Chapter 4 of Let You Down
She sits alone again
And tries her best not to pretend
That all she used to live for
Was the love that wasn't there.
And every time she needs to do the things
That she believes
Will fill the void inside of her
Because he was never there
Stained: Devil
A week went by for Kagome and the group with Inuyasha bitching about how pathetic, hopeless, and useless she was to get lost in a dangerous forest like that.
"Kagome how could you be so stupid as to wander off like that? Are you brainless? Seriously, Kikyo would never have been so stupid as to do that." He ranted on and on like that for a full week not paying attention to the harm those words were causing to her.
At every harsh word the little spark of light Sesshomaru had brought back into her dull eyes dimmed further and further till it was gone. Recoiled back into herself she wallowed in her self loathing worthlessness; she began to look worse with every passing day. No longer deeming herself worthy enough to bathe even, she just followed like a stray dog that wasn't wanted.
Sango flinched at every word she heard thrown at her sister but knew she wasn't able to stop the hanyou from his harsh rant. She had tried unsuccessfully to stop him, all it got her was bruises from fighting with him. Sango grew to hate Inuyasha more than she had ever hated Naraku, at least he brought swift death to her family and erased Kohaku's memories. Pain wasn't inflicted upon those who cared about him with words meant to cut deeper than any knife.
When Sesshomaru returned a week later he was livid with restrained rage at Kagome's worsened condition. He couldn't believe what he saw in her hollow, bottomless, almost black colored lifeless eyes, but he knew who was to blame for this drastic plummet for the worse. Glaring at his foolish brother with barely contained anger he said "What in the hell have you done to her fool? She looks like death! You should be ashamed of yourself just look at what you've done to her." Grabbing Inuyasha tightly around the neck he dug his claws into his flesh and punched him hard in the stomach. "Look into her eyes, see what you have caused in their depths, and know that I am going to travel with you and protect her from your foolish behavior. I will heal the wounds in her soul that are bleeding her life out as we watch and if you try to interfere I will kill your sorry ass."
Inuyasha looked at Kagome and was ashamed of the thoughtless words he had said to her repeatedly. He knew that he shouldn't have said the cruel things that had fled his mouth, he just didn't realize the effect of them till just now. Sango had been right when she tried to stop him from his ranting, but he was to hard headed to listen to anyone. "Fine you can stay, but leave me out of this shit."
He replied pissed that he would have to travel with his damnable brother now.
Sesshomaru went over to Kagome and lifted her up in his arms and grabbed her bag, turning he headed for a nearby spring to get the grime of the road off of her body. He decided that he would bathe her and cater to her needs and whims, to hell with his pride and reputation he had to save his chosen from deaths doorstep. When he reached the spring he set her down and began to unclothe her, he grew angry when she didn't even try to protest or stop him from undressing her. "I'm here now, I won't let anything bad happen to you while I'm around itoshii."
She sat there and let him undress her, she felt she was to worthless to try and stop him. If he wanted to have his way with her then he could, because she was unworthy of love or affection. Inuyasha had proven that time and again to her, so Sesshomaru could do whatever he pleased she no longer cared.
He set her on the edge of the spring and undressed himself so that he wouldn't soak his clothes while bathing her thin form. Getting in the water he lifted her and slid her slowly down into the water in front of him, grabbing some of the strange stuff he'd seen her using once before he began to was the filth out of her onyx locks. Gently he washed her body trying to express his love through caresses, rinsing her he turned her around to face him and said "Kagome, why are you allowing me to do this without a fight?"
"I am too worthless to fight my chosen fate, you may do with me as you see fit. I do not deserve any kindness or love for that matter, it was my fault that Shippo died so I deserve nothing but cruelty." She said blankly.
"Kagome don't think that, you deserve to be loved. It wasn't your fault that the kit died, he was trying to protect the one who protected him for so long. Let me help you itoshii, don't push me away I'm not Inuyasha and I never will be."
