Hey Everyone! Happy Friday! I hope you all had a great week. I am sorry about not updating since Monday as I have a bunch already in the bag for all you wonderful people. I have a ton to do for the semester, so hopefully I can still find the time to write for all you wonderful followers and reviewers! Today you get two updates for me not doing anything this week so here's Alec! :)B
ALEC
Saturday...That's all that went through my mind as I woke up today. No school, no homework, no fucking photography teachers with green eyes and a nice ass. Yes, that was noticed yesterday. Last night was worse, seeing him at Taki's all done up and delicious. I shake my head, those thoughts have to leave right this fucking minute. I get out of bed and pull some sweats up before going down to see what Hodge made from breakfast. I smile when I actually see my mother sitting at the table with our father, eating what appears to be eggs and bacon this morning. I sat down and take a plate before they even notice someone else here though because they're reading the paper.
"Oh, morning Alexander."
I smile around a bite and mentally do a happy dance when they both go back to their reading. It's not that I don't love my parents, I do. I just don't know how to talk to them, they don't really know anything about their kids anymore. I finish as Izzy and Jace make their way to the table and head up to shower. I turn the water on and brush my teeth as it heats up. Once getting in, I make quick work as the dream I have had the last three nights pops back up. "He's your fucking teacher, dammit." I once again scold myself. I wish I knew why my gayness decided to come out right the fuck now and not after graduation.
Not only that, but it had to be with the hottest fucking guy to grace my line of sight and he's my teacher. My luck, I guess. I had watched him leave last night after we sat down, but don't know why. Jace and Izzy had gone out to smoke, but came back a bit weird after that. I'm kind of upset they wouldn't really say anything about it. I get out of my bathroom to see Jace sitting on my bed. "What?"
"Mom says we have to go with them to some thing at the gallery. We gots to dress up and shit, wear slacks."
I close my eyes and sigh, I hated having to do the ritzy crap, Jace did too, though. I close my door and pull the jeans off that I had on and find some black dress pants, pulling out a blue button up to put on with it and a black tie. I wasn't going to wear the blazer and knew mom would have a cow, luckily dad would save me. I get dressed and find my black boots to put on, slipping them into place. I grab my phone and wallet, heading down to the living room.
I see Jace, dressed similar to me and Izzy wearing a white cocktail dress with her hair in a high ponytail. None of us look like we want to go. Jace; however, will sneak off with Clary like always. We only wait about ten minutes and then our parents are down and we're loading up in the family car. Mom and dad try to engage us in talk and I just look out the window. I couldn't really discuss dating because I wasn't.
"Alexander, you should find a nice girl like Jace."
I turn to my mother and sigh. "Sure, mom."
My siblings share a look and Izzy pats my leg in assurance. It's the same conversation. Find a nice girl, have babies, take over the business, who cares what you really want. I roll my eyes as the driver stops at the gallery for us to get out. Clary's mom was showing off her new work and a colleagues as well. I myself was praying I wouldn't see Magnus Bane since Izzy said Mrs. Morgenstern knew him. I walked in with my sister holding onto my arm, acting the parts we have to play for the cameras. We smile and pretend we want to be here, even though we'd rather be kids and hang out like normal kids on a weekend.
We walk around with our parents till we find Clary and immediately flock to her, Simon standing with her. She takes Jace's hand, and since they're in public, he only gets a kiss on the cheek. We talk small talk and Clary answers questions if one of the reporters actually asks anything. We hear the tinkle of the glass and turn to see Clary's parents standing at the front, getting ready to announce the new pieces.
"Thank you everyone for coming. My husband and I are so happy you could all make it and please help yourselves to the lunch provided for you. The new pieces are in the room to the left as well as some from Magnus Bane. Ple…"
I just closed my eyes and drowned out the rest because I wanted to crawl into a hole and die. He was here. I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked over to see my sister trying to be a help. I just smile and nod, telling her I'm alright. I'm far from it actually, I'm fucking gonna puke. We all clap and then the crowds move in all directions. Izzy pulls me to the other room so we can see the new pieces and I'm in awe. Jocelyn and Magnus have done a great job on their presentations. We're walking around and so far he's not around. I know he's somewhere though, I can feel it.
"Alec, look."
Izzy stops me in front of a picture of a man sitting by himself on some steps. It was black and white and looked...lonely. I glanced at all the others and saw the same emotion, loneliness. I hadn't ever seen this emotion in Magnus' pictures before and I didn't like seeing them now, not after meeting him. I let go of my sister and walked around, just looking at the photos, trying to find one that was Magnus Bane, the happy teacher...photographer.
I found one that had a picture of a man, half of his face was covered by a mask you'd wear at a costume ball and just stared at it. The eye that was showing looked familiar and when I got closer I knew why, it was Magnus. He had no make up, just looking at the lens with a very lonely look to him and it hurt me.
"Like them?"
I felt my eyes widen as I felt his breath on my ear. I just nod and he moves to stand next me, not as close as before.
"I made most of these in the last year."
