A/N: I have had a couple of requests for JPOV...this is Edward's journal, Jasper will not be making any appearances besides what Edward writes...so we shall see how it goes through his eyes...

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February 20, 2010

After last night, it was going to be awfully hard to come up with some comparable dates, but it was one of the best nights of my life. When I danced with Jasper and held him close, I realized that he is the single most important thing in my life. All the other things meant nothing to me if Jasper wasn't in my arms.

This morning I made breakfast for us once again, and unlike the other morning, this meal was spent in near silence, just looking at one another and savoring the fact that no words were necessary, our eyes communicated everything we needed to convey. Gazing into his eyes was always such a powerful thing for me, and I decided that, following rule 7, they would be the body part I focused on.

It was late when he came home after work, and I had already eaten, but I sat with him while he had his dinner. After he got cleaned up, we climbed into bed - at the same time - and then I told him why I loved his eyes so much.

His eyes were the first thing I noticed on Jasper, they harbored so many emotions behind them. That first day, although you could see the hint of apprehension at being in a new school, his determined confidence shone through. The different shades of blue cycled through his eyes depending on his mood and I had learned them all.

Happiness - When he was truly blissful, and the smile that lit up his face reached his eyes, they were cobalt blue. They were bright and beautiful and I loved to see the tiny lines around them when he let go and laughed. One of my favorite memories of him being happy was when we decided to move in together. I remember him being so nervous until I said yes and, after making sure he'd heard right, he'd swung me around and kissed me until we were breathless, his adorable grin lighting up my world.

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Anger - When Jasper was mad, his eyes narrowed and a brilliant sapphire captivated me and held me prisoner until he was once again at peace. This was a color I didn't see often and I was okay with that. He was so laid-back that it took a lot to make him unhappy, and when he was, I knew I had royally fucked up. Those are memories I don't like to dwell on. Thank goodness for make-up sex.

Fuck...sex...again...dammit!

Sadness - My least favorite color to see was when his eyes were cerulean and I had only seen it twice in our lives. Once, when his beloved grandfather died and the other when we left for separate colleges. I held him the entire night before we left. We'd cried and stayed wrapped in each other's arms, not wanting for a moment to let go. It was the hardest day of my life, leaving him and going to a new place. It was important to us to spend a year apart and grow up without each other. We needed to be able to stand on our own if we were going to be strong and whole together. We didn't last past the first semester before we said "Fuck you" to that plan and both transferred to UT Austin. We felt pathetic, but realized that we were much stronger together than apart.

Lust and Love - When his eyes darkened to a deep, midnight blue...I knew I was loved and desired...this was by far my favorite color. When his eyes darkened, they pierced right through my heart and into my soul. It was when he truly saw me at my most vulnerable and I trusted him with my most precious gift, my love. When he made love to me, he never let me break the spell of intensity that surrounded us. He kept our gazes locked and our passion was even more fevered with every thrust of our hips. He knew me intimately and I loved him with all that I was.

Until tomorrow...


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