"Like I said do whatever you see fit to do to me, I do not care about my unworthy life any longer."
Rage surfaced again at her blatant disregard of her wellbeing but he shoved it aside quickly before it could take control of his actions. Walking up to her he slid his arms around her tiny waist and pulled her to him, lifting her up to face level he looked deeply into her eyes and said "Trust me, let me show you how much I care. It is hard for a demon like me to express feelings Kagome so just trust me please. All you have to do is to ask me to stop if you don't like what I'm doing to you, okay?"
"I can't trust anyone right now, I've been hurt too much because I placed my trust in so many that betrayed me so many times that I no longer trust. Sorry if I disappoint you Sesshomaru, but I can not trust you anytime soon."
Hurt crossed his face before he could hide it as he said "I understand Kagome, let me know when you want me to stop what I am about to do to you." Picking her up he glided through the water over to a flat rock that rose out of the water close to the edge of the spring, setting her down he gave her a gentle but demanding kiss. Leaving her mouth he trailed hot wet kisses to her ear where he began to lick and nibble on the lobe earning a soft moan of pleasure, he left the tortured lobe to do the same to the other lobe.
Licking his way down her neck pausing at the place he would later mark her as his he nipped it and sucked gently on the spot earning a louder moan from her. He slowly kissed and licked across her collarbone and down to the valley between her breasts, pinching and rolling each nipple between his clawed fingers carefully he received small groans that told of the pleasure he was giving her.
She was about to ask him what he meant when she was kissed so sweetly by him, she could feel butterflies when he began to mouth her sensitive ears and down her neck. He was causing feelings she never thought possible, she gasped as his deadly ran seductively across her skin sending bolts of electricity through her body causing her to shiver in pleasure. Any protest she may have had died with the gentle and loving caresses he was giving her.
His hot mouth clamped onto her delicate nipple and began to suckle it carefully. As he continued to pleasure her body a knot began to form and build in tension in her lower abdomen waiting for release. She felt his fingers slid into her moist folds and she bucked against them begging for release as he began to pump them in and out of her tight sheath. Crying out in pleasure as an explosion of sensation wracked her body releasing her fluids into his eagerly waiting mouth.
He licked up all of her juices, finished he stood up straight and looked at her with longing, lust filled eyes. He knew that now was not the time to take her though, she had to get better and accept him and his love before he could take her as his mate. He had to fight his beast into quiet submissiveness, his beast wanted to take her now but as tempting as that was he would not do that just yet. "We should go back now so that you can eat something." Lifting her still trembling body he rinsed all evidence off of her, then got out and dried her off, he finished by dressing her in fresh clothes. Once done with her he took care of himself and picked her up bridal style and carried her back to the waiting fire.
Locking eyes with Inuyasha he said with deadly intent "Find some meat and bring it back to cook for her to eat."
Standing angrily Inuyasha stormed off into the woods to find a rabbit or some other small game for Kagome to eat. Finding a rabbit he skinned and gutted it quickly then headed back to camp with his kill, shoving it into Sesshomaru's face he said "Do not boss me around Sesshomaru, this is my group not yours."
"You haven't taken care of 'your group' therefore it is no longer your group, I am taking over to ensure her wellbeing mutt. So shut that whiny filthy mouth of yours and sit down now before I remove your ability to vocalize anything else in your pathetic life."
Grumbling under his breath he turned and leapt into a nearby tree. Sesshomaru quickly ran a spit through the rabbit and began to cook it, when it was done he had to basically hand feed Kagome because she refused to feed herself. Once he was satisfied that she had eaten enough he offered the rest of the rabbit to the silent slayer, then turned his attention back to his itoshii. He made sure she had plenty of cover for the night before she went to sleep and he settled himself against the base of a tree close to her for the night.
Okay guys I know this wasn't nearly long enough, but I hope you enjoyed it all the same. Please let me know what you thought. Till next chapter then,
Fate
By the way itoshii means beloved in japanese
