Authors note:

Hehehehe 4th chapter!

So I'm very sorry it took a while but here is the 4th chapter! Hope you like it! XD

Last Chapter

"Okay but you will come tomorrow right?" he asks

"Of course, wouldn't miss it" I smile again. He walks me to my truck and opens the door for me, I get in and he shuts the door then he peers through the window.

"Goodbye" he breathes

"Bye Jake" I breathe back

I put the car into gear and the usual bang noise comes out of nowhere and I see Jake jump a bit. Just the sight of him being scared is enough to make me laugh. I pull away still laughing at the sheepish Jake. But on the way home the more the effects of Jake warm fuzziness wears off and I can feel the hole. It is as bad as it has ever been, perhaps this is because I'm feeling the contrast between pain and warmth again it just hurts more. Like a withdrawal from a drug.

I know that tonight is going to be one of the worst nights since Him.

Bella POV

Tonight the nightmare changes, as always I start running through the forest crying and screaming out, but then it changes sunshine appears through the tree's but as quick as it came it disappears leaving the woods darker and more alone than ever. I shake awake in a cold sweat. My eyes open disorientated; the sun shining in through the curtains hit my eyes making me shelter them with my arm. I look at the clock its 7 o'clock. The first good night sleep since he left. I smile, perhaps I'm getting better.

I get out of my sticky covers, pulling off me as they stick to my skin. I have a nice warm shower, get changed brush my hair and walk down to the kitchen. Charlie's in the kitchen trying to get some burnt toast out of the toaster with a fork.

"Blasted toaster!" Charlie yells banging the fork down on the table. I giggle. Charlie turns around to see me and smiles "how'd you sleep kiddo?"

"Actually I had quite a good sleep" I smile "hey dad since it's the last day of the weekend can I go to..."

"To see Jake?" Charlie interrupts with a big grin

"Yeah how'd you know?"

"He heals you" Charlie walks over to me and embraces me in a tight hug "and sure, I'm going fishing do you think you'll be alright"

"'I'll manage" I tease

Charlie leaves after I bake him a proper breakfast. A while after I hear his engine die away realisation hits me, I am alone. The hole in my chest starts to make itself known. I gasp as the pain returns. I grab the keys knowing there is only one person who can take the pain away. Jake, my sun.

I reach the little red house and see Jake bounding out of the garage, laughing I pull up the drive way.

"Hey!" Jake exclaims as he opens the door "You came!" I jump out of the truck.

"Of course I did" He grabs me and pulls me into one of his signature bear hugs. "Jake... Can't... Breathe!"

"Hahaha oh right sorry bells" He put me down laughing "So shall we begin" Holding out his arm.

I take it "we shall!" I say laughing

I sit in the seat of the rabbit watching Jake go under the car on one of those roller thingies. We chat, talk and joke for a while, the entire time the whole is replaced with a fuzzy warm feeling, like the feeling you get when the sun is shining on you.

Jake rolls out from the car and sits up, he wipes away a smear of grease on his forehead. He gets up and leans over me to turn on the radio, but I quickly grab his hand he looks at me quizzically.

"Um... I just want to talk with you" I lie. He raises one eyebrow.

"Bells, what is the real reason?"He asks

I flinch as a flash of pain shoots through the hole. Jake face twists into an emotion I can't quite make out.

"Oh..." he whispers "It's because of him isn't it?"His hand rests on my shoulder, the hole edges once again turn to soft and mushy because of the fuzziness I am getting form Jake. I nod unable to speak.

"How could... you tell?" I whisper

"Bells I notice a lot of things about you" his hand caresses my face and he looks into my eyes, his chocolate brown eyes holding the emotion of which I used to share with soft liquid topaz eyes. I expect a throb of pain but it never comes. I can feel my eyes start to fall but I still look at Jake with a weak smile. In one swift motion he wipes away the fallen tears. Then he tucks away a stray strand of my hair behind my ear. He leans forward I do not stop him, his face is less than an inch away from mine. I can feel his musky breath against my face, I can smell his woodsy aroma, I can feel the heat radiating off of him. His hand cups my cheek and he leans forward his lips press against mine, soft, light, caring. Different to the ones I shared with Edward which were always smooth, cold, and controlled. It felt nice I felt my lips join, moving slowly like a dance between our lips. He pulls away and smiles at me before leaning back in and giving me another sweet and caring kiss. The hole in my chest filled up with heat, that didn't burn but seemed to glow, I finally start to feel whole.

We ended up sitting on the floor a lot closer now talking about Jake and his friends, how Sam had this cult and Sam was sucking everyone in getting them to join. Apparently Sam had been eyeing Jake as if to say your next. I told him that Quill and Embry would never join, especially if it meant not being able to see you. He told me that Embry had already joined and he had cut his hair and started hanging out with Sam. After a while debating on what the cult was about we gave up and it was time for me to go home to Charlie. We left the garage and I got into my truck.

"Hey, maybe we could hang out during the week?" Jake smiles "we could do homework!" He cracks up laughing at his own joke.

