SORRY!!! I know it's been a while but I've decided to start writing again! :) ...

I actually would have started writing again sooner but i had a major writers block from lack of brain exercise/writing.

I have also started another story that I'm really excited about, so i think it's only fair to warn you that Blue Moon may have to take the back seat for a bit. I will still be updating just not as frequently as is probably wanted.

Again, I'M SO SORRY EVERYONE!!! *Whacks self in the head* Hope you continue to read and i would love reviews.

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... for reviewing! Love yous!!! Hope you will continue to put with my sucky authoring!!! *bows head in shame!*

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Chapter 4

Rosalie's POV

I ran. I didn't know what else to do. What could i do? This was so confusing to me! I had never been in a situation like this before, no one's blood had ever tempted me so much! Trees became Blurs of colour and i still wasn't breathing. I was to far away to smell that intoxicating scent but i dare not breathe anyway.

As i ran i was aware of someone following me. Emmett. He ran slightly behind and directly across from me. I glanced over at him and he smiled tentatively at me. I turned back around. It seemed rude, i know but i really wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone. He knew that, or at least he should after all these years.

It only took a few more seconds to reach my destination. A large boulder sticking out, seemingly randomly, from the forest floor. Over the years this rock had become a bit like my own personal place of zen, a place i could go to in times of internal conflict. To me it symbolized everything that was good and bad with the world.

It was a perfect half sphere popping out, seemingly randomly, from the forest floor. It's smooth exterior was surprising soft, like a granite pillow and on a sunny day when the sun shone through the trees it's surface was like sparkling gold. If ever there was proof of a god this was it.

However, nothing lasts forever. The first time i stumbled across this rock was while i was hunting, shortly after we arrived in Forks for the first time. I clearly remember the very first time i sat on it. An unbelievable sense of peace washed over me. I remember my feet had hung lamely exactly two feet off the ground. Now they were at least an inch closer to the dirt. Eventually this rock would dissipate into nothing and i, unfortunately, would probably still be here when that happens.

When i was about 50 meters away i slowed to a brisk walk. I kept up the pace until i came within a meter of the boulder. I took a tentative step forward and reached my hand out to stroke the side of it. Smooth as ever, I smirked. I climbed slowly on top of it and dangled my feet over the edge like i always did.

I immediately became much calmer. It was like the feeling i got after i made up with Emmett after one of our massive arguments, only more... 'natural'. Almost as if the boulder and i were reconnecting, becoming in tune with one another again.

I turned to find Emmett. He knew better then to disturb me when i was with my rock. My rock... Makes it sound like my lover or something. Geez, i sure was having some weird thoughts today. I chuckled quietly to myself then returned to searching for Emmett.

Sure enough, he was about 30 meters away leaning against a tree, his head turned towards the direction of the house. He had a look of concentration plastered, surprisingly, on his face. I grimaced. I had made him worry. I had made him worry. I had made him worry. I had made him worry!

I turned back around, fighting the unshed tears that were surely about to come. I needed to concentrate. What had i come out here for? Oh, of course. How could i forget!

That little boy. I sighed. Then the anger hit. How could Bella do this to us?! Lie?! Not just me but everyone! Esme(i cringed), Carlisle, Edward. It was a well known fact that i didn't get on very well with Edward some of the time. Ok, most of the time. But he was family, and as much i hated to admit it, even to myself, i love him. I would never forgive her if her lie hurt our family. Ever.

My mind started to wander again and this time i found myself picturing that little boy. Toby. From the little I'd seen of him he was amazing. Maybe it was just my mothering instincts but i really felt the need to be close to him, to be part of his life.

Then there was the issue of my thirst. He was my singer after all. Then again, if Edward could do it; overcome his thirst for the one he loved, i didn't see why i couldn't. I would be all too easy to fall into loving this little boy. I was sure it had already started the moment i had seen him.

It was then, at the realization that if i had any contact with him at all i would start to love him more, that i started to see Edward's point of view. When i had wanted him to leave Bella alone he had claimed that he couldn't. At the time i had thought it ludicrous. Even if he was in love with her, surely he could just walk away. Now i realized how wrong i had been.

I tried to imagine leaving Forks. Leaving Toby, i relished even the thought of his name in my head, here. I couldn't. It was too hard! I'd only seen him once and already i wanted to stay with him, protect him. Always.

I frowned. This didn't make sense! How could i already feel like this?! Sure, he was an adorable little boy. The most adorable I'd ever seen even, but that didn't mean i should already feel this way!

For the next 20 minutes or so i concentrated on accepting that fact. I loved Toby. Already. I repeated it to myself over and over. It soon became my new mantra. It took me a while but i eventually came to accept it, or at least as much as i could. Then my mind turned to darker things.

My thirst. Even just remembering made my throat burst into flames. I swallowed audibly and breathed in the fresh forest smell of pine to help ease the pain. I had to overcome this. If i didn't i wouldn't be able to see him again. I growled softly but still loud enough for Emmett to hear. He turned towards me and gave me a quizzical look. I ignored him. I needed to overcome this. I had to overcome this!

I decided that in the end i had to go back there. I didn't have any other choice. I would ask the others for help. Maybe(they would probably help without being asked anyway). I would have to try to overcome this the only way i knew how. By just getting used to it. It was risky as hell and my stomach churned just thinking about putting him in danger. But, i resolved that if Edward could do it, so could i! So would i! I would meet resistance, i knew that(mainly from Edward) but i was prepared. So much was riding on this i wasn't going to blow it.

After i had prepared myself as much as possible i hopped elegantly from my boulder. I patted it briefly before walking over to Emmett. He watched me as i strolled towards him, the serious look still on his face. I reached out for him when i got within range and kissed him on both cheeks before smiling up at him.

"Let's go fatso!" I chided. He stared at me for a moment before the goofy smile i loved spread across his face.

"Race ya!" He yelled, before he was off. Running as fast as his legs would carry him. I followed. A similar goofy grin plastered on my own face.


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I shall try to keep this short...

Sorry about the length of the chapter but i really didn't want to make it any longer! :[

It was more so you could see things from Rosalie's perspective and get to understand her character a little better. (goofy i know but whatever)

Also, if you have any idea as to what you think should happen let me know... if you've got any ideas let me know! I have about... the next 2 chapters planned then after that my writers block is still in effect!!! (Grr!)

Anyway... I said this was going to be short so... R&R PLEASE!!!! PRETTY PLEASE!!!