Kurosaki breathed in and out slowly. He knew that what he had just done wasn't right. It was against the rules, he knew that, and yet...somehow he didn't care. He knew it wasn't likely that he would get caught because it's not like anyone checked up on the patients that frequently and Kizami didn't really speak all that often anyway, so he wouldn't give up Kurosaki. Besides, that is what Kizami wanted, right? To not be forced to take the pills. After all, Kizami did say that.

Kurosaki only wanted was best for Kizami, and if Kizami thought that not taking the pills was best, then it was. Kurosaki would trust Kizami on this. He just wanted his best friend to get better, and if possible, remember him again. So if taking the pill away from him was the way to go, then he would do it.

When they were children, Yuuya had always had a strange fascination with death and it was always focused on animals. He remembers one day the two of them had been playing together when Kizami cut up a hamster and tore its stomach open. Kurosaki had cried at the sight of the bloody animal and asked him to stop. Instead, laughing, Yuuya had forced the animal into Kensuke's face, until Kensuke finally ran away. He didn't come back to play the next day.

But he came the day after and him and Yuuya continued playing like normal. After all, they were best friends.

He remembers his mother telling him to be careful because Kizami was dangerous, but as a child Kensuke didn't think so. Now as an adult, he can see why his mother told him to be careful. Like many other people, his mother knew that there was something wrong with Yuuya, something wrong in the head. It was unfortunate but Kensuke was never able to stay and see what exactly was wrong with him because he had transferred to another school after he and his mother moved. Him and Yuuya met up a few times but after that, they drifted apart.

Kurosaki never expected to meet up with Kizami again in such a fashion. He had recently moved back to their old home and had seen Yuuya's big sister Haruna. She had recognized him but wouldn't speak a word about her little brother when they talked.

"Are they ashamed of you, Kizami? I wonder…" As he spoke, Kurosaki grabbed his coat and waved goodbye to his co-workers. None of them were particularly nice or mean towards him; in fact, none of them really stood out at all. Except for one man. His name was Fukuroi Masato.

Fukuroi was the receptionist, and he and Kurosaki both got off of their shift at the same time. They also lived close to each other, so they would take the bus together and walk for a bit before parting ways.

"Kurosaki! Wait!"

Closing one of the open file cabinets, Fukuroi ran up to Kurosaki while trying to catch his breath. Clearing his throat, he fixed his glasses and began to speak.

"So. How was your rounds today?"

Kurosaki shrugged as they walked out into the chilly air, "Nothing special. Most of the patients were quiet today, so the work was pretty easy."

"Ah, is that so? Seems you had it easy then. Must be fun doing rounds, huh?"

"Yeah," Kurosaki laughed. "Much better than doing boring paperwork behind a desk all day."

"Hey, I answer phone calls too!" Fukuroi protested, laughing along with Kurosaki.

Once they got on the bus, the two grew quiet and were left to their own devices; Fukuroi with a book and Kensuke with his thoughts. The change in Kizami was visible without the pills, mostly because he was a lot more...emotional. Although that isn't the best word to use to describe Kizami, but still. He seemed to be more relaxed, compared to the stiff, silent way he acted when he first arrived. And he wasn't the only one that was different because of the pills.

Another patient that Kensuke sometimes took care of seemed to be throwing away her pills too. Where she was throwing them, he didn't know, but he was sure that she wasn't giving them to her normal nurse; the guy was a complete asshole. Not like he intended to be one, he just was. So he was sure it wasn't her nurse. But somehow she knew the effects of the pills and stopped taking them. She had to have been pretty smart if she could do that.

And maybe she was the one who warned Kizami! Ah, damn it, now what was her name…?

The bus stopped at their stop, so the two of them hopped off. As they walked, Kurosaki spent the whole time trying to remember her name.

"Hey, Fukuroi? How good are you at remembering patient names?"

He watched as his friend fixed his glasses while thinking. "Pretty good, I guess. Is there a particular patient you'd like to know about?"

"Uh, yeah, actually. I remember the room number, but not the name. Her room number is 458."

"458...let's see. I believer her name is Kirisaki. That's right, Kirisaki Tohko."

"Thanks! I couldn't remember her name for the life of me, and I felt bad because she is one of my patients from time to time," Kurosaki lied. Well, he did kind of feel bad so it wasn't a complete lie, but still. He couldn't have Fukuroi finding out about him and Kizami's secret. And it wouldn't do good to for Fukuroi to find out about Kirisaki either.

"Well, I'm taking the day off tomorrow, so I'll see you Friday." Fukuroi said as he turned the corner in the direction of his apartment.

"See you!" Kurosaki kept walking straight until he reached his place. As he turned the key in the door, he thought about how he was going to keep up the whole thing with the pills. He had to keep finding different ways to dispose of them without anyone finding out. Today he kept them in his coat pocket so no one would see and brought them home with him. He took them out of the little baggie and flushed them down his toilet.

So far, he had enough luck with no one finding out. But he knew that he couldn't keep it up forever since luck doesn't always last.

"I can't give up! For Kizami's sake…!"

And maybe a little for his sake, too. After all, it was painful to see your former best friend everyday and not have them remember you. And if Kizami didn't want to see Kensuke or remember him...well, he'd still take that chance.


A/N: So this chapter was rewritten since I lost a lot of work, unfortunately. Including the next chapter of Discord, which saddens me, because it was a good chapter. However since that one can't be replicated, the next chapter has to start from scratch. So expect that by the end of the month or early September. I want to get out two more chapters of this story and one chapter of Discord before school starts. Anyways on to the actual content: not much to say, except I hope I did Fukuroi justice. I mean everyone is going to be a little OOC here, but I still want to try and get a little closer to the real characters. Anyways please review and let me know how this chapter was!