Chapter 4
BPOV
So things have been kinda weird lately. Jake has shot up like a foot. He is taller than dad now and he shakes a little when he gets mad. He has muscles, and I mean muscles. I mean Jake has like an eight pack, not that I am checking him out. That would just be gross, he is my brother, but you cant help but notice changes like that. Sam Uley has also been hanging around my house A LOT. Paul stopped coming around two weeks ago, not that I can say I am not upset. I really don't like Paul, he has issues. A few days later Jared stopped coming around too. It was really weird how Jake's friends were just disappearing.
Jake's first day of school he came home like a smiling fool. I have never seen him so happy before. Seth and I were playing in the living room and he nicer to me than he usually is.
"What is going on with you Jake?"
"I met the most beautiful girl today"
"Oh."
"Her name is Lorina and she is just wonderful"
"We have a date at the beach tomorrow. I cant wait"
I was happy for my brother. I knew he sort of went out with Leah, Seth's sister for a little, but she met someone else and broke my brother's heart. I know she is Seth's sister but I am not sure I can ever forgive her for what she did to my brother. He seemed happy though, happier than I have seen him in a long time.
Sue came over to get Seth and mom and dad came home a few minutes later. We sat down to eat dinner and Jake told them about Lorina. The way he described her made her sound like a princess. I couldn't wait to meet her. We finished dinner I took my bath and went to bed.
I woke up the next morning and called Seth to make sure he was awake. My parents started letting me walk to school with Seth. It was really cool. I really had a huge crush on him even though I didn't think he felt the same way. I may only be nine years old but I know I love him, and not like I love Jake. School was pretty decent and Seth and I walked home to do homework and play out back.
Mommy got a job a few weeks ago working part time at the library in Forks. She really seemed to like it. She wasn't home everyday when I got home from school, but Seth and I were old enough to stay home for a few hours. I knew Jake would be late today since he had his date with Lorina, so we did our homework and went out back to play. About 10 minutes later daddy came home and started making dinner.
Seth and I were watching TV when there was a knock at the door. It was too early for Sue to come and get Seth, so I had wondered who it was. My dad answered the door and Chief Swan and Seth's dad Harry walked in. I noticed they looked very sad and wondered if everything was ok.
"Seth, why don't you and Bella go outside to play" Harry said
"Dad, we just came back in"
"Please son, take Bella outside"
I knew something was wrong then. I hated they didn't think I was old enough to know right away. Seth and I went outside, but I left the door cracked so I could hear what was going on. I couldn't believe my ears and wished I wasn't listening.
"Billy, we need to talk" Chief Swan said.
"Ok Charlie. What's up?"
"Billy, sit down" Harry told him
"Ok you guys have me worried. What's going on?"
Just then Sue came barreling through the door with tears in her eyes. What the heck was going on?
"Sue?" My dad questioned. She just stood there.
"Where are the kids Billy?"
"Outback. What is going on. I want to know now." My dad demanded
"Billy, I hate to be the one to do this. I got a call at the station that there had been a car hit by a drunk driver. I got in the patrol car to get to the scene of the accident and that is when I realized what was going on."
"Charlie please. How bad can it be? Just tell me what happened. Sarah should be home any minute and we can all talk this out"
Sue sobbed loudly and ran into the kitchen. Where was my mommy? Seth came up to me and sat with me on the steps as we listened to the men talk.
"Billy, the car that had been hit was Sarah's" Harry said as he put a hand on my dad's shoulder. My mom's car was hit? Is that why they were here to take us to the hospital to see her?
"What hospital is she in Harry. I want to go see her now."
"Billy, I'm sorry. She's gone. The car was hit and went over the cliff and she died on impact.. I don't think she felt anything or saw what was coming."
What? My mother was dead? No, he was lying. Mommy would be walking in the door any minute. I stayed there for a minute while Seth stared at me. I wanted to hear what else they had to say. Someone was lying.
"Charlie you have to be wrong. Sarah will be home in minutes. I just talked to her an hour ago."
"I wish I was Billy, but I saw her body. It was Sarah."
My dad started sobbing and that was all I could take of this crap. Seth tried to grab me, but I ran into the house crying.
"You are a liar, Chief Swan" I cried out. "Why would you lie like that?'
No one moved and just looked at me. Sue came in and grabbed me and tried to take me in the kitchen, but I fought her.
"Tell me why you would lie Harry. Why?"
"Bella, honey sit down. Please." My dad looked up at me.
"No daddy I want to know why they are lying. Mommy is not dead"
"Bella……"
I ran up to my room with Seth close behind me. I slammed the door and fell on the floor and he just held me. Seth always knew what I needed and he held me as I cried.
"Seth, it cant be real. Tell me it's not real"
"Bells, I don't know what to say"
My dad called upstairs and said he would be back in a few minutes and that Sue was downstairs. Seth and I eventually made our way downstairs and I just sat there waiting for daddy to come home. I didn't know at the time that he was going to the morgue to identify mommy's body but when he came back an hour later I could see it on his face as soon as he walked in the door. My mom was gone.
"NO!!!!!" I screamed running into his arms. "Daddy I want mommy."
"I know baby, but mommy is in heaven now with the angels. I'm sorry honey." He held me and we just cried together for what seemed liked hours. I guess I fell asleep on Seth's lap cause when I woke up Sam, Jared, and Paul were all standing in my living room. Jared and Paul were huge. I almost didn't recognize him.
"Where's Jake? Did he come home from his date? I want Jake!"
"He is on his way home now Bella" Paul said but I ignored him. I realized again why we were all here and I started crying again as daddy held his head in his hands. Just then Jake walked in the door.
He looked so happy when he walked in the door. His date with Lorina must have gone well. I hated that his world was about to come crashing down. He looked around the room trying to figure out what was going on.
"Jacob" my dad said. "Sit down son we have to talk"
Jake looked like he had spaced out but I knew he could still hear dad talking. I went over and took his hand as he was just sitting there. I started to cry and he looked at me even more confused.
"Jacob, there was a accident. Your mom was driving home from the library and she was hit by a drunk driver."
"Where is she dad I want to go see her. Is she ok?" I could see him start to shake a little but I just assumed he was spooked by what he was being told.
"No son. She's not. The car went off the cliff and she died on impact."
He looked around at everyone as a tear came down his cheek.
"Are you sure dad? Could it be a mistake?" He was starting to get angry.
"I'm sure. I just came back from identifying her body. I am really sorry son"
He didn't say anything. He just stood there starting to shake more and more violently. Before I knew what was happening Sam was screaming to get him out of the house and Sue grabbed me and Seth and ran into the kitchen. Dad seemed to know what was going on, but wasn't letting on he knew anything. Paul and Sam dragged Jake outside with Jared following close behind. I didn't know what was going on, but I knew it was bad.
I didn't see Jake for two weeks after that, and when I did he was coming in from somewhere looking disheveled. He barely spoke and hung out at Sam's a lot with Paul and Jared. I hated him. How could he leave me after mom died? Daddy was a mess and I spent a lot of time at Sue's. No one seemed to care that I was going through hell. I lost her too. Sue tried to comfort me, but she wasn't the one I wanted comforting from. I wanted my mommy to hold me and she never would again.
The nights I spent at Sue's, Seth would sleep on the floor next to me. I had horrible nightmares and Seth was always there and woke up when I started screaming. For an almost ten year old boy he was mature beyond his years. He always was there for me. He was all I had left and I was grateful for my best friend.