I turned to look at him, but he was looking at the self portrait. I tried to see what I did in the photo, but he masked it perfectly. "What happened?" I had whispered my question. I didn't know if he'd answer, but someplace inside me I wanted to fix these pictures, wanted the happy ones back.
He turned to me for just a moment, and I could see the indecision in his face about the question. I kept my eyes on his and we just stood.
"Alexander, who's this?"
I blinked and we turned to face my mom. I smiled. "Magnus Bane, he took the photos. He's also our know photography teacher."
I see a smile, but it's forced because Magnus is still wearing makeup and glitter, even here.
"Mr. Bane, you are quite the artist."
He smiles. "Thank you Mrs. Lightwood. Your children are some of the best in my class."
"Yes, we are so very proud of our kids. Alexander, come...there's a girl I want you to meet."
I try not to roll my eyes as my mother leads me away. I turn and glance back to see Magnus looking at me and I notice the same look in his eye and realize, it wasn't there a moment ago. I give him a smile and he nods back at me and all I can think of is how much trouble this is going to be come Monday.
"Alexander, this is Mindy."
I try to smile, but the girl doesn't look happy either so that's a relief. "Nice to meet you."
She give a small smile. "You too."
As soon as the mother's leave, we both let out a breath.
"You're gay aren't you?" She asks, leaning in.
I look at her and she shrugs, "Me too, but I'm also the oldest so I have more pressure on me. I know who you are as we go to the same school. I'm two years younger."
"Oh, no wonder they are forcing me on you. I'm guessing you're parents want you to date and I'm respectable."
She nods. "Exactly. What was going on with Mr. Bane?"
I turn my head a bit and notice he's looking at me. I turn back to her. "Nothing, really. Just talking about his pictures."
"Get me a date with Aline Penhallow and I'll be your beard."
My eyes widen at what she was asking. "I don't...I mean...we aren't…"
I really didn't know what to say because I didn't really need one of those, did I? She chuckles and leans in because our parents are looking. "Please...I'm in class with you, Lightwood. The tension's going to mount the longer it takes the two of you. I at least know you have a crush on him."
I take her arm and pull her away till we're in the back. "Just where do you get off? I am not, or will ever be, dating that person. It's not right."
She folded her arms over her chest and looked at me. "When you need me, come find me."
With that she just walked back out to the main room. Me, well...I plopped onto a stool. Me and Magnus? Really? Was it really that transparent? I have only known him for three days, as my teacher no less, and I have some girl I don't know trying to tell me the tension is noticeable. My hands grab my hair and pull as I try not to scream in my frustration. I close my eyes and rock back and forth to try and stop the panic attack I know is slowly creeping up. I begin taking deep breaths in and out, trying to calm down.
"Hey, you alright?"
I barely hear as someone is now cupping my face and my hands aren't in my hair. I open my eyes to see the damn green ones of my teacher, my fucking hot teacher, staring at me. I don't say anything and just stare at him. He's trying to say something, but all I feel are his hands on my skin, sending sensations through my nerves and making me think of things I really shouldn't.
"Alexander….talk to me." he whispers and he so close.
I lick my lips and notice his eyes look down and follow my tongue, causing me to shut my mouth. He looked back at me and I try to blink out the moment, but it's not working. I can feel his thumbs on my cheek, rubbing against them to try to help me. I feel the cold of the rings on his fingers, but all that does is excite me some more. I finally gulp. "What's happening?"
"I don't know." he whispers, not moving his hands.
We don't move, just fucking keep staring and I feel something pulling on me. Is it just me or is he moving toward me? I close my eyes as I feel myself get closer to him and then his mouth. I don't know if I kissed him or he kissed me, but the second I realize our lips our touching, the moment's gone. I pull back fast and my eyes are wide, his just as big I notice. I don't say anything, just run. I run as fast as I can. I go past all the people, my family, and out of the building. I jump in a cab and give the woman my address. When we get there, I hand her a 50, telling her to keep the change. I am surprised I had made it all the way to my room before my freak out erupts.
I kissed Magnus Bane. I kissed the fuck me green eyed teacher. I kissed that sexy man and now he's gonna get fired. I have to see him on Monday, pretend I didn't do anything. It's going to be so damn awkward, as if my life wasn't already a bunch of shit on a spoon. I took the tie off and toe off my shoes, unbuttoning my shirt and then falling on the bed. I hear the front door from a distance and then someone knocking on my door, but I don't answer it. I hear my mom trying to ask if I'm ok, but I ignore her. I close my eyes and bury myself under the blanket, maybe if I pretend I haven't woke up yet then I didn't really do it. If I lay here long enough, maybe I can convince myself it was just a dream. Maybe….oh hell, who was I kidding. The only thing I wanted to do was kiss those delicious lips again and that's how I know my teacher's going to get fired and it's all going to be my fault.
And so Alec's freaking out, who saw that one coming? I hope you liked this one and Magnus is up next. Remember to review or comment below and thank you to each and every one of you as always! :)B