"Okay" I say seriously.

"I was kidding!" he pleads

"I'm not" I giggle and poke out my tongue. I close the door and start up the engine, Jake waves as I pull out of the drive way. I turn on the radio and start humming to a song I hear. But half way through the song I freeze. The searing pain I'm used to feeling has vanished in its place a nice warm fuzzy sensation. I laugh and cry at the same time, in the end it comes out as hysterical blubber. I turn up the radio and start singing. I now know that I need Jake he is my sun, He is all the light in my life

Jake POV

After Bella left last time I couldn't wait until tomorrow, I found myself constantly looking at the clock and willing it to go faster. I couldn't sleep as I was too excited to see her which of course made the night seem to drag on. But I managed to doze off around 5, but I didn't get much rest as I woke up at 6 with Billy banging around in his bedroom trying to find his fishing gear. I got up had breakfast and helped Billy into the sheriff's/Charlie's car. Then I went into the garage and decided to make a start on working with the rabbit.

I hear a bang from up the road; I can feel a huge smile cross my face. I jump up dropping the tools and running out of the garage. It's Bella! She came! I feel a huge weight lift form my shoulders. She pulls up laughing, I wonder why?

"Hey!" Jake I yell running up to her truck and opening the door "You came!"I help her out of the truck and I feel my smile get bigger as I hold her.

"Of course I did" she laughs I pull her into my body squeezing her as hard as I can "Jake... Can't... Breathe!" she manages to choke out from my hug.

"Hahaha oh right sorry bells" I put her down, though wishing I could have held onto her for a little while longer "So shall we begin" I hold out my arm in mockery of the posh guys you see on the sitcoms. She wraps her small arm around mine "we shall!" she says. We walk into the garage laughing already having good time. Bella smiles at me and I feel my heart soar, she the turn to get into the rabbit. She hops in to the seat of the rabbit so I grab the trolley and the tools I need from the floor where I dropped them and slide under the car. We talk about our weeks, about school, our friends, our age and I am still currently older than Bella.

After I while we run out of things to talk about, I think why not listen to music. I slide out from underneath the car and sit up I can feel some grease from the car dripping down my forehead so I brush it away. I stand up and lean over Bells to out on the radio but before I can turn it on she grabs my arm. I turn to look at her and she blurts out

"Um... I just want to talk with you" it's a lie of course as she always crinkles her nose slightly when she lies. I raise one eyebrow folding my arms over my broad chest.

"Bells, what is the real reason?"

I see her flinch, oh god I just brought back a bad memory from him. I try to not hurt her because she got so hurt and betrayed I just don't want to cause her any harm.

"Oh..." I whisper "It's because of him isn't it?"His I place my hand on her shoulder trying to comfort her, I hope saying it out loud doesn't hurt her to much, but it needs to be said.

"How could... you tell" she whispers. I control myself so I don't end up smiling. That would look really bad in this situation.

"Bells I notice a lot of things about you" I run my had softly across her cheek, She is so perfect; I wish she could just see how I feel for her, how deeply I care about her. She starts to cry. Oh god. She smiles at me trying to hide the pain. I brush the tears away unable to have them taunt me saying that I made her cry. But then her eyes glimmer and she looks so beautiful, then I notice a hair hanging in front of her face, I tuck it behind her ear. She looks so pretty, so gorgeous, without realising I lean forward, I get closer and closer until I can smell her strawberry shampoo. I cup her cheek and lean forward just that tiny bit more to close the gap between us. And our lips meet I feel warm and fuzzy. Her lips move with mine, in synchronisation. Her lips tasted of cherries so sweet. I pull away to take a look at her face and reaction, She blushes, and I lean in and kiss her one more time.

We sit on the floor with Bella's head resting on my chest, I feel as though I can trust her a lot more now so I tell her my concerns for the cult that ugh... Sam Uley has created, sucking the reserve boys in one by one. I saw Sam and his cult going cliff diving the other day and saw that there was another buy who had joined I had to see who this idiot was then I saw it was Embry. It felt just like a smack in the face, he too just like the other in Sam's posse had cut their long hair short and looked liked they went to the gym too often. Bella comforted me saying things in my ear, it worked I felt a lot better. But then she said she had to go and my heart thumped a bit. We left the garage hand in hand and I helped her into her truck.

"Hey, maybe we could hang out during the week?" I smile as I just had the funniest thought that I just have to share with Bells "we could do homework!" I crack up laughing as I could barely hold it in any longer. She just looks at me dead on.

"Okay" She says seriously.

"I was kidding!" I don't really want to do homework even though I am a little behind.

"I'm not "She giggles and pokes her tongue out. But then she closes the door and starts up the engine, I waves as she pull out of the drive way and I stay standing on the driveway until she is out of sight. I sigh replaying the afternoon event over in my mind.

Could my life get any more perfect? I have the girl of my dreams, a career path, my best friends and a great life what could go wrong?

Little did I know life as I knew it was at an end.

Author's note:

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