head moved towards its lap unintentionally, seeking more warmth. The man sobbed sadly along with the barely contained emotion of love in his heart as he felt helpless but be drawn to caress the young boy's face one last time.
His fingers ran flawlessly in the smooth skin of the boy's face. He let his fingers lay rest on his face, trying to linger more on the softness of his skin he will treasure for the rest of his life. Tears cascaded down his cheeks and fell on his lap. He wiped them with the back of his hand and recomposed himself before gently pushing off the boy's head away from his lap.
"I'm sorry Seth, I truly am. Please know it hurts me more to see you hurt by me but know that my intentions are for your own good. I know you won't be able to forgive me for everything I did and I won't promise that I won't hurt you again. But do know that for what's worth, I truly care for you, I truly enjoyed being with you and…" he paused as he lowered his head and planted a small tender kiss on Seth's forehead "I love you". When he knew he was emotionally a mess, it was his cue to leave. The man took the jacket from Seth when he was sure he was no longer shuddering. He didn't want Seth to know or else get the wrong message. And with that the man disappeared in the shadows as the boy shifted uncomfortably, seeking the comfy warmth that was once with him.
Snow started dropping late in December, covering the whole town in white. The strong wind forcefully opened the apartment door, alarming the boy to wake up from his sleep. He opened his eyes wincing slightly at the bright light shining through his door. The strong wind apparently made its way to the fireplace effectively killing the little flame to smoke and eventually died out.
Seth took noticed of the surroundings. Could it all be just a dream? He thought. He tried to stand up but failing miserably when his leg gave up due to the lack of oxygen, his legs were still asleep. He stretched his arms and back feeling sore but couldn't remember why. He felt thirsty like he hasn't drink water for several days. He licked his lips trying to lubricate it a bit when..
A taste of dried blood caught his attention followed by slight sting on his lower lip.
But why? He stood up and slowly walked towards his bathroom. He turned on the faucet and washed his face. He wiped his face with his towel when he caught sight of his reflection in the mirror.
His eyes red and puffy as well as his nose. His lower lip was busted but what really punched the reality out of him was the bruise in his right cheek. He absentmindedly ran his hand on the affected area and flinched a little when the pain startled him.
It happened…
It was not a dream..
I'm…..I'm alone again…
The wind howled loudly as it entered the door, leaving few masses of snow on the floor. The boy remained glued on the floor, as if frozen in ice. A painful way to start the day, that is, if there is something worth to start the day after all that happened to him last night.
But wait, if last night did happen, he didn't remember walking back home especially how cold and harsh the rain was last night. Could it be? "No" he muttered pretty loudly "That's ridiculous, he's already done with me. It couldn't be"
"Maybe he feels a slight remorse"
"No" he muttered again "After all he has done to me, lying to me for the whole six months. A person like him…No .. A monster like him don't take consideration to other people's feelings but himself. He probably has another modus operandi in his mind and to think of it, he's still not contented in making my life a living hell. Whatever it is, he better find someone else because I'm done being his play thing" he said angrily.
Seth's eyes widened unbelievably. He couldn't believe he could say something as cruel as telling Jacob a monster. To anyone many would agree with him if there were taking Seth's place, yet he refused to be ill natured towards people. Even after all the unfair treatments he was receiving, it was not his nature to condemn. If he was, he's not different from the town people. He probably hates but never went as far as wishing them a slow and painful death they probably deserve.
He ran his hand through his hair. Even after all the sleep he has last night, he was still a little bit tired and sore. If there is one thing that's remarkable about the new Seth is, he believed that tears is a sign of weakness so he put it in to his mind not to cry over some stupid things such as love. He believed that there are more important things to do in his life than sulking his life out over some mundane things like love. For him, true love never exist, only idiots like his past self believe in such childish thing.
Even if he programmed his mind about his new belief, his heart tends to object. His heart shouted for Jacob but his stubborn mind refused to oblige what his heart and soul wants. This new belief brought nothing but a nagging dull pain in his heart.
But he braced the pain and decided to make the day productive, now that the only person he has to be with is himself.
No more Jacob Black
A sudden pang of pain attacked his heart once again at the sad realization. For six months, Jacob has been a part of his daily routines but now that Jacob despised him, he didn't know what to do. But then decided to do some errands in the grocery store and maybe find some part time job to ease his thoughts away from Jacob.
The walk throughout the store was rather hard. He has to walk through thick piles of snow without wearing any winter coat or protective clothes against the harsh winter weather. His winter clothes were too damaged and overused. Besides that, he has been wearing the jacket when he was still 7 years old, and for a 16 years old body, is very large to fit the small sized clothes even if he was skinny to the bones.
So he made a mental note to buy a new jacket and a pair of boots first thing when he finds a part time job this winter. Walking without his boots numbed his toes. So he sprinted against the drizzling snow.
Seth was in the entrance of the store when life decided to hand him lemon once more. Just as he was about to enter, two figures from the inside walked out, unintentionally pushed Seth by the door. Seth lost his balance especially when he tripped on the invisible rock behind him. He landed hard on the soft pillows of snow.
"Oww" he said while swiping away his hair on his eyes and gently shifted so he could soothe the pain away in his rear
Seth didn't wait for the help coming from the person nor the apology that will surely never come, so instead, he automatically dusted off the snowflakes in his pants and stood up until..
"Oh look baby, isn't this the little faggot from last night's party? Seth is it? What an unfortunate circumstance for us to meet here of all places. Uhm not to insult you or something, do you plan to go grocery in here, because for a peasant like you, this store is a little bit high priced for you standards" Bella said, disgust evident in every word.
"Stop it Bella, no need to go hostile on him. After all, he's a nobody now" Jacob said pretending to look at Seth, when in truth he was looking at the rock beside him afraid that when he looks at Seth, his false demeanor will falter.
"You're right honey, this fag is not worth our time. I can't believe I'm breathing the same air with him. It would be very nice for him to do us a favor by leaving this place permanently. I can't stand seeing him every time we accidentally crossed paths with him." She didn't hold back on what she meant. She told him what she really felt with hate in every fiber of her being.
It was expected for the boy to remain quite in this very typical situation. But what he did next shocked everyone including himself
"Oh don't worry. You have no idea how much I love considering that idea. Don't worry I sense that it wouldn't be too soon. And trust me, I also can't even believe I'm sharing the same air with poor rotten souls who doesn't even deserve to walk the earth." And with that Seth turned his back on them. Feeling exhilarated that for somehow he can defend himself. He always kept surprising himself and wondered if he was more capable than what he thought.
On the other hand, Jacob remained still on the ground. Seth's confession made him sick. The thought of him leaving, shook him to the core. He was scared that he won't be able to see his Seth again. He was terrified that when he leaves Seth could see someone and that he'll forget him. He didn't want Seth to leave. As selfish as it sounds, Seth belongs to him and no one can make him happy but him. No one can take him away from him.
Inside the store, the boy glanced at his reflection. He looked at the new person staring back at him. The once helpless boy is gone but replaced with a better one. Everything he thought he was, everything that happened to him, he only smiled.
Everything change
So waddaya think? It's a little bit rushed, that's because school is coming close. But anyways I hope you like it because I have some few ideas on my mind to where this story will continue. Yes, I'm happy cause there have been an increase number of reviewers. Please keep the streak up! I'll be very much happy to read your reviews :)
